Ibogaine List Archives – 2002-04

From: robertbosch@softhome.net
Subject: [ibogaine] Re: ssris
Date: April 30, 2002 at 5:50:18 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

HSLotsof@aol.com writes:
In a message dated 4/25/02 10:52:09 PM, robertbosch@softhome.net writes: << Hello, I understand this is a tense time or something and do not want to be  rude, but if anyone could stop fighting long enough to please answer the  simple question of where I could look up ssri’s and what problem if any I  could expect using ibogaine while on them. Or anyone has any advice I would  appreciate it.  >> Rob, Go to the ibogaine manual <www.ibogaine.desk.nl/manual.html>.  Go to the table of contents right below the introduction and click on the discussion link.  Once in the discussion section scroll down to right after the “exclusion criteria” and you will find some discussion of ssri’s. Howard

Thank you
Rob

From: Carrie Rollins <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibopyrine-chemistry
Date: April 30, 2002 at 5:40:17 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Could someone please translate this into english. Does this mean that something which is 200 times stronger then morphine and  n o t  addictive, is coming? Does this mean you could get really high without getting a habit?
I tried that link it doesn’t load anything.
-carrie
Winfried Gerbracht <Winfried.Gerbracht@t-online.de> wrote:

By the way, it’s a receptor at which an alkaloid, called epibatidine,
reveals (agonistically) its very potent painkilling activity
(200times more potent than morphium).
This principle affords a revolutionary new mechanism of analgesia, since
it excludes most, if not all of the side-effects of opiate-analgesia:

http://www.phc.vcu.edu/feature/epi/index2.html

I’m quite sure that the ibopyrines will fit quite well into this
receptor. So I believe to be straight on the right track. As you know
me, I could endlessly talk about receptor interactions, … it’ll be
boring for the most.

I’ll keep you informed.

Salute,
Winnie
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From: Carrie Rollins <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 30, 2002 at 5:36:12 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

How do you get thrown out of London for being a witch? I thought london was witch friendly 😉
-carrie

Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:

>From: “Nick Sandberg”
>Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>To:
>Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
>Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12
> >
> > What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
> > without fighting one another.
> >
> > Tboz
> >
>
>Hi Tboz,
>
>That not fighting leads to peace is a popular misconception, brought about,
>imo, through people just being too scared to just say what they think, and
>so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good” bandwagon. I’ve done a few
>years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can simply state, with hand
>on
>heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just vent everything they
>want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is the fastest route to
>deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I know who’ve been in
>this kind of scene would back this up. When all you do is avoid conflict
>you
>just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s not remotely
>healthy
>and one of the main reasons people get into using substances in the first
>place.
>
>There’s no need to present some kind of united front on this list. And
>whilst it’s not the Encounter group, it’s kind of hard to maintain a
>peaceful facade when deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
>ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to try and imply he
>has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him and iboga and making
>out like the chaos of his existence is actually some vast, prepared plan,
>or
>a battle against dark forces which threaten his enlightened world crusade.
>Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met him, imho, of
>course.
>
>Come to that, whaddya mean by
>
> > but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
> > lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
> > psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
> > with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.
>
>ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you in contact with
>your
>issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just can project it all
>upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap you want to avoid
>your personal reality.
>
>Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on this list, by the
>way, especially Carl.
>
>Nick
>

Dear Nick
I have met you in London a few times under very foggy cicumstances,and while
under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it to be my entire
being is misleading,to say the least,and to some extent I do have some
chameleon traits making it difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I
guess being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence” agencies for
some thirty years give a man some difficult character traits,throw in a few
assassination attempts and severe physical torture while on LSD-25 (it
remains…) and yes,you might end up with being a man having a battle with
dark forces.But,of course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I
did for cannabis was purely imaginary and the concentration camps were of
my own design…according to Nick the great knower of human character.Walk a
mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…
I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS a plant
hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I
build Saucers&Free Energy devices.I try to take humankind out of the prison
planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And your bittersweet love
takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy armchair perspective
that you enjoy…
But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the real true action comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something like war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more difficult.And not even your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your harsh language is
precisely of that kind that makes the “good folks” burn men like me at the
stakes.Yes,I was indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a
“witch”…
C.

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From: Winfried.Gerbracht@t-online.de (Winfried Gerbracht)
Subject: [ibogaine] ibopyrine-chemistry
Date: April 30, 2002 at 3:51:21 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Nick. Hi ‘ibogainers’ [and ibogaine-sceptics],

I want to inform you briefly about the state of my research-project.
A year ago I got the opportunity to pursue my syntheses of ibopyrines at
the ETH in Switzerland. Due to the moving of the institute I was forced
to interrupt the project halfway down.
Nevertheless, I had been able to synthesize an azepano-acyloin, which is
the direct precursor of the corresponding ibopyrine-indoles (as novel
structural analogs of ibogaine). The synthesis turned out to be even
shorter, easier and more ingenious than expected.

Yesterday I rang up Mr. Borschberg from the ETH and he promised me to
finish the synthesis this summer. Unfortunately there will be no further
chance to perform it myself.

Howard recently posted the abstract of the latest Stan Glick-paper that
focuses the attention on a special (nicotinic) receptor, which was
discovered within the last years, that may play a major role in the
anti-craving mechanism:

>…The data are consistent with the hypothesis that
antagonism at alpha3beta4 receptors is a potential mechanism
to modulate drug seeking behavior. 18-Methoxycoronaridine
apparently has greater selectivity for this site than other
agents and may be the first of a new class of synthetic agents
acting via this novel mechanism to produce a broad spectrum of
anti-addictive activity.<

By the way, it’s a receptor at which an alkaloid, called epibatidine,
reveals (agonistically) its very potent painkilling activity
(200times more potent than morphium).
This principle affords a revolutionary new mechanism of analgesia, since
it excludes most, if not all of the side-effects of opiate-analgesia:

http://www.phc.vcu.edu/feature/epi/index2.html

I’m quite sure that the ibopyrines  will fit quite well into this
receptor. So I believe to be straight on the right track. As you know
me, I could endlessly talk about receptor interactions, … it’ll be
boring for the most.

I’ll keep you informed.

Salute,
Winnie
———–

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 30, 2002 at 3:40:07 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Hattie” <epoptica@freeuk.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 29, 2002 8:46 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

on 4/29/02 6:29 PM, Nick Sandberg at sandberg@onetel.net.uk wrote:

I would entirely disagree with you Nick, sorry. In my experience ibogaine
is
hallucinogenic. I for one had 3D hallucinations, something I have never
had
on any other psychedelic, 3D objects appearing and growing out of the wall
and then disjointing and floating through the room – as real and as solid
as
you or I. As well as shapes and animals I saw 2 people float through the
room followed by a lone figure, all caped but all solid looking. I would
guess that they were there, just in a different dimension/reality existing
side by side with ours. However a psychiatrist would have definately said
I
was hallucinating.

Yes, yes, but I was just talking about The Word “hallucinogen,” which i
figure is basically a misnomer because…….

………………………..it tends to imply, (though
this may not be its strict meaning entymologically), that you “see
something
that isn’t there.” As anyone with a meaningful understanding of the
universe
will hopefully confirm, it is simply not possible to see something that
isn’t there. If you see it, it’s there. Maybe your brain isn’t usually
trained to a certain frequency, maybe your subconscious isn’t usually
opened
up in a way that it currently is, but if you see it, it’s there.

…………meaning people simply don’t have “hallucinations” and there
simply isn’t
such a thing as a “hallucinogenic” – these words are just archaic terms
created by a culture that had trouble dealing with people who don’t see
things the way they did. Things can be different now.

Many people don’t hallucinate on it and have more of a psychoanalytical
journey, emotional discovery etc. However others clearly do. It really
depends on the individual and how visually oriented they are. I know
people
who don’t hallucinate on DMT, just the way their brain chemistry is, but
doesn’t mean DMT isn’t hallucinogenic.
In my experience ibogaine is, and was actually very tryptaminic.

Read
Shulgins short text on ibogaine and you will see that it is classified as
a
tryptamine.

God, I like totally SAID that. I mean please send me more emails telling me
what I just said as though I didn’t say it, it could really help my own
“deconditioning” process. What you’re saying is the drug is
“tryptamin-esque” in that you had an lsd-like experience. Maybe for people
who’ve done more acid and dmt and stuff, that is the case, like the doorways
have already been opened. I know that for me doing mushrooms a month after
ibogaine was about a thousand times more intense than the session i’d done a
month b4. Who knows with these things?

To me at least it was not that disimilar visually from
ayahuasca, LSD or psylocibe. Just thought to call someone a retard for the
use of the word hallucinogen was a bit harsh and also pretty unfounded.
Perhaps this will start a debate though which wouldn’t be a bad thing!

I know, but regular dialogue gets boring. Obeying rigid doctrines of how
people should interract does like nothing to free the soul. I mean, what
if you could receive random hatemail through the net, giving you the
personalized totally obscene abuse for no good reason and with nothing you
could possibly do about it, like ever. It could be like the most liberating
thing
anyone could experience. After a while your whole mid-brain (the personal
subconscious, which is iboga-esque symbolically) would become re-programmed
and vast chains of associated negative thinking loops relating to personal
self-worth uprooted.

With some people, I feel it’s like the jailer knocking on the door saying
“You can go now, actually” and them being too scared to even interpret what
he’s saying.

Nick

From: Brett Calabrese <bcalabrese@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 8:46:41 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am
under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it
is not,
then why do so many participants describe
“tripping” while
using it.

I’ll chime in.

If you call dreams hallucinations, then ibogaine
causes them – I don’t. Ibogaine is unlike (if you can
read brain waves) hallucinations and more like REM
sleep – only you are awake. You see things in dreams,
you see things while on ibogaine (you of course may
not see anything just as you may or may not dream
while you sleep). I personally have never experienced
any other hallucinogen that is even vaguely like
ibogaine. In any case, how does someone know that what
they are “seeing” is real or not. People have quite
accurately reported events in others peoples lives
(like parents) from an ibogaine session. The event was
obviously quite real since it actually happened (3rd
dimensionally speaking of course) but was not known to
the ibonaught till the ibo session. Was the (somehow)
seeing a real event that was not in the 3rd
dimension/time/space that you appear to be in an
hallucination??? I saw my father (twice – he is quite
dead), I don’t consider that an hallucination AND to
make a point he paid a visit to my step mother shortly
after his death. What happened was she was selling the
house and the toilet came lose (again, my dad had
fixed it in the past) and she was worried about how to
fix it. Sometime in the night she heard noises but
thought nothing of it. In the morning the toilet was
VERY FIXED or do you think someone broke in the house
and fixed the toilet or the toilet hallucinated itself
into being fixed or maybe my step-mom hallucinated
herself into knowing how to fix the toiled (which she
had no clue) and fix it in the middle of the night? I
also do something called REIKI and psychic healing.
There is no way to prove it works other than people
happen to hallucinate themselves into healing – and it
works amazingly well. There is absolutely no way it is
the power of suggestion working so what then?

IMO, there is other stuff out there than solid
objects, time and space.

I think it comes down to what you believe, If you are
the type that accepts other possabilities, then maybe
ibogaine does not cause hallucinations. If you are one
of those people who need double blind scientific
explainations and nothing less, well then to you, they
are hallucinations. In fact there is still literature
that calls ibogaine an amphetamine or like cocaine  –
of course nothing could be further from the truth and
I am sure these people who used these terms have not
only no understanding of ibogaine (scientifically or
otherwise) but simply have another agenda – the term
“hallucinations” is a term that feeds their agenda and
IMO is more incorrect than correct. Not that people
don’t see stuff. Ibo is also not dissimilar to deep
meditation (though I can go much deeper with ibo much
more easily – to say the least!), I don’t know anyone
calling meditation hallucinations either – and I DO
SEE stuff while meditating, I can float, many people
can leave their body…

“participants describe “tripping” while…

Maybe it is just their lingo but ibo is one hell of a
TRIP – as in journey. IBO however is similar to
hallucinogens in that STUFF happens (or can happen)
while on its effects that is different than just
getting HIGH.

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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 5:45:25 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

>By ‘true’ I mean that the person taking
it has no ability to determine what is real and what is not.<

I should expand that ‘real’ could perhaps be defined as “apparent
to others present and not on the drug.”

Let me add cocaine to this very short list here, …

Yes, now that you mention it, there are probably numerous drugs
that in sufficient quantity over a long enough time can induce
true hallucinations, including alcohol.

Bill Ross

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 5:07:02 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

By ‘true’ I mean that the person taking
it has no ability to determine what is real and what is not.<

Let me add cocaine to this very short list here, as I can vouch for the fact
that I suffered numerous hallucinations (after serious long term repeated
injecting) where I could not tell they weren’t real. Bugs, cops, voices,
people watching me, all sorts of things that I couldn’t tell if they were
real or not while under the influence.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Bill Ross” <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 29, 2002 4:08 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

I agree with Hattie – any sense in which ibogaine can be
declared not an hallucinogen is too fine a point and depends
on an idiosyncratic definition of the word. It may be
interesting to discuss how it differs from other substances,
but there are plenty of experiences that put ibogaine firmly
in the camp of hallucinogens as the word is ordinarily used.
E.g. from Howard’s site:

The plasma, waxing & waning in intensity, throbbing and
morphing in form, is random. I slowly begin to gain control
and I take on various shapes at will. My outer surface is a
complex network of energy forming an intricate grid of
geometry. Fiery red, green and blue pulses form the vertices,
a psychedelic grid. …

That said, I believe the only ‘true’ hallucinogen I have
heard of is Datura. By ‘true’ I mean that the person taking
it has no ability to determine what is real and what is not.
Contrast the above with this Datura report from Erowid:

I was inside my bathroom for more than half an hour talking
to someone. I did not know who he was but I saw him every
now and again. I did not like seeing him, because he was a
very irritating fellow. Anything I did, he would do; if I
rubbed my cheek, he would do the same in a horibly exact
replica of my actions.This really pissed me off. I was
however too fast for him on certain occasions. This morning
I realised that I had been talking to the mirror.

Bill Ross

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 4:08:55 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I agree with Hattie – any sense in which ibogaine can be
declared not an hallucinogen is too fine a point and depends
on an idiosyncratic definition of the word. It may be
interesting to discuss how it differs from other substances,
but there are plenty of experiences that put ibogaine firmly
in the camp of hallucinogens as the word is ordinarily used.
E.g. from Howard’s site:

The plasma, waxing & waning in intensity, throbbing and
morphing in form, is random. I slowly begin to gain control
and I take on various shapes at will. My outer surface is a
complex network of energy forming an intricate grid of
geometry. Fiery red, green and blue pulses form the vertices,
a psychedelic grid. …

That said, I believe the only ‘true’ hallucinogen I have
heard of is Datura. By ‘true’ I mean that the person taking
it has no ability to determine what is real and what is not.
Contrast the above with this Datura report from Erowid:

I was inside my bathroom for more than half an hour talking
to someone. I did not know who he was but I saw him every
now and again. I did not like seeing him, because he was a
very irritating fellow. Anything I did, he would do; if I
rubbed my cheek, he would do the same in a horibly exact
replica of my actions.This really pissed me off. I was
however too fast for him on certain occasions. This morning
I realised that I had been talking to the mirror.

Bill Ross

From: Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 3:46:26 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

on 4/29/02 6:29 PM, Nick Sandberg at sandberg@onetel.net.uk wrote:

I would entirely disagree with you Nick, sorry. In my experience ibogaine is
hallucinogenic. I for one had 3D hallucinations, something I have never had
on any other psychedelic, 3D objects appearing and growing out of the wall
and then disjointing and floating through the room – as real and as solid as
you or I. As well as shapes and animals I saw 2 people float through the
room followed by a lone figure, all caped but all solid looking. I would
guess that they were there, just in a different dimension/reality existing
side by side with ours. However a psychiatrist would have definately said I
was hallucinating.
Many people don’t hallucinate on it and have more of a psychoanalytical
journey, emotional discovery etc. However others clearly do. It really
depends on the individual and how visually oriented they are. I know people
who don’t hallucinate on DMT, just the way their brain chemistry is, but
doesn’t mean DMT isn’t hallucinogenic.
In my experience ibogaine is, and was actually very tryptaminic. Read
Shulgins short text on ibogaine and you will see that it is classified as a
tryptamine. To me at least it was not that disimilar visually from
ayahuasca, LSD or psylocibe. Just thought to call someone a retard for the
use of the word hallucinogen was a bit harsh and also pretty unfounded.
Perhaps this will start a debate though which wouldn’t be a bad thing!

—– Original Message —–
From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 10:54 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

Mr. Sandberg I don’t know any of you so I won’t delve into
armchair psychology since there are more then enough folks
already doing that. I would only like to mention that I have
never treated anyone here with anything except respect. I
don’t see how calling me a “retard” for alluding to ibogaine
being hallucinogenic, is going to further my understanding.

I call it “deconditioning.” Our drives and instincts are inherited from our
animal past and are commonly considered as being localized in the lower, or
reptilian brain. Their application is primarily mediated by the mid, or
paleo-mammalian, brain and thus deconditioning this area of our
neuroanatomy, by repeated and unwarranted use of stimuli previously assigned
a certain status, thus potentially lowers stress. Any good? No offence
intended. Nick

ps – i could call you a dickhead if you feel it might help explain the
effect better. just let me know.

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.

Thank you,

Tboz

I don’t like the word “hallucinogenic” because it tends to imply, (though
this may not be its strict meaning entymologically), that you “see something
that isn’t there.” As anyone with a meaningful understanding of the universe
will hopefully confirm, it is simply not possible to see something that
isn’t there. If you see it, it’s there. Maybe your brain isn’t usually
trained to a certain frequency, maybe your subconscious isn’t usually opened
up in a way that it currently is, but if you see, it’s there.

In addition, modern explorations into the operation of the psycho-active
tryptamines, has revealed that only those with a grouping on the 3 position
of the indole ring above a certain a certain molecular weight ( I think
hydroxy but could be wrong ) facilitate so-called hallucinogenesis. Ibogaine
has, I think, a methyl on this position which may well help to account for
the considerable difference between taking it and tryptamines like lsd, dmt,
psilocybin, etc. You don’t usually get such a degree of “unitive”
experiences with ibogaine (those where the coherent individuality of sensory
interpretations is marked diminished), the drug tends to hold one in the
astral, the layer of dreams, where all our issues hang out.

any good?

Nick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 29, 2002 at 1:29:40 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 10:54 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

Mr. Sandberg I don’t know any of you so I won’t delve into
armchair psychology since there are more then enough folks
already doing that. I would only like to mention that I have
never treated anyone here with anything except respect. I
don’t see how calling me a “retard” for alluding to ibogaine
being hallucinogenic, is going to further my understanding.

I call it “deconditioning.” Our drives and instincts are inherited from our
animal past and are commonly considered as being localized in the lower, or
reptilian brain. Their application is primarily mediated by the mid, or
paleo-mammalian, brain and thus deconditioning this area of our
neuroanatomy, by repeated and unwarranted use of stimuli previously assigned
a certain status, thus potentially lowers stress. Any good? No offence
intended. Nick

ps – i could call you a dickhead if you feel it might help explain the
effect better. just let me know.

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.

Thank you,

Tboz

I don’t like the word “hallucinogenic” because it tends to imply, (though
this may not be its strict meaning entymologically), that you “see something
that isn’t there.” As anyone with a meaningful understanding of the universe
will hopefully confirm, it is simply not possible to see something that
isn’t there. If you see it, it’s there. Maybe your brain isn’t usually
trained to a certain frequency, maybe your subconscious isn’t usually opened
up in a way that it currently is, but if you see, it’s there.

In addition, modern explorations into the operation of the psycho-active
tryptamines, has revealed that only those with a grouping on the 3 position
of the indole ring above a certain a certain molecular weight ( I think
hydroxy but could be wrong ) facilitate so-called hallucinogenesis. Ibogaine
has, I think, a methyl on this position which may well help to account for
the considerable difference between taking it and tryptamines like lsd, dmt,
psilocybin, etc. You don’t usually get such a degree of “unitive”
experiences with ibogaine (those where the coherent individuality of sensory
interpretations is marked diminished), the drug tends to hold one in the
astral, the layer of dreams, where all our issues hang out.

any good?

Nick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Legal heroin
Date: April 29, 2002 at 7:07:14 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sun, Apr 28, 2002 at 12:55:32AM -0700], [Carla Barnes] wrote:

| Wow this has been interesting reading lately 🙂
|
| Lot of jesus too, jokingly and otherwise.
|
| I have a question which has been brought up be a very hot debate
| tonight between some friends of mine where we were talking about how
| drugs should be legal or prohibition repealed or however you want to
| phrase it. I am for legalising everything but one of my friends brought

Hmmmm…  Okay, between you, Preston, and me [I even], we appear to be
having the same series of conversations…  Although where I always wind
up at a standstill isn’t heroin, but cocaine…  The scenario being
everybody should be allowed to do whatever they want in peace, provided
that you aren’t causing harm to anyone else.  Were prohibition repealed,
this pretty much removes that factor from drug use, period.

With the possible exception of cocaine.  So how do you work that…
Cocaine is okay, so long as you don’t inject it or freebase.  Injecting
and basing is okay, as long as you don’t stay awake for more than 3 days
doing this, thus becoming Fully Fucking Psychotic, walking around tweaking
out, filled with a tapestry of hallucinations, enemies, and invisible
entities which follow you around inside your mind, causing you to act out,
in all sorts of potentially violent ways…?

Dunno…  That’s the one where there don’t appear to be any solid answers,
except looping back to the general concept that everyone is responsible
for their own actions, and if you do crazy shit while tweaking out, oh
well, it has reprecussions and consequences, ‘cuz YOU did it, not the
drugZ.  “No, look, it was a Mysterious Disease!”

| If heroin were legal like most of you seem to think it should be and
| here I’m talking mostly to let’s say Patrick, Preston, Gamma I think,
| some of the people who were junkies. I like talking with all of you and
| think each of you is a special person in different ways.
|
| If heroin were legal, would a single one of you be here right now even
| having this conversation? Would Mindvox exist, would this list exist,
| would I even know ibogaine exists because Patrick writes about it. Or
| would each one of you be sitting in a dark dirty room somewhere filled
| with syringes and staring into space? If you weren’t dead that is.

Laughing, well, like Preston I already live in rooms which are a total
mess, and often lighted with lots of shadows, but lacking actual dirt…
The problem with heroin — for me anyway — is that it just solves so many
of my problems.  One of those being severe manic depression.  I do heroin,
and that “problem” goes away completely.

Which is good, because I feel better; but not so good, because 99% of
everything I have ever accomplished which turned out to be of any lasting
value, or approaching excellence, happens during my extremely manic phases
when I’m bouncing off the walls.

When I’m not manic depressive, I lose a tremendous amount of my drive —
because being real, that’s what it feels like; being driven or possessed,
it’s far beyond “motivated.”

With heroin, I just don’t care anymore.  I can even do work that I
absolutely hate in my normal headspace, and have it make no impression
upon me whatsoever … because really, nothing much does.

So would MindVox be here, and this list…  Quite probably, no…  Because
nothing that pertains to Vox is much of a realistic business plan, it’s
more this emotional thing that all of us hafta do, partially to obtain
closure on it, partially because it’s a Cool Thing, partially because it
NEEDS to be here and exist…

Were I on heroin I wouldn’t have any of these needs or impulses.  I simply
wouldn’t care.  Should I have to…?  <shrug>  It’s hard to say.

Which is another aspect of all this we sometimes talk about.  Had we not
taken everything down in flames in a spiral of self destruction, and had
walked from .dot.bomb holding $30 million each, would I be clean right
now…  Probably not.  It’s quite likely I’d be sitting in my house in
Amsterdam, bangin’ up dope, with a couple of kilos for personal use in my
basement.

Is this right, wrong, good, bad…  I dunno.  These are dualities that I
ultimately don’t believe in.

My life would be different.

That’s about as solid as I can get right now, it’s very early and I’m in
an existential and relativistic frame of mind.  Catch me this afternoon
when I’ve spun back to zealous true believer.

| I know I’m going to be sorry, but this flashed by on one of the Mindvox
| tag lines and I have to ask. What is this??????
|
| pr0n, mp3s, w4r3z: warez.phantom.com
|
| WHAT does that connect to? What’s on it?

You should try to GUESS the PASSWORD!  Prolly, you will attain success,
and find all kinds of things which look strangely familiar.

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 5:28:33 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I
don’t see how calling me a “retard” for alluding to ibogaine
being hallucinogenic, is going to further my understanding.

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.<

Hey Nick,
gotta second this: Why do so many refer to ibogaine/iboga use as
hallucinogenic? Seems like that a pretty good description, although
“hallucinogenic” could imply that the visions or insights or what have you
while on ibogaine  are somehow “not real” by that hallucination appellation.
But simply using that term for lack of a better one for the layman seems
fairly reasonable, though I can’t speak from personal experience.
Peace,
Preston

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From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 5:54 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

Mr. Sandberg I don’t know any of you so I won’t delve into
armchair psychology since there are more then enough folks
already doing that. I would only like to mention that I have
never treated anyone here with anything except respect. I
don’t see how calling me a “retard” for alluding to ibogaine
being hallucinogenic, is going to further my understanding.

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.

Thank you,

Tboz

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12

What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough
problems without fighting one another.

Tboz

Hi Tboz,

That not fighting leads to peace is a popular
misconception, brought about,
imo, through people just being too scared to just say
what they think, and
so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good”
bandwagon. I’ve done a few
years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can
simply state, with hand >on
heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just
vent everything they
want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is
the fastest route to
deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I
know who’ve been in >this kind of scene would back this
up. When all you do is avoid conflict >you
just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s
not remotely >healthy
and one of the main reasons people get into using
substances in the first >place.

There’s no need to present some kind of united front on
this list. And >whilst it’s not the Encounter group,
it’s kind of hard to maintain a >peaceful facade when
deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to
try and imply he
has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him
and iboga and making
out like the chaos of his existence is actually some
vast, prepared plan, >or
a battle against dark forces which threaten his
enlightened world crusade.
Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met
him, imho, of >course.

Come to that, whaddya mean by

but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic
may have a lot to do with it. Some of you are
straight out of psychedelic experiments gone
extremely wrong, which started with science and have
left that far behind a long time ago. >
ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you
in contact with >your
issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just
can project it all
upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap
you want to avoid >your personal reality.

Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on
this list, by the >way, especially Carl.

Nick

Dear Nick
I have met you in London a few times under very foggy
cicumstances,and while
under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it
to be my entire being is misleading,to say the least,and
to some extent I do have some chameleon traits making it
difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I guess
being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence”
agencies for some thirty years give a man some difficult
character traits,throw in a few
assassination attempts and severe physical torture while
on LSD-25 (it remains…) and yes,you might end up with
being a man having a battle with dark forces.But,of
course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I
did  for cannabis was purely imaginary and the
concentration camps were of my own design…according to
Nick the great knower of human character.Walk a
mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…

Human character is just the sheath, Carl. You gotta be
able to drop that stuff. ANYTHING that happens to you [or
me] in life happens because YOU WILL IT. That’s a
fundamental law of personality, a fundamental law of
existence. The universe has total justice, ALWAYS and
forever, here and now. If you can’t see that, it’s because
your mind is not sufficiently open. You can write me more
reams of nonsense to try and avoid the reality of this
statement if you wish. Or you can look at it. You can let
go of who you think you are, or you can stay identified
with the whining voice inside. You’re not your past, Carl.
You need to let go of this shit. There will NEVER be an
excuse big enough for you to carry on the way you are.
Space and time weren’t created for excuse-makers, man. You
can argue away and stay where you are, or you can listen
and move on. Up to you.
Nick

I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS
a plant hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine
isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I build Saucers&Free Energy
devices.I try to take humankind out of the prison
planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And
your bittersweet love
takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy
armchair perspective that you enjoy…
But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the
real true action comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something
like war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more
difficult.And not even your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your
harsh language is precisely of that kind that makes the
“good folks” burn men like me at the stakes.Yes,I was
indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a

“witch”… C. >

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 5:02:59 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/28/02 4:52:56 PM, tboz@subdimension.com writes:

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.

In most of the scientific literature ibogaine is described as an hallucinogen
though its effects are in the opinion of most persons quite distinct from the
common hallucinogens such as lsd, psilocybin or mescaline.

Setting aside ibogaine’s ability to eliminate narcotic withdrawal most
persons value its ability to release repressed memories during a waking
dreamlike state.  This effect may precipitate a state similar to one reached
after years of psychotherapy or analysis.

This is not to say that ibogaine may not cause open eyed hallucinations some
of which can be quite dramatic.

Howard

From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 6:03:46 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t mind all kinds of different views or opinions, but
if the two of you plan on generating another 50 messages of
personal insults, could you please just meet and punch each
other instead?

I know i don’t have to read the messages, I can unsubscribe,
but I enjoy this list and even the stranger messages are
fun. But I really don’t need to read 50 messages each of
which is a minimum of 10 paragraphs long about who is a
witch, who is a alcoholic, who should be burnt at the stake.

I could skip them, but then both of you usually say
something very interesting somewhere in the middle. I’d
prefer to read that something interesting without all the
rest.

Tboz

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the
real true action comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something
like war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more
difficult.And not even your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your
harsh language is precisely of that kind that makes the
“good folks” burn men like me at the stakes.Yes,I was
indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a

“witch”… C. >

Look, Carl, this is too much. I don’t care what you say
about me but claiming to have been thrown out of London
for being a witch?! Like when, which century are we
talking about here? Are you sure it wasn’t just for
alcoholism and vagrancy? And what’s wrong with being burnt
anyway? What the body and mind revile the soul delights
in. Pretty rare for witches to be reincarnated in the
boring old physical, I can assure you. Being burnt alive
clears out so many issues there’s not likely to be enough
charge left in the emotional body for it to come back to
this dense, vibratory level. Burning’s fucking great, man.

Nick

PS – living in a commune in dorset, these days, just 4 the
record. london wasn’t bourgeois enough for me.

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From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 5:54:53 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Mr. Sandberg I don’t know any of you so I won’t delve into
armchair psychology since there are more then enough folks
already doing that. I would only like to mention that I have
never treated anyone here with anything except respect. I
don’t see how calling me a “retard” for alluding to ibogaine
being hallucinogenic, is going to further my understanding.

Could anyone care to enlighten me please? I am under the
impression that ibogaine is a hallucinogen, if it is not,
then why do so many participants describe “tripping” while
using it.

Thank you,

Tboz

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12

What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough
problems without fighting one another.

Tboz

Hi Tboz,

That not fighting leads to peace is a popular
misconception, brought about,
imo, through people just being too scared to just say
what they think, and
so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good”
bandwagon. I’ve done a few
years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can
simply state, with hand >on
heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just
vent everything they
want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is
the fastest route to
deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I
know who’ve been in >this kind of scene would back this
up. When all you do is avoid conflict >you
just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s
not remotely >healthy
and one of the main reasons people get into using
substances in the first >place.

There’s no need to present some kind of united front on
this list. And >whilst it’s not the Encounter group,
it’s kind of hard to maintain a >peaceful facade when
deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to
try and imply he
has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him
and iboga and making
out like the chaos of his existence is actually some
vast, prepared plan, >or
a battle against dark forces which threaten his
enlightened world crusade.
Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met
him, imho, of >course.

Come to that, whaddya mean by

but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic
may have a lot to do with it. Some of you are
straight out of psychedelic experiments gone
extremely wrong, which started with science and have
left that far behind a long time ago. >
ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you
in contact with >your
issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just
can project it all
upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap
you want to avoid >your personal reality.

Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on
this list, by the >way, especially Carl.

Nick

Dear Nick
I have met you in London a few times under very foggy
cicumstances,and while
under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it
to be my entire being is misleading,to say the least,and
to some extent I do have some chameleon traits making it
difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I guess
being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence”
agencies for some thirty years give a man some difficult
character traits,throw in a few
assassination attempts and severe physical torture while
on LSD-25 (it remains…) and yes,you might end up with
being a man having a battle with dark forces.But,of
course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I
did  for cannabis was purely imaginary and the
concentration camps were of my own design…according to
Nick the great knower of human character.Walk a
mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…

Human character is just the sheath, Carl. You gotta be
able to drop that stuff. ANYTHING that happens to you [or
me] in life happens because YOU WILL IT. That’s a
fundamental law of personality, a fundamental law of
existence. The universe has total justice, ALWAYS and
forever, here and now. If you can’t see that, it’s because
your mind is not sufficiently open. You can write me more
reams of nonsense to try and avoid the reality of this
statement if you wish. Or you can look at it. You can let
go of who you think you are, or you can stay identified
with the whining voice inside. You’re not your past, Carl.
You need to let go of this shit. There will NEVER be an
excuse big enough for you to carry on the way you are.
Space and time weren’t created for excuse-makers, man. You
can argue away and stay where you are, or you can listen
and move on. Up to you.
Nick

I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS
a plant hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine
isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I build Saucers&Free Energy
devices.I try to take humankind out of the prison
planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And
your bittersweet love
takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy
armchair perspective that you enjoy…
But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the
real true action comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something
like war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more
difficult.And not even your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your
harsh language is precisely of that kind that makes the
“good folks” burn men like me at the stakes.Yes,I was
indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a

“witch”… C. >

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Legal heroin
Date: April 28, 2002 at 11:37:54 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

If heroin were legal, would a single one of you be here right now even
having this conversation? Would Mindvox exist, would this list exist, would
I even know ibogaine exists because Patrick writes about it. Or would each
one of you be sitting in a dark dirty room somewhere filled with syringes
and staring into space? If you weren’t dead that is.<

Good golly Carla B! If heroin were legal, why in the heck would I, (as I can
only really speak for myself) be sitting in dark dirty rooms somewhere to do
my heroin? He-he, come to think of it, I sit here in a fairly messy, though
not really dirty, room almost all day every day WITHOUT doing heroin. While
doing heroin, I almost NEVER even got to go inside, unless it were a
McDonald’s bathroom, or the one at Tompkin’s Square, or that stairwell on
Ave. A and 2nd St.
Funny though you should mention having a debate with friends last night,
as I too, though the night before, seemed to have had a very similar
conversation with a doctor friend of my girlfriend’s, who could see my
points about removing power from the cartels and all that, but didn’t buy
the “most people if given the time and space grow out of their abuse
patterns.” I got a “come on Preston, do you really believe that?” reply,
which is most funny, as I say the same thing to people promoting the stupid
war. But actually, her main hangup over legalization was cocaine, not even
heroin.
She actually had me at a loss for an answer to the cocaine question,
(imagine that) beyond the “what right does someone have to tell others what
drugs they can/can’t do/we’ve got enough laws on the books to handle real
crimes” stock responce.
But, let’s say heroin were legal. (sigh, what a dream, lol). I hesitate
to use the word “relapse” as that brings up all sorts of horrid 12-step
connotations, but about a year ago, I went out and bought a couple bags, and
wound up flushing them down the toilet without opening them, (after taping
them inside my copy of Alfred McCoy’s “The Politics of Heroin” overnight to
do the next day). So, I tried again about a month later, poking those old
reflexes and buttons trying to see/remind/remember just what the allure was.
I bought a couple more bags, shot half of one sitting in an old spot I used
to shoot in over by the kid’s pool in Tomkin’s Square, then shot the other
half of that bag when I got home, and threw the other one, along with a
second unopened rig, out my window into the unenterable pit between my
building and the one next door. I still, even a year later, will catch
myself trying to see that rig, but I threw it into not only an unenterable
spot, I can’t even see the damn thing where it sits still I assume with a
full, unopened bag of dope taped to it. (Rained on now though, so I’m only
dreaming when looking out the window.)
It wasn’t a hell of a lot of fun, but then, I’d bought street dope. What
was in it? Did I give myself too much? Too little? I threw up, got that
killer headache, (cotton? Dope hangover? Don’t know), didn’t want to do
much. But, were I able to do it every day, at measured doses, I imagine it
would be a lot like, uh, confession time here I suppose- I do get and use a
prescription for dilaudid, (one that really isn’t ENOUGH-LOL, doesn’t THAT
sound familiar? but due to past history, my doctor is hesitant, no, she’s
adamant she won’t prescribe more, prefering I suffer the still present pain
like a man rather than risk….ADDICTION) due to serious pain I live with at
ALL TIMES, resulting from an old car accident that removed lots of insides,
which means….I still use opiates, though THESE ARE LEGAL, I don’t get
wasted, and I pump out work all day every day. I will even on occasion go
out and buy myself a bunch of those dried poppy bulbs, (though I’ll not say
where as I’d hate to have DEA show up at the flower shop to tell them they
can’t sell them anymore), and make myself some poppy/red zinger tea. Don’t
do a lot of staring off into space, unless it while trying to come up with
the next sentence while writing.;-)) I do get some pain relief, I do get a
teeny bit buzzed, (sometimes), I’m not strung out and acting like a skeevy
criminal, and I’m happy.
So, am I evil? Am I a waste of life? Is my thinking and writing any less
valid? Do my thoughts mean less than those of people who only drink alcohol,
or take nicotine, or Prozac for crying out loud? (This exasperation is in no
way directed towards you Carla, you’ve asked a great question-it’s directed
towards the whole prohibition/this drug bad/this drug good mind-set.)
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carla Barnes” <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 3:55 AM
Subject: [ibogaine] Legal heroin

Wow this has been interesting reading lately 🙂

Lot of jesus too, jokingly and otherwise.

I have a question which has been brought up be a very hot debate tonight
between some friends of mine where we were talking about how drugs should be
legal or prohibition repealed or however you want to phrase it. I am for
legalising everything but one of my friends brought up a interesting point,
she’s reading the list too, Hi Sabrina!

If heroin were legal like most of you seem to think it should be and here
I’m talking mostly to let’s say Patrick, Preston, Gamma I think, some of the
people who were junkies. I like talking with all of you and think each of
you is a special person in different ways.

If heroin were legal, would a single one of you be here right now even
having this conversation? Would Mindvox exist, would this list exist, would
I even know ibogaine exists because Patrick writes about it. Or would each
one of you be sitting in a dark dirty room somewhere filled with syringes
and staring into space? If you weren’t dead that is.

It makes me sad to think it would be the last part. Would it? This is
something I’m thinking about not a declaration I’m making. If heroin were
legal would any of you be doing anything except heroin?

I know I’m going to be sorry, but this flashed by on one of the Mindvox
tag lines and I have to ask. What is this??????

pr0n, mp3s, w4r3z: warez.phantom.com

WHAT does that connect to? What’s on it?

Carla B

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 6:39:23 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: Sun, 28 Apr 2002 09:48:20 +0100

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

>
>
>
> >From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
> >Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> >To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
> >Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
> >Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12
> > >
> > > What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
> > > without fighting one another.
> > >
> > > Tboz
> > >
> >
> >Hi Tboz,
> >
> >That not fighting leads to peace is a popular misconception, brought
about,
> >imo, through people just being too scared to just say what they think,
and
> >so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good” bandwagon. I’ve done a
few
> >years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can simply state, with hand
> >on
> >heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just vent everything
they
> >want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is the fastest route
to
> >deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I know who’ve been in
> >this kind of scene would back this up. When all you do is avoid conflict
> >you
> >just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s not remotely
> >healthy
> >and one of the main reasons people get into using substances in the first
> >place.
> >
> >There’s no need to present some kind of united front on this list. And
> >whilst it’s not the Encounter group, it’s kind of hard to maintain a
> >peaceful facade when deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
> >ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to try and imply
he
> >has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him and iboga and
making
> >out like the chaos of his existence is actually some vast, prepared plan,
> >or
> >a battle against dark forces which threaten his enlightened world
crusade.
> >Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met him, imho, of
> >course.
> >
> >Come to that, whaddya mean by
> >
> > > but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
> > > lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
> > > psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
> > > with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.
> >
> >ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you in contact with
> >your
> >issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just can project it
all
> >upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap you want to avoid
> >your personal reality.
> >
> >Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on this list, by the
> >way, especially Carl.
> >
> >Nick
> >
>
> Dear Nick
> I have met you in London a few times under very foggy cicumstances,and
while
> under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
> Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it to be my entire
> being is misleading,to say the least,and to some extent I do have some
> chameleon traits making it difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I
> guess being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence” agencies for
> some thirty years give a man some difficult character traits,throw in a
few
> assassination attempts and severe physical torture while on LSD-25 (it
> remains…) and yes,you might end up with being a man having a battle with
> dark forces.But,of course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I
> did  for cannabis was purely imaginary and the concentration camps were of
> my own design…according to Nick the great knower of human character.Walk
a
> mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…

Human character is just the sheath, Carl. You gotta be able to drop that
stuff. ANYTHING that happens to you [or me] in life happens because YOU WILL
IT. That’s a fundamental law of personality, a fundamental law of existence.
The universe has total justice, ALWAYS and forever, here and now. If you
can’t see that, it’s because your mind is not sufficiently open. You can
write me more reams of nonsense to try and avoid the reality of this
statement if you wish. Or you can look at it. You can let go of who you
think you are, or you can stay identified with the whining voice inside.
You’re not your past, Carl. You need to let go of this shit. There will
NEVER be an excuse big enough for you to carry on the way you are. Space and
time weren’t created for excuse-makers, man. You can argue away and stay
where you are, or you can listen and move on. Up to you.

Nick

Dear Nick
Character is destiny.The universe is not geared towards justice or goodness.Anything can happen.The freedom that you enjoy has been forged by countless generations of courageous individuals who sacrificed their personal comforts because they knew that the decisive action  necessary for the survival of the many was far more important than the survival of their own.That is what is called altruism,and it is the antidote to egotism.And I am not whining and I am not the trembling kind.I stand up for what I do believe and I am prepared to be shot down.Anytime and any day,and I have absolutely nothing left to lose in this world.Therefore I can “afford” to speak the truth regardless of the consequences,and so I am an extremely priviliged man indeed,and my privilege is not based on or dependent upon taking anything away from my neighbour,and whatever I give away only makes me richer and richer every day.
Crusade…sure looks like Jerusalem could use a good crusade, considering the present mess,but the weapons needed would indeed involve something quite otherworldly,or at least something totally unpredictable and completely unexpected…Jesus saves,Moses invests
and Mohammed robs the bank to feed the masses.But who can eat gold?Hungry freaks,daddy…
The best nation is the resignation,and the bloodshed in the Holy Land
could only be annihilated by some mind-blowing event of the Spirit.
And the voice inside…I am not carried away by the affairs of this world to such an extent that I  muffle that little voice inside…
it is not whining,it is whispering to me not to use my escape route,but to stay around until everyone has that option,until everyone is free…
Just for raising a question about how to make Iboga work so that we don’t have disappointed clients I have earned the wrath of some self-styled psychopomps who grew up in the footsteps of the Great…
I’m off this list,but anyone may write to me at my e-mail address…
Blessed be,Carl W.

> I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS a plant
> hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I
> build Saucers&Free Energy devices.I try to take humankind out of the
prison
> planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And your bittersweet
love
> takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy armchair perspective
> that you enjoy…
> But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the real true action
comes
> around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something like
war,something
> that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more difficult.And not even
your
> mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your harsh language is
> precisely of that kind that makes the “good folks” burn men like me at the
> stakes.Yes,I was indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a
> “witch”…
>                                                     C.
>

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From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 5:59:15 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the real true action
comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something like
war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more difficult.And not even
your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your harsh language is
precisely of that kind that makes the “good folks” burn men like me at the
stakes.Yes,I was indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a
“witch”…
C.

Look, Carl, this is too much. I don’t care what you say about me but
claiming to have been thrown out of London for being a witch?! Like when,
which century are we talking about here? Are you sure it wasn’t just for
alcoholism and vagrancy? And what’s wrong with being burnt anyway? What the
body and mind revile the soul delights in. Pretty rare for witches to be
reincarnated in the boring old physical, I can assure you. Being burnt alive
clears out so many issues there’s not likely to be enough charge left in the
emotional body for it to come back to this dense, vibratory level. Burning’s
fucking great, man.

Nick

PS – living in a commune in dorset, these days, just 4 the record. london
wasn’t bourgeois enough for me.

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 4:48:20 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 28, 2002 9:03 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12

What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
without fighting one another.

Tboz

Hi Tboz,

That not fighting leads to peace is a popular misconception, brought
about,
imo, through people just being too scared to just say what they think,
and
so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good” bandwagon. I’ve done a
few
years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can simply state, with hand
on
heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just vent everything
they
want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is the fastest route
to
deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I know who’ve been in
this kind of scene would back this up. When all you do is avoid conflict
you
just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s not remotely
healthy
and one of the main reasons people get into using substances in the first
place.

There’s no need to present some kind of united front on this list. And
whilst it’s not the Encounter group, it’s kind of hard to maintain a
peaceful facade when deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to try and imply
he
has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him and iboga and
making
out like the chaos of his existence is actually some vast, prepared plan,
or
a battle against dark forces which threaten his enlightened world
crusade.
Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met him, imho, of
course.

Come to that, whaddya mean by

but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.

ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you in contact with
your
issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just can project it
all
upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap you want to avoid
your personal reality.

Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on this list, by the
way, especially Carl.

Nick

Dear Nick
I have met you in London a few times under very foggy cicumstances,and
while
under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it to be my entire
being is misleading,to say the least,and to some extent I do have some
chameleon traits making it difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I
guess being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence” agencies for
some thirty years give a man some difficult character traits,throw in a
few
assassination attempts and severe physical torture while on LSD-25 (it
remains…) and yes,you might end up with being a man having a battle with
dark forces.But,of course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I
did  for cannabis was purely imaginary and the concentration camps were of
my own design…according to Nick the great knower of human character.Walk
a
mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…

Human character is just the sheath, Carl. You gotta be able to drop that
stuff. ANYTHING that happens to you [or me] in life happens because YOU WILL
IT. That’s a fundamental law of personality, a fundamental law of existence.
The universe has total justice, ALWAYS and forever, here and now. If you
can’t see that, it’s because your mind is not sufficiently open. You can
write me more reams of nonsense to try and avoid the reality of this
statement if you wish. Or you can look at it. You can let go of who you
think you are, or you can stay identified with the whining voice inside.
You’re not your past, Carl. You need to let go of this shit. There will
NEVER be an excuse big enough for you to carry on the way you are. Space and
time weren’t created for excuse-makers, man. You can argue away and stay
where you are, or you can listen and move on. Up to you.

Nick

I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS a plant
hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I
build Saucers&Free Energy devices.I try to take humankind out of the
prison
planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And your bittersweet
love
takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy armchair perspective
that you enjoy…
But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the real true action
comes
around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something like
war,something
that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more difficult.And not even
your
mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your harsh language is
precisely of that kind that makes the “good folks” burn men like me at the
stakes.Yes,I was indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a
“witch”…
C.

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 28, 2002 at 4:03:28 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: Sat, 27 Apr 2002 13:33:12
>
> What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
> without fighting one another.
>
> Tboz
>

Hi Tboz,

That not fighting leads to peace is a popular misconception, brought about,
imo, through people just being too scared to just say what they think, and
so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good” bandwagon. I’ve done a few
years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can simply state, with hand on
heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just vent everything they
want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is the fastest route to
deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I know who’ve been in
this kind of scene would back this up. When all you do is avoid conflict you
just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s not remotely healthy
and one of the main reasons people get into using substances in the first
place.

There’s no need to present some kind of united front on this list. And
whilst it’s not the Encounter group, it’s kind of hard to maintain a
peaceful facade when deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to try and imply he
has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him and iboga and making
out like the chaos of his existence is actually some vast, prepared plan, or
a battle against dark forces which threaten his enlightened world crusade.
Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met him, imho, of course.

Come to that, whaddya mean by

> but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
> lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
> psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
> with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.

ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you in contact with your
issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just can project it all
upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap you want to avoid
your personal reality.

Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on this list, by the
way, especially Carl.

Nick

Dear Nick
I have met you in London a few times under very foggy cicumstances,and while under the influence of ad lib amounts of scotch whisky.
Surely taking a fragment like that and extrapolating it to be my entire being is misleading,to say the least,and to some extent I do have some chameleon traits making it difficult for anyone to really get to know me.I guess being persecuted by diverse police and “intelligence” agencies for some thirty years give a man some difficult character traits,throw in a few assassination attempts and severe physical torture while on LSD-25 (it remains…) and yes,you might end up with being a man having a battle with dark forces.But,of course,my suffering wasn’t authentic,the prison time I did  for cannabis was purely imaginary and the concentration camps were of my own design…according to Nick the great knower of human character.Walk a mile in my shoes before calling me a motherfucker…
I make Space Medicine for Drug War victims.(And Iboga IS a plant hallucinogen,a plant of the Gods.Maybe Ibogaine isn’t.When YOU eat it.)I build Saucers&Free Energy devices.I try to take humankind out of the prison planet scenario that you describe in your writings.And your bittersweet love takes me down.It’s hip to criticize…from the cozy armchair perspective that you enjoy…
But you don’t have the balls to be on stage when the real true action comes around.Amateur!And peace IS good,but it is not something like war,something that any idiot can bring about.Peace is far more difficult.And not even your mouth is big enough to utter the whole truth.And your harsh language is precisely of that kind that makes the “good folks” burn men like me at the stakes.Yes,I was indeed thrown out of your bourgeois London for being a “witch”…
C.

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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Legal heroin
Date: April 28, 2002 at 3:55:32 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Wow this has been interesting reading lately 🙂
Lot of jesus too, jokingly and otherwise.
I have a question which has been brought up be a very hot debate tonight between some friends of mine where we were talking about how drugs should be legal or prohibition repealed or however you want to phrase it. I am for legalising everything but one of my friends brought up a interesting point, she’s reading the list too, Hi Sabrina!
If heroin were legal like most of you seem to think it should be and here I’m talking mostly to let’s say Patrick, Preston, Gamma I think, some of the people who were junkies. I like talking with all of you and think each of you is a special person in different ways.
If heroin were legal, would a single one of you be here right now even having this conversation? Would Mindvox exist, would this list exist, would I even know ibogaine exists because Patrick writes about it. Or would each one of you be sitting in a dark dirty room somewhere filled with syringes and staring into space? If you weren’t dead that is.
It makes me sad to think it would be the last part. Would it? This is something I’m thinking about not a declaration I’m making. If heroin were legal would any of you be doing anything except heroin?
I know I’m going to be sorry, but this flashed by on one of the Mindvox tag lines and I have to ask. What is this??????
pr0n, mp3s, w4r3z: warez.phantom.com
WHAT does that connect to? What’s on it?
Carla B
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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts READ HERE IF YOU WANT THE REAL ANSWER!
Date: April 28, 2002 at 12:32:03 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

The True and Lasting Answer to Addiction is belief in God/Jehovah/ Yaweh
aka Your Higher Power-and know that Jesus the Christ, died for our
sins-period. <

Glad this was what worked for you, and I thank whatever powers that be that
it wasn’t what worked for me.;-)))
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “lhutcherson” <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 27, 2002 8:45 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts READ HERE IF YOU WANT THE REAL ANSWER!

Re: [ibogaine] FactsI can’t say this enough- The True and Lasting Answer
to Addiction is belief in God/Jehovah/ Yaweh aka Your Higher Power-and know
that Jesus the Christ, died for our sins-period.  Call me crazy, fanatical
or whatever, but I have many, years of experience, pain and struggle,
finally culminating in VICTORY through God the Creator of Us All!

May God Bless and Keep Us All…
Linda

—– Original Message —–
From: Hattie
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Friday, April 26, 2002 7:06 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can
possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients
for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of
those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have
worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things
more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop.
Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more
work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not
miraculous, doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as
men, but works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more
enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and
therapy is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs
sorting through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is
an ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt
with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual
taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the
facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it,
they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I
have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take
a defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please
get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support
your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will
work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts READ HERE IF YOU WANT THE REAL ANSWER!
Date: April 28, 2002 at 2:23:52 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I can’t say this enough- The True and Lasting Answer to Addiction is belief in God/Jehovah/ Yaweh aka Your Higher Power-and know that Jesus the Christ, died for our sins-period.  Call me crazy, fanatical or whatever, but I have many, years of experience, pain and struggle, finally culminating in VICTORY through God the Creator of Us All!

May God Bless and Keep Us All…
Linda

but Ibogaine IS jesus. in bwiti, the body, the blood, the holy grail and the tree of life are one.

dana/cures not wars

From: lhutcherson <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts READ HERE IF YOU WANT THE REAL ANSWER!
Date: April 27, 2002 at 8:45:12 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I can’t say this enough- The True and Lasting Answer to Addiction is belief in God/Jehovah/ Yaweh aka Your Higher Power-and know that Jesus the Christ, died for our sins-period.  Call me crazy, fanatical or whatever, but I have many, years of experience, pain and struggle, finally culminating in VICTORY through God the Creator of Us All!

May God Bless and Keep Us All…
Linda

—– Original Message —–
From: Hattie
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Friday, April 26, 2002 7:06 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous, doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?
Date: April 27, 2002 at 5:25:26 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 27, 2002 at 01:51:03PM +0100], [Nick Sandberg] wrote:

| On this subject, I remember asking Dr Molliver, at the 1999 Ibogaine
| conference, why I was still apparently capable of walking around when I had,
| earlier that year, consumed a large quantity of iboga rootbark in the
| Cameroun, certainly well in xs of the 20mg/k dose he claimed could be
| dangerous. He explained to me, as I recall, that my continued vertical state
| would almost certainly be only temporary and could therefore expect to be in
| a wheelchair pretty soon. 2 and a half years later I’m still upright.
|
| Basically, as far as I can tell, when the US government decides it doesn’t
| like
| a drug very much, ibogaine and E being good examples, but unfortunately
| can’t find any actual harm it does people, they call up Dr
| Molliver – he gives a rat more of the stuff than it could possibly consume
| in
| a decade of constant force feeding and then autopsies it and finds damage
| to……the Purkinje cells. He publishes the results of this
| “scientific enquiry” and the media, mysteriously, jump on this great
| exposition and proclaim on their front pages that there is now “scientific
| proof” that E, or whatever, is harmful.

Yeah, this isn’t exclusive to DrUGz by any means.  Apply exactly the same
methadology to anything you happen to want to get rid of for financial of
political reasons, for instance, that Exact Scenario works just as well
when applied to: cyclamates, saccharin, sweetNlow, whatever NEW THING the
sugar lobby hates –> Okay den, let’s dump roughly 3 metric tons of it
into a rat, and see if it becomes unhappy!  It did!  It did!  It burst
into flames and Died, therefore Conclusively Demonstrating that we Hate
You and Want to Eat Your Life!

I am going to go outside and enjoy the day, I can’t read my mail or answer
anything right now.  This is not my sentence at present.  Love ya all, but
far more importantly, You have a Friend in Jesus.

Conclusive, Fully Documented Proof:

http://www.catholicshopper.com/products/inspirational_sport_statues.html

z00m,

Patrick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?
Date: April 27, 2002 at 8:51:03 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 6:16 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?

Christ.In plain text,some purkinje cells die off after an ibogaine
session,yes,(but they do regenerate in two or three weeks).So where is the
problem?Now I have heard that this whole thing was used by Molliver et al
to
discourage the use of Ibogaine.Scaring people with “brain damage”…where
have I seen that before? In papers on LSD,MDMA,THC etc,etc,ad nauseam.If
things were that bad,Iboga had not been used for millennia in the
Kongo.Breathing exhaust fumes for one day in a crowded city probably kills
off more brain cells than a single exposure to Ibogaine,but those findings
would not get publishing space in prestigous medical journals…
Carl

On this subject, I remember asking Dr Molliver, at the 1999 Ibogaine
conference, why I was still apparently capable of walking around when I had,
earlier that year, consumed a large quantity of iboga rootbark in the
Cameroun, certainly well in xs of the 20mg/k dose he claimed could be
dangerous. He explained to me, as I recall, that my continued vertical state
would almost certainly be only temporary and could therefore expect to be in
a wheelchair pretty soon. 2 and a half years later I’m still upright.

Basically, as far as I can tell, when the US government decides it doesn’t
like
a drug very much, ibogaine and E being good examples, but unfortunately
can’t find any actual harm it does people, they call up Dr
Molliver – he gives a rat more of the stuff than it could possibly consume
in
a decade of constant force feeding and then autopsies it and finds damage
to……the Purkinje cells. He publishes the results of this
“scientific enquiry” and the media, mysteriously, jump on this great
exposition and proclaim on their front pages that there is now “scientific
proof” that E, or whatever, is harmful.

I seem to also remember asking Dr Molliver about the thousands of Bwiti
initiates who annually take stacks of the stuff, many of whom still appear
to be walking around a good deal more vertically than many americans, and
the fact that Dr Mash
had actually autopsied a HUMAN who’d taken ibogaine and could find no
Purkinje cell damage. As I remember, he declined to provide any meaningful
answer.

Long live science.

Nick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 27, 2002 at 8:33:12 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 27, 2002 1:57 AM
Subject: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately

To throw in my 2 cents.

I’ve been reading the ibogaine series on Heroin Times.
Without taking anything else on the net or Mindvox into
account, based solely on what he has written for that
publication, Mr. Kroupa spans the range from childish acting
out “take the 12 steps and stick them up your ass” is not a
exact quote but it’s close. To bordering on brilliant. There
is some great stuff there.

I am here to learn not to drag my personal problems all over
a list using a account which is not very anonymous, so I’ll
just say he made me interested in ibogaine. This list had
very interesting informative material a few weeks ago,
lately there is whatever this all is.

I am more confused in some areas, less in others. What
fascinates me is that there clearly are many of you who are
completely off the board, which any treatment center would
not give any hope to, who are maintaining a clean state.

I do not get the feeling there is any active attempt to dis
inform. As someone who is outside whatever struggles you all
face with each other I would say that I don’t understand any
of what you’re fighting about. I won’t use the word crazy,
but let me say that most of you are not on the same page as
the rest of addiction treatment. I don’t think this is bad,
but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.

I also get the feeling that if all of you were in the same
room together, you’d have one big fist fight. I’m not sure I
can pinpoint why exactly but there is a lot of tension here
between some of you.

What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
without fighting one another.

Tboz

Hi Tboz,

That not fighting leads to peace is a popular misconception, brought about,
imo, through people just being too scared to just say what they think, and
so just jumping on some kind of “peace is good” bandwagon. I’ve done a few
years of therapy type stuff post ibogaine and can simply state, with hand on
heart, that Encounter Therapy, where participants just vent everything they
want on each other – genuine, projected, whatever – is the fastest route to
deep healing and deeper relationships. Most people I know who’ve been in
this kind of scene would back this up. When all you do is avoid conflict you
just store up loads of crap inside, fuck that shit it’s not remotely healthy
and one of the main reasons people get into using substances in the first
place.

There’s no need to present some kind of united front on this list. And
whilst it’s not the Encounter group, it’s kind of hard to maintain a
peaceful facade when deluded motherfuckers like Carl start spouting
ridiculously antagonistic opinions, most of which seem to try and imply he
has the slightest concept of what’s going on with him and iboga and making
out like the chaos of his existence is actually some vast, prepared plan, or
a battle against dark forces which threaten his enlightened world crusade.
Not an opinion shared by anyone who’s met actually met him, imho, of course.

Come to that, whaddya mean by

but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.

ibogaine ISN’T hallucinogenic, retard, it just puts you in contact with your
issues and if you don’t like what it shows you you just can project it all
upon the world and start believing in any kind of crap you want to avoid
your personal reality.

Hope this clears some things up. I do love everyone on this list, by the
way, especially Carl.

Nick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 11:49:55 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

claiming 90-100% success rates, in my opinion/experience, is not very
realistic.

I mean, how is that determined? closely tracking those treated over a 2-3 year
span? I think the short term success “could” be that high, but what happens
after the 3-6 month Ibo grace period wears off? I relapsed 2x after Ibo, does
that still mean I’m a “success case”? only in that I eventually got clean
again?

I think that Ibo exceeds the going success rate of other modalities (10%) but
being that folks are getting treated underground there is no collective data
base regarding that info, and the data being compiled in St. Kitts certainly
isn’t available.

but hey, to borrow a phrase regarding the arguments that have been flying about
this list… take what you need and leave the rest.

-Gamma

— Kerry Dawson <kdawsonais@yahoo.com> wrote:

I don’t want to get into your personal conversations but I think some of you
are being harder on each other then you need to be. You’re a big stranger
then most, but not any more argumentative then any other group of treatment
professionals I’ve ever met. I’ve been to board meetings where some
participants have in a literal sense punched each other out.
Try to talk with 15 treatment experts on methadone maintenance and you’d be
surprised!
The only advice I would draw your attention to are throwing out 90% and 100%
success rates with treatment. I think a few of you pointed that out and then
went off on one another, I don’t remember who is who, because honestly I
don’t understand what you’re fighting about. But claims like that will
instantly make people stop listening to any other claims you’re making.
Considering that some of your claims are already way out there to begin with,
I might think about that if I were you.
Best wishes to all,
Kerry Dawson, AIS, CAP, MAC

Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com> wrote: on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at
sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can
possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients for
two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of
those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have
worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things
more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop.
Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more
work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works
for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or so
they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy is
needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting through.
Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get over
the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the alkaloid/plant is
in conjunction with the inner healer of the person undergoing the potential
transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt with. To believe anything
else is really disempowering for the individual taking the substance. If they
walk out of there saying that you as the facilitator changed their life,
something is very wrong. They changed it, they took the step. I know it is
easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get
over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: The Last Hippie Activist <godschosenprophet@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] FW: All Stoners Must See
Date: April 26, 2002 at 11:07:56 PM EDT
To: tuletters@jacksonville.com, info@schmoo.co.uk, editor@wpgsun.com, Imacomposr@aol.com, sandberg@onetel.net.uk, ibogaine@mindvox.com, hunneberg@telia.com, sara119@xs4all.nl, relsimoes@hotmail.com, HSLotsof@aol.com, lesneron@ntl.sympatico.ca, donnaclee@sprynet.com, natyjuan@hotmail.com, sinchaur@sede.unr.edu.ar, cosmocamello@vivecondrogas.com, ricsala@avantel.net, foigras2002@yahoo.com.br, carl@carl-olsen.com, MMM@virtual14.invite.net
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

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From: Kerry Dawson <kdawsonais@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 10:01:22 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t want to get into your personal conversations but I think some of you are being harder on each other then you need to be. You’re a big stranger then most, but not any more argumentative then any other group of treatment professionals I’ve ever met. I’ve been to board meetings where some participants have in a literal sense punched each other out.
Try to talk with 15 treatment experts on methadone maintenance and you’d be surprised!
The only advice I would draw your attention to are throwing out 90% and 100% success rates with treatment. I think a few of you pointed that out and then went off on one another, I don’t remember who is who, because honestly I don’t understand what you’re fighting about. But claims like that will instantly make people stop listening to any other claims you’re making. Considering that some of your claims are already way out there to begin with, I might think about that if I were you.
Best wishes to all,
Kerry Dawson, AIS, CAP, MAC
Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com> wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous, doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] what’s been on this list lately
Date: April 26, 2002 at 8:57:23 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

To throw in my 2 cents.

I’ve been reading the ibogaine series on Heroin Times.
Without taking anything else on the net or Mindvox into
account, based solely on what he has written for that
publication, Mr. Kroupa spans the range from childish acting
out “take the 12 steps and stick them up your ass” is not a
exact quote but it’s close. To bordering on brilliant. There
is some great stuff there.

I am here to learn not to drag my personal problems all over
a list using a account which is not very anonymous, so I’ll
just say he made me interested in ibogaine. This list had
very interesting informative material a few weeks ago,
lately there is whatever this all is.

I am more confused in some areas, less in others. What
fascinates me is that there clearly are many of you who are
completely off the board, which any treatment center would
not give any hope to, who are maintaining a clean state.

I do not get the feeling there is any active attempt to dis
inform. As someone who is outside whatever struggles you all
face with each other I would say that I don’t understand any
of what you’re fighting about. I won’t use the word crazy,
but let me say that most of you are not on the same page as
the rest of addiction treatment. I don’t think this is bad,
but I do think that ibogaine being hallucinogenic may have a
lot to do with it. Some of you are straight out of
psychedelic experiments gone extremely wrong, which started
with science and have left that far behind a long time ago.

I also get the feeling that if all of you were in the same
room together, you’d have one big fist fight. I’m not sure I
can pinpoint why exactly but there is a lot of tension here
between some of you.

What’s the problem? It looks like you have enough problems
without fighting one another.

Tboz

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From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Vengeance ? that’s human
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:44:05 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Cc: “Sara Glatt” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: sara119
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Friday, April 26, 2002 10:46 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] Vengeance ? that’s human

Yeah, right! I mean, totally! And if anyone disagrees then the Vengeance of the L-rd will descend upon them.

Nick

I do respect everyone religion expression ,and can’t agree with Vengeance of the Lord, because I’m Jewish not christian, Our God
is about Chessed ,mercy and kabbalistic healing ,( healing in different levels which are in the tree of life )and not about Vengeance ,
which is only in the level of schinah or yesod , which is the lawest
level of being , Goes together with greed  and egotism .

Hi Sara,

I know this ain’t the Kabbalah list, but there’s something I feel like you need to SEE*

Ateh Malkuth,
ve GEBURAH,
ve Gedulah [Chessed],
Le Olahim,
AMN

Sure you know how it goes! Mercy without Severity unbalances the Tree of Life [for the healing of all nations]. Maybe I need more Chessed and you more Geburah! . love to you. Nick

* sight = raiyah = 216 = Geburah = sometimes junkies need someone to be tough on them too!

at least he is alive and singing taking care of himself and doesn’t talk shit,

Sara

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 26, 2002 at 1:31:21 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

— preston peet <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com> wrote:
Ahhh, good point, I don’t know whether he did or not, but regardless, he
still did heroin one way or the other. And it’s a drag that he had to hide,
and die in a room alone and rot for 2 weeks because his apparent drug of
choice was unseemly to some.

amen.

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 1:05:18 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Marko
Sara is using Ibogaine hydrochloride as well as the extract,and has been doing so all the time.I have no axe to grind with you or anyone else.Some came to her after visiting other therapeutical settings that were disappointing to them,and her setting just happened to be more benign to them.So that is why I poised the question in the first place.
Are you trying to put clothes on the devil?Some come to her,and some come to you.So what?Isn’t the world big enough?Do you want a shootout?Or are you simply too proud to learn from others how to improve the scene?No one gains anything from disappointed clients,so how do we avoid that?THAT*S WHY I RAISED THE QUESTION AND FOR NO OTHER REASON.
Maybe it IS because she has a marijuana patch in her back yard…
(or maybe it was the roses)Agreed.This is ridiculous.You have stared yourself blind upon one single sentence in a flood of information.
I for one know that I am only a conduit,a messenger,a catalyst.And I am not real.The tripper is not real.But the trip is real&indestructible.
It remains.Forever.As well as every single word you throw out there…
Exposed to the entire universe for all eternity…
there is no screen. C.

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 17:36:09 +0200

I agree: rubbish (meaning your answer).

And I’m returning to your statement: “Why is it that Sara in the
Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so
successful?” Is this not glorifying of your extract Sara is using, and her
method? Without any proof?

I’m over with this debate, it’s just waste of time.

Period.

Marko

At 17:13 26.4.2002, you wrote:
Rubbish.I never glorified anyone or anything whatsoever.I wanted an open
debate about the way to handle the stuff and how to achieve optimal
results.And we all learn from each other.That we have found the extract to
work better than HCL when it comes to Methadone withdrawals is based on
empirical scientific direct experience.Personally I don’t care who pushes
what as I don’t sell anything or get anything from what anyone does with
the stuff I made with my own hands.I am retired.I took what I had and gave
it to those who did not have,and most people still consider me a complete
fool for doing so.The world is full of suffering and sick people and there
are not enough therapists working with these things .I just don’t like
overpriced amateur assembly-line clinical approaches to drug problems.Or
to any problems for that matter.My work with the Iboga alkaloids was not
originally related to the smack problem at all.It was one of the
psychoactive plants that landed on my desk in 1981 when I worked at the
funny drugs department.It took a lot of self-experimentation and
bioassaying that would scare the living piss out of most modern humans
before we came up with something manageable and foolproof enough to give
to people in the “outside world”
and the present extract IS foolproof.Period.No lab will ever be capable of
analyzing or replicating it either.That is how we protected ourselves from
copycats.My mistake was giving it out for distribution among those whose
only incentive is profit,but it did not harm anyone anyway and no one has
died from it,despite Nick Sandberg’s earlier claims about a case in London
that has been ironed out once and for all.
When it comes to Ibogaine,one of the alkaloids found in the Iboga plant,
and what has been done with it I find it disgusting the way Howard Lotsof
has been handled and how his discoveries and patents have been twisted out
of his hands and if someone deserves to get some money out of this entire
trip it is Howard.I think that in all human endeavour there is a sharp
demarcation line between the professional and the commercial way of doing
things and that it is high time to question the bogus authorities if any
improvement is to be made in the quality of life as we know it.Nearly all
innovations and improvements threaten some business-as-usual interests and
the history of the world is full of tragical episodes about good-hearted
pioneers starving to death in the face of the well-to-do same-as-usual
guardians of redundancy.
But fortune favours the brave,and we who live on the brink of total
annihilation have nothing to lose “and when we stop and think about it,
there is nothing that we need in a world of persecution that is burning in
its greed”.
onward through the fog,Carl

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 15:23:42 +0200

Hi Hattie,

it’s not about who is more successful; it was about why Carl glorifies Sara
and his product, and discartes everyone else. But that is solved – I
believe ;-))

Marko

At 13:06 26.4.2002, you wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us
can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs
on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear
the results of those that have kept a record and communication with
everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see
things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again
full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that
needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but
works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more
enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy
is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting
through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is
dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the
individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you
as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They
changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking
otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please
get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a
treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work
for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say
who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,
But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 12:16:26 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

… I wanted an open
debate about the way to handle the stuff and how to achieve optimal
results.And we all learn from each other.That we have found the
extract to work better than HCL when it comes to Methadone withdrawals

It took a lot of self-experimentation and bioassaying that would
scare the living piss out of most modern humans before we came up with
something manageable and foolproof enough to give to people in the
“outside world” and the present extract IS foolproof.Period.No lab
will ever be capable of analyzing or replicating it either.
That is how we protected ourselves from copycats.

Carl, why not share the preparation method? Based on what you say,
it would be a shame for the supply to end with that one batch, and
if you’re retired, others would have to make it. For that matter, I
bet there’s a lot of bioextraction wisdom in general that you could
pass on.

Bill Ross

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 12:03:05 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

sorry, I hit “send” button a bit too soon. I agree with the part of your e-mail concerning Howard. But do you know why is he left empty-handed? As I understand, he run out of money to protect his patents in court agains Mash.

Did YOU help him then? Any way, not neccessary with money?

PERIOD.

Marko

At 17:36 26.4.2002, you wrote:
I agree: rubbish (meaning your answer).

And I’m returning to your statement: “Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so successful?” Is this not glorifying of your extract Sara is using, and her method? Without any proof?

I’m over with this debate, it’s just waste of time.

Period.

Marko

At 17:13 26.4.2002, you wrote:
Rubbish.I never glorified anyone or anything whatsoever.I wanted an open debate about the way to handle the stuff and how to achieve optimal results.And we all learn from each other.That we have found the extract to work better than HCL when it comes to Methadone withdrawals is based on empirical scientific direct experience.Personally I don’t care who pushes what as I don’t sell anything or get anything from what anyone does with the stuff I made with my own hands.I am retired.I took what I had and gave it to those who did not have,and most people still consider me a complete fool for doing so.The world is full of suffering and sick people and there are not enough therapists working with these things .I just don’t like overpriced amateur assembly-line clinical approaches to drug problems.Or to any problems for that matter.My work with the Iboga alkaloids was not originally related to the smack problem at all.It was one of the psychoactive plants that landed on my desk in 1981 when I worked at the funny drugs department.It took a lot of self-experimentation and bioassaying that would scare the living piss out of most modern humans before we came up with something manageable and foolproof enough to give to people in the “outside world”
and the present extract IS foolproof.Period.No lab will ever be capable of analyzing or replicating it either.That is how we protected ourselves from copycats.My mistake was giving it out for distribution among those whose only incentive is profit,but it did not harm anyone anyway and no one has died from it,despite Nick Sandberg’s earlier claims about a case in London that has been ironed out once and for all.
When it comes to Ibogaine,one of the alkaloids found in the Iboga plant,
and what has been done with it I find it disgusting the way Howard Lotsof has been handled and how his discoveries and patents have been twisted out of his hands and if someone deserves to get some money out of this entire trip it is Howard.I think that in all human endeavour there is a sharp demarcation line between the professional and the commercial way of doing things and that it is high time to question the bogus authorities if any improvement is to be made in the quality of life as we know it.Nearly all innovations and improvements threaten some business-as-usual interests and the history of the world is full of tragical episodes about good-hearted pioneers starving to death in the face of the well-to-do same-as-usual guardians of redundancy.
But fortune favours the brave,and we who live on the brink of total annihilation have nothing to lose “and when we stop and think about it, there is nothing that we need in a world of persecution that is burning in its greed”.
onward through the fog,Carl

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 15:23:42 +0200

Hi Hattie,

it’s not about who is more successful; it was about why Carl glorifies Sara
and his product, and discartes everyone else. But that is solved – I
believe ;-))

Marko

At 13:06 26.4.2002, you wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us
can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs
on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear
the results of those that have kept a record and communication with
everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see
things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again
full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that
needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but
works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more
enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy
is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting
through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is
dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the
individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you
as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They
changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking
otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please
get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a
treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work
for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say
who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,
But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] Fwd: response to Andre Chavez
Date: April 26, 2002 at 2:43:30 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Delivered-To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
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From: “Rui Simžes” <relsimoes@hotmail.com>
To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
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Subject: response to Andre Chavez
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 13:04:15 +0000
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Dear Mr. Andre Chavez,

I am recipient of Dana Beal’s e-mail list, and was very surprised
with your critics towards ibogaine.

I have guided several treatments in Portugal. Not everyone breaks
their addiction, but most addicts do. I have personal proof of this.

However, I do have friends for whom ibogaine did not work. I guess
it happens with any drug, even with the ones given by doctors or
hospitals.

Ibogaine is not the ONLY way for a person to end addiction. But it
is one of the most efficient solutions to achieve this.

My own wife was a heroin addict for over 7 years. She took ibogaine
and cured herself in just 22 hours! But there are plenty more
testimonials around to prove that ibogaine does work… with the
majority of people. Exceptions to the rule should not put some
people against ibogaine.

Very truly yours,

Rui Eduardo Simoes

Lisbon, Portugal

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From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 11:36:09 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I agree: rubbish (meaning your answer).

And I’m returning to your statement: “Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so successful?” Is this not glorifying of your extract Sara is using, and her method? Without any proof?

I’m over with this debate, it’s just waste of time.

Period.

Marko

At 17:13 26.4.2002, you wrote:
Rubbish.I never glorified anyone or anything whatsoever.I wanted an open debate about the way to handle the stuff and how to achieve optimal results.And we all learn from each other.That we have found the extract to work better than HCL when it comes to Methadone withdrawals is based on empirical scientific direct experience.Personally I don’t care who pushes what as I don’t sell anything or get anything from what anyone does with the stuff I made with my own hands.I am retired.I took what I had and gave it to those who did not have,and most people still consider me a complete fool for doing so.The world is full of suffering and sick people and there are not enough therapists working with these things .I just don’t like overpriced amateur assembly-line clinical approaches to drug problems.Or to any problems for that matter.My work with the Iboga alkaloids was not originally related to the smack problem at all.It was one of the psychoactive plants that landed on my desk in 1981 when I worked at the funny drugs department.It took a lot of self-experimentation and bioassaying that would scare the living piss out of most modern humans before we came up with something manageable and foolproof enough to give to people in the “outside world”
and the present extract IS foolproof.Period.No lab will ever be capable of analyzing or replicating it either.That is how we protected ourselves from copycats.My mistake was giving it out for distribution among those whose only incentive is profit,but it did not harm anyone anyway and no one has died from it,despite Nick Sandberg’s earlier claims about a case in London that has been ironed out once and for all.
When it comes to Ibogaine,one of the alkaloids found in the Iboga plant,
and what has been done with it I find it disgusting the way Howard Lotsof has been handled and how his discoveries and patents have been twisted out of his hands and if someone deserves to get some money out of this entire trip it is Howard.I think that in all human endeavour there is a sharp demarcation line between the professional and the commercial way of doing things and that it is high time to question the bogus authorities if any improvement is to be made in the quality of life as we know it.Nearly all innovations and improvements threaten some business-as-usual interests and the history of the world is full of tragical episodes about good-hearted pioneers starving to death in the face of the well-to-do same-as-usual guardians of redundancy.
But fortune favours the brave,and we who live on the brink of total annihilation have nothing to lose “and when we stop and think about it, there is nothing that we need in a world of persecution that is burning in its greed”.
onward through the fog,Carl

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 15:23:42 +0200

Hi Hattie,

it’s not about who is more successful; it was about why Carl glorifies Sara
and his product, and discartes everyone else. But that is solved – I
believe ;-))

Marko

At 13:06 26.4.2002, you wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us
can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs
on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear
the results of those that have kept a record and communication with
everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see
things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again
full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that
needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but
works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more
enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy
is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting
through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is
dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the
individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you
as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They
changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking
otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please
get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a
treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work
for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say
who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,
But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 11:13:05 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Rubbish.I never glorified anyone or anything whatsoever.I wanted an open debate about the way to handle the stuff and how to achieve optimal results.And we all learn from each other.That we have found the extract to work better than HCL when it comes to Methadone withdrawals is based on empirical scientific direct experience.Personally I don’t care who pushes what as I don’t sell anything or get anything from what anyone does with the stuff I made with my own hands.I am retired.I took what I had and gave it to those who did not have,and most people still consider me a complete fool for doing so.The world is full of suffering and sick people and there are not enough therapists working with these things .I just don’t like overpriced amateur assembly-line clinical approaches to drug problems.Or to any problems for that matter.My work with the Iboga alkaloids was not originally related to the smack problem at all.It was one of the psychoactive plants that landed on my desk in 1981 when I worked at the funny drugs department.It took a lot of self-experimentation and bioassaying that would scare the living piss out of most modern humans before we came up with something manageable and foolproof enough to give to people in the “outside world”
and the present extract IS foolproof.Period.No lab will ever be capable of analyzing or replicating it either.That is how we protected ourselves from copycats.My mistake was giving it out for distribution among those whose only incentive is profit,but it did not harm anyone anyway and no one has died from it,despite Nick Sandberg’s earlier claims about a case in London that has been ironed out once and for all.
When it comes to Ibogaine,one of the alkaloids found in the Iboga plant,
and what has been done with it I find it disgusting the way Howard Lotsof has been handled and how his discoveries and patents have been twisted out of his hands and if someone deserves to get some money out of this entire trip it is Howard.I think that in all human endeavour there is a sharp demarcation line between the professional and the commercial way of doing things and that it is high time to question the bogus authorities if any improvement is to be made in the quality of life as we know it.Nearly all innovations and improvements threaten some business-as-usual interests and the history of the world is full of tragical episodes about good-hearted pioneers starving to death in the face of the well-to-do same-as-usual guardians of redundancy.
But fortune favours the brave,and we who live on the brink of total annihilation have nothing to lose “and when we stop and think about it, there is nothing that we need in a world of persecution that is burning in its greed”.
onward through the fog,Carl

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 15:23:42 +0200

Hi Hattie,

it’s not about who is more successful; it was about why Carl glorifies Sara
and his product, and discartes everyone else. But that is solved – I
believe ;-))

Marko

At 13:06 26.4.2002, you wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us
can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs
on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear
the results of those that have kept a record and communication with
everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see
things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again
full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that
needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but
works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more
enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy
is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting
through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is
dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the
individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you
as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They
changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking
otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please
get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a
treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work
for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say
who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,
But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] %Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 5:28:01 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi all ,

if you do or don’t or where and when I wish you all good luck ,

I’m off this list , thank you all for being so kind and full of understanding ,

Be well and blessed ,

Sara

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 9:23:42 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Hattie,

it’s not about who is more successful; it was about why Carl glorifies Sara and his product, and discartes everyone else. But that is solved – I believe ;-))

Marko

At 13:06 26.4.2002, you wrote:
on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous, doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a
treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work
for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say
who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,
But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 26, 2002 at 9:31:24 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Andre,

do you think that all of us are stupid? I’m asking this because you keep repeating same things… again and again… And are you sure your friends took Ibogaine? There’s plenty of people who sell anything – just to get money! I know of someone who was selling “diluted” Ibogaine, and his customers broke his legs…

And if something else worked for you – that’s great!! The problem is that whatever they use in hospitals usually doesn’t work. And Ibogaine does. And my data isn’t based on “several friends who paid thousands $ for Ibogaine (but they were NOT in St.Kitts) and it didn’t work” (this is not a quotation!). So, where did they get “Ibogaine”? By mail?

Marko

At 10:57 26.4.2002, you wrote:
If you  feel it is a rant and rave it is because I had a few friends who have had negative results, it did nothing but hurt there pocket. I think there are alot of other alternatives that truly do work. I’ve been using heroin for 20 years’, I finally got clean with a medical detox at a hospitol in northern Illinois. Emotionally I’m not completly fixed, that takes much more time than detoxing, I just care about the people who took ibo with no results, and I’m sorry, that makes me mad. They were just looking for help and didnt find it in ibogaine. I find it hard to stomach all the pro-ibo rheteric. So as long as there are pro-ibogainers, there will be me and my opinion, and it is just my opinion.

—– Original Message —–
From: Nick Sandberg
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 4:08 AM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.

Why do this?

Why post it to the ibogaine list?

I figure they usually want to talk about an experience with ibogaine but are still highly unsure as to whether they really want to “own it.” A drug like ibogaine will always attempt to integrate aspects of one’s being that the ego has “disowned” through fear that if they really “were” such-and-such a person they would be in some way unnacceptable to others. This is why they started using drugs – to avoid feelings that were felt to be unnacceptable, to disown feelings – and this is what ibogaine will try and show them.

When you come round after ibo, you can either “own” what happened and begin to accept who you actually are, (as opposed to continuing with the drug-maintained front you like to show to the world), or you can continue to reject yourself and go around saying ibogaine is shite and “doesn’t work.” Andre went for Option #2 – bad choice, guy.

Nick

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?

I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.

-carrie

Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:57:32 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

If you  feel it is a rant and rave it is because I had a few friends who have had negative results, it did nothing but hurt there pocket. I think there are alot of other alternatives that truly do work. I’ve been using heroin for 20 years’, I finally got clean with a medical detox at a hospitol in northern Illinois. Emotionally I’m not completly fixed, that takes much more time than detoxing, I just care about the people who took ibo with no results, and I’m sorry, that makes me mad. They were just looking for help and didnt find it in ibogaine. I find it hard to stomach all the pro-ibo rheteric. So as long as there are pro-ibogainers, there will be me and my opinion, and it is just my opinion.

—– Original Message —–
From: Nick Sandberg
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 4:08 AM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.
Why do this?
Why post it to the ibogaine list?

I figure they usually want to talk about an experience with ibogaine but are still highly unsure as to whether they really want to “own it.” A drug like ibogaine will always attempt to integrate aspects of one’s being that the ego has “disowned” through fear that if they really “were” such-and-such a person they would be in some way unnacceptable to others. This is why they started using drugs – to avoid feelings that were felt to be unnacceptable, to disown feelings – and this is what ibogaine will try and show them.
When you come round after ibo, you can either “own” what happened and begin to accept who you actually are, (as opposed to continuing with the drug-maintained front you like to show to the world), or you can continue to reject yourself and go around saying ibogaine is shite and “doesn’t work.” Andre went for Option #2 – bad choice, guy.
Nick

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?
I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.
-carrie
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 26, 2002 at 8:06:27 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Ahhh, good point, I don’t know whether he did or not, but regardless, he
still did heroin one way or the other. And it’s a drag that he had to hide,
and die in a room alone and rot for 2 weeks because his apparent drug of
choice was unseemly to some.
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Gamma” <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Friday, April 26, 2002 4:55 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine

How do you know the lead singer of Alice and Chains didn’t do Ibogaine?

-Gamma

— Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org> wrote:
But Dana,
Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using
heroin,
or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that
matter
even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even
when it
occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs
for
that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably
did
kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict
quality
controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had
to be
alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin,
had
the
money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without
fear of
being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.”
I
really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others
are
just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in
its
pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being
remarkably
clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies,
heroin
addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear
cops,
deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds
of
shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin
is no
better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit,
(can I
say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create.
When I
had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under
heat,
plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive,
creative,
and even happy.
Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to
continue
like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
busted.
Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate
under
prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone
else’s
too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will
steal,
like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes?
Is
that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because
current
prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with
little
option?
Peace,
Preston

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. Maybe I can dig it out of MAPinc, but I’m really
busy right now.

Dana/cnw

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 7:48:52 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: epoptica@freeuk.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Hattie
Please read my postings to this list in their entirety.The whole works.It may take a few minutes,but just do that.I hate business.
And I have learned to live without money.The hard way.My concern was that sacred substances should not be handled by people who have no firsthand expeience of their effects.I know that we share that view and that you would never give anyone something that you had not tried on yourself first.And I love you,for the one you are and for what you’re not.
Blessed be. Carlito

From: Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Fri, 26 Apr 2002 12:06:07 +0100

on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher
success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one
another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can
possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients
for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of
those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have
worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still
clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into
rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things
more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop.
Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more
work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous,
doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works
for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or
so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy
is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting
through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an
ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get
over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the
alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person
undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt
with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual
taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the
facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it,
they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I
have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a
defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get
over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] spooked
Date: April 26, 2002 at 6:58:39 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Bill
I will try to get access to the Indra archives as regards amounts distributed and customer feedback,I think they owe me that since they did not give me any money since 1999,and I could take them to court if they refuse.As to Sara’s work with both HCL and extract she has every client in her computer so there will be no problems in getting her statistics.I will recommend her from now on to videotape every single client and keep the record straight.I have nothing to lose from a truthful recollection of events.I will call Hattie in England later on today and ask her to take a similar approach.I think that Marko is quite capable of doing the same with his thing,and I urge all others to join in.Your proposal is the most constructive contribution that I have read on this list so far,and I would like to have a specific list of failures (what are their names and on what streets do they live?)from Mr.Chavez or else I suggest that his postings be moderated,unless he leaves the list by his own volition.These issues are deadly serious and it behooves us all to keep the debate decent and repectful.
Carl

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] spooked
Date: Thu, 25 Apr 2002 22:45:45 -0700 (PDT)

Is it just me, or is a squabble going on? If so, I don’t understand why.

One of the most interesting things to get off the list would be these
simple numbers from people administering ibogaine:

————————————————————————-

Number of people administered ibogaine: ___
Number of people still in touch: ___

Number of people administered ibogaine for opiate addiction: ___
Number of those people still in touch: ___
Number of _those_ people believed still free of opiates: ___

Ditto for cocaine/speed: ___ ___ ___

Type of iboga used: _______

Definition of “in touch:” you expect to hear from them again.

————————————————————————-

Maybe Howard could gather reports from anyone who is minded to trust him,
and pass on the overall stats?

Call me a quantitative fool, a Cartesian, even a scientist 🙂
but there is something fascinating for me in the difficulty of
getting that small list of numbers. What force or forces is
keeping us ignorant? Wouldn’t each and every person on this
list, providers included, take some interest in knowing it?

Bill Ross

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From: Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 7:06:07 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

on 4/30/02 11:12 PM, sara119 at sara119@xs4all.nl wrote:

I honestly can’t believe that you are all arguing about who has higher success rates. We as faciltators should all be helping and supporting one another, not bitching and certainly not exaggerating claims. None of us can possibly give a success rate unless we have been keeping tabs on  clients for two years plus. Now I would be  really interested to hear the results of those that have kept a record and communication with everyone that they have worked with over that kind of time period.
I will be honest and say that about 60% of people that see me are still clean, the others have used again, but those that have have also gone into rehab or kept trying saying that ibogaine gave them the window to see things more clearly. Some haven’t and have simply decided to use again full stop. Many of these people have had mental health problems that needed a lot more work than ibogaine could possibly do.
I don’t kid anyone about ibogaine. In my experience it is not miraculous, doesn’t work for everyone, doesn’t work as well for women as men, but works for a lot more people than rehabs seem to do. It is also more enjoyable or so they all say.
I see huge potential, but strongly believe that follow up care and therapy is needed. Pandoras box is opened and all sorts of stuff needs sorting through. Some have the staying power some don’t.

I would also like to say that quibbling about who has better success is an ego thing, something we as facilitators should really be working on! Get over the notion that it is us doing something. We are not, the alkaloid/plant is in conjunction with the inner healer of the person undergoing the potential transformation. Once we get that clear ego is dealt with. To believe anything else is really disempowering for the individual taking the substance. If they walk out of there saying that you as the facilitator changed their life, something is very wrong. They changed it, they took the step. I know it is easy to fall into thinking otherwise, I have been there myself!

So lets please all work together and help each other. Carl is your take a defensive reaction to possible criticism of your product ad if so please get over that.

Respect to all of you

Hattie

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] spooked
Date: April 26, 2002 at 5:03:24 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hey Man,

this is a good idea. even the Ibo world needs some stats.

from those folk in Europe claiming VERY HIGH sucess rates to those of us who
have no idea who stayed clean or not.

— Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU> wrote:
Is it just me, or is a squabble going on? If so, I don’t understand why.

One of the most interesting things to get off the list would be these
simple numbers from people administering ibogaine:

————————————————————————-

Number of people administered ibogaine: ___
Number of people still in touch: ___

Number of people administered ibogaine for opiate addiction: ___
Number of those people still in touch: ___
Number of _those_ people believed still free of opiates: ___

Ditto for cocaine/speed: ___ ___ ___

Type of iboga used: _______

Definition of “in touch:” you expect to hear from them again.

————————————————————————-

Maybe Howard could gather reports from anyone who is minded to trust him,
and pass on the overall stats?

Call me a quantitative fool, a Cartesian, even a scientist 🙂
but there is something fascinating for me in the difficulty of
getting that small list of numbers. What force or forces is
keeping us ignorant? Wouldn’t each and every person on this
list, providers included, take some interest in knowing it?

Bill Ross

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:57:32 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

If you  feel it is a rant and rave it is because I had a few friends who have had negative results, it did nothing but hurt there pocket. I think there are alot of other alternatives that truly do work. I’ve been using heroin for 20 years’, I finally got clean with a medical detox at a hospitol in northern Illinois. Emotionally I’m not completly fixed, that takes much more time than detoxing, I just care about the people who took ibo with no results, and I’m sorry, that makes me mad. They were just looking for help and didnt find it in ibogaine. I find it hard to stomach all the pro-ibo rheteric. So as long as there are pro-ibogainers, there will be me and my opinion, and it is just my opinion.

—– Original Message —–
From: Nick Sandberg
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 4:08 AM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.
Why do this?
Why post it to the ibogaine list?

I figure they usually want to talk about an experience with ibogaine but are still highly unsure as to whether they really want to “own it.” A drug like ibogaine will always attempt to integrate aspects of one’s being that the ego has “disowned” through fear that if they really “were” such-and-such a person they would be in some way unnacceptable to others. This is why they started using drugs – to avoid feelings that were felt to be unnacceptable, to disown feelings – and this is what ibogaine will try and show them.
When you come round after ibo, you can either “own” what happened and begin to accept who you actually are, (as opposed to continuing with the drug-maintained front you like to show to the world), or you can continue to reject yourself and go around saying ibogaine is shite and “doesn’t work.” Andre went for Option #2 – bad choice, guy.
Nick

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?
I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.
-carrie
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:55:38 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

How do you know the lead singer of Alice and Chains didn’t do Ibogaine?

-Gamma

— Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org> wrote:
But Dana,
Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using heroin,
or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that matter
even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even when it
occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs for
that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably did
kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict quality
controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had to be
alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin, had
the
money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without fear of
being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.” I
really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others are
just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in its
pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being remarkably
clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies, heroin
addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear cops,
deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds of
shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin is no
better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit, (can I
say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create. When I
had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under heat,
plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive, creative,
and even happy.
Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to continue
like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
busted.
Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate under
prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone else’s
too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will steal,
like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes? Is
that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because current
prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with little
option?
Peace,
Preston

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. Maybe I can dig it out of MAPinc, but I’m really
busy right now.

Dana/cnw

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:41:13 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Carla I just want to say for the record, I’ve never been treated with ibogaine, and my friends who have been, have not been to St. Kitts. or spent 12,000.00 They do not have mental problems, and have never been kicked out of any treatment facility. They are just mainly junkies, who tried to quit the vicious cycle of addiction with the help of ibogaine and were completely let down in every way. I’m not bitter or angry at anyone who (thinks) they recived help with the ibo treatment. I do feel angry at the people who try and push this lie, there are many alternatives to ibogaine that are by far superior, oh and free. Andre’ Chavez
p.s. I’m not selling any product.
—– Original Message —–
From: Patrick K. Kroupa
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 6:29 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl …  There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place.  I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have.  For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine.  Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary.  C’est la’vie.

However … in general, it’s been my observation that whatever our
differences, our central belief is that ibogaine works; however you choose
to define “works.”  And there are a variety of locations on planet earth,
where those who would choose to partake of it, may avail themselves.

In general I believe this to be a GOOD THING.

I am unclear how tossing out various petty problems, and restarting the
infighting which has mostly faded over the course of the past several
years, is going to assist “our” primary goals of at the very least
promoting awareness of ibogaine.

NONE of this is directed at Sara, whom I don’t know very well, but hear
positive things about and believe to be a nice person doing what she
believes is good, to the best of her ability to do so.

Were I to do what you just did — toss out various hearsay, under the
guise of facts, I might have a few salient questions…  The “indra”
materials and what’s in them…  Well, I don’t know all facts and details
of all materials on planet earth which were originally created by you, but
I do know the lab analysis of 5 seperate lots thus far…  It isn’t
exactly inspirational…  I might ask if you’ve had success in dealing
with your own substance abuse problems…  I could question the abilities
of a “guide” who appears to be suffering psychotic breaks on a regular
basis; and how this person is going to help anyone maintain any sort of
positive state, which they themselves are not in…

But I won’t.  Because it’s all just hearsay, so why bother.

Pardon me, I’m sorry, I’m probably wrong, and have simply forgotten that
the Inner People of the Outer Planes, dropped a Transdimensional Gate in
your living room — while they were storing some left over UFO parts in
the basement — allowing you All Knowledge of All Things, on This Plane,
and many others…

Which is a long way of saying: dude, chill out.  If you wanna promote
yourself, your materials, Sara, it’s all-good.  I don’t think anyone has
problems with that — I certainly don’t.  But restarting petty bullshit
based upon nonsense, isn’t exactly helpful.

Whatever you may say, or feel about St. Kitts…  Nobody has ever died
there, and no one ever will.  This claim cannot be made of people
self-dosing with your materials.

| keep in touch with former clients and,while they would like to remain
| anonymous,most of them stay clean.Of course it is one thing to eliminate
| acute withdrawal symptoms regarding opiates,and there we may all have a
| 100% success rate,quite another thing to inspire people to start a new
| life.As Sara has used Iboga for a wide variety of drug problems and not
| only as an opiod withdrawal eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate
| that I referred to was not about the few days the clients stayed in her
| house,it is in my view not only due to the pharmacodynamics,and what I have
| tried to point out is that something more than the specific action of
| Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting good results.The reason I wrote the

Well duh.  That’s the whole “aftercare” issue/question, and whether or not
any particular modality can prove more beneficial than others, when a
person is unsprung and in a non drug-dependent state.

The 90% success figures are nonsense.  Anybody who makes such claims is
engaged in wishful thinking.  I would rate the DETOX rate at 100%, what
happens afterwards is all over the map.  And the truth is, YOU have NO WAY
of knowing.  Because no one does.  You may or may not run into various
people a few years down the line, ask “hey, how’re you?”  And depending on
their mood the answer can be almost anything.  It also has absolutely
nothing to do with “reality” and whether or not they are drug free.

You dunno dude.  Nobody does.  The closest anyone comes IS at St. Kitts,
where there are resources to track what actually happens to various
people, and obtain data.  Not lines of bullshit.

Again, I apologize, perhaps you have Alien Technology, not available to
others, which allows you to do Remote Viewing and Gather Data, in which
case I am completely wrong.

| thing in the first place was because I wanted to see an overall improvement
| in the quality of the experienced content so that clients don’t relapse
| into addictive routine perception and that therapists handle the stuff in a
| truly enlightened manner,and,above all that people who give the stuff to
| others know how it feels to take it.We are not working in a gas station.

No we’re not…  I think the general goal IS improvement of long-term
effects for persons who no longer wish to be drug-dependent.

How what you’re doing is supposed to further these goals, I am unclear.

Patrick

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] How we used to do it in the Old School
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:35:20 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

“The candidate was laid in the great stone coffin and for three days his spirit,freed from its mortal coil,wandered at the gateways of eternity:His KA,as a bird,flew through the spiritual spheres of space.He discovered that all the universe was life,progress and eternal growth.Realizing that his body was a house which he could slip out of and return to without death,he achieved actual immortality.At the end of three days,he returned to himself again,and having thus personally and actually experienced the great mystery,he was indeed an Initiate
-one who beheld and one to whom religion had fulfilled her duty,bringing
him to the Light of God.”
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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:31:14 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Carla Barnes, Andre’ Chavez. Look I don’t mean to GUSH or however you seem to interpet my view on ibogaine. I just had more than a few friends who tried ibo and were completely disguted with the product. If you read ht or the hh you will hear other stories about people who spent thousands of dollars on nothing, it just makes me mad to hear pro-ibogaine success stories that really have no merit. You might as well kick at any detox center (and many are free and relativley painless) save your money and try to live your life. For those who believe in ibogaine I question their addiction. Sincerly Andre’ Chavez

—– Original Message —–
From: Carla Barnes
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 7:32 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
I haven’t been reading ibogaine things long enough to have heard all that which Bill said, but from reading heroin times there’s that lady going off about people who dosed her in a hotel in NY, which is the same story that is now on heroinhelper now that I’ve started reading hh when I learned that it existed from the posts on this list, except it was rewritten without the names.
I’m getting the idea there are more then a few unhappy ibogaine users who are going off on almost everybody involved in the ibogaine scene. I’m still waiting for Andre Chavez to come back and gush some more 🙂
Patrick that was funny 🙂 I’m veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy curious, if St. Kitts didn’t exist and you didn’t know Dr. Mash and needed to do ibogaine. Where would you go? I’d really like to hear that, your a strange combination of qualities but you’re really smart, ibogaine worked for you and even if you are crazy you at least look like you know it and pull it all in and deal with reality. Whatever your problems you’re not having a pychotic break 🙂
Carla B
“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl … There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place. I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have. For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine. Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary. C’est la’vie.

 

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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:09:23 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

IBOGAINE IS THE WORLDS BIGGEST SCAM, IF ANYONE SAYS THEY GOT CURED OR EVE=
N DETOXED WITH THE ASSISTANCE OF IBOGAINE NEVER HAD A HABIT IN THE FIRST =
PLACE. ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHO TRIED TO USE IT TO KICK HEROIN WERE NOT ONLY=
SICKER WHILE DETOXING THEY WERE OUT THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS, AND THEY ALL W=
ENT BACK TO USING BECAUSE THEY COULD NOT TAKE THE PAIN OF DETOXING (WHILE=
USING IBOGAINE), YOU MIGHT AS WELL TAKE TYLENOL, IT AT LEAST MIGHT HAVE =
SOME EFFECT !!!   ANDRE’

Andre, how many friends?

Bill Ross

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] REMOVE ME
Date: April 26, 2002 at 4:06:28 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

ALL YOU SPREAD IN YOUR PRO-IBO VIEW=
POINT IS LIES.Get more from the Web.

Don’t mind if I do.

Bill

From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 26, 2002 at 3:59:27 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

IBOGAINE IS THE WORLDS BIGGEST SCAM, IF ANYONE SAYS THEY GOT CURED OR EVEN DETOXED WITH THE ASSISTANCE OF IBOGAINE NEVER HAD A HABIT IN THE FIRST PLACE. ALL OF MY FRIENDS WHO TRIED TO USE IT TO KICK HEROIN WERE NOT ONLY SICKER WHILE DETOXING THEY WERE OUT THOUSANDS OF DOLLARS, AND THEY ALL WENT BACK TO USING BECAUSE THEY COULD NOT TAKE THE PAIN OF DETOXING (WHILE USING IBOGAINE), YOU MIGHT AS WELL TAKE TYLENOL, IT AT LEAST MIGHT HAVE SOME EFFECT !!!   ANDRE’

—– Original Message —–
From: Nick Sandberg
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 2:29 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,

—– Original Message —–
From: sara119
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 1:57 AM
Subject: [ibogaine] talk shit ,

We know quit a lot about St, Kidds ,those who don’t like D.M. superior
talk come here , and why should they pay 12,000$ IF everybody
have the same 100% detox rate ….if you go to slovenia pay only 1000$
England 600$ same same at the end you come out clean.
even if Carl would do the treatment for nothing the person will get clean ,
and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .

may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,

everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga

Look Sarah, it’s great that you treat people and it’s great to take care of people and give them love, for sure it’s an experience that a lot of addicts probably haven’t had much of before. So, if all this stuff you do is going like it should, why do you come out with this “may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,everyone’s day will come ” -stuff? Sounds like something out of the Old Testament. We had a ibogaine conference in London, it was great! People get treated in the UK, Holland, Slovenia, Czech Rep, St Kitts, etc, etc, it’s great! I just don’t understand where all this antagonism comes in from. Why does everything have to be resolved into this whole Good vs Evil debate? There are deeper levels of reality you know. I doubt Dr Mash makes a big fortune out of treating people, but so what if she does? If people wanna pay for a full clinical set-up they can get that there. What’s the problem? Reading your stuff, it’s like everyone’s wearing a “I am Good” or “I am Bad” t-shirt and woe betide anyone with the latter, like the Day of Judgment is gonna descend upon them.

And……another thing……if people started sending me letters like this………

As soon as i finish this e-mail i’m going to the Y.M.C.A. for my shower, and play on that side of town.  I love you Sara and my prayer i pray right now  is , ” Heavenly Father, i give you glory and praise , for one such as Sara, and dear L-rd, for the sake of Your promise to us as Your children, please bless Sara with so much Spiritual and Finical  blessing that she can’t even know he to give her excess to, for we Dearest L-rd know that , we are Your Hand and Your feet, and your eyes, For we as Your Eyes which look, compassion on this world, we are Your Feet to which walk to do good and Your Hands to which You bless all the earth.”  Love earl

……….I’d start getting a bit worried about where the treatment was going. OK, the guy’s just come off drugs but he’s projecting like crazy and it don’t sound too healthy to me.

that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,

I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
Talking shit about people isn’t my style

Yeah, right! I mean, totally! And if anyone disagrees then the Vengeance of the L-rd will descend upon them.

Nick

, it isn’t what healing is about sure doesn’t give anybody
a good Karma ,
talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

be well,

Sara

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] REMOVE ME
Date: April 26, 2002 at 3:52:14 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

REMOVE ME FROM YOUR BUNK ASS SITE !!! ALL YOU SPREAD IN YOUR PRO-IBO VIEWPOINT IS LIES.

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit
Date: April 26, 2002 at 3:51:03 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

DAVID YOU ARE FULL OF SHIT, IBOGAINE, THE MIRICLE CURE, DID ABSOLUTELY NOTHING FOR ANY OF MY FRIENDS WHO TOOK IT. THEY WERE DESPERATELY TRYING TO QUIT HEROIN, INSTED THEY TOOK THIS SHIT AND NOT ONLY WERE SICKER WHEN THEY TOOK IT THEY WERE OUT BOATLOADS OF MONEY, IBOGAINE IS ONE OF THE WORLDS BIGGEST SCAMS, YOU MIGHT AS WELL TAKE TWO ASPIRINS AND CALL ME IN THE MORNING. EVERYONE I KNOW WHO TOOK IT HAD NEGATIVE RESULTS. PRINT THIS YOU PRO-IBOGAINE LIERS. ANDRE’

—– Original Message —–
From: David Soriano
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 3:51 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com; Patrick K. Kroupa
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit
Please UNSUBSCRIBE

Thank you, Dave

> [Original Message]
> From: Patrick K. Kroupa <digital@phantom.com>
> To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
> Date: 4/25/02 1:04:22 PM
> Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit
>
> On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 02:57:46AM +0200], [sara119] wrote:
>
> | and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last
> | conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
> | enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .
> |
> |  may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,
> |
> | everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga
> |
> | that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better
life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street
othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,
> |
> |  I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
> | I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
> | Talking shit about people isn’t my style , it isn’t what healing is
> | about sure doesn’t give anybody
> |  a good Karma ,
> |  talking about a price of a treatment is something else.
>
> Sara…  I think, based upon my careful observations, it is the nature of
> being human and alive and stuff, to talk shit sometimes…  Some people do
> so more often than others…
>
> Of course doing that, often leads to other people talking back at you…
>
> I don’t have a problem with anybody for the most part, and think everybody
> should go wherever the hell they want to go…  Whatever calls out to you,
> whatever works with your financial resources, headspace and legal issues,
> and brings you closer to where you’d like to be — wherever that is.
>
> It has been my experience though, that when attempting to take the moral
> higher ground, it’s a good idea to try not to trip, slip, and fall on your
> ass…  It’s a very slippery slope.
>
> peace,
>
> Patrick

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 26, 2002 at 3:43:40 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I FOUND YOUR STATEMENT NOT ONLY TO BE TRUE BUT TO BE VERY INFORMATIVE, AND I AM A HEROIN USER(20 YEARS’), EVERYONE I KNOW WHO USED IBO, ARE STILL USING HEROIN, IT WAS NOT THE MIRICLE DRUG THEY THOUGHT IT WOULD BE, INSTED THEY SPENT THOUSANDS ON THIS SHIT WITH ABSOLUTELY NO RESULTS. KEEP SPREADING THE TRUTH, TRUTH IS CONTAGIOUS!!!

—– Original Message —–
From: Dana Beal
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 8:04 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine

>But Dana,
>     Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using heroin,
>or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that matter
>even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even when it
>occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs for
>that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
>     Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably did
>kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict quality
>controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had to be
>alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
>     Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin, had the
>money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without fear of
>being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.” I
>really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others are
>just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in its
>pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being remarkably
>clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies, heroin
>addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear cops,
>deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds of
>shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin is no
>better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit, (can I
>say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create. When I
>had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
>SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
>England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under heat,
>plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive, creative,
>and even happy.
>     Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to continue
>like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
>busted.
>     Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
>ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
>heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate under
>prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone else’s
>too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will steal,
>like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes? Is
>that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because current
>prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with little
>option?
>Peace,
>Preston
>

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. Maybe I can dig it out of MAPinc, but I’m really
busy right now.

Dana/cnw

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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: [ibogaine] spooked
Date: April 26, 2002 at 1:45:45 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Is it just me, or is a squabble going on? If so, I don’t understand why.

One of the most interesting things to get off the list would be these
simple numbers from people administering ibogaine:

————————————————————————-

Number of people administered ibogaine: ___
Number of people still in touch: ___

Number of people administered ibogaine for opiate addiction: ___
Number of those people still in touch: ___
Number of _those_ people believed still free of opiates: ___

Ditto for cocaine/speed: ___ ___ ___

Type of iboga used: _______

Definition of “in touch:” you expect to hear from them again.

————————————————————————-

Maybe Howard could gather reports from anyone who is minded to trust him,
and pass on the overall stats?

Call me a quantitative fool, a Cartesian, even a scientist 🙂
but there is something fascinating for me in the difficulty of
getting that small list of numbers. What force or forces is
keeping us ignorant? Wouldn’t each and every person on this
list, providers included, take some interest in knowing it?

Bill Ross

From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] Vengeance ? that’s human
Date: April 26, 2002 at 5:46:03 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Yeah, right! I mean, totally! And if anyone disagrees then the Vengeance of the L-rd will descend upon them.

Nick

I do respect everyone religion expression ,and can’t agree with Vengeance of the Lord, because I’m Jewish not christian, Our God
is about Chessed ,mercy and kabbalistic healing ,( healing in different levels which are in the tree of life )and not about Vengeance ,
which is only in the level of schinah or yesod , which is the lawest
level of being , Goes together with greed  and egotism .

at least he is alive and singing taking care of himself and doesn’t talk shit,

Sara

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] yet another military intelligence trip
Date: April 24, 2002 at 6:01:35 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: spacetech@yahoogroups.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear friends
This one is almost too good to be true…but it is…
http://www.almartinraw.com/column56.html
Sink or swim in the alphabet soup…money talks!
Carlito

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ssris
Date: April 25, 2002 at 11:02:19 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/25/02 10:52:09 PM, robertbosch@softhome.net writes:

<< Hello, I understand this is a tense time or something and do not want to
be

rude, but if anyone could stop fighting long enough to please answer the

simple question of where I could look up ssri’s and what problem if any I

could expect using ibogaine while on them. Or anyone has any advice I would

appreciate it.  >>

Rob,

Go to the ibogaine manual <www.ibogaine.desk.nl/manual.html>.  Go to the
table of contents right below the introduction and click on the discussion
link.  Once in the discussion section scroll down to right after the
“exclusion criteria” and you will find some discussion of ssri’s.

Howard

From: robertbosch@softhome.net
Subject: [ibogaine] ssris
Date: April 25, 2002 at 10:51:57 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hello, I understand this is a tense time or something and do not want to be rude, but if anyone could stop fighting long enough to please answer the simple question of where I could look up ssri’s and what problem if any I could expect using ibogaine while on them. Or anyone has any advice I would appreciate it.
Thank you
Rob

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 26, 2002 at 1:22:44 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. <

Any idea if perhaps it turned into a nightmare because people wouldn’t leave
him alone and kept telling him he was a fuck up for doing heroin, even
though he had himself a successful band and all that? Perhaps because he was
always paranoid about arrest? Or getting bad dope? I mean, there’s tons of
reasons heroin use turns nightmarish, and addiction is only one of many
scenarios, and even then, not the worst if one can supply oneself, as he
probably could.
Peace,
Preston

Come on over. Let’s dig out the press. Of course they could be
distorting, but he said the drugs themselves did it.

He just got tired. And then the addiction turned against him.

Dana/cnw

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 25, 2002 at 10:17:24 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/25/02 11:19:58 AM, sara119@xs4all.nl writes:

<<  I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure

I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard . >>

Dear Sara,

Thank you for your kind words.  Needless to say, all of you know I support
ibogaine therapy in its many forms including religious, shamanic, self-help
and medical.  As I have indicated in the Ibogaine Manual
<www.ibogaine.org/manual.html> most of us, including myself when, I was
actively involved in ibogaine research and therapy, have been and are
influenced by time/cost constraints.  Sara is the only provider I know of who
completely dismisses her own time and money issues and basically cares for
patients until they leave, sometimes after eating everything in the house
leaving no food for Sara or her children.  And, I admit I always worry that
something may go wrong but, so far so good.

Concerning both forms of ibogaine, that is the purified HCl and the Indra
extract, arguments can be made for both products but, the key issue is
knowing your product.

I consider Sara the most hands on practitioner of ibogaine therapy.  She is
the only ibogaine provider who will dose as to the needs of her patient
basing the dosing regimen solely on their needs and her experience.  This is
one of the reasons I look forward to her possible participation in submitting
to the next revision of the Ibogaine Manual.  Were Sara a medical doctor her
method of using ibogaine would be most in keeping with the actual practice of
medicine rather that meeting research protocol needs or providing a religious
initiation rite.  This is not to say that each is not of equal value as
provided.

I do not anticipate that academic and medically credentialed individuals will
submit material to the manual but, I would certainly like to see publications
in the medical literature indicating practical dose regimen and safety
protocols, something that has not yet happened. Their submissions however,
would be welcome.

My own preference is a medical environment as it means the least amount of
work or concern for myself and the most work for the doctors, nurses and
other medical staff.  As for miracles, I think what has always driven
ibogaine providers is the apparent miracle that they see before their eyes of
a patient in a totally out of control addiction mode suddenly have that
addiction reversed and to be transformed into a non-addicted person
regardless of for how long.  And, yes there is a sense of power and
empowerment that influences most providers.  That is simply to be expected
with something as wondrous as ibogaine and there is nothing wrong with that.

On the issue of success of treatments I think most of us have fallen victim
to the prohibitionist requirements established by our societies to one extent
or another.  It is too bad we cannot simply provide ibogaine for its wonder
and its beneficial effects without meeting some formal requirement set by
prohibitionists who have brought such pain to so many with their world view.
One day free of addiction is amazing.  Anything after that is just more
amazing.

Just my brief comment.

Howard

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 9:14:17 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. <

Any idea if perhaps it turned into a nightmare because people wouldn’t leave
him alone and kept telling him he was a fuck up for doing heroin, even
though he had himself a successful band and all that? Perhaps because he was
always paranoid about arrest? Or getting bad dope? I mean, there’s tons of
reasons heroin use turns nightmarish, and addiction is only one of many
scenarios, and even then, not the worst if one can supply oneself, as he
probably could.
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Dana Beal” <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 11:59 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine

But Dana,
Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using
heroin,
or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that matter
even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even when
it
occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs for
that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably
did
kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict
quality
controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had to
be
alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin, had
the
money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without fear
of
being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.” I
really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others
are
just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in its
pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being remarkably
clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies,
heroin
addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear
cops,
deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds of
shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin is
no
better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit, (can
I
say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create. When
I
had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under
heat,
plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive,
creative,
and even happy.
Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to
continue
like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
busted.
Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate under
prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone else’s
too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will steal,
like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes? Is
that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because
current
prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with little
option?
Peace,
Preston

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. Maybe I can dig it out of MAPinc, but I’m really
busy right now.

Dana/cnw

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 11:59:28 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

But Dana,
Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using heroin,
or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that matter
even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even when it
occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs for
that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably did
kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict quality
controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had to be
alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin, had the
money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without fear of
being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.” I
really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others are
just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in its
pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being remarkably
clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies, heroin
addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear cops,
deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds of
shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin is no
better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit, (can I
say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create. When I
had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under heat,
plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive, creative,
and even happy.
Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to continue
like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
busted.
Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate under
prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone else’s
too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will steal,
like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes? Is
that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because current
prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with little
option?
Peace,
Preston

He said it had turned into a nightmare, or the equivalent, in some of
the press I saw. Maybe I can dig it out of MAPinc, but I’m really
busy right now.

Dana/cnw

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Ibogaine HCl in yo’ bathtub
Date: April 25, 2002 at 6:19:18 PM EDT
To: vox@mindvox.com

woo hoo

EXTRACTION STUDIES OF TABERNANTHE IBOGA AND VOACANGA AFRICANA

CHRISTOPHER JENKS

Abstract: The root bark of Tabernanthe iboga contains ibogaine as its
predominant alkaloid and has been an important source of it. Ibogaine is
used experimentally to interrupt drug addiction and allow therapeutic
intervention, but is currently unaffordable to doctors in less economically
developed countries. To meet this need, an extraction of alkaloids from T.
iboga root bark was optimized and simplified to use only diluted vinegar
and ammonia, and was successfully applied to related alkaloids from
Voacanga africana bark also. The alkaloids were converted to their
hydrochlorides and purified, and the minor alkaloids were recovered.

Keywords: Addiction treatment, Drug addiction, Ibogaine, Ibogaline,
Voacangine, Tabernanthe iboga, Voacanga africana

INTRODUCTION

The root bark of the Tabernanthe iboga shrub has been used for centuries in
West African ceremonies by Bwiti initiation society members entering
adulthood (1). The Bwiti believe that the initiates meet their deceased
ancestors and thus form a more tangible link with their past and
traditions. The principle alkaloid in the root bark is ibogaine (2), which
itself possesses pharmacological effects similar to those of the root (3).
These effects, which last about 36 hours in human beings after a single
oral dose, may include nausea, incoordination, visual after images and
closed-eye imagery, introspectiveness, and many psychological experiences
which could be of psychotherapeutic value, such as the re-experiencing of
past memories in an unthreatening manner (4,5).

The ability of ibogaine to interrupt addiction was discovered in 1962 by
Howard Lotsof of New York (6). Howard was addicted to heroin and took an
extremely rare opportunity to ingest ibogaine due to his interest in
psychedelics. After the experience he realized that both his desire for
heroin and the expected symptoms of withdrawal were absent. This freedom
from addiction continued over the following months, and the ability of
ibogaine to interrupt addictions to heroin, methadone, cocaine,
methamphetamine, and nicotine has since been demonstrated in animals as
well as hundreds of human subjects5. Howard Lotsof began patenting the use
of ibogaine for treating drug addictions (7) in 1985 and campaigned between
1982 and 1994 to obtain FDA approval for this use. This campaign included
initiating research agreements with academic institutions in Canada,
Europe, the United States and Central America as well as the National
Institute on Drug Abuse (8). In spite of severe financial obstacles for
researchers in this area, ibogaine continues to be the focus of continued
research and experimental treatment in both animals and humans (5).

The most popular natural source of ibogaine has been the root bark of T.
iboga (2), but the shrub only grows naturally in Africa (3) and currently
requires professional training to extract. Existing procedures (2,9) use
haloalkanes or alcohols for the extraction and chromatography for the
purification of iboga alkaloids and are expensive and difficult because
their objective was only to identify the alkaloids present. Ibogaine can
also be prepared semisynthetically (10) or synthetically (11), and these
methods hold great promise for future development but are currently
expensive. Meanwhile affordable ibogaine is needed by researchers and
doctors exploring treatment options for addiction in less economically
developed countries. This article presents a convenient, inexpensive, and
efficient procedure to isolate and purify the alkaloids from T. iboga root
bark and enable affordable processing of the bark in Africa without
exportation.

RESULTS AND DISCUSSION

Analysis of T. iboga root bark using silica TLC, eluting twice with ethyl
acetate followed by staining with iodine vapor, showed ibogaine as a dark
brown spot (Rf = 0.16) with a trail (depending on concentration), a red
spot (Rf = 0.07) belonging to ibogaline below it, and a small brown spot
(Rf = 0.21), assumed to be ibogamine, slightly above it. The percentages of
ibogaine, ibogaline, and ibogamine appear to be 80%, 15%, and 5%
respectively judging by the size and density of the stained spots. The spot
for ibogaline gave a red stain using Keller’s reagent (12), confirming its
identity (9). Occasionally a batch of root would contain ibogaine and
ibogamine but little or no ibogaline, and perhaps this was a related
Tabernanthe species (9). TLC analysis of root wood, stem bark or leaves of
the T. iboga plant showed negligible ibogaine.

The optimized extraction method involved stirring powdered root bark with
vinegar and filtering. Boiling the bark made the vinegar impossible to
filter and was unnecessary. Although filter paper or coffee filters worked
on a small scale, a cloth sack was more appropriate for large scale
filtration. Either shredded or powdered root or root bark were efficiently
extracted using this method, although large shavings trapped some alkaloid
under the bark. The yield wasn’t improved by extracting for longer than an
hour, increasing the concentration of acetic acid, or using a larger volume
of acetic acid solution. Each extraction of shredded root bark removed
about half as much alkaloid as the previous one, so that three extractions
gave approximately 87% of the alkaloid potentially extractable from the
root. Further extractions were practical only for large batches or if the
extracts were then used to extract fresh root in a batch process.

Ammonia was convenient for basifying the filtered extracts, although other
inorganic bases should have worked also. The resulting solid precipitate of
total alkaloids (TA) was fortuitous since the expected oil would have
necessitated laborious extraction. The TA took fewer hours to filter if the
upper liquid was first siphoned off after the solid settled. The TA was
dried at room temperature or with gentle warming. Solutions left sitting
for more than a few days were contaminated by bacteria.

The TA solid showed no detectable change according to TLC even after months
of exposure to indirect sunlight and air. The solidity and stability of the
TA were unexpected because the evaporated acetone extract of it gives an
unstable oil.

The alkaloids in the TA solid were purified (2) by extraction with acetone,
leaving a significant amount (50-65%) of dark, insoluble material behind.
The dissolved alkaloids were precipitated as their hydrochlorides by adding
concentrated hydrochloric acid (HCl) and filtered. The solid was stable
during years of storage and being enriched in the major alkaloids is called
purified total alkaloid hydrochlorides (PTA HCl). The relative quantities
of TA and acetone were optimized for this procedure to maximize the yield
of PTA HCl, but the optimum volume of HCl depended on the moles of
extracted alkaloid determined by titration with Hcl.

A significant quantity of ibogaine and other alkaloid hydrochlorides
remained in the acetone after this procedure, and the solution darkened
over time. Evaporating the acetone gave an oil which was also too unstable
to store, but dissolving it in water and adding ammonia gave a solid of the
residual alkaloids (RA). This powder was stable during storage, and
together with the extracted TA residue and PTA HCl, weighed almost the same
as the original TA.

Recrystallization of PTA HCl from 95% ethanol gave ibogaine HCl with a
significant amount of ibogaline still present. Each successive
recrystallization removed about half of the remaining ibogaline, but at a
cost in yield. Ibogaine HCl crystals dissolved slowly in the boiling
ethanol while the solution darkened. Recrystallization from water or
mixtures of water and ethanol seemed to remove a larger proportion of
ibogaline but also darkened. Recrystallization from 95% ethanol gave
greater purification and yield for the base (2) than for the ibogaine HCl,
but the base was less stable for both handling in solution and storage,
unless melted and solidified into a solid chunk. Chromatography using
activity III basic alumina, eluting with cyclohexane followed by benzene or
toluene, separated ibogaine (490 mg) and ibogaline (109 mg) from TA, but
this method was costly and laborious on a large scale.

The yield (2.0-2.2%) of PTA HCl from the acetic acid extraction of root
bark shavings exceeded those of ethanol or chloroform extractions
(0.2-1.1%) and left relatively little alkaloid which could be extracted by
other means. The alkaloids which could be extracted using petroleum ether
from the acetic acid extract which had been basified and had the TA
filtered out amounted to only 1-2% of the weight of the TA.

Solutions and solid samples of TA, PTA base and PTA HCl were exposed to
direct sunlight and air for 10 days to assess their relative stabilities.
Only the solids remained intact in sunlight, and the hydrochloride was more
stable than the base in general. The rates of decomposition for the
alkaloids in different solvents were, from least to greatest: ethanol,
water, acetone, chloroform, and petroleum ether.

The most promising alternative source of ibogaine was its semisynthesis
from voacangine, obtained from the bark of the Voacanga africana tree. A
patent (10) by Janot and Goutarel claims that while T. iboga root bark
contains only 0.3% ibogaine, the more abundant and accessible trunk bark of
V. africana contains 0.5% voacangine, which can be easily converted into
ibogaine. Extraction of V. africana trunk bark using vinegar (see the
experimental section) was highly successful in isolating crude alkaloids.
However, extensive attempts to isolate or even identify voacangine in this
mixture, or to convert the mixture into ibogaine according to the patent,
were completely unsuccessful. A later publication (13) found only 0.14%
voacangine in the bark, and suggests that the concentration of voacangine
varies.

EXPERIMENTAL SECTION

Extraction of T. iboga root (TA). One kg (2.5 L) of powdered T. iboga root
and 5 L of 0.5% acetic acid were placed in a 6 L plastic bucket, stirred
occasionally for one hour, and filtered through a cloth sack. The sack was
wrung to expel all possible liquid from the root powder and the filtrate
(pH = 3-4) was basified using 60 mL of 30% ammonia. The resulting
flocculent, medium greenish-brown precipitate of TA was patiently gravity
filtered through 30 cm filter paper and thoroughly rinsed with distilled
water. This procedure was repeated twice more on the same root powder. The
filter papers bearing the TA were placed on paper towels on a wire rack and
left in a warm draft until successive weighings detected no more than 0.3%
loss per day. The hard, dark brown solid weighed 30.037 g (3.0%) and was
ground in a mortar and sifted to give a fine brown powder.

Conversion of alkaloids to the hydrochlorides (PTA HCl). 28.00 g of
powdered TA was placed on a filter paper in a funnel and 450 mL of acetone
was added in portions with gentle stirring. The funnel was removed and 2 mL
of concentrated HCl was slowly added dropwise to the flask with swirling,
occasionally adding a trace of PTA HCl from a previous batch to initiate
precipitation. After waiting a few minutes to allow precipitation to begin,
dropwise HCl (2.8 mL) was added with swirling until the liquid became
acidic according to pH paper. A final 0.4 mL of HCl was added dropwise and
the flask was placed in the refrigerator overnight. The yellow powder was
scraped from the sides of the flask, filtered, rinsed with 84 mL of
acetone, and dried at room temperature to give 9.493 g (33.9%) of PTA HCl.
The black, spent TA weighed 14.521 g (51.9%) after drying.

Ibogaine HCl. 9.712 g of PTA HCl was patiently dissolved in 150 mL of
boiling 95% ethanol, set overnight at room temperature, refrigerated for
two hours, and the mother liquor was decanted from the yellow crystals
(4.412 g). Recrystallizing again from 80 mL of 95% ethanol gave 3.666 g of
mostly pure ibogaine HCl.

Recovery of residual alkaloids (RA). Most of the acetone was distilled from
the filtrate from the preparation of PTA HCl and the remainder was
evaporated using a stream of air. The dark residue was dissolved in 400 mL
of distilled water, filtered, and basified to pH 9 using 3 mL of 30%
ammonia. The medium yellow suspension was filtered through a fresh coffee
filter paper and left on a warm surface to dry. The chunks of light,
chalky, off-white alkaloid residue weighed 4.750 g (17.0%).

Extraction of V. africana trunk bark (VTA). One kg of powdered trunk bark
was extracted in the same manner as the T. iboga root above, resulting in
59.723 g (6.0%) of crumbly brown voacanga total alkaloids (VTA).

Conversion of alkaloids to the hydrochlorides (VPTA HCl). 75.00 g of VTA
was treated in a manner similar to the PTA HCl above, resulting in 35.929 g
(43.6%) of medium brown VPTA HCl. The spent VTA weighed 31.534 g (42.0%).

Recovery of residual alkaloids. The filtrate from the preparation of VPTA
HCl was treated in a manner similar to the PTA HCl filtrate above,
resulting in 12.119 g (16.2%) of chalky, off-white solid.

Acknowledgment: I would like to thank my friends Karl Naeher and Eric Taub
for their encouragement and support in this research.

REFERENCES

1. J. W. Fernandez. Bwiti: An Ethnography of the Religious Imagination of
Africa. Princeton University Press, Princeton, NJ, (1982).

2. D. F. Dickel; C. L. Holden; R. C. Maxfield; L. E. Paszek and W. I.
Taylor. “The alkaloids of Tabernanthe iboga. Part III. Isolation studies.”
Journal of the American Chemical Society, (1958), 80, 123-125.

3. R. E. Schultes and A. Hofmann. The Botany and Chemistry of
Hallucinogens, 2nd ed. C. C. Thomas, Springfield, IL, (1980), 233-240.

4. C. Naranjo. The Healing Journey. Pantheon Books, Div. Random House, NY,
(1973), 174-228.

5. P. Popik; R. T. Layer and P. Skolnick. “100 Years of ibogaine –
neurochemical and pharmacological actions of a putative anti-addictive
drug.” Pharmacological Reviews, (1995), 47(2), 235-253. S. G. Sheppard. “A
preliminary investigation of ibogaine: case reports and recommendations for
further study.” Journal of Substance Abuse Treatment, (1994), 11(4), 379-385.

6. S. Nadis. “The mystery of ibogaine: can an African psychedelic cure
addiction?” Omni, (July 1993), 15(9), 14.

7. H. S. Lotsof. “Rapid method for interrupting the narcotic addiction
syndrome.” United States patent, (1985), 4,499,096; Cocaine and
amphetamine: US patent, (1986), 4,587,243; Alcohol: US patent, (1989),
4,857,523; Nicotine: US patent, (1991), 5,026,697; Poly-drug dependency: US
patent, (1992), 5,152,994.

8. Howard Lotsof, personal communication. Also see http://www.ibogaine.org

9. N. Neuss. “Alkaloids from Apocyanaceae. II. Ibogaline, a new alkaloid
from Tabernanthe iboga Baill.” Journal of Organic Chemistry, (1959), 24,
2047-2048.

10. M-M. Janot and R. Goutarel. “Derivatives of the ibogaine alkaloids.”
United States patent, (November 19, 1957), 2,813,873.

11. B. M. Trost; S. A. Godleski and J. P. Genet. “A total synthesis of
racemic and optically active ibogamine. Utilization and mechanism of a new
silver ion assisted palladium catalyzed cyclization.” Journal of the
American Chemical Society, (1978), 100(12), 3930-3931.

12. A. Hofmann and F. Troxler. “Esters of Indoles.” United States patent,
(January 29, 1963), 3,075,992. C. C. Keller. “Neue Studien uber Secale
Cornutum, Ergotinin, Cornutin, Spasmotin.” Schweizerische Wochenschrift fur
Chemie und Pharmacie, (1896), 34, 65-74.

13. D. W. Thomas and K. Biemann. “The alkaloids of Voacanga africana.”
Lloydia, (1968), 31(1), 1-8.

–Nq2Wo0NMKNjxTN9z–

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 5:20:37 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

But Dana,
Maybe he was happy doing heroin. Just because a person is using heroin,
or other opiate, doesn’t necessarily mean they need, nor for that matter
even want, treatment of any kind, not even ibogaine. For some, even when it
occasionally kills them, find heroin and other opiates, (or any drugs for
that matter) are precisely the thing that makes them feel whole.
Was it the heroin that killed him? Whatever he shot most probably did
kill him, but had he been able to buy heroin legally, under strict quality
controls, he would have known how much to use, what was in it, not had to be
alone when doing it, not had to hide, feel like a criminal, etc.
Ibogaine mighta been good for him, but if he liked doing heroin, had the
money to do it, why shouldn’t he have been allowed to do so without fear of
being criminalized, or put down for being less than human, a “junkie.” I
really get peeved at the attitude that some drugs are cool, and others are
just plain bad. If been reading recently about how heroin itself, in its
pure form does NOT have deleterious effects on the body, being remarkably
clean and human body friendly, Under currently prohibition policies, heroin
addicts are forced to pursue outrageously inflated priced dope, fear cops,
deal with ruthless uncaring hoods who cut their heroin with all kinds of
shit, none of which would be the case were if simply legalized. Heroin is no
better or worse than any other drug, except for the added bullshit, (can I
say bullshit here, or is that bad lingo?) harms prohibition create. When I
had a good supply and way to make the money, I was able to maintain a
SERIOUS heroin habit, (1/4 grams shots 3-5 times a day of that dope in
England one had to cut with lemon or citric powder to break down under heat,
plus all the teenths I could get my hands on), and be productive, creative,
and even happy.
Of course, what with prohibition, it is nearly impossible to continue
like that for any length as a good trusted dealer will eventually get
busted.
Do you really think that all heroin addicts or users should take
ibogaine simply because you don’t like heroin? And why don’t you like
heroin? Because you’ve had to deal with junkies who have to operate under
prohibition, who’ve had it driven into their heads, (and everyone else’s
too) that to use heroin, they have to be a criminal, and they will steal,
like and cheat to get it, so they naturally live up those stereotypes? Is
that because heroin automatically makes one evil, or it is because current
prohibition policies and societal prejudices leave an addict with little
option?
Peace,
Preston

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From: “David Soriano” <soriano@penn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit
Date: April 25, 2002 at 4:52:00 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Reply-To: soriano@penn.com

Please UNSUBSCRIBE

Thank you, Dave

[Original Message]
From: Patrick K. Kroupa <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Date: 4/25/02 1:04:22 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 02:57:46AM +0200], [sara119] wrote:

| and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last
| conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
| enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .
|
|  may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,
|
| everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga
|
| that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better
life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street
othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,
|
|  I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
| I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
| Talking shit about people isn’t my style , it isn’t what healing is
| about sure doesn’t give anybody
|  a good Karma ,
|  talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

Sara…  I think, based upon my careful observations, it is the nature of
being human and alive and stuff, to talk shit sometimes…  Some people do
so more often than others…

Of course doing that, often leads to other people talking back at you…

I don’t have a problem with anybody for the most part, and think everybody
should go wherever the hell they want to go…  Whatever calls out to you,
whatever works with your financial resources, headspace and legal issues,
and brings you closer to where you’d like to be — wherever that is.

It has been my experience though, that when attempting to take the moral
higher ground, it’s a good idea to try not to trip, slip, and fall on your
ass…  It’s a very slippery slope.

peace,

Patrick

— David Soriano
— soriano@penn.com
— EarthLink: It’s your Internet.

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 25, 2002 at 3:30:56 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: sara119
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 1:57 AM
Subject: [ibogaine] talk shit ,

We know quit a lot about St, Kidds ,those who don’t like D.M. superior
talk come here , and why should they pay 12,000$ IF everybody
have the same 100% detox rate ….if you go to slovenia pay only 1000$
England 600$ same same at the end you come out clean.
even if Carl would do the treatment for nothing the person will get clean ,
and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .

may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,

everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga

Look Sarah, it’s great that you treat people and it’s great to take care of people and give them love, for sure it’s an experience that a lot of addicts probably haven’t had much of before. So, if all this stuff you do is going like it should, why do you come out with this “may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,everyone’s day will come ” -stuff? Sounds like something out of the Old Testament. We had a ibogaine conference in London, it was great! People get treated in the UK, Holland, Slovenia, Czech Rep, St Kitts, etc, etc, it’s great! I just don’t understand where all this antagonism comes in from. Why does everything have to be resolved into this whole Good vs Evil debate? There are deeper levels of reality you know. I doubt Dr Mash makes a big fortune out of treating people, but so what if she does? If people wanna pay for a full clinical set-up they can get that there. What’s the problem? Reading your stuff, it’s like everyone’s wearing a “I am Good” or “I am Bad” t-shirt and woe betide anyone with the latter, like the Day of Judgment is gonna descend upon them.

And……another thing……if people started sending me letters like this………

As soon as i finish this e-mail i’m going to the Y.M.C.A. for my shower, and play on that side of town.  I love you Sara and my prayer i pray right now  is , ” Heavenly Father, i give you glory and praise , for one such as Sara, and dear L-rd, for the sake of Your promise to us as Your children, please bless Sara with so much Spiritual and Finical  blessing that she can’t even know he to give her excess to, for we Dearest L-rd know that , we are Your Hand and Your feet, and your eyes, For we as Your Eyes which look, compassion on this world, we are Your Feet to which walk to do good and Your Hands to which You bless all the earth.”  Love earl

……….I’d start getting a bit worried about where the treatment was going. OK, the guy’s just come off drugs but he’s projecting like crazy and it don’t sound too healthy to me.

that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,

I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
Talking shit about people isn’t my style

Yeah, right! I mean, totally! And if anyone disagrees then the Vengeance of the L-rd will descend upon them.

Nick

, it isn’t what healing is about sure doesn’t give anybody
a good Karma ,
talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

be well,

Sara

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 3:10:07 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Although, your question was interesting…  My experiences while being
altered and around animals, are pretty much dogs appear to be highly in
sync with where you are at…  cats have been all over the spectrum for
me, ranging from throwing themselves down and purring, to hissing and
spitting and bailing…  Perhaps related to my states of mind at the
time… <

Whew, glad to know I’m not the only one who has experienced such reactions
among my pet, (7 cats currently, but I’ve seen it in rats and ferrets as
well). Guess I’m not crazy then.;-))
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 1:35 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 11:36:40PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| Well, were that there were more crazy people then, if my very short-term
| knowing Patrick is any indication of what to expect from crazies.;-))))
|     Thank goodness he’s not ‘normal’ either. Can’t say I actually know
too
| many of that type anyway.
|     Sorry all, I realize that once again, I’m posting completely off
topic
| of ibogaine.
|     And, btw, did anyone have any comments on my pet questions from
earlier
| today?
|     Peace, and joy,
|     Preston

Laughing…  Hey, thanks Preston, the feeling is very mutual…  I dunno,
I’ve heard that accusation pointed in my direction so many thousands of
times, that perhaps there is some truth to it; perhaps it’s all a point of
view, I dunno, but it’s no longer one of the things I worry about.

Although, your question was interesting…  My experiences while being
altered and around animals, are pretty much dogs appear to be highly in
sync with where you are at…  cats have been all over the spectrum for
me, ranging from throwing themselves down and purring, to hissing and
spitting and bailing…  Perhaps related to my states of mind at the
time…

too cool, I have a bright glow in the dark green lizard walking up my
wall…  This is one thing I like about Miami a lot, you open a door
or office at like 1am, and instead of the cockroach scene that greets you
in NYC, there is like a horde of little lizards which spin off in all
directions and scatter…

If St. Kitts mysteriously vanished, where would I dose…  Hum… well, I
absolutely, positively and without a doubt wouldn’t do it in the US, in
the comfort of my own place, because obviously this violates national
security, is super-naughty, highly bad, and very illegal…  So, uhm, my
primary interest would be knowing the origin of the materials, wanting
HCL, and selecting my own dose (within reason, I ain’t gonna kill myself,
but I wanna go buh-bye into neverland)…  The secondary concern would be
the set, setting, vibe, where and who, of the situation.  So what applies
for me personally would not necessarily matter to anyone else.  All this
means that me, myself, and I, would probably go and become a priest in
Marko’s cool religion, and/or hang with Hattie for a while…  Simply
because I know and like both of them, would feel comfortable and safe
there while tripping — I meant to say, experiencing spiritual
realignment, and getting a tuneup — and wouldn’t have my head filled with
thoughts like, “I am NOT tripping here, they’re gonna try to kill me while
i’m under and then just get rid of my body, fuck this, what was I
thinking, I gotta get out of here now…  Shit.. I can’t feel my body or
move and have severe ataxia…”

I guess it just amounts to being with people whose headspace I would not
mind sharing in that kinda way…  Perhaps we should gather Dave, Marko,
Nick, Dana, Howard, Preston, Francis =), Hattie, Drew, Bruce — who I will
kidnap for his own good, and Bill, and yes Carl, because Carl needs a
great big hug, and to set down the UFO repair manuals, and Sara, and b0b!,
and Andria, and Brian, because Brian desperately needs to DO some
ibogaine, and Jon, and the people from the east, the west, the north, the
south, those living inside the earth’s core, and in outer space, and
everybody who I forgot because I’m fried right now, like all the chicks
whose names start with the letter “C” and email from yahoo, and just have
a great big giant Be In, man, radiating good vibes and celestial harmony
in all directions.

Err, excuse me, I meant to say, ignore all that, it’s crazy talk.  But
everything prior to the last paragraph applies, except for that stuff
about dogs and cats, which I never said, at all.  Although John Lilly
tripped a lot while getting in touch with Dolphins.  And wrote quite a bit
about his experiences.

That’s it then.  And…  the lizard has stopped moving up my wall and is
either asleep, or just Being Zen.

g’night,

Patrick

p.s., wow, that was just Too Much positive energy, if the shooting range
were open I’d wake up Dr. Doom (who would be at the Be In as well) and go
fire automatic weapons into targets.

p.s., part II:  Plus, also, though, to mention: my relationship with
ibogaine and what it is, has changed considerably from where I started.
Were I strung out, all these questions would be totally pointless…
“Where do I want to dose and with who?  What’re you fucking kidding me?
Gimme the shit and I’ll dose in the mens room of a goddamn gas station, I
gotta get unsprung.”

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 2:51:13 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Patrick
Sure,man but landing in the U.S. is tricky since they started that Missile Defence Agency shooting-first-and-asking-questions-later trip.However,you may soon build your own through:

Home


Don’t forget to hoist the Jolly Roger…
Carlito

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Thu, 25 Apr 2002 12:48:20 -0400

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 06:17:14AM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| Dear Patrick
| Who told you about the saucer repairs manual?
| That’s supposed to be classified…
| and what happened to my posting about:
| http://www.almartinraw.com/column56.html
| Looking forward to your proposed gathering of heads…
| (if I’m not on Sirius B repairing some goddamn saucer)
|                                               peace,Carl W.

Look, that’s it.  I give up, if you are missing any spare parts, perhaps
something can be found here:

http://www.crashdebris.com/

If you ever get it working, please lemme know.  I’d like to go for a ride!

peace,

Patrick

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] was Facts, now questions on finding, and the uses of ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 2:12:40 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 01:56:03PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| QUESTION- Is ibogaine ever used for other addictions, such at tobacco? I am
| REALLY having trouble kicking tobacco, even while I feel it clogging my
| veins and lungs. (gee, reminds me so much of when I was speedballing- I can
| feel the death drawing near, but what the hell, I CAN’T QUIT. I’d rather not
| go the patch/gum route, (patches skeeve me out, and I can’t chew gum.)

Every time I’ve dosed with ibogaine I have had to work REALLY HARD to
restart smoking.  I light a cigarette and literally would vomit, I had to
slowly work back up using menthols (blah).  I am proud to say that in
a triumpth of the human spirit, I now hover at roughly two packs a day
of Marlboros.  Woo hoo!

Basically, I didn’t WANT to stop smoking, I was cutting loose so many
other things at the time…  Right now I know I probably should stop, but
have suffered no ill effects from it yet — that I can tell — so being
real, and familiar with that whole “addiction,” scenario, means I am not
motivated enough to take action in this direction.

So yeah, I prolly should stop smoking, but I’m not quite at the stage
where I really want to.  Yet….

But uhm <drinking coffee, waking up brain> yeah, it sure appears to work
for that.  Furthermore, out of all the people I know who have dosed with
ibo, become health freaks, or whatever, as part of their recovery,
concluded that smoking was super-bad, and redosed with the INTENT of
stopping…  It appears to have a 100% success rate (out of the, lessee, 4
guys I personally know who have done this anyway).  It doesn’t seem to
be a major change, on par with cutting heroin loose; you’re just left with
this awkward urge to stick things in your mouth, and walk around with
lighters, which eventually passes.

z00m,

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] was Facts, now questions on finding, and the uses of ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 1:56:03 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

And something about being crazy: I might be crazy, but I’m not stupid. (I
usually say this when someone tells me that I’m crazy). And I prefer being
crazy to being sane, if “sane” means what majority of sheep (sorry, I mean
“people”) are.<

Good point- Which are the crazy ones- the sheeple, or those of us who
actually utilize our brains and freewill, refusing to buy into the endless
barrages of big-brother cogishness?
That’s a rhetorical questions by the way.
QUESTION- Is ibogaine ever used for other addictions, such at tobacco? I am
REALLY having trouble kicking tobacco, even while I feel it clogging my
veins and lungs. (gee, reminds me so much of when I was speedballing- I can
feel the death drawing near, but what the hell, I CAN’T QUIT. I’d rather not
go the patch/gum route, (patches skeeve me out, and I can’t chew gum.)
Granted, ibogaine appears to be illegal in my freedom loving country,
but I’ve not gotten a new passport, nor do I have $600-$800 plus ticket
price to get to London, much less $12,000 to get to this St. Kitts place.
Anyone know anyone who might be more underground but reputable in the
US, who while obviously not breaking any laws, might in some way be able to
help me, uh, find ibogaine and guide me?
Obviously, you can answer me off list, or on list, either way. PLEASE
give me feedback on this. As I also make my meager living, (such as it is)
by writing almost exclusively on the War on Drugs, and any and all subjects
I think to be even tangentially connected to the topic, I’d also be VERY
interested in writing up the experience, as Dana has suggested a few time to
me know to do.;-))
Again, feedback will be MOST appreciated.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Ustanova Iboga” <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 7:16 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

Thank you, Patrick, you spared me a lot of typing…

I think it’s OK to “advertise” certain facility (and all of them!) in
mailing list (but not too often!! ;-)) – so people can find something that
suits them. An old pesant saying in my country says “I have five fingers
on
my hand, and each is different” meaning in our context that everyone
should
take that detox which suits him/her. If someone has a lot of money and
prefers medical setting then he/she can go to Panama or St. Kitts, others
can choose Sara or Carl or Brian or whoever or anyone else (I think that
Nick has quite a good site with treatment and other providers!). But I
think it’s NOT OK to say that someone is better than others, or that one
product is better than other without supporting that without a proof.

My wish is to have a place where people could stay at least for 2 months;
taking Ibogaine upon arrival and having intensive psychosocial
rehabilitation for the rest of staying. I’m quite sure that long-term
success rate would be over 90%!!

And something about being crazy: I might be crazy, but I’m not stupid. (I
usually say this when someone tells me that I’m crazy). And I prefer being
crazy to being sane, if “sane” means what majority of sheep (sorry, I mean
“people”) are.

😉
Marko

At 01:09 25.4.2002, you wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg]
wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people
who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written
down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your
memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try
to

Carl …  There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place.  I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have.  For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need
to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine.  Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary.  C’est la’vie.

However … in general, it’s been my observation that whatever our
differences, our central belief is that ibogaine works; however you
choose
to define “works.”  And there are a variety of locations on planet earth,
where those who would choose to partake of it, may avail themselves.

In general I believe this to be a GOOD THING.

I am unclear how tossing out various petty problems, and restarting the
infighting which has mostly faded over the course of the past several
years, is going to assist “our” primary goals of at the very least
promoting awareness of ibogaine.

NONE of this is directed at Sara, whom I don’t know very well, but hear
positive things about and believe to be a nice person doing what she
believes is good, to the best of her ability to do so.

Were I to do what you just did — toss out various hearsay, under the
guise of facts, I might have a few salient questions…  The “indra”
materials and what’s in them…  Well, I don’t know all facts and details
of all materials on planet earth which were originally created by you,
but
I do know the lab analysis of 5 seperate lots thus far…  It isn’t
exactly inspirational…  I might ask if you’ve had success in dealing
with your own substance abuse problems…  I could question the abilities
of a “guide” who appears to be suffering psychotic breaks on a regular
basis; and how this person is going to help anyone maintain any sort of
positive state, which they themselves are not in…

But I won’t.  Because it’s all just hearsay, so why bother.

Pardon me, I’m sorry, I’m probably wrong, and have simply forgotten that
the Inner People of the Outer Planes, dropped a Transdimensional Gate in
your living room — while they were storing some left over UFO parts in
the basement — allowing you All Knowledge of All Things, on This Plane,
and many others…

Which is a long way of saying: dude, chill out.  If you wanna promote
yourself, your materials, Sara, it’s all-good.  I don’t think anyone has
problems with that — I certainly don’t.  But restarting petty bullshit
based upon nonsense, isn’t exactly helpful.

Whatever you may say, or feel about St. Kitts…  Nobody has ever died
there, and no one ever will.  This claim cannot be made of people
self-dosing with your materials.

| keep in touch with former clients and,while they would like to remain
| anonymous,most of them stay clean.Of course it is one thing to
eliminate
| acute withdrawal symptoms regarding opiates,and there we may all have a
| 100% success rate,quite another thing to inspire people to start a new
| life.As Sara has used Iboga for a wide variety of drug problems and not
| only as an opiod withdrawal eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate
| that I referred to was not about the few days the clients stayed in her
| house,it is in my view not only due to the pharmacodynamics,and what I
have
| tried to point out is that something more than the specific action of
| Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting good results.The reason I wrote
the

Well duh.  That’s the whole “aftercare” issue/question, and whether or
not
any particular modality can prove more beneficial than others, when a
person is unsprung and in a non drug-dependent state.

The 90% success figures are nonsense.  Anybody who makes such claims is
engaged in wishful thinking.  I would rate the DETOX rate at 100%, what
happens afterwards is all over the map.  And the truth is, YOU have NO
WAY
of knowing.  Because no one does.  You may or may not run into various
people a few years down the line, ask “hey, how’re you?”  And depending
on
their mood the answer can be almost anything.  It also has absolutely
nothing to do with “reality” and whether or not they are drug free.

You dunno dude.  Nobody does.  The closest anyone comes IS at St. Kitts,
where there are resources to track what actually happens to various
people, and obtain data.  Not lines of bullshit.

Again, I apologize, perhaps you have Alien Technology, not available to
others, which allows you to do Remote Viewing and Gather Data, in which
case I am completely wrong.

| thing in the first place was because I wanted to see an overall
improvement
| in the quality of the experienced content so that clients don’t relapse
| into addictive routine perception and that therapists handle the stuff
in a
| truly enlightened manner,and,above all that people who give the stuff
to
| others know how it feels to take it.We are not working in a gas
station.

No we’re not…  I think the general goal IS improvement of long-term
effects for persons who no longer wish to be drug-dependent.

How what you’re doing is supposed to further these goals, I am unclear.

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 25, 2002 at 1:37:02 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

hey all,
Isn’t it possible that as with any method used to “kick” hard drugs, that
each of these different organizations/clinics that offer ibogaine can all
work from some people? Maybe some people respond well to St. Kitts, some to
Sara and Carl’s methods, others to whomever they find to help
administer/sit/guide? Wouldn’t a lot of the beneficial effects from ibogaine
result from the trust between sitter and “patient” for lack of a better
word?
Some people may feel that if they don’t pay $12,000 they aren’t getting
the real deal, and others may feel that if they have to pay anything, it
must be a scam, no? This is again a classic example of the variety of
methods used by folks to get “clean.”
IMOHO.
Just some thoughts on this rainy, explosion-stricken NYC this Thursday
morning…uh, I mean, early afternoon.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 8:57 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] talk shit ,

We know quit a lot about St, Kidds ,those who don’t like D.M. superior
talk come here , and why should they pay 12,000$ IF everybody
have the same 100% detox rate ….if you go to slovenia pay only 1000$
England 600$ same same at the end you come out clean.
even if Carl would do the treatment for nothing the person will get clean ,
and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last
conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .

may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,

everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga

that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better life
after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street othewise
but then no body would care , just another junkie ,

I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
Talking shit about people isn’t my style , it isn’t what healing is about
sure doesn’t give anybody
a good Karma ,
talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

be well,

Sara

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?
Date: April 25, 2002 at 1:16:43 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Christ.In plain text,some purkinje cells die off after an ibogaine session,yes,(but they do regenerate in two or three weeks).So where is the problem?Now I have heard that this whole thing was used by Molliver et al to discourage the use of Ibogaine.Scaring people with “brain damage”…where have I seen that before? In papers on LSD,MDMA,THC etc,etc,ad nauseam.If things were that bad,Iboga had not been used for millennia in the Kongo.Breathing exhaust fumes for one day in a crowded city probably kills off more brain cells than a single exposure to Ibogaine,but those findings would not get publishing space in prestigous medical journals…
Carl

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?
Date: Thu, 25 Apr 2002 08:51:41 EDT

Adv Neurol 2002;89:331-59

Why do Purkinje cells die so easily after global brain ischemia? Aldolase C,
EAAT4, and the cerebellar contribution to posthypoxic myoclonus.

Welsh JP, Yuen G, Placantonakis DG, Vu TQ, Haiss F, O’Hearn E, Molliver ME,
Aicher SA.

Neurological Sciences Institute, Oregon Health and Sciences University,
Beaverton, Oregon, USA.

The experiments strongly suggested that the reason why Purkinje cells die so
easily after global brain ischemia relates to deficiencies in aldolase C and
EAAT4 that allow them to survive pathologically intense synaptic input from
the inferior olive after the restoration of blood flow. This conclusion is
based on: (a) the remarkably tight correspondence between the regional
absence of aldolase C and EAAT4 in Purkinje cells and the patterned loss of
Purkinje cells after a bout of global brain ischemia; (b) the necessity of
the olivocerebellar pathway for the ischemic death of Purkinje cells; and (c)
the build-up of pathologically synchronous and high-frequency burst activity
within the inferior olive during recovery from ischemia. Indeed, the
correspondence between the absence of aldolase C and EAAT4 to sensitivity to
ischemia could be demonstrated for zones of Purkinje cells as small as two
neurons. A second finding was that Purkinje cells are not uniformly sensitive
to transient ischemia, since they die most frequently in zones where aldolase
C and EAAT4 are absent. One implication of the experiment is that factors
beyond the unique synaptic and membrane properties of Purkinje cells play an
important role in determining this neuron’s high sensitivity to ischemia. The
data strongly imply that two properties of Purkinje cells that make them
susceptible to ischemic death are their reduced capability to sequester
glutamate and reduced ability to generate energy during anoxia. The patterned
death of Purkinje cells is sufficient to induce a form of audiogenic
myoclonus, as determined with a neurotoxic dose of ibogaine. Ibogaine-induced
myoclonus is recognized behaviorally as a reduced ability to habituate to a
startle stimulus and resembles the myoclonic jerk of rats during recovery
from a prolonged bout of global brain ischemia. Commonalities of ischemia and
ibogaine-induced neurodegeneration are the intricately striped Purkinje cell
loss in the posterior lobe and a nearly complete deafferentation of the
lateral aspect of the fastigial nucleus from the cerebellar cortex, in
particular the dorsolateral protuberance. Thus, the data point strongly to a
cerebellar contribution to audiogenic myoclonus. Single-neuron
electrophysiology experiments in monkeys have demonstrated that the evoked
activity in the deep cerebellar nuclei occurs too late to initiate the
startle response (60) and electromyography of the postischemic myoclonus of
rats corroborates this view (see Chapter 31) (20). However, the nearly
complete loss of GABAergic terminals in the dorsolateral protuberance after
Purkinje cell death would be expected to dramatically increase its tonic
firing and the background excitation of the brain-stem structures that it
innervates. The fastigial nucleus innervates a large number of autonomic and
motor structures in the brainstem and diencephalon, including the
ventrolateral nucleus of the thalamus and the gigantocellular reticular
nucleus in the medulla–structures that have been implicated in human
posthypoxic myoclonus (6, 7). We propose that the posthypoxic myoclonic jerk
of rats is, at least in part, due to disinhibition of the fastigial nucleus
produced by patterned Purkinje cell death in the vermis. The argument is as
follows: the loss of GABAergic inhibition in the fastigial nucleus after
ischemia leads to diaschisis of the motor thalamus and reticular formation
which, in turn, is responsible for enhanced motor excitability and myoclonus.
That the audiogenic myoclonus after global brain ischemia in the rat
gradually resolves over a period of 2 to 3 weeks is consistent with this
view, as restoration of background excitability after CNS damage in rats has
been documented to occur within this time-frame (61). Our view brings
together the physiologic finding that posthypoxic myoclonus appears to
originate in the sensory-motor cortices and/or reticular formation with the
consistent anatomical finding of Purkinje cell loss after ischemia, and
explains the puzzle of Marsden’s unique cases of myoclonus associated with
coeliac disease (1). Moreover, our argument is consistent with findings both
in rats (62, 63) and humans (64) that damage to the vermis impairs the
long-term habituation of the startle reflex. It remains to be determined
whether the pathologically enhanced startle responses after vermal damage
resemble brain-stem reticular or cortical myoclonus at the electrophysiologic
level of analysis. What is the purpose of the regional expression of aldolase
C and EAAT4 in Purkinje cells? The close correspondence between the spatial
distribution of aldolase C and the parasagittal anatomy of the cerebellum
(48) has led to the view that aldolase C may help specify connectivity during
development. While the present experiments do not address this issue, they
underscore the fact that aldolase plays a fundamental role in metabolism.
Because Purkinje cells have a repressed expression of aldolase A (31),
whatever role the absence of aldolase C may play during development comes at
the price of metabolic frailty later in adulthood. From another point of
view, aldolase C and EAAT4 appear to confer upon Purkinje cells the ability
to survive their own climbing fiber. Indeed, climbing fibers form a
distributed synapse that synchronously releases glutamate (or aspartate) at
all levels of the dendritic tree simultaneously (65, 66). Such synchronous
activation triggers calcium influx throughout the Purkinje cell dendrites at
a magnitude that is unparalleled in the nervous system (12), and, thus,
places an extraordinarily high metabolic demand on the Purkinje cell. The
apparently reduced level of aldolase in a subpopulation of Purkinje cells
provides the condition for energy failure and death during anoxia so long as
the climbing fibers are intact or when climbing fiber activation is
pharmacologically enhanced under normoxic conditions, such as after ibogaine
(53-56). Lastly, the argument that diaschisis produced by patterned
cerebellar degeneration leads to thalamo-cortical and reticular
hyperexcitability agrees with C. David Marsden and his colleagues’ bold
demonstration of an inhibitory influence of cerebellar cortex on motor cortex
in humans (67). Our anatomic data indicate that the spatially distinct zones
of Purkinje cells, which are killed by global brain ischemia, may be the
origin of such inhibition.

PMID: 11968459 [PubMed – in process]

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 25, 2002 at 1:00:18 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 02:57:46AM +0200], [sara119] wrote:

| and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last
| conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
| enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .
|
|  may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,
|
| everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga
|
| that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,
|
|  I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
| I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
| Talking shit about people isn’t my style , it isn’t what healing is
| about sure doesn’t give anybody
|  a good Karma ,
|  talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

Sara…  I think, based upon my careful observations, it is the nature of
being human and alive and stuff, to talk shit sometimes…  Some people do
so more often than others…

Of course doing that, often leads to other people talking back at you…

I don’t have a problem with anybody for the most part, and think everybody
should go wherever the hell they want to go…  Whatever calls out to you,
whatever works with your financial resources, headspace and legal issues,
and brings you closer to where you’d like to be — wherever that is.

It has been my experience though, that when attempting to take the moral
higher ground, it’s a good idea to try not to trip, slip, and fall on your
ass…  It’s a very slippery slope.

peace,

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 12:48:20 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 06:17:14AM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| Dear Patrick
| Who told you about the saucer repairs manual?
| That’s supposed to be classified…
| and what happened to my posting about:
| http://www.almartinraw.com/column56.html
| Looking forward to your proposed gathering of heads…
| (if I’m not on Sirius B repairing some goddamn saucer)
|                                               peace,Carl W.

Look, that’s it.  I give up, if you are missing any spare parts, perhaps
something can be found here:

http://www.crashdebris.com/

If you ever get it working, please lemme know.  I’d like to go for a ride!

peace,

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 12:28:35 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 25, 2002 at 11:56:25AM -0700], [Dana Beal] wrote:

| From: jvsilverman@yahoo.com
| Reply-To: jvsilverman@yahoo.com
| To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
| Subject: Seattletimes.com: Fans gather to mourn troubled grunge
| singer Layne Staley, dead at 34
| Status:
|
| This message was sent to you by jvsilverman@yahoo.com, as a service
| of The Seattle Times (http://www.seattletimes.com).

I have not been paying attention, mahn…  That’s not exactly shocking
news, but still, truly sucks…  Alice in Chains rocked do0d…

bummer…

Patrick

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] Shoulda Done Ibogaine
Date: April 25, 2002 at 2:56:25 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: jvsilverman@yahoo.com
Reply-To: jvsilverman@yahoo.com
To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
Subject: Seattletimes.com: Fans gather to mourn troubled grunge
singer Layne Staley, dead at 34
Status:

This message was sent to you by jvsilverman@yahoo.com, as a service
of The Seattle Times (http://www.seattletimes.com).

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 11:19:56 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Bill
Over and over again I have tried to make people understand that what I have been working with over the last eighteen years is an extract of the Iboga plant,NOT Ibogaine HCL,and that this extract differs from the HCL in its pharmacodynamic action.Using Ibogaine HCL for detox or addiction interruption is a procedure that requires rigorous clinical supervision by professional medical expertise and is,moreover a patented route and as such cannot be used without possible infringement of the rights of the patent holder(s),and therefore liable to arouse a lot of legal entanglements should it become more widespread.When I learned that this was so and that the clients had to come up with $12000 for a treatment I decided to make the said Iboga extract commercially available through an Internet shop named Indra so that the less wealthy could rig up some kind of alternative that would work on a large scale without earning the wrath of “authorities” or commercial interests etc.
(I also thought that I would make some money from the sales of the extract so that I could go on healing people gratis,as I have always done,but the boys who ran the Indra shop took it all for themselves,except five thousand dollars that I used for a trip to the U.S. and Mexico in 1999,and they have not given me anything but empty words since then,although they have no way of explaining to me where the four or five kiloes that they were given really went.I don’t think they gave it to rats,and as far as I know they are still selling the stuff and live in pleasant circumstances,while I have a very hard time indeed)
Then Sara in the Netherlands bought some of the stuff from me and found it easier to work with than the HCL & cheaper too and then we started to work together which we have done for some two years now but there were evil people who robbed her so now it is not so easy even if the clients get well,and the “authorities” give her no help or protection from criminals invading her house,and as most of the clients are broke she is now very worried because she has five kids to take care of as well as the clients and I am half dead from cancer in the pancreas and can not work anymore so much as I have before.My only concern now is to transmit to posterity what I have found in my life and I have five children of my own that I have not seen for years that would like to talk to before it is too late and I hope some one can help Sara to continue with her work.I don’t want to go into details about my clients and what happened in Cristiania Freetown in Denmark but it is true that I started with forty-four kiloes of this extract eighteen years ago and now I have about four kiloes left that I wish to work with on my own before I pass out.There may be some value in what I have written on the Internet over the years,I don’t know,but I have told the truth.
Carl W.

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Wed, 24 Apr 2002 16:02:33 -0700 (PDT)

To be more specific, there were people who went to
S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like shit.

The only firsthand account I’ve seen (on the original ibogaine list)
said the St. Kitts operation was very caring but that the trust-fund
babies-of-all-ages who were the major amount of clients were such
hardcore cases that they returned to their superior (complaining)
attitudes shortly after treatment, in spite of good therapeutic
help being available.

I’ve got no axe to grind either way here, nor any experience with
junkies, but given what has been said about junkie psychology here,
I wonder if the people who claim they were treated like shit at
St. Kitts really were – Carl, is there any room for doubt? How many
are you talking about? Did they respond well to your treatment? If
you did better with them than St. Kitts, I wonder if the difference
is more due to conventional therapy vs. ?shamanistic? (or just
individualistic) approaches?

I recently got the Bwiti CD from the Library of Congress, and was
impressed by the notes by Fernandez and the amount of structure to
a Bwiti session that wasn’t obvious from other accounts that I’ve
read. So I’m considering the social aspects more, even though we
are somewhat used to considering the trip itself to be a unique
internal thing and ignoring the context.

Bill Ross

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From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] talk shit ,
Date: April 24, 2002 at 8:57:46 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

We know quit a lot about St, Kidds ,those who don’t like D.M. superior
talk come here , and why should they pay 12,000$ IF everybody
have the same 100% detox rate ….if you go to slovenia pay only 1000$
England 600$ same same at the end you come out clean.
even if Carl would do the treatment for nothing the person will get clean ,
and I saw that happen many times , those who talk shit in the last conference in London must have had a good time ,I know Henk did
enjoy your company ,Horny for fame and excitement .

may be no one will die in st.kidds but sure they will die after ,

everyone’s day will come , only if it was after taking Carl’s Iboga

that makes it bad , well they are more people who have a much better life after taking that Iboga extract , who might have died on the street othewise but then no body would care , just another junkie ,

I know the vibes in this iboga “care taker community ” and sure
I’ll never come to a conference with you all ,Except for Howard .
Talking shit about people isn’t my style , it isn’t what healing is about sure doesn’t give anybody
a good Karma ,
talking about a price of a treatment is something else.

be well,

Sara

From: “sara119″ <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] Facilitator or miracle worker ,or both ?
Date: April 24, 2002 at 7:14:20 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

hi all ,

Nick wrote:
” If you do your best and people don’t get off, it’s no big deal,
you’re just a facilitator after all, not a miracle worker .”

If people don’t get off it is a big deal to me , I’ll try to help them anyway’s , I’ll help them only if they are open for it  , by giving them
my blessing and good energy share the pain and love with the purpose
of communication  and inspiration and maybe another treatment ,
It’s  Not about % or money but about their
well being , I’m not ” just a facilitator “and those who been here for
a longer treatment then 4 day’s will say that ,
those who just come for a 4 day’s treatment can say that ,
here are  just few letters ,

“Thank You & I cant believe my e-mail got through. Luv Ya
I will be in touch and if there is anything else I can do for you just ask.
Thank You for your friendship it’s one of few real things in life to be cherished and comforts me somehow. You are incredible women. I realize money isn’t everything but I have some things I am working on that will reap large dividends concerning my art and I will make the second donation to the cause.
PS. This site has all the info you will need”
http://leda.lycaeum.org/Documents/Psilocybin_Producer’s_Guide.10392.shtml

Dearest Sara,
you were telling me about this good times about to happen to me, well, excuse me for being a little cynical today but I’m getting pretty tired to all this shit, and completely sick of this, stuck up, pissy town, who only knows, to look down their nose at the struggling and homeless.
Here’s just the latest example.  I was playing song outside a mini-mall on thursday, when i noticed a lot of children playing on a play ground.  The Spirit of G-d impressed upon me to sing some children’s songs to em, well, i just finished the 2nd one when this police rolled up, and strip searched me, right there in front of all those kids.  Maybe it was good for them to see, to let them know where my nation and the world in general is headed.  Sara i’m just so tired and wish the our G-d would just take me home.  Pray for me ,, and think of something, as you do so often to lift me out of this dark cloud of depression i’m in right now.love earl   PS:  i’m sorry for being so selfish, how are you doing?

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Dearest Sara,
Thank you for your words of hope and your prayers.  My spirit is much brighter today and our loving G-d has , as King David said, “created in me a clean heart, and renewed a right Spirit in me”, i prayed as he did, “cast me not away from your presence oh L-rd and take not Your Holy Spirit from me, restore in me the Joy of Your salvation, and renew a right Spirit with in me”!
I have to count my blessing more, isn’t our G-d good?  I am truely blessed with things money can’t buy.  My children, you as a good friend and all the poor and needy souls here, who if it wasn’t for my words of love and peace and hope to them, and other careing people with a real heart, might give up their hope and just jump off a bridge, to this towns shame!
As soon as i finish this e-mail i’m going to the Y.M.C.A. for my shower, and play on that side of town.  I love you Sara and my prayer i pray right now  is , ” Heavenly Father, i give you glory and praise , for one such as Sara, and dear L-rd, for the sake of Your promise to us as Your children, please bless Sara with so much Spiritual and Finical  blessing that she can’t even know he to give her excess to, for we Dearest L-rd know that , we are Your Hand and Your feet, and your eyes, For we as Your Eyes which look, compassion on this world, we are Your Feet to which walk to do good and Your Hands to which You bless all the earth.”  Love earl

It’s all about true love to humanity  to God creation and how we use
the tools He gave us for healing like pray ,herbs , peyote’s , knowledge and freedom to be, We all need healing all the time we all have to find out
our goals ,healing is a miracle that we are so used to ,that we don’t even look at it as miracle , But I see the miracle all the time .

the police took all my herb ,but today you can see new plants starting
to spruit , they will have to come everyday to weed my garden because from a seed will come a plant , That’s a miracle  .
Sara

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Why Purkinje cells die?
Date: April 25, 2002 at 8:51:41 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Adv Neurol 2002;89:331-59

Why do Purkinje cells die so easily after global brain ischemia? Aldolase C,
EAAT4, and the cerebellar contribution to posthypoxic myoclonus.

Welsh JP, Yuen G, Placantonakis DG, Vu TQ, Haiss F, O’Hearn E, Molliver ME,
Aicher SA.

Neurological Sciences Institute, Oregon Health and Sciences University,
Beaverton, Oregon, USA.

The experiments strongly suggested that the reason why Purkinje cells die so
easily after global brain ischemia relates to deficiencies in aldolase C and
EAAT4 that allow them to survive pathologically intense synaptic input from
the inferior olive after the restoration of blood flow. This conclusion is
based on: (a) the remarkably tight correspondence between the regional
absence of aldolase C and EAAT4 in Purkinje cells and the patterned loss of
Purkinje cells after a bout of global brain ischemia; (b) the necessity of
the olivocerebellar pathway for the ischemic death of Purkinje cells; and (c)
the build-up of pathologically synchronous and high-frequency burst activity
within the inferior olive during recovery from ischemia. Indeed, the
correspondence between the absence of aldolase C and EAAT4 to sensitivity to
ischemia could be demonstrated for zones of Purkinje cells as small as two
neurons. A second finding was that Purkinje cells are not uniformly sensitive
to transient ischemia, since they die most frequently in zones where aldolase
C and EAAT4 are absent. One implication of the experiment is that factors
beyond the unique synaptic and membrane properties of Purkinje cells play an
important role in determining this neuron’s high sensitivity to ischemia. The
data strongly imply that two properties of Purkinje cells that make them
susceptible to ischemic death are their reduced capability to sequester
glutamate and reduced ability to generate energy during anoxia. The patterned
death of Purkinje cells is sufficient to induce a form of audiogenic
myoclonus, as determined with a neurotoxic dose of ibogaine. Ibogaine-induced
myoclonus is recognized behaviorally as a reduced ability to habituate to a
startle stimulus and resembles the myoclonic jerk of rats during recovery
from a prolonged bout of global brain ischemia. Commonalities of ischemia and
ibogaine-induced neurodegeneration are the intricately striped Purkinje cell
loss in the posterior lobe and a nearly complete deafferentation of the
lateral aspect of the fastigial nucleus from the cerebellar cortex, in
particular the dorsolateral protuberance. Thus, the data point strongly to a
cerebellar contribution to audiogenic myoclonus. Single-neuron
electrophysiology experiments in monkeys have demonstrated that the evoked
activity in the deep cerebellar nuclei occurs too late to initiate the
startle response (60) and electromyography of the postischemic myoclonus of
rats corroborates this view (see Chapter 31) (20). However, the nearly
complete loss of GABAergic terminals in the dorsolateral protuberance after
Purkinje cell death would be expected to dramatically increase its tonic
firing and the background excitation of the brain-stem structures that it
innervates. The fastigial nucleus innervates a large number of autonomic and
motor structures in the brainstem and diencephalon, including the
ventrolateral nucleus of the thalamus and the gigantocellular reticular
nucleus in the medulla–structures that have been implicated in human
posthypoxic myoclonus (6, 7). We propose that the posthypoxic myoclonic jerk
of rats is, at least in part, due to disinhibition of the fastigial nucleus
produced by patterned Purkinje cell death in the vermis. The argument is as
follows: the loss of GABAergic inhibition in the fastigial nucleus after
ischemia leads to diaschisis of the motor thalamus and reticular formation
which, in turn, is responsible for enhanced motor excitability and myoclonus.
That the audiogenic myoclonus after global brain ischemia in the rat
gradually resolves over a period of 2 to 3 weeks is consistent with this
view, as restoration of background excitability after CNS damage in rats has
been documented to occur within this time-frame (61). Our view brings
together the physiologic finding that posthypoxic myoclonus appears to
originate in the sensory-motor cortices and/or reticular formation with the
consistent anatomical finding of Purkinje cell loss after ischemia, and
explains the puzzle of Marsden’s unique cases of myoclonus associated with
coeliac disease (1). Moreover, our argument is consistent with findings both
in rats (62, 63) and humans (64) that damage to the vermis impairs the
long-term habituation of the startle reflex. It remains to be determined
whether the pathologically enhanced startle responses after vermal damage
resemble brain-stem reticular or cortical myoclonus at the electrophysiologic
level of analysis. What is the purpose of the regional expression of aldolase
C and EAAT4 in Purkinje cells? The close correspondence between the spatial
distribution of aldolase C and the parasagittal anatomy of the cerebellum
(48) has led to the view that aldolase C may help specify connectivity during
development. While the present experiments do not address this issue, they
underscore the fact that aldolase plays a fundamental role in metabolism.
Because Purkinje cells have a repressed expression of aldolase A (31),
whatever role the absence of aldolase C may play during development comes at
the price of metabolic frailty later in adulthood. From another point of
view, aldolase C and EAAT4 appear to confer upon Purkinje cells the ability
to survive their own climbing fiber. Indeed, climbing fibers form a
distributed synapse that synchronously releases glutamate (or aspartate) at
all levels of the dendritic tree simultaneously (65, 66). Such synchronous
activation triggers calcium influx throughout the Purkinje cell dendrites at
a magnitude that is unparalleled in the nervous system (12), and, thus,
places an extraordinarily high metabolic demand on the Purkinje cell. The
apparently reduced level of aldolase in a subpopulation of Purkinje cells
provides the condition for energy failure and death during anoxia so long as
the climbing fibers are intact or when climbing fiber activation is
pharmacologically enhanced under normoxic conditions, such as after ibogaine
(53-56). Lastly, the argument that diaschisis produced by patterned
cerebellar degeneration leads to thalamo-cortical and reticular
hyperexcitability agrees with C. David Marsden and his colleagues’ bold
demonstration of an inhibitory influence of cerebellar cortex on motor cortex
in humans (67). Our anatomic data indicate that the spatially distinct zones
of Purkinje cells, which are killed by global brain ischemia, may be the
origin of such inhibition.

PMID: 11968459 [PubMed – in process]

————————————————————————

 

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 7:16:35 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Thank you, Patrick, you spared me a lot of typing…

I think it’s OK to “advertise” certain facility (and all of them!) in mailing list (but not too often!! ;-)) – so people can find something that suits them. An old pesant saying in my country says “I have five fingers on my hand, and each is different” meaning in our context that everyone should take that detox which suits him/her. If someone has a lot of money and prefers medical setting then he/she can go to Panama or St. Kitts, others can choose Sara or Carl or Brian or whoever or anyone else (I think that Nick has quite a good site with treatment and other providers!). But I think it’s NOT OK to say that someone is better than others, or that one product is better than other without supporting that without a proof.

My wish is to have a place where people could stay at least for 2 months; taking Ibogaine upon arrival and having intensive psychosocial rehabilitation for the rest of staying. I’m quite sure that long-term success rate would be over 90%!!

And something about being crazy: I might be crazy, but I’m not stupid. (I usually say this when someone tells me that I’m crazy). And I prefer being crazy to being sane, if “sane” means what majority of sheep (sorry, I mean “people”) are.

😉
Marko

At 01:09 25.4.2002, you wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl …  There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place.  I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have.  For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine.  Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary.  C’est la’vie.

However … in general, it’s been my observation that whatever our
differences, our central belief is that ibogaine works; however you choose
to define “works.”  And there are a variety of locations on planet earth,
where those who would choose to partake of it, may avail themselves.

In general I believe this to be a GOOD THING.

I am unclear how tossing out various petty problems, and restarting the
infighting which has mostly faded over the course of the past several
years, is going to assist “our” primary goals of at the very least
promoting awareness of ibogaine.

NONE of this is directed at Sara, whom I don’t know very well, but hear
positive things about and believe to be a nice person doing what she
believes is good, to the best of her ability to do so.

Were I to do what you just did — toss out various hearsay, under the
guise of facts, I might have a few salient questions…  The “indra”
materials and what’s in them…  Well, I don’t know all facts and details
of all materials on planet earth which were originally created by you, but
I do know the lab analysis of 5 seperate lots thus far…  It isn’t
exactly inspirational…  I might ask if you’ve had success in dealing
with your own substance abuse problems…  I could question the abilities
of a “guide” who appears to be suffering psychotic breaks on a regular
basis; and how this person is going to help anyone maintain any sort of
positive state, which they themselves are not in…

But I won’t.  Because it’s all just hearsay, so why bother.

Pardon me, I’m sorry, I’m probably wrong, and have simply forgotten that
the Inner People of the Outer Planes, dropped a Transdimensional Gate in
your living room — while they were storing some left over UFO parts in
the basement — allowing you All Knowledge of All Things, on This Plane,
and many others…

Which is a long way of saying: dude, chill out.  If you wanna promote
yourself, your materials, Sara, it’s all-good.  I don’t think anyone has
problems with that — I certainly don’t.  But restarting petty bullshit
based upon nonsense, isn’t exactly helpful.

Whatever you may say, or feel about St. Kitts…  Nobody has ever died
there, and no one ever will.  This claim cannot be made of people
self-dosing with your materials.

| keep in touch with former clients and,while they would like to remain
| anonymous,most of them stay clean.Of course it is one thing to eliminate
| acute withdrawal symptoms regarding opiates,and there we may all have a
| 100% success rate,quite another thing to inspire people to start a new
| life.As Sara has used Iboga for a wide variety of drug problems and not
| only as an opiod withdrawal eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate
| that I referred to was not about the few days the clients stayed in her
| house,it is in my view not only due to the pharmacodynamics,and what I have
| tried to point out is that something more than the specific action of
| Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting good results.The reason I wrote the

Well duh.  That’s the whole “aftercare” issue/question, and whether or not
any particular modality can prove more beneficial than others, when a
person is unsprung and in a non drug-dependent state.

The 90% success figures are nonsense.  Anybody who makes such claims is
engaged in wishful thinking.  I would rate the DETOX rate at 100%, what
happens afterwards is all over the map.  And the truth is, YOU have NO WAY
of knowing.  Because no one does.  You may or may not run into various
people a few years down the line, ask “hey, how’re you?”  And depending on
their mood the answer can be almost anything.  It also has absolutely
nothing to do with “reality” and whether or not they are drug free.

You dunno dude.  Nobody does.  The closest anyone comes IS at St. Kitts,
where there are resources to track what actually happens to various
people, and obtain data.  Not lines of bullshit.

Again, I apologize, perhaps you have Alien Technology, not available to
others, which allows you to do Remote Viewing and Gather Data, in which
case I am completely wrong.

| thing in the first place was because I wanted to see an overall improvement
| in the quality of the experienced content so that clients don’t relapse
| into addictive routine perception and that therapists handle the stuff in a
| truly enlightened manner,and,above all that people who give the stuff to
| others know how it feels to take it.We are not working in a gas station.

No we’re not…  I think the general goal IS improvement of long-term
effects for persons who no longer wish to be drug-dependent.

How what you’re doing is supposed to further these goals, I am unclear.

Patrick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 6:26:20 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Cc: <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 11:37 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
that
there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who went
to
S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like shit.Yes I
have
the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down before in the
other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory serves you well
you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to keep in touch
with
former clients and,while they would like to remain anonymous,most of them
stay clean.Of course it is one thing to eliminate acute withdrawal
symptoms
regarding opiates,and there we may all have a 100% success rate,quite
another thing to inspire people to start a new life.As Sara has used Iboga
for a wide variety of drug problems and not only as an opiod withdrawal
eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate that I referred to was not
about
the few days the clients stayed in her house,it is in my view not only due
to the pharmacodynamics,and what I have tried to point out is that
something
more than the specific action of Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting
good
results.The reason I wrote the thing in the first place was because I
wanted
to see an overall improvement in the quality of the experienced content so
that clients don’t relapse into addictive routine perception and that
therapists handle the stuff in a truly enlightened manner,and,above all
that
people who give the stuff to others know how it feels to take it.We are
not
working in a gas station.
Carl

Personally, I’d be very skeptical of anyone claiming to get 90% results with
ibogaine over time. This based on my own limited personal use and limited
treating of others AND on the number of emails and other communications I
get back through my site from people who’ve been treated in Holland and all
over the world.

People making such claims might be well meaning, but I don’t think it
achieves much. Generally, I figure they have a psychological NEED to believe
they are the administrator of some kind of wondrous healing balm, they NEED
to believe ibogaine is a wonder cure. In short, they are exteriorizing THEIR
own need for healing and so constantly experience a need to heal OTHER
PEOPLE. The fear repressed within, the stuff of their own they don’t want to
look at, means they NEED to believe ibogaine works and so resist any
suggestion that things might not be quite as rosy as they make out.

Imo, it’s real good not to get CAUGHT UP IN RESULTS with something like
ibogaine. If you do your best and people don’t get off, it’s no big deal,
you’re just a facilitator after all, not a miracle worker. I’d say 40% at 6
months post treatment would be a great result. And you’d get to stay real
into the bargain.

Just my 2c

Nick

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] ibogaine history
Date: April 25, 2002 at 5:21:20 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Elsevier Science has authorized the publication of “A Contemporary History of
Ibogaine the United States and Europe” Chapter 14 , Volume 56, The Alkaloids:
Ibogaine: Proceedings of the first international Conference.  The Editors are
Cordell,   Alper and Glick.  The work is diverse and interesting.  Anyone”s
cup of tea or whatever you take in the morning to last you all day.

Since the article talks about just about everyone it should be good for
conversation.

Have fun.

<www.ibogaine.org/whatsnew.html>
or
<www.ibogaine.desk.nl/whatsnew.html>

Howard
_

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 2:17:14 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: digital@phantom.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Patrick
Who told you about the saucer repairs manual?
That’s supposed to be classified…
and what happened to my posting about:
http://www.almartinraw.com/column56.html
Looking forward to your proposed gathering of heads…
(if I’m not on Sirius B repairing some goddamn saucer)
peace,Carl W.

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Thu, 25 Apr 2002 01:35:28 -0400

On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 11:36:40PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| Well, were that there were more crazy people then, if my very short-term
| knowing Patrick is any indication of what to expect from crazies.;-))))
|     Thank goodness he’s not ‘normal’ either. Can’t say I actually know too
| many of that type anyway.
|     Sorry all, I realize that once again, I’m posting completely off topic
| of ibogaine.
|     And, btw, did anyone have any comments on my pet questions from earlier
| today?
|     Peace, and joy,
|     Preston

Laughing…  Hey, thanks Preston, the feeling is very mutual…  I dunno,
I’ve heard that accusation pointed in my direction so many thousands of
times, that perhaps there is some truth to it; perhaps it’s all a point of
view, I dunno, but it’s no longer one of the things I worry about.

Although, your question was interesting…  My experiences while being
altered and around animals, are pretty much dogs appear to be highly in
sync with where you are at…  cats have been all over the spectrum for
me, ranging from throwing themselves down and purring, to hissing and
spitting and bailing…  Perhaps related to my states of mind at the
time…

too cool, I have a bright glow in the dark green lizard walking up my
wall…  This is one thing I like about Miami a lot, you open a door
or office at like 1am, and instead of the cockroach scene that greets you
in NYC, there is like a horde of little lizards which spin off in all
directions and scatter…

If St. Kitts mysteriously vanished, where would I dose…  Hum… well, I
absolutely, positively and without a doubt wouldn’t do it in the US, in
the comfort of my own place, because obviously this violates national
security, is super-naughty, highly bad, and very illegal…  So, uhm, my
primary interest would be knowing the origin of the materials, wanting
HCL, and selecting my own dose (within reason, I ain’t gonna kill myself,
but I wanna go buh-bye into neverland)…  The secondary concern would be
the set, setting, vibe, where and who, of the situation.  So what applies
for me personally would not necessarily matter to anyone else.  All this
means that me, myself, and I, would probably go and become a priest in
Marko’s cool religion, and/or hang with Hattie for a while…  Simply
because I know and like both of them, would feel comfortable and safe
there while tripping — I meant to say, experiencing spiritual
realignment, and getting a tuneup — and wouldn’t have my head filled with
thoughts like, “I am NOT tripping here, they’re gonna try to kill me while
i’m under and then just get rid of my body, fuck this, what was I
thinking, I gotta get out of here now…  Shit.. I can’t feel my body or
move and have severe ataxia…”

I guess it just amounts to being with people whose headspace I would not
mind sharing in that kinda way…  Perhaps we should gather Dave, Marko,
Nick, Dana, Howard, Preston, Francis =), Hattie, Drew, Bruce — who I will
kidnap for his own good, and Bill, and yes Carl, because Carl needs a
great big hug, and to set down the UFO repair manuals, and Sara, and b0b!,
and Andria, and Brian, because Brian desperately needs to DO some
ibogaine, and Jon, and the people from the east, the west, the north, the
south, those living inside the earth’s core, and in outer space, and
everybody who I forgot because I’m fried right now, like all the chicks
whose names start with the letter “C” and email from yahoo, and just have
a great big giant Be In, man, radiating good vibes and celestial harmony
in all directions.

Err, excuse me, I meant to say, ignore all that, it’s crazy talk.  But
everything prior to the last paragraph applies, except for that stuff
about dogs and cats, which I never said, at all.  Although John Lilly
tripped a lot while getting in touch with Dolphins.  And wrote quite a bit
about his experiences.

That’s it then.  And…  the lizard has stopped moving up my wall and is
either asleep, or just Being Zen.

g’night,

Patrick

p.s., wow, that was just Too Much positive energy, if the shooting range
were open I’d wake up Dr. Doom (who would be at the Be In as well) and go
fire automatic weapons into targets.

p.s., part II:  Plus, also, though, to mention: my relationship with
ibogaine and what it is, has changed considerably from where I started.
Were I strung out, all these questions would be totally pointless…
“Where do I want to dose and with who?  What’re you fucking kidding me?
Gimme the shit and I’ll dose in the mens room of a goddamn gas station, I
gotta get unsprung.”

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 1:35:28 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 11:36:40PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| Well, were that there were more crazy people then, if my very short-term
| knowing Patrick is any indication of what to expect from crazies.;-))))
|     Thank goodness he’s not ‘normal’ either. Can’t say I actually know too
| many of that type anyway.
|     Sorry all, I realize that once again, I’m posting completely off topic
| of ibogaine.
|     And, btw, did anyone have any comments on my pet questions from earlier
| today?
|     Peace, and joy,
|     Preston

Laughing…  Hey, thanks Preston, the feeling is very mutual…  I dunno,
I’ve heard that accusation pointed in my direction so many thousands of
times, that perhaps there is some truth to it; perhaps it’s all a point of
view, I dunno, but it’s no longer one of the things I worry about.

Although, your question was interesting…  My experiences while being
altered and around animals, are pretty much dogs appear to be highly in
sync with where you are at…  cats have been all over the spectrum for
me, ranging from throwing themselves down and purring, to hissing and
spitting and bailing…  Perhaps related to my states of mind at the
time…

too cool, I have a bright glow in the dark green lizard walking up my
wall…  This is one thing I like about Miami a lot, you open a door
or office at like 1am, and instead of the cockroach scene that greets you
in NYC, there is like a horde of little lizards which spin off in all
directions and scatter…

If St. Kitts mysteriously vanished, where would I dose…  Hum… well, I
absolutely, positively and without a doubt wouldn’t do it in the US, in
the comfort of my own place, because obviously this violates national
security, is super-naughty, highly bad, and very illegal…  So, uhm, my
primary interest would be knowing the origin of the materials, wanting
HCL, and selecting my own dose (within reason, I ain’t gonna kill myself,
but I wanna go buh-bye into neverland)…  The secondary concern would be
the set, setting, vibe, where and who, of the situation.  So what applies
for me personally would not necessarily matter to anyone else.  All this
means that me, myself, and I, would probably go and become a priest in
Marko’s cool religion, and/or hang with Hattie for a while…  Simply
because I know and like both of them, would feel comfortable and safe
there while tripping — I meant to say, experiencing spiritual
realignment, and getting a tuneup — and wouldn’t have my head filled with
thoughts like, “I am NOT tripping here, they’re gonna try to kill me while
i’m under and then just get rid of my body, fuck this, what was I
thinking, I gotta get out of here now…  Shit.. I can’t feel my body or
move and have severe ataxia…”

I guess it just amounts to being with people whose headspace I would not
mind sharing in that kinda way…  Perhaps we should gather Dave, Marko,
Nick, Dana, Howard, Preston, Francis =), Hattie, Drew, Bruce — who I will
kidnap for his own good, and Bill, and yes Carl, because Carl needs a
great big hug, and to set down the UFO repair manuals, and Sara, and b0b!,
and Andria, and Brian, because Brian desperately needs to DO some
ibogaine, and Jon, and the people from the east, the west, the north, the
south, those living inside the earth’s core, and in outer space, and
everybody who I forgot because I’m fried right now, like all the chicks
whose names start with the letter “C” and email from yahoo, and just have
a great big giant Be In, man, radiating good vibes and celestial harmony
in all directions.

Err, excuse me, I meant to say, ignore all that, it’s crazy talk.  But
everything prior to the last paragraph applies, except for that stuff
about dogs and cats, which I never said, at all.  Although John Lilly
tripped a lot while getting in touch with Dolphins.  And wrote quite a bit
about his experiences.

That’s it then.  And…  the lizard has stopped moving up my wall and is
either asleep, or just Being Zen.

g’night,

Patrick

p.s., wow, that was just Too Much positive energy, if the shooting range
were open I’d wake up Dr. Doom (who would be at the Be In as well) and go
fire automatic weapons into targets.

p.s., part II:  Plus, also, though, to mention: my relationship with
ibogaine and what it is, has changed considerably from where I started.
Were I strung out, all these questions would be totally pointless…
“Where do I want to dose and with who?  What’re you fucking kidding me?
Gimme the shit and I’ll dose in the mens room of a goddamn gas station, I
gotta get unsprung.”

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 11:36:40 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Well, were that there were more crazy people then, if my very short-term
knowing Patrick is any indication of what to expect from crazies.;-))))
Thank goodness he’s not ‘normal’ either. Can’t say I actually know too
many of that type anyway.
Sorry all, I realize that once again, I’m posting completely off topic
of ibogaine.
And, btw, did anyone have any comments on my pet questions from earlier
today?
Peace, and joy,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Carrie Rollins” <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 10:12 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

I’m the one who said that a few weeks ago! I think i’m one of more then a
few.
http://www.mindvox.com should explain most of it 😉
Maybe not crazy but not normal either.
Whatever that means.
In relation to what’s on this particular list he’s very normal 😉
-carrie
preston peet <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com> wrote:
why do so many people keep referring to Patrick as CRAZY? (I know this
isn’t
the first time I’ve seen this, but can’t specifically point to other
references at this time) I mean, I’ve only been corresponding with him a
short while, but while obviously very smart, funny and a real pleasure for
me to have made the acquaintance of, what exactly is it, besides his
weirdly
erratic capitalizing of letter, that makes him crazy?
Peace,

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Crazy?
Date: April 24, 2002 at 11:29:00 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In who’s institutions, and to what end? To keep society safe from us, or to
help us fit in as cog people?
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Mattias Enzer” <mattias2002@lawyer.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 10:36 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] Crazy?

FWIW nearly all of you need to be institutionalized.

Cheers,

Mattias

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 11:26:37 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

LOL Dana, oh, duh, of course. I thought perhaps there was some sort of REAL
craziness in Patrick, rather than ibogaine-affiliation slander and slurs. Ah
well.
Hagar says you’re crazy Dana? Uh-oh.
But come to think of it, it wasn’t Stroup, Hagar, Soros or Drug Policy
Alliance calling Patrick crazy, it’s been people participating in this
ibogaine list.
So I’m still wondering if there’s something about Patrick I’m missing.
Patrick? Any ideas?
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Dana Beal” <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 25, 2002 2:13 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

why do so many people keep referring to Patrick as CRAZY? (I know this
isn’t
the first time I’ve seen this, but can’t specifically point to other
references at this time) I mean, I’ve only been corresponding with him a
short while, but while obviously very smart, funny and a real pleasure
for
me to have made the acquaintance of, what exactly is it, besides his
weirdly
erratic capitalizing of letter, that makes him crazy?
Peace,
Preston

Come on Preston: NORML, Soros’s Drug Policy Alliance, and Steve Hagar
ALL say I’M crazy.

It’s obvious, according to Keith Stroup:

“The whole Ibogaine thing proves he’s crazy.”

–Keith Stroup, surreptitiously overheard berating Chris Sanders of
the International Cannabis Coalition (London) for working with Cures
not Wars in New York.

Obviously, the Ibogaine thing proves Kroupa’s crazy as well.

He agrees with me.

QED.

Dana/cnw

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 25, 2002 at 2:13:30 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

why do so many people keep referring to Patrick as CRAZY? (I know this isn’t
the first time I’ve seen this, but can’t specifically point to other
references at this time) I mean, I’ve only been corresponding with him a
short while, but while obviously very smart, funny and a real pleasure for
me to have made the acquaintance of, what exactly is it, besides his weirdly
erratic capitalizing of letter, that makes him crazy?
Peace,
Preston

Come on Preston: NORML, Soros’s Drug Policy Alliance, and Steve Hagar
ALL say I’M crazy.

It’s obvious, according to Keith Stroup:

“The whole Ibogaine thing proves he’s crazy.”

–Keith Stroup, surreptitiously overheard berating Chris Sanders of
the International Cannabis Coalition (London) for working with Cures
not Wars in New York.

Obviously, the Ibogaine thing proves Kroupa’s crazy as well.

He agrees with me.

QED.

Dana/cnw

From: “Mattias Enzer” <mattias2002@lawyer.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Crazy?
Date: April 24, 2002 at 10:36:50 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

FWIW nearly all of you need to be institutionalized.

Cheers,

Mattias

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From: Carrie Rollins <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 10:12:18 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m the one who said that a few weeks ago! I think i’m one of more then a few.
http://www.mindvox.com should explain most of it 😉
Maybe not crazy but not normal either.
Whatever that means.
In relation to what’s on this particular list he’s very normal 😉
-carrie
preston peet <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com> wrote:
why do so many people keep referring to Patrick as CRAZY? (I know this isn’t
the first time I’ve seen this, but can’t specifically point to other
references at this time) I mean, I’ve only been corresponding with him a
short while, but while obviously very smart, funny and a real pleasure for
me to have made the acquaintance of, what exactly is it, besides his weirdly
erratic capitalizing of letter, that makes him crazy?
Peace,
Do You Yahoo!?
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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 8:46:24 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

why do so many people keep referring to Patrick as CRAZY? (I know this isn’t
the first time I’ve seen this, but can’t specifically point to other
references at this time) I mean, I’ve only been corresponding with him a
short while, but while obviously very smart, funny and a real pleasure for
me to have made the acquaintance of, what exactly is it, besides his weirdly
erratic capitalizing of letter, that makes him crazy?
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Carla Barnes” <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 24, 2002 8:27 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts

I haven’t been reading ibogaine things long enough to have heard all that
which Bill said, but from reading heroin times there’s that lady going off
about people who dosed her in a hotel in NY, which is the same story that is
now on heroinhelper now that I’ve started reading hh when I learned that it
existed from the posts on this list, except it was rewritten without the
names.

I’m getting the idea there are more then a few unhappy ibogaine users who
are going off on almost everybody involved in the ibogaine scene. I’m still
waiting for Andre Chavez to come back and gush some more 🙂

Patrick that was funny 🙂 I’m veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy curious, if St. Kitts
didn’t exist and you didn’t know Dr. Mash and needed to do ibogaine. Where
would you go? I’d really like to hear that, your a strange combination of
qualities but you’re really smart, ibogaine worked for you and even if you
are crazy you at least look like you know it and pull it all in and deal
with reality. Whatever your problems you’re not having a pychotic break 🙂

Carla B

“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote: On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002
at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written
down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl … There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place. I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have. For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine. Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary. C’est la’vie.

———————————
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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 8:27:47 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I haven’t been reading ibogaine things long enough to have heard all that which Bill said, but from reading heroin times there’s that lady going off about people who dosed her in a hotel in NY, which is the same story that is now on heroinhelper now that I’ve started reading hh when I learned that it existed from the posts on this list, except it was rewritten without the names.
I’m getting the idea there are more then a few unhappy ibogaine users who are going off on almost everybody involved in the ibogaine scene. I’m still waiting for Andre Chavez to come back and gush some more 🙂
Patrick that was funny 🙂 I’m veryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy curious, if St. Kitts didn’t exist and you didn’t know Dr. Mash and needed to do ibogaine. Where would you go? I’d really like to hear that, your a strange combination of qualities but you’re really smart, ibogaine worked for you and even if you are crazy you at least look like you know it and pull it all in and deal with reality. Whatever your problems you’re not having a pychotic break 🙂
Carla B
“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl … There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place. I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have. For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine. Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary. C’est la’vie.

 

Do You Yahoo!?
Yahoo! Games – play chess, backgammon, pool and more

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 7:09:15 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 24, 2002 at 10:37:12PM +0000], [Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg] wrote:

| All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is
| that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who
| went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like
| shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down
| before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory
| serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to

Carl …  There is one diatribe from some disgruntled alcoholic who feels
that magic has not taken place.  I am cogent and aware that you do not
like St. Kitts, for whatever reasons you have.  For the most part this is
completely irrelevent, as you do not know anything about St. Kitts.

While I do not represent them, I am aware that for various reasons there
are a variety of persons who are no longer welcome there, and thus need to
find somewhere else to keep dosing themselves with ibogaine.  Unlike
various locations, they will not keep accepting people who have obvious
and extreme psychological disturbances, who are unlikely to be helped by
ibogaine in this regard.

People who are not welcome back, are likely to talk shit, and express
negative commentary.  C’est la’vie.

However … in general, it’s been my observation that whatever our
differences, our central belief is that ibogaine works; however you choose
to define “works.”  And there are a variety of locations on planet earth,
where those who would choose to partake of it, may avail themselves.

In general I believe this to be a GOOD THING.

I am unclear how tossing out various petty problems, and restarting the
infighting which has mostly faded over the course of the past several
years, is going to assist “our” primary goals of at the very least
promoting awareness of ibogaine.

NONE of this is directed at Sara, whom I don’t know very well, but hear
positive things about and believe to be a nice person doing what she
believes is good, to the best of her ability to do so.

Were I to do what you just did — toss out various hearsay, under the
guise of facts, I might have a few salient questions…  The “indra”
materials and what’s in them…  Well, I don’t know all facts and details
of all materials on planet earth which were originally created by you, but
I do know the lab analysis of 5 seperate lots thus far…  It isn’t
exactly inspirational…  I might ask if you’ve had success in dealing
with your own substance abuse problems…  I could question the abilities
of a “guide” who appears to be suffering psychotic breaks on a regular
basis; and how this person is going to help anyone maintain any sort of
positive state, which they themselves are not in…

But I won’t.  Because it’s all just hearsay, so why bother.

Pardon me, I’m sorry, I’m probably wrong, and have simply forgotten that
the Inner People of the Outer Planes, dropped a Transdimensional Gate in
your living room — while they were storing some left over UFO parts in
the basement — allowing you All Knowledge of All Things, on This Plane,
and many others…

Which is a long way of saying: dude, chill out.  If you wanna promote
yourself, your materials, Sara, it’s all-good.  I don’t think anyone has
problems with that — I certainly don’t.  But restarting petty bullshit
based upon nonsense, isn’t exactly helpful.

Whatever you may say, or feel about St. Kitts…  Nobody has ever died
there, and no one ever will.  This claim cannot be made of people
self-dosing with your materials.

| keep in touch with former clients and,while they would like to remain
| anonymous,most of them stay clean.Of course it is one thing to eliminate
| acute withdrawal symptoms regarding opiates,and there we may all have a
| 100% success rate,quite another thing to inspire people to start a new
| life.As Sara has used Iboga for a wide variety of drug problems and not
| only as an opiod withdrawal eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate
| that I referred to was not about the few days the clients stayed in her
| house,it is in my view not only due to the pharmacodynamics,and what I have
| tried to point out is that something more than the specific action of
| Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting good results.The reason I wrote the

Well duh.  That’s the whole “aftercare” issue/question, and whether or not
any particular modality can prove more beneficial than others, when a
person is unsprung and in a non drug-dependent state.

The 90% success figures are nonsense.  Anybody who makes such claims is
engaged in wishful thinking.  I would rate the DETOX rate at 100%, what
happens afterwards is all over the map.  And the truth is, YOU have NO WAY
of knowing.  Because no one does.  You may or may not run into various
people a few years down the line, ask “hey, how’re you?”  And depending on
their mood the answer can be almost anything.  It also has absolutely
nothing to do with “reality” and whether or not they are drug free.

You dunno dude.  Nobody does.  The closest anyone comes IS at St. Kitts,
where there are resources to track what actually happens to various
people, and obtain data.  Not lines of bullshit.

Again, I apologize, perhaps you have Alien Technology, not available to
others, which allows you to do Remote Viewing and Gather Data, in which
case I am completely wrong.

| thing in the first place was because I wanted to see an overall improvement
| in the quality of the experienced content so that clients don’t relapse
| into addictive routine perception and that therapists handle the stuff in a
| truly enlightened manner,and,above all that people who give the stuff to
| others know how it feels to take it.We are not working in a gas station.

No we’re not…  I think the general goal IS improvement of long-term
effects for persons who no longer wish to be drug-dependent.

How what you’re doing is supposed to further these goals, I am unclear.

Patrick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 7:02:33 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

To be more specific, there were people who went to
S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like shit.

The only firsthand account I’ve seen (on the original ibogaine list)
said the St. Kitts operation was very caring but that the trust-fund
babies-of-all-ages who were the major amount of clients were such
hardcore cases that they returned to their superior (complaining)
attitudes shortly after treatment, in spite of good therapeutic
help being available.

I’ve got no axe to grind either way here, nor any experience with
junkies, but given what has been said about junkie psychology here,
I wonder if the people who claim they were treated like shit at
St. Kitts really were – Carl, is there any room for doubt? How many
are you talking about? Did they respond well to your treatment? If
you did better with them than St. Kitts, I wonder if the difference
is more due to conventional therapy vs. ?shamanistic? (or just
individualistic) approaches?

I recently got the Bwiti CD from the Library of Congress, and was
impressed by the notes by Fernandez and the amount of structure to
a Bwiti session that wasn’t obvious from other accounts that I’ve
read. So I’m considering the social aspects more, even though we
are somewhat used to considering the trip itself to be a unique
internal thing and ignoring the context.

Bill Ross

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] questions about pets and perseption
Date: April 24, 2002 at 6:42:56 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

HI all,
I realize this is pretty off topic on a list about ibogaine, but I
couldn’t think of where else to ask such a question:

Has anyone else ever noticed that while tripping, (which of course I would
never do at this very moment-lol) their pets seem to react very oddly? That
they almost seem to be tripping too?
Please excuse this off the wall topic, but as noted, where else could I ask
such a question?
Do animals always trip? Are they in this same point all the time? Are they
really seeing the same thing I am, which it appears sometimes they do, as
they will suddenly be staring off at the same time I am, watching whatever
it is they see?
Just curious if anyone else has noticed this interesting side effect of
psychedelics.
Peace, and lots of joy,
Preston

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 6:37:12 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: sara119@xs4all.nl
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

All right Marko,as you can read in my previous statement what I mean is that there have been failures.To be more specific, there were people who went to S:t Kitts,paid twelve thousand dollars and were treated like shit.Yes I have the balls to stand up for that and it has been written down before in the other Ibogaine list now hosted by calyx and if your memory serves you well you know that I am speaking the truth.As for me I try to keep in touch with former clients and,while they would like to remain anonymous,most of them stay clean.Of course it is one thing to eliminate acute withdrawal symptoms regarding opiates,and there we may all have a 100% success rate,quite another thing to inspire people to start a new life.As Sara has used Iboga for a wide variety of drug problems and not only as an opiod withdrawal eliminating remedy,and the 90% success rate that I referred to was not about the few days the clients stayed in her house,it is in my view not only due to the pharmacodynamics,and what I have tried to point out is that something more than the specific action of Ibogaine is needed to achieve lasting good results.The reason I wrote the thing in the first place was because I wanted to see an overall improvement in the quality of the experienced content so that clients don’t relapse into addictive routine perception and that therapists handle the stuff in a truly enlightened manner,and,above all that people who give the stuff to others know how it feels to take it.We are not working in a gas station.
Carl

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: Wed, 24 Apr 2002 17:09:28 +0200

Hi Sara,

sorry, but I expect Carl to answer this question; “Why is it that Sara in
the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not
so successful? is his statement and I’m sure that he has enough bolls to
point to “them”.

Carl?

Marko

At 00:12 1.5.2002, you wrote:
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] [sharon@TheAdvocates.org: New civil liberties crisis and what you can do about it]
Date: April 24, 2002 at 12:50:57 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: sharon@TheAdvocates.org
Subject: New civil liberties crisis and what you can do about it
Date: April 23, 2002 at 9:03:34 PM EDT
To: liberator@TheAdvocates.org
Reply-To: Advocates@self-gov.org

Hi!

PLEASE NOTE: This email is longer than I would like it to be. But
because I know you’re a friend of liberty, I think you’ll find it well
worth reading.

[If you prefer to read this online and typeset, please go here:
http://www.theadvocates.org/letter.php?afid=22363 .]

This letter contains some shocking news you need to know, and some
exciting good news as well.

It covers:

* An emerging — and alarming — major new civil liberties crisis in
America;
* Startling quotes from prominent Americans about the new civil
liberties crisis we are facing (one U.S. Congressman is warning
that America could become “a police state”);
* Details on an exciting new Advocates program designed to quickly
inform tens of thousands of Americans about the new threats to our
freedom — and to enlist them in fighting for liberty!
* An opportunity for YOU to take part in this new effort;
* Reasons for optimism (needed during these troubling times!);
* The latest figures on some major Advocates projects and programs;
* A chance for you to receive some great gifts;
* …and more news and opinion of great interest to friends of
liberty.

Thank you for taking the time to read this and consider it! — Sharon
________________________________________________________

Dear friend of liberty,

I won’t mince words.

I’m not being alarmist — but I AM sounding an alarm.

This is a dire time for civil liberties in America.

Voices from across the political spectrum are warning us that our
precious Bill of Rights liberties and other freedoms are facing the
gravest threat in generations.

A few prominent examples:

The ACLU says we’re facing: “…one of the most serious civil
liberties crises our nation has ever seen.”

NRA spokesman Wayne LaPierre says: “We’ve witnessed a fire sale of
American liberties at bargain basement prices, in return for the false
promise of more security…The America being designed right now won’t
resemble the America we’ve been defending…The danger isn’t that Big
Brother may storm the castle gates. The danger is that Americans don’t
realize that he is already inside the castle walls.”

The Electronic Frontier Foundation warns: “The civil liberties of
ordinary Americans have taken a tremendous blow…”

Congressman Ron Paul — the only libertarian in Congress — says: “Our
forefathers would think it’s time for a revolution. This is why they
revolted in the first place…They revolted against much more mild
oppression.” And: “A danger also exists that the United States is
becoming a police state.”

And that’s just a small sampling.

Let me add my voice to those above: I think right now we are facing
the gravest threats to American liberty I’ve seen in my three decades
of political activism.

A TIME FOR ACTION — AND HOPE

I’m going to tell you some more about these grave threats to our
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It’s not pretty. But if you love America, and love liberty, you need
to know these things.

But first, let me assure you: this is NOT a gloom-and-doom email.

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Like every decent person, I was horrified and outraged by the events
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Center.

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new at all.

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proposals libertarians and other friends of freedom have been fighting
for years and years.

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and pushed on a frightened American public.

And too many of our fellow Americans are falling for it. Too many are
all too eager to make the terrible bargain Ben Franklin warned us
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diabolical national ID “smart card” that will use “biometric
identification methods” like fingerprints, palm prints, iris scans,
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loaded with intimate information about your health, your personal
life, your finances. The information will be stored in massive state
and federal databases.

Make no mistake: a national ID card will be a major step towards the
end of liberty in America.

* A REVVED-UP DRUG WAR: The War on Drugs is getting new impetus
from a new multi-million dollar White House / Drug Czar ad campaign
linking casual drug use to support for terrorism. Now you and I
know that the only reason terrorists sell drugs is because the
Drug War creates a massive black market that rewards them for
doing so. It’s the Drug War itself that’s to blame. But millions
of Americans DON’T know that — and they are falling for this
sinister new tactic to fan the flames of the Drug War that has
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* FEELING A DRAFT?: Discussion of a draft is back on the national
agenda — for the first time since Vietnam. The military
enslavement of young Americans is looming.

* THE USA PATRIOT ACT: If “truth in labeling” laws applied to
political bills, this awful post-Sept. 11 bill would be called
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on our most basic liberties — and will do little or nothing to
protect Americans from terrorist attacks.

Think I’m exaggerating? Ask heroic Congressman Ron Paul (R-Texas)
— the only libertarian in Congress, and a fearless champion of
freedom. Paul was one of only three Republicans who had the
courage and wisdom to vote against the act.

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characteristically blunt:

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Insight, a leading conservative magazine, asked Congressman Paul
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more mild oppression.”

Powerful words — and true!

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secret searches. It also creates new definitions of “terrorism”
and “terrorist organization” that could easily include legitimate
political protestors and other innocents.

…and that’s just a very small sample. (I’ll tell you where you
can find everything you need to know about this horrendous bill in
just a moment!)

These new assaults on liberty will have to be challenged, fought,
and repealed if America is to remain free.

* STILL MORE AWFUL PLANS: They seem to be coming from all directions
— and almost daily. Calls for gutting our already-gravely-
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Fifth, Sixth, Seventh and Eighth Amendment guarantees of
a right to a fair trial. (Can you believe you’re hearing mainstream
voices calling for the use of TORTURE in some trials?)

Further limiting our First Amendment rights to free speech and
free association. Stripping away what’s left of our financial
privacy and online privacy.

IS THIS YOUR AMERICA?

This isn’t MY vision of America. And I’m sure it’s not yours, either.

To me, America isn’t a place. It’s an IDEA. And that idea is LIBERTY
— the right of each individual to live in any peaceful way he or she
chooses.

The great men and women who formed this nation wanted America to serve
as the launching pad for a worldwide revolution for liberty. They knew
that America was the last great hope for liberty for all mankind.

I strongly believe that it still is. But it won’t remain that way unless
we can successfully challenge these new threats to that liberty
— and then go way beyond that to expand freedom in America to new
dimensions!

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This letter is calling on YOU to do GREAT THINGS for liberty — to
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dream of freedom still further.

IT’S UP TO US

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From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 24, 2002 at 11:09:28 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Sara,

sorry, but I expect Carl to answer this question; “Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so successful? is his statement and I’m sure that he has enough bolls to point to “them”.

Carl?

Marko

At 00:12 1.5.2002, you wrote:
who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] Facts
Date: April 30, 2002 at 6:12:42 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

who
are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your
answer with facts.

those whom their patients say “It doesn’t work “, where did they get a

treatment ? those who come to me and said I hope this time It will work

for me ,those had a treatment some where , I just don’t like to say

who because some people just need more then one treatment  ,

But can’t make the effort to pay so much money for it again ,

From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
Subject: [ibogaine] %
Date: April 30, 2002 at 5:41:39 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

“Anyone who decides to use models as an analytical tool or a forecasting device runs the risk of seriously confusing himself.”

I can say that 100% of the people who came for a treatment left
my house clean , only 10% started using again after two weeks,some
repeat the treatment and then stayed clean for months and years ,
but not to confuse anyone I don’t choose the people who come
and I do give treatment to people who have hiv , mental disorders
hepatitice  c , b , and to people who don’t go to halfway house or to aa
people who use valium  anti-depressant ,anti-anxiety and Laam, I don’t dose each person the same ,The  purpose of a model is to provide an indication regarding the future.The experience with which the sciences of human action have to deal is always an experience of complex phenomena. No laboratory experiments can be performed with regard to human action.
The main characteristic or nature of human beings is that they are rational animals. They use their minds to sustain their lives and well-being. The usage of the mind, however, is not set to follow some kind of automatic procedure, but rather every individual employs his mind in accordance with his own circumstances. This makes it impossible to capture human nature by means of mathematical formulae, as is done in the natural sciences.

this is to correct Carl and Marko about the % .I said this before in other words ,I hope you can relate .

Sara

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 24, 2002 at 7:57:21 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Carl,

you have my blessing 😉
(though I’m no Master ;-))

Talking about success rate is tricky, you know that. Do Sara’s clients have 90% success rate a year after treatment? Or are we talking about that short time they stay with her?

While under supervision of my priests, our (whatever you want to call them) have more than 95% success rate; but when they leave for outer world – I don’t have any data about “the time after”; they have their own lives and they do whatever they want to – it’s not up to me (or up to Sacrament of Transition) to dictate them what to do or what not to do. They are certanly advised what would be good for them, but that’s all. I guess that Sara’s success rate is based on similar, short term data. I have realised that the vast majority of our (whatever you want to call them) doesn’t want to have contacts after the initiation. Initiation is deep in their minds somehow still connected with addictions, and they simply want to forget that part of their lives.

I’ve checked again and I have to admit that I don’t have feelling I took your sentence out of context. That brings me to an unanswere question again: can you please be more precise who are “others not so succesful”? You know all protagonists in Ibogaine “movement”, so please name those who are “not so successfull. And it would be great if you could support your answer with facts.

Thank you,

Marko

At 08:02 24.4.2002, you wrote:
Dear Marko
Read my entire posting once again and hopefully you will learn what I am talking about.It is not fair to cut one sentence out of its context like you did.If you have a success rate higher than Sara’s more modest 90%,congratulations,maybe you know something special that you wish to share with us other therapists so that we also may come to the peak of perfection that you claim to sit on.Do you mean that ALL of your clients remain free from addiction after you have given them Ibogaine?
If that is so you must be the Master of the Age.Please give me your blessing so that I may become like you,some of my clients could really use that kind of help!
best regards,Carl W.

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots
and lotS!
Date: Tue, 23 Apr 2002 23:18:46 +0200

At 19:27 23.4.2002, you wrote:
Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her
clients and others are not so successful?

Sorry, Carl, what are you talking about? We have more than 90% success rate
with out (whatever you wish to call them); can you be more precise who are
“others not so succesful”?

Marko

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From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 24, 2002 at 5:11:39 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.
Why do this?
Why post it to the ibogaine list?

I figure they usually want to talk about an experience with ibogaine but are still highly unsure as to whether they really want to “own it.” A drug like ibogaine will always attempt to integrate aspects of one’s being that the ego has “disowned” through fear that if they really “were” such-and-such a person they would be in some way unnacceptable to others. This is why they started using drugs – to avoid feelings that were felt to be unnacceptable, to disown feelings – and this is what ibogaine will try and show them.
When you come round after ibo, you can either “own” what happened and begin to accept who you actually are, (as opposed to continuing with the drug-maintained front you like to show to the world), or you can continue to reject yourself and go around saying ibogaine is shite and “doesn’t work.” Andre went for Option #2 – bad choice, guy.
Nick

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?
I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.
-carrie
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick
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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 24, 2002 at 2:02:20 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: sara119@xs4all.nl
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Marko
Read my entire posting once again and hopefully you will learn what I am talking about.It is not fair to cut one sentence out of its context like you did.If you have a success rate higher than Sara’s more modest 90%,congratulations,maybe you know something special that you wish to share with us other therapists so that we also may come to the peak of perfection that you claim to sit on.Do you mean that ALL of your clients remain free
from addiction after you have given them Ibogaine?
If that is so you must be the Master of the Age.Please give me your blessing so that I may become like you,some of my clients could really use that kind of help!
best regards,Carl W.

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots  and lotS!
Date: Tue, 23 Apr 2002 23:18:46 +0200

At 19:27 23.4.2002, you wrote:
Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her
clients and others are not so successful?

Sorry, Carl, what are you talking about? We have more than 90% success rate
with out (whatever you wish to call them); can you be more precise who are
“others not so succesful”?

Marko

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 9:15:39 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

self medicating, not self
—– Original Message —–
From: “lhutcherson” <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:16 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and
lotS!

Personally, I am just MORE CONFUSED about ibogaine, after reading many of
your emails…

All I can offer is this:  As an addict of more than 25 yrs., I have gone
through Live-In therapeutic communities, methadone treatment, counselling
etc!  What is WORKING for me, FINALLY, are two things.  My PERSONAL
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and a good medical doctor who prescribed something for
my anxiety and pain.  (I have chronic osteomellitis (sp).
—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 2:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots
and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half
or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting
to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or
know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a
few messages and then leave.

Why do this?

Why post it to the ibogaine list?

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure,
which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me
add that person to my blocking list in email?

I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m
lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages
and what it should accomplish.

-carrie

Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you
Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent
thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a
get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and
without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid
to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic.
Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the
lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you
want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on
for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this
fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine
doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually
get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or
most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else,
still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for
them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU
EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another
projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in
the first place?

Nick

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 9:15:27 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

All I can offer is this:  As an addict of more than 25 yrs., I have gone
through Live-In therapeutic communities, methadone treatment, counselling
etc!  What is WORKING for me, FINALLY, are two things.  My PERSONAL
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and a good medical doctor who prescribed something for
my anxiety and pain.  (I have chronic osteomellitis (sp).<

Ibogaine for some, methadone for others, heroin for those well off and well
connected enough to maintain a habit, Religion, pot, complete abstinence,
there are so many ways that work for so many people. I completely agree that
often finding a doctor who is willing to prescribe medications that treat
pain and anxiety can be all that are needed to break a habit derived from
self a real problem.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “lhutcherson” <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:16 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and
lotS!

Personally, I am just MORE CONFUSED about ibogaine, after reading many of
your emails…

All I can offer is this:  As an addict of more than 25 yrs., I have gone
through Live-In therapeutic communities, methadone treatment, counselling
etc!  What is WORKING for me, FINALLY, are two things.  My PERSONAL
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and a good medical doctor who prescribed something for
my anxiety and pain.  (I have chronic osteomellitis (sp).
—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 2:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots
and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half
or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting
to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or
know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a
few messages and then leave.

Why do this?

Why post it to the ibogaine list?

If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure,
which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me
add that person to my blocking list in email?

I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m
lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages
and what it should accomplish.

-carrie

Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you
Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent
thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a
get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and
without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid
to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic.
Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the
lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you
want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on
for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this
fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine
doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually
get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or
most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else,
still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for
them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU
EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another
projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in
the first place?

Nick

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From: “Matt Eammons” <matteammons@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] ibogaine
Date: April 23, 2002 at 8:31:50 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I would have to echo this and agree.

I read heroin times and really like Patrick Kroupa’s writing. I’ve looked at Mindvox and the writing and art are beautiful, it’s like taking a acid trip without the acid. But this place at least for the week I’ve been subscribed is like coffee talk in the loony bin. I’ve understood nothing.

I apologize if this is some strange phase here but I’m saying, it doesn’t make any sense for someone who just signed on into the middle of it.

—– Original Message —–
From: lhutcherson <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: Tue, 23 Apr 2002 19:16:24 -0400

Personally, I am just MORE CONFUSED about ibogaine, after reading many of your emails…
All I can offer is this: As an addict of more than 25 yrs., I have gone through Live-In therapeutic communities, methadone treatment, counselling etc! What is WORKING for me, FINALLY, are two things. My PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and a good medical doctor who prescribed something for my anxiety and pain. (I have chronic osteomellitis (sp).

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From: lhutcherson <lhutcherson3@comcast.net>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 7:16:24 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Personally, I am just MORE CONFUSED about ibogaine, after reading many of your emails…

All I can offer is this:  As an addict of more than 25 yrs., I have gone through Live-In therapeutic communities, methadone treatment, counselling etc!  What is WORKING for me, FINALLY, are two things.  My PERSONAL RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD and a good medical doctor who prescribed something for my anxiety and pain.  (I have chronic osteomellitis (sp).
—– Original Message —–
From: Carrie Rollins
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 2:53 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.
Why do this?
Why post it to the ibogaine list?
If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?
I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.
-carrie
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick
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From: robertbosch@softhome.net
Subject: [ibogaine] ssris and ibogaine
Date: April 23, 2002 at 7:02:40 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Could anyone tell me either their own experience or where I could look up information on how ibogaine interacts with opiate using persons who will use it to detox and are using ssri’s.
Is it important to stop use prior to ibogaine or does it not matter?
Thanks
Rob

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 5:18:46 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

At 19:27 23.4.2002, you wrote:
Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so successful?

Sorry, Carl, what are you talking about? We have more than 90% success rate with out (whatever you wish to call them); can you be more precise who are “others not so succesful”?

Marko

From: Carrie Rollins <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 2:53:11 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I haven’t been here that long but lets say in the last month and a half or a little more there are always these people who pop up and I’m starting to see a pattern. They aren’t really clear on if they did ibogaine or not or know somebody who did or don’t like the idea or whatever, they rant for a few messages and then leave.
Why do this?
Why post it to the ibogaine list?
If I was ever hesitant about ibogaine, which I was, or wasn’t sure, which I’m not, then what is incoherent anger going to do to except make me add that person to my blocking list in email?
I know they’re angry about something, I don’t know what exactly but I’m lost as to what inside their mind they are doing by posting these messages and what it should accomplish.
-carrie
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick
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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Fwd: Earthday2002
Date: April 23, 2002 at 1:33:08 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: spacetech@yahoogroups.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: “sara119” <sara119@xs4all.nl>
To: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Date: Tue, 30 Apr 2002 23:18:53 +0200

MATRIOTISM: WOMEN AND THE FATE OF THE EARTH

Elouise Bell, Earth Island Journal
‘Matriotism’ is yin to patriotism’s yang. It’s about loyalty to
Mother Earth, not just to individual countries.

http://www.alternet.org/story.html?StoryID=12918

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LISTEN TO YOUR MOTHER!
Have you heard what Mother Earth has to say? She’s
got some advice for how you can help her out this Earth
Day. Click here to listen: http://www.environmentaldefense.org/earthday/?grp=2

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Dear George, Are you an Eco-Terrorist?
There are several issues this week that make me wonder if you are more
dangerous to the future of our planet than Osama Bin Laden ever could be.

http://www.truthout.org/docs_02/04.11D.SG.George.htm

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Changing Course — Earthday 2002
************************************   by Al Gore

On this Earth Day, and during the days and months ahead, all who care about the environment should speak out, because our environment is under siege. There is a movement afoot by polluters to dismantle America’s capacity to limit their releases of dangerous waste products and poisonous emissions, threatening to take us back to the days when America’s rivers and lakes were dying, when skylines were disappearing behind a shroud of smog, and when toxic waste threatened countless communities. America is only as healthy as the air our children breathe, the water they drink and the earth they will inherit. But instead of embracing the bi-partisan national consensus to improve our environment, the Bush Administration has chosen to serve the special interests instead of the public interests and subsidize the obsolete, failed approaches of the past, instead of the exciting new solutions of the future.
http://www.truthout.org/docs_02/04.23A.Gore.Earthday.htm

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APRIL 20 ANTI-WAR PROTESTS OVERWHELM EXPECTATIONS

Don Hazen, AlterNet
With 75,000 marchers in D.C., up to 50,000 in San Francisco
and thousands more across the country, this weekend’s
anti-war rallies surprised organizers and authorities alike.

http://www.alternet.org/story.html?StoryID=12932

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VICTORY FOR THE ARCTIC

Genevieve Roja, AlterNet
Thanks to dogged activism by environmental groups, President George
W. Bush’s dreams of drilling for oil and gas in the Arctic National
Wildlife Refuge will go unfulfilled.

http://www.alternet.org/story.html?StoryID=12916

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Federal Government vs The Last American Wild Buffalo Herd
04.18.2002

Right now there are more than 200 buffalo out of the park along the Madison River between the park boundary and the Horse Butte Peninsula. They are being captured and slaughtered on a weekly basis. I wish I could write more uplifting updates but the truth is the truth and needs to be told. Buffalo are being slaughtered systematically on a weekly basis and we are doing everything in our power to raise awareness of and stop the needless killing.
http://www.truthout.org/docs_02/04.19F.BFC.Update.htm

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Healing Our World: Weekly Comment

By Jackie Alan Giuliano, Ph.D.

Earth Day 2002 – No time for craft fairs and discussion groups

The list of events planned around the U.S. for Earth Day 2002 is chilling. While tens of thousands of people die from soil, air, and water poisoned with pesticides and scores of toxic chemicals, craft fairs, discussion groups, and lectures will be held. Lost is the passion and sense of urgency that heralded in the first Earth Day 32 years ago. The 32nd Earth Day this year will mark an unprecedented time of resource consumption and environmental violence against the Earth and our health.

For full text and graphics visit: http://ens-news.com/ens/apr2002/2002L-04-22g.html

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million hectares. One-fifth of the Earth’s rainforests have disappeared
since 1960. Worldwide, large and fully intact ancient primary forests have
been reduced to 20% of their original pre-development extent.
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World Tree Technologies Begins Shipping of Exclusive Empress Jewels

PHOENIX, AZ, Apr. 22 -/E-Wire/– World Tree Technologies Inc. is proud to announce the availability for shipment of its exclusive Empress Jewels(TM) variety of superior quality hardwood trees to locations worldwide, leading the international fight against Global Warming on Earth Day.

For full text:
http://www.ewire-news.com/wires/7911472F-D2D0-492B-B531C5AAB1188A93.htm

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THE ENVIRONMENT’S ‘NOBEL PRIZE’: 2002 GOLDMAN PRIZE WINNERS

Three North American tribal leaders, a Muslim woman from war-torn
Somalia and a Polish conservationist are among the eight recipients
of the 13th annual Goldman Environmental Prize.

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BROWER YOUTH AWARDS: HONORING SIX YOUNG ENVIRONMENTAL LEADERS

from TomPaine.com
The Brower Youth Awards honor young people who have demonstrated
outstanding environmental leadership in their communities.

http://www.tompaine.com/feature.cfm/ID/5467

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WATSON LOSES CHAIR OF CLIMATE PANEL

GENEVA, Switzerland, April 19, 2002 (ENS) – Transatlantic divisions over climate change were reconfirmed today when Dr. Robert Watson, the outspoken chairman of the Intergovernmental Panel on Climate Change (IPPC), was ousted with American support but against European wishes.

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 1:27:27 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: sara119@xs4all.nl
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear friends
Why do you use such harsh language lined with obscene words?
There may well be a few who have paid some twelve thousand dollars for Ibogaine treatment on S:t Kitts that are disappointed with the results.I have indeed learned that the success rate there was not always optimal.I believe that being gentle and supportive towards clients and radiating loving kindness in the therapy is crucial for achieving optimal results.Why is it that Sara in the Netherlands has a 90% success rate with her clients and others are not so successful?
It cannot be solely because she has a small marijuana patch in her back yard and can provide her clients with an occasional joint to relieve the nausea and nervosity,but it certainly helps to have it that way.We must realize that the experienced content of the altered state of consciousness provided by the Iboga is enhanced by a supportive atmosphere and that the therapist should have a firstand experience of the state of mind triggered by the substance,and that the whole thing is an act of sharing in confidence the sacredness of human life.

“If we accept the working hypothesis that the kernel of man is a droplet of divinity,and therefore immortal,we will obtain a more profound understanding of William Blake’s dictum:
We are put on earth a little space
That we may learn to bear the beams of love”
(George Trevelyan)
Anyone wishing to become proficient in the healing arts must be prepared to meet the client on an equal footing,and the mentality of competition and commercial incentives must be subordinate in these matters… the true professional must be willing to take into his practice and equally treat his fellows regardless of the thickness of their wallets…
“without love in the dream it will never come true”
Carl W.

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
CC: <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: Tue, 23 Apr 2002 14:17:57 +0100

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 1:07:20 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 23, 2002 at 01:17:56AM -0500], [ANDRE CHAVEZ] wrote:

| Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent
| thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a

Yup, I’m one of ’em.  Although I wound up with a considerably different
outcome then you.

| gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of
| addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your
| site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a

Hullo…  MindVox is my site.  I’m pretty much free to print whatever I
want on it.  This is a list, it’s one of several that run from the
servers; this one happens to be dedicated to ibogaine.

I don’t sell ibogaine and have never made .05 cents from it.  Moreover,
I’ve spent tens of thousands of dollars on it, getting unsprung.  ‘Course,
it worked out for me.  <shrug>

If you are unhappy with the content, you are always free to start your own
site, and see if you can find 10 people who give a shit.  <shrug>

| medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now
| !!!

Remove yourself, you signed yourself on to it, I ain’t your secretary
dude.  email: ibogaine-unsubscribe@mindvox.com and it all goes away like a
bad dream.

| I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of
| heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case,

Not particularily.  But, feel free.  Francis is on this list, and I
suppose the world is always searching for more instantiations of the Anne
Ardolino fanclub.

By the way, I don’t think “perpentrate” is a word, you may have meant
perpetrate, or possible perpetuate.

| E-ME, lying ass bitches.

Wow, somebody sure is super-cranky and lacking their wakeup shot.

Love,

Patrick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 9:17:57 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Cc: <hood_5@msn.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: ANDRE CHAVEZ
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 7:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–

Yo Andre, why don’t you just talk about what’s personally going on for you with ibogaine? Seems nearly every week we have to go through this fucking ritual with yet another whining junkie going on about “how ibogaine doesn’t work” – eventually, maybe, about 4 emails down the line we actually get to hear about what their personal issue with the drug actually is. Or most of the time not, they just go off, I guess, and wank on somewhere else, still to scared or fucked up to talk about what’s actually going on for them. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ISSUES, MAN? WHAT IS GOING ON FOR YOU EMOTIONALLY? Do we get to hear about it? Or is it just going to be another projected rant, leaving everyone in no doubt about why you’re a junkie in the first place?

Nick

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: April 23, 2002 at 8:01:17 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I have never charged anyone anything,I have given freely to those in need.Iboga alkaloids can never become over-the-counter pharmaceuticals like Aspirin or Valium,and they should not be taken without proper supervision.I don’t know who has sold what to mr Chavez’s informants,but assuredly the stuff that I have been distributing over the last eighteen years has been,and still is,appreciated for its specific action on the human nervous system.Otherwise it would have been abandoned a long time ago.Would you please be more specific as to what substance(s) you refer to and from what source it has been obtained so that the community may learn what to avoid,or are you operating on sheer hearsay with a view to slander something that threatens the present pharmaceutical house/regulatory bureaucracy monopoly on drug abuse remedies and their elaborate neurochemical behaviour control cartel?I maintain that the Iboga plant and its active ingredients work admirably well,but this is not a field where any idiot can be successful.In fact it is not even desirable to try to create any social situation where any idiot can be successful.Your present posture does not further Humanity’s Quest one iota and I have had my fair share of gossip and slander long before you even learned about the existence of these matters,but then any rabble-rousing criticism can create a following in these confused times.Watch your vibes,man,for your pride of might will be your shame.Wine is strong,women are stronger,but truth conquers all.
Carl Olov Mattias Nyblom-Waltenburg
Chairman of the board,(Retired)
Materia Medica International

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: Tue, 23 Apr 2002 12:08:30 +0200

Hi Andre Chavez,

why don’t you take you from the list yourself? Haven’t you noticed
instructions to be removed at the header of every message? Why should
someone else work for you?

As for Ibogaine, I suggest that you change your sources; it seems they are
unreliable. I know (personally) more addicts that got off drugs with help
of Ibogaine (in one year) than our medical doctors claim to get them off
drugy (in one year). And a word about overpricing: are you sure that 800
EURO is overpriced?

Another thing I’d like to ask you while you’re still on the list: please
watch your language; minors are subscribed to this list, too!

Have a nice day (and life),

Marko

At 08:10 23.4.2002, you wrote:
Please remove me from your lame ass site !!! Your site says nothing, I
found out through other sources, that your miracle (whatever) ibogaine
does not work for shit. There is alot of people out there who took your
over, and I do mean over priced garbage and they are  still addicted and
in pain. Your site does nothing but mislead poor addicts who are trying to
find anything to break the chains of addiction. Shame on yourselves. Your
the motherfuckers who need help, help on telling the truth. Take me off
your e- list. Andre’ Chavez.

—– Original Message —–
From: Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 3:11 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved

AAhh,thanks Howard!
You’ve solved my identity crisis! In a corner of my mind I always knew
somehow that I was a retired Quasar…it feels so goooood to come out of the
closet…it’s great to be alive!Hope they don’t revoke my pension for being
so frank about it.
Carl W.

>From: HSLotsof@aol.com
>Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>Subject: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
>Date: Mon, 22 Apr 2002 10:50:48 EDT
>
>This came in via email among the subjects ( [antigrav] Cold Fusion,
>Awakening
>to the Fourth Dimension, et.)to my mindvox ibogaine list mail address and
>thought I would pass it on,
>
>Howard
>
>In a message dated 4/22/02 8:10:19 AM, newscientist@processrequest.com
>writes:
>
><< NEW SCIENTIST – NEWSFLASH
>
>————————————————————————
>
>Cosmic ray mystery solved
>
>Astronomers believe they have uncovered the source of the highest
>energy cosmic rays – retired quasars. Cosmic rays are tiny,
>energy-packed particles and, although very rare, are the only sample
>of matter from outside the Solar System.
>
>To read the full story go to:
><A
>HREF=”http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid
=Ucjj
>
>bCB”>
>http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=UcjjbCB
></A>
>
>
>Read more daily science and technology news at
>http://www.newscientist.com >>

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 6:21:14 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

someone got up on the wrong side of the bed today.
I never cease to be amazed at the anger from some people who find that
things that worked for someone else didn’t work for them. “It didn’t work
for me, so you are all liars.” How sad to face life expecting
cookiecutterness.
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 23, 2002 2:17 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and
lotS!

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands,
upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich
scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any
help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real
detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez.
Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you
perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to
argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–
From: Ustanova Iboga
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 2:52 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and
lotS!

At 20:27 22.4.2002, you wrote:

<Making Aum sounds>  Whatever else I’ve done, I have yet to start my very
own ibogaine religion.  You roOl dude =)

Patrick

Hurry up, you’re a step behind… I already have my own Ibogaine
religion… 31st official religion in Slovenija…
http://www.sigov.si/uvs/frames2.htm

;-))

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From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: April 23, 2002 at 6:08:30 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Andre Chavez,

why don’t you take you from the list yourself? Haven’t you noticed instructions to be removed at the header of every message? Why should someone else work for you?

As for Ibogaine, I suggest that you change your sources; it seems they are unreliable. I know (personally) more addicts that got off drugs with help of Ibogaine (in one year) than our medical doctors claim to get them off drugy (in one year). And a word about overpricing: are you sure that 800 EURO is overpriced?

Another thing I’d like to ask you while you’re still on the list: please watch your language; minors are subscribed to this list, too!

Have a nice day (and life),

Marko

At 08:10 23.4.2002, you wrote:
Please remove me from your lame ass site !!! Your site says nothing, I found out through other sources, that your miracle (whatever) ibogaine does not work for shit. There is alot of people out there who took your over, and I do mean over priced garbage and they are  still addicted and in pain. Your site does nothing but mislead poor addicts who are trying to find anything to break the chains of addiction. Shame on yourselves. Your the motherfuckers who need help, help on telling the truth. Take me off your e- list. Andre’ Chavez.

—– Original Message —–
From: Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 3:11 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved

AAhh,thanks Howard!
You’ve solved my identity crisis! In a corner of my mind I always knew
somehow that I was a retired Quasar…it feels so goooood to come out of the
closet…it’s great to be alive!Hope they don’t revoke my pension for being
so frank about it.
Carl W.

>From: HSLotsof@aol.com
>Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>Subject: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
>Date: Mon, 22 Apr 2002 10:50:48 EDT
>
>This came in via email among the subjects ( [antigrav] Cold Fusion,
>Awakening
>to the Fourth Dimension, et.)to my mindvox ibogaine list mail address and
>thought I would pass it on,
>
>Howard
>
>In a message dated 4/22/02 8:10:19 AM, newscientist@processrequest.com
>writes:
>
><< NEW SCIENTIST – NEWSFLASH
>
>————————————————————————
>
>Cosmic ray mystery solved
>
>Astronomers believe they have uncovered the source of the highest
>energy cosmic rays – retired quasars. Cosmic rays are tiny,
>energy-packed particles and, although very rare, are the only sample
>of matter from outside the Solar System.
>
>To read the full story go to:
><A
>HREF=”http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=Ucjj
>
>bCB”>
>http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=UcjjbCB
></A>
>
>
>Read more daily science and technology news at
>http://www.newscientist.com >>

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 23, 2002 at 2:17:56 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Ibogaine is a lie, I know more than a few people who have spent thousands, upon thousands, of dollars on this shit. It is just a gimmick, a get rich scheme, that only leaves the poor families of addicts broke and without any help what so ever. Print this on your site, or are you afraid to? For real detox go to the hospitol, or to a medicated detox clinic. Andre’ Chavez. Also remove me from your list now !!! I’m going to expose the lies you perpentrate, in the next issue of heroin helper, on line. If you want to argue your case, E-ME, lying ass bitches.

—– Original Message —–
From: Ustanova Iboga
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 2:52 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

At 20:27 22.4.2002, you wrote:

><Making Aum sounds>  Whatever else I’ve done, I have yet to start my very
>own ibogaine religion.  You roOl dude =)
>
>Patrick

Hurry up, you’re a step behind… I already have my own Ibogaine
religion… 31st official religion in Slovenija…
http://www.sigov.si/uvs/frames2.htm

;-))

Marko

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From: “ANDRE CHAVEZ” <hood_5@msn.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: April 23, 2002 at 2:10:32 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Please remove me from your lame ass site !!! Your site says nothing, I found out through other sources, that your miracle (whatever) ibogaine does not work for shit. There is alot of people out there who took your over, and I do mean over priced garbage and they are  still addicted and in pain. Your site does nothing but mislead poor addicts who are trying to find anything to break the chains of addiction. Shame on yourselves. Your the motherfuckers who need help, help on telling the truth. Take me off your e- list. Andre’ Chavez.

—– Original Message —–
From: Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 3:11 PM
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved

AAhh,thanks Howard!
You’ve solved my identity crisis! In a corner of my mind I always knew
somehow that I was a retired Quasar…it feels so goooood to come out of the
closet…it’s great to be alive!Hope they don’t revoke my pension for being
so frank about it.
Carl W.

>From: HSLotsof@aol.com
>Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
>Subject: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
>Date: Mon, 22 Apr 2002 10:50:48 EDT
>
>This came in via email among the subjects ( [antigrav] Cold Fusion,
>Awakening
>to the Fourth Dimension, et.)to my mindvox ibogaine list mail address and
>thought I would pass it on,
>
>Howard
>
>In a message dated 4/22/02 8:10:19 AM, newscientist@processrequest.com
>writes:
>
><< NEW SCIENTIST – NEWSFLASH
>
>————————————————————————
>
>Cosmic ray mystery solved
>
>Astronomers believe they have uncovered the source of the highest
>energy cosmic rays – retired quasars. Cosmic rays are tiny,
>energy-packed particles and, although very rare, are the only sample
>of matter from outside the Solar System.
>
>To read the full story go to:
><A
>HREF=”http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=Ucjj
>
>bCB”>
>http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=UcjjbCB
></A>
>
>
>Read more daily science and technology news at
>http://www.newscientist.com >>

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: April 22, 2002 at 4:06:05 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

AAhh,thanks Howard!
You’ve solved my identity crisis! In a corner of my mind I always knew somehow that I was a retired Quasar…it feels so goooood to come out of the closet…it’s great to be alive!Hope they don’t revoke my pension for being so frank about it.
Carl W.

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: Mon, 22 Apr 2002 10:50:48 EDT

This came in via email among the subjects ( [antigrav] Cold Fusion, Awakening
to the Fourth Dimension, et.)to my mindvox ibogaine list mail address and
thought I would pass it on,

Howard

In a message dated 4/22/02 8:10:19 AM, newscientist@processrequest.com writes:

<< NEW SCIENTIST – NEWSFLASH

————————————————————————

Cosmic ray mystery solved

Astronomers believe they have uncovered the source of the highest
energy cosmic rays – retired quasars. Cosmic rays are tiny,
energy-packed particles and, although very rare, are the only sample
of matter from outside the Solar System.

To read the full story go to:
<A
HREF=”http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=Ucjj

bCB”>
http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=UcjjbCB
</A>

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From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 22, 2002 at 3:49:06 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

At 20:27 22.4.2002, you wrote:

<Making Aum sounds>  Whatever else I’ve done, I have yet to start my very
own ibogaine religion.  You roOl dude =)

Patrick

Hurry up, you’re a step behind… I already have my own Ibogaine religion… 31st official religion in Slovenija… http://www.sigov.si/uvs/frames2.htm

;-))

Marko

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 22, 2002 at 2:27:36 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 20, 2002 at 04:09:07PM +0200], [Ustanova Iboga] wrote:

| OK, I know (for sometime now ;-)) that Patrick is a genious (and I guess

Well yes, of course, exhibit A: my whole entire life!  Everything has gone
Exactly According to Plan!  Uhm, or not…

| that everyone around him is genious, too),

Well yes, of course, see above.

| don’t understand what is all this high-tech talk doing on this list, which
| is dedicated to Ibogaine.

Me neither, clearly he is DISRUPTING the Cold Fusion, Space War, Time
Travel, Conspiracy, Awakening, .mil/.gov IP, conversation.  Bad, bad, bad.

| Pinky White, why don’t you send Patrick private E-mails with topics not
| related to Ibogaine? I’m sure you know how to copy his addresse from the

I think, prolly, because he’s trying to be annoying =)

| Marko

<Making Aum sounds>  Whatever else I’ve done, I have yet to start my very
own ibogaine religion.  You roOl dude =)

Patrick

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Cosmic ray mystery solved
Date: April 22, 2002 at 10:50:48 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

This came in via email among the subjects ( [antigrav] Cold Fusion, Awakening
to the Fourth Dimension, et.)to my mindvox ibogaine list mail address and
thought I would pass it on,

Howard

In a message dated 4/22/02 8:10:19 AM, newscientist@processrequest.com writes:

<< NEW SCIENTIST – NEWSFLASH

————————————————————————

Cosmic ray mystery solved

Astronomers believe they have uncovered the source of the highest
energy cosmic rays – retired quasars. Cosmic rays are tiny,
energy-packed particles and, although very rare, are the only sample
of matter from outside the Solar System.

To read the full story go to:
<A
HREF=”http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=Ucjj

bCB”>
http://www.prq0.com/apps/redir.asp?link=XbddbefjCG,ZbccecggbbCF&oid=UcjjbCB
</A>

Read more daily science and technology news at
http://www.newscientist.com >>

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 22, 2002 at 9:19:54 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Cc: <hunneberg@telia.com>
Sent: Monday, April 22, 2002 8:43 AM
Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back

Dear Carla
What I mean is that the entire Star Wars trip wielded by the newly formed
U.S. agency called “MDA” (Missile Defence Agency)is a blatant violation of
the 1967 Outer Space Treaty and,as such,is illegal according to
international law.There is also evidence filtering through for public
evaluation that the entire 911 fiasco was staged by renegades in the U.S.
Air Force in collaboration with the Israeli intelligence agency Mossad,and
that the airplanes were remote controlled or had rigged autopilot discs
disabling any human pilot from controlling the aircraft,and so the entire
shop window agenda is a farce laid upon the public in cold calculating
cruelty by forces using the “terrorist” rubberstamp to create a global
military dictature.Said forces will be exposed,as they do not operate in a
vacuum (and there still are human beings who have courage enough not to
pay
mere lip service to their ideals of chastity and virtue or throw their
lives
away in petty attempts to prevent truth from revealing how they actually
live).
Carl W.

The Two Towers Fall: Awakening to the Fourth Dimension, by Nick Sandberg. A
Qabalistic interpretation of symbols arising from the September 11th
tragedy, drawing on imagery from Tarot and Revelation, now online at
www.nick2211.yage.net/twotowers.htm

Thought I’d just stick this bit of impromptu self-promotion in, as the list
had moved in this direction! It does have a bit of iboga-esque relevance,
well just about! Nick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 22, 2002 at 5:14:50 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

the entire Star Wars trip wielded by the newly formed
U.S. agency called “MDA” (Missile Defence Agency)is a blatant
violation of the 1967 Outer Space Treaty and,as such,is illegal
according to international law.

More interesting from a practical perspective is that the basic
strategy is flawed from a cost-benefit standpoint, a famous case
being the reknowned Maginot Line, which in spite of its formidable
reputation was of no value in defending France against Germany some
60 years ago.

Think of hardening a balloon against a pinprick – it is expensive to
harden the whole balloon, but cheap to make the one pin that much
more effective. The success in keeping drugs out of the US is another
case of useless perimeter defense that comes to mind. Star Wars is a
big show of tackling an interesting problem in order to avoid feeling
helpless about an insoluble one. Which helps security about as much as
state-sponsored gambling helps schools.

The moral/legal side is lamentable, the only comfort being that the
enterprise weakens the country that undertakes it. As a Bosnian
general once said of the Americans, “With friends like this, who needs
enemies?” <multiple levels of sarcasm on my part>

On a more positive note vis-a-vis the state providing security, I can
report that tonight firefighters saved the house I live in from burning,
when the abutting one went up completely (both made of wood and a good
breeze blowing in our direction).

Bill Ross

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 22, 2002 at 3:43:33 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: hunneberg@telia.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Carla
What I mean is that the entire Star Wars trip wielded by the newly formed U.S. agency called “MDA” (Missile Defence Agency)is a blatant violation of the 1967 Outer Space Treaty and,as such,is illegal according to international law.There is also evidence filtering through for public evaluation that the entire 911 fiasco was staged by renegades in the U.S. Air Force in collaboration with the Israeli intelligence agency Mossad,and that the airplanes were remote controlled or had rigged autopilot discs disabling any human pilot from controlling the aircraft,and so the entire shop window agenda is a farce laid upon the public in cold calculating cruelty by forces using the “terrorist” rubberstamp to create a global military dictature.Said forces will be exposed,as they do not operate in a vacuum (and there still are human beings who have courage enough not to pay mere lip service to their ideals of chastity and virtue or throw their lives away in petty attempts to prevent truth from revealing how they actually live).
Carl W.

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: Sun, 21 Apr 2002 16:37:27 -0700 (PDT)

I don’t know, I think it probably is legal the sites you posted I meant. I was wondering so I just looked on searches and there are thousands of those web stats and ftp stats all over the place and what patrick explained makes sense. I havent just ever seen so many gov and mil domains in one place before, usually there are a few listed, but i guess mindvox has a high hit rate and he just posted the mil and gov only.
It looks scary that’s all.
Carla B
Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:
Dear Carla
Take a long good look at these sites:
http://www.fas.org/spp/starwars/program/news02/022702kadish.htm
http://www.globenet.free-online.co.uk/
Now,is THAT legal???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
A global military dictature violating every law of God and Man…
Carl W.

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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 21, 2002 at 7:39:47 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I didn’t write that part!
That was vector or somebody who quoted me and left that on the end from some advertisement.
You jerk 🙂
What more did you want? 🙂
Carla B
“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote: 

| Carla B backgammon, pool and more

Sounds good to me, what’s the “more” part…?

Patrick
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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 21, 2002 at 7:37:27 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t know, I think it probably is legal the sites you posted I meant. I was wondering so I just looked on searches and there are thousands of those web stats and ftp stats all over the place and what patrick explained makes sense. I havent just ever seen so many gov and mil domains in one place before, usually there are a few listed, but i guess mindvox has a high hit rate and he just posted the mil and gov only.
It looks scary that’s all.
Carla B
Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:
Dear Carla
Take a long good look at these sites:
http://www.fas.org/spp/starwars/program/news02/022702kadish.htm
http://www.globenet.free-online.co.uk/
Now,is THAT legal???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
A global military dictature violating every law of God and Man…
Carl W.
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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 21, 2002 at 3:29:38 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Carla
Take a long good look at these sites:
http://www.fas.org/spp/starwars/program/news02/022702kadish.htm
http://www.globenet.free-online.co.uk/
Now,is THAT legal???????????????????????????????????????????????????????
A global military dictature violating every law of God and Man…
Carl W.

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: Sat, 20 Apr 2002 10:36:10 -0700 (PDT)

I don’t want to sound hopelessly dumb. But was that legal? patrick? you posted something like a thousand or more of military computer ip’s a day ago. This list is a interesting collection of a lot of things, but wasnt that a little much?
Carla B
Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote: a charming piece of “military intelligence”,now that we have such a
distinguished ibogaine fan club in the armed forces of the U.S.of A.
The End of the Oil Age?
cheers,Carlito

>From: “Carl Waltenburg”
>To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
>Subject: Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
>Date: Sat, 20 Apr 2002 18:55:16 +0200
>>
>>Forwarding a message from the newelectrogravity group. Article 5 (by
>>Chubb) of the first document mentioned (right at the end: tr1862-
>>vol1.pdf) is particularly interesting, as it analyses the deleterious
>>effects of “conventional thinking” on the whole Cold Fusion
>>discussion.
>>

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From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 20, 2002 at 10:09:07 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

OK, I know (for sometime now ;-)) that Patrick is a genious (and I guess that everyone around him is genious, too), but I’m just a plain citizen <g> and don’t know nothing ’bout computers – except they usually do what I want them to do – and I don’t know nuthin bout internet – except I get a lot of info from “out there” and can communicate with my friends – So I really don’t understand what is all this high-tech talk doing on this list, which is dedicated to Ibogaine.

Pinky White, why don’t you send Patrick private E-mails with topics not related to Ibogaine? I’m sure you know how to copy his addresse from the list, and paste it to a new message… And I’m sure that Patrick will politely explain you it’s not your buissiness what he and his crew do with their property…

On the other hand, you can always break into the system (if nobody wants to open it for you); but then, you have to be better than Patrick if you want to do this…

Marko

At 10:02 20.4.2002, you wrote:

http://web.archive.org/web/19961111084653/phantom.com/release.html

.:vector:.

On Thu, 18 April 2002, Ustanova Iboga wrote

> Hey, am I the only one who doesn’t understand what’s
all this about? Which
> system isn’t opened and why? And HoWWW? (jeez, it
must be CONtageous, now
> even i STARted to write like mimicking someOn-e…
>
> Marko
>

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] whose children shall inherit the stars?
Date: April 21, 2002 at 9:27:12 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: dana@cures-not-wars.org
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

> > > >Dear friends in the Divided States of America

The document below reflects VERY serious Space Law violations.
You must realize that there are unfathomable consequences to the posture taken by certain three-letter Alphabet Soup Conglomerate interests that will endanger the entire global community if this shit goes on.
The United Nations Office of Outer Space Affairs also has real teeth…
It would be a grevious strategic mistake to challenge cosmic forces.
respectfully,Carl W.

> > > >
> > > >
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Press Release ::: ATTN Editors, Activists, and
> Investigative
> >Journalists
> > > >>
> > >
> >
>
>>**************************************************************************
> >*
> > > >>*
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>MAUNA KEA CONFLICT HEATS UP IN HAWAI’I
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Mauna Kea is under seige again by NASA! The
> massive volcano, held as
> >the
> > > >>most sacred temple and burial ground for the
> Native Hawaiian people,
> >has
> > > >>been desecrated for decades by astronomical
> development at its summit,
> > > >>forever scarring the pristine and endangered
> high-altitude environment
> > > >>without any allowance for input or oversight
> by the Native Hawaiian
> > > >>community. This situation is even more
> outrageous given that Mauna Kea
> >is
> > > >>supposed to be held in “trust” by the State of
> Hawaii for the benefit
> >of
> > > >>Native Hawaiian people.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>By delegating the management of the sacred
> mountain to the University
> >of
> > > >>Hawai’i’s “Institute for Astronomy,” an
> obscure and unelected group of
> > > >>scientists, the State has avoided having to
> take responsibility for
> >the
> > > >>ongoing desecration of Mauna Kea and the
> resulting offense to Native
> > > >>Hawaiian culture. In this manner the
> scientific community has taken
> > > >>advantage of the non-existent oversight
> regarding environmental impact
> >in
> > > >>an endangered and unique volcanic environment,
> resulting in the
> > > >>near-extinction of some high-altitude insect
> species.
> > > >>
> > > >>Now NASA proposes to begin building up to 6
> more telescopes, under
> >protest
> > > >>by the cultural caretakers of the sacred
> volcano, the Royal Order of
> > > >>Kamehameha I, who have decreed that no more
> construction at the summit
> >of
> > > >>Mauna Kea will be allowed. The graves of their
> most esteemed ancestors
> > > >>have been desecrated, the metal “pimples”
> shine like a monument to
> > > >>imperial conquest from the very peak of their
> most sacred land, and
> >now
> > > >>NASA proposes to militarize the mountain as
> well. Will science ever be
> > > >>satisfied? At the beginning of the
> development, the University
> >promised
> > > >>only one telescope, then there were three, now
> there are 24! The
> >entire
> > > >>summit has been turned into an industrial
> park, without any
> >consideration
> > > >>or consultation with Native Hawaiian people,
> whose heritage is held in
> > > >>broken “trust” by the State of Hawaii,
> trampled on by opportunists and
> > > >>militarists, and at this time Native Hawaiians
> are not yet even
> >recognized
> > > >>by the U. S. government as a legitimate
> indigenous nation!
> > > >>
> > > >>See the devastation yourself, proudly
> displayed by the “Institute for
> > > >>Astronomy”! :::
> > > >>
> > >
>
>><http://www.ifa.hawaii.edu/images/aerial-tour/west.html>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>For more information about the resistance to
> NASA’s “Space Science
> > > >>Initiative” in Hawai’i,
> > > >>and to read the testimony of Native Hawaiians,
> go to KAHEA :::
> > > >><http://www.kahea.org>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Send feedback to Institute for Astronomy
> feedback@ifa.hawaii.edu
> > > >>Please e-mail comments to Cynthia Chase at
> cchase@ostp.eop.gov
> > > >>
> > >
> >>งขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงข
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>MAUNA KEA CONSTRUCTION MORATORIUM IN EFFECT!!!
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Dear Editors and Administrators
> > > >>
> > > >>************************
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Mauna Kea is the heart center of our living
> planet. Let’s begin with
> >that
> > > >>lofty premise. It is the most sacred mountain
> to the Native Hawaiian
> > > >>people, a temple, a shrine, a graveyard. It is
> the Vatican. It is
> > > >>Stonehenge. It is the blood-red cathedral of
> our Mother Earth.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>In the past 30 years the University of Hawai’i
> has allowed
> >uncontrolled
> > > >>industrial desecration at the summit of Mauna
> Kea, resulting in the
> >peak
> > > >>being now covered with ugly white “pimples” as
> prominent as the faces
> >at
> > > >>Mt. Rushmore, bulldozed over the protests of
> the inheritors of the
> >sacred
> > > >>mountain, the Native Hawaiian people. This is
> a criminal outrage, even
> > > >>though it has resulted in beautiful pictures
> of the edge of the
> >universe,
> > > >>and possible indications of planetary bodies
> around distant stars. The
> > > >>University must ask what is the hidden cost of
> this scientific
> > > >>exploration? America must ask why have Native
> Hawaiians been
> >marginalized,
> > > >>and paved-over for the past century?
> > > >>
> > > >>Now we have a thrust for “Space Command” by
> the U.S. military, and
> >NASA
> > > >>proposes building up to 6 more telescopes for
> its use on Mauna Kea.
> >How
> > > >>many Americans realize that the entire area in
> the “saddle” between
> >Mauna
> > > >>Kea and Mauna Loa, the two most massive
> volcanoes on the planet, is a
> > > >>”bombing range” used by the various U.S. (and
> NATO) forces for
> >military
> > > >>exercises and secret storage of weapons? This
> activity is hidden away
> > > >>behind the sacred temples of Hawai’i, in the
> heart of the most
> >endangered
> > > >>rainforest environements in the so-called
> United States! The Pohakuloa
> > > >>Military Range actually employs biologists to
> study native birds near
> > > >>extinction while dropping bombs and blowing
> off missiles around them!
> >This
> > > >>is madness, and the cancer can not be allowed
> to spread any further.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>In the year 2000, the U.S. Departments of
> Interior and Justice
> >released
> >an
> > > >>investigative report on “the reconciliation
> process between the
> >federal
> > > >>government and Native Hawaiians,” quite
> poetically entitled “From
> >Mauka
> >to
> > > >>Makai : The River of Justice Must Flow
> Freely.” Americans should know
> >that
> > > >>”from Mauka” means from the mountain, or in
> this case, from the summit
> >of
> > > >>Mauna Kea. We enclose the following
> declaration from this official
> >report,
> > > >>to clearly delineate the issue of violation of
> land “trust” by the
> >State
> > > >>of Hawaii:
> > > >>
> > > >>”In 1810, King Kamehameha I established the
> unified Kingdom of Hawai’i
> >to
> > > >>govern the Native Hawaiian people. Over the
> next 60 years, the United
> > > >>States entered into several treaties of peace,
> friendship and commerce
> > > >>with the Kingdom of Hawai’i, recognizing its
> status as an independent
> > > >>sovereign.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>”During the 1880’s, western influence over the
> Kingdom of Hawai’i
> > > >>increased, and in 1893, as Queen Lili’uokalani
> sought to restore full
> > > >>authority of the Native Hawaiian monarchy, the
> American and European
> > > >>plantation owners acting in concert with the
> U.S. Minister and
> >military
> > > >>forces OVERTHREW the Kingdom. The Provisional
> Republic of Hawai’i,
> >formed
> > > >>by the plantation owners, then seized the
> Crown and public lands of
> >the
> > > >>Kingdom of Hawai’i, including one-third of
> Hawai’i that was impressed
> >with
> > > >>a trust for the Native Hawaiian common people.
> Although President
> > > >>Cleveland initially opposed the overthrow,
> President McKinley
> >supported
> > > >>the call of the Republic of Hawai’i for
> annexation. Congress annexed
> > > >>Hawai’i in 1898, without the consent of the
> Native Hawaiian people. As
> >a
> > > >>result of the overthrow, laws suppressing
> Hawaiian culture and
> >language,
> > > >>and displacement from the land, the Native
> Hawaiian people suffered
> > > >>mortality, disease, economic deprivation,
> social distress, and
> >population
> > > >>decline.”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>This startling admission by the Departments of
> Justice and Interior
> > > >>clearly points out the problem of
> marginalization and cultural
> >genocide
> > > >>which continues to this day. We recommend that
> every American agency,
> > > >>especially the University of Hawai’i, take
> this report to heart and
> >adjust
> > > >>their expectations and relationship with
> Native Hawaiian people and
> >their
> > > >>land accordingly. For NASA to propose to build
> 6 more telescopes on
> >the
> > > >>sacred summit of Mauna Kea, for example, is
> the equivalent of rubbing
> >salt
> > > >>into an open wound. Every American, and the
> ineternational community,
> > > >>should rise up in protest against this
> culturally offensive proposal!
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>The “Mauka to Makai” report goes on to make
> recommendations which are
> >yet
> > > >>to be realized. For example:
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>”To safeguard and enhance Native Hawaiian
> self-determination over
> >their
> > > >>lands, cultural resources, and internal
> affairs, the Departments
> >believe
> > > >>Congress should enact further legislation to
> clarify Native Hawaiians’
> > > >>political status and to create a framework for
> recognizing a
> > > >>governemnt-to-government relationship with a
> representative Native
> > > >>Hawaiian governing body.”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Every agency currently active in Hawai’i
> should burn this passage into
> > > >>their brains, and adjust their plans
> accordingly. Until The U.S. has
> >fully
> > > >>come to terms with the cultural genocide
> perpetrated by the State of
> > > >>Hawai’i over the past century, acknowledging
> the admissions by its own
> > > >>institutional investigators, and given
> sufficient recognition,
> >protection,
> > > >>and compensation to Native Hawaiian people
> accordingly, proposals such
> >as
> > > >>those by NASA should be suspended or
> terminated.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>From a spiritual perspective, the Earth is
> very alive here on the Moku
> >O
> > > >>Keawe, the Big Island, in fact, more active
> than anywhere else on the
> > > >>planet. The scientific community has already
> taken advantage of the
> > > >>pristine and unique environment provided by
> these sacred volcanoes,
> >and
> > > >>has made extraordinary discoveries in deep
> space research. We ask that
> >the
> > > >>University of Hawai’i take responsibility for
> the cultural offense of
> >this
> > > >>NASA proposal, and that the State of Hawai’i
> turn the management of
> >the
> > > >>summit of Mauna Kea over to a Native Hawaiian
> agency, chaired by the
> >Royal
> > > >>Order of Kamehameha I, the traditional
> caretakers of the “Sacred
> >Temple.”
> > > >>
> > > >>Respectfully,
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>B.Z. Evans
> > > >>
> > > >>Earth Rescue Corps Outpost 23
> > > >>
> > > >>planetary@wildmail.com
> > > >>POB 6271 Hilo, HAWAI’I 96720
> > > >>
> > > >>(808) 969-3765
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>”Yes, the planet is some kind of organized
> intelligence. It’s very
> > > >>different from us. It’s had 5- or 6- billion
> years to create a slow
> >moving
> > > >>mind which is made of rivers and rain, forests
> and glaciers. It’s
> >becoming
> > > >>aware of us, as we are becomeing aware of it,
> strangely enough. Two
> >less
> > > >>likely members of a relationship can hardly be
> imagined– the
> > > >>technological apes and the dreaming planet.
> And yet, because the life
> >of
> > > >>each depends on the other, there’s a feeling
> towards this immense,
> > > >>strange, wise, old, neutral, weird thing, and
> it is trying to figure
> >out
> > > >>why its dreams are so tormented and why
> everything is out of balance.”
> > > >>
> > > >>–Terence McKenna http://deoxy.org/omega.htm
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>cc:::
> > > >>
> > > >>Robert F. Kennedy, NRDC Senior Attorney
> nrdcaction@nrdc.org
> > > >>NASA Office of Space Science otpea@hq.nasa.gov
> > > >>DLNR State of Hawai’i dlnr@exec.state.hi.us
> (808)692-8015
> > > >>
> > > >>Institute for Astronomy
> feedback@ifa.hawaii.edu
> > > >>State of Hawaii Ombudsman
> complaints@ombudsman.state.hi.us
> > > >>President’s Council of Advisors on Science and
> Technology (PCAST)
> > > >>cchase@ostp.eop.gov
> > > >>Astronomy Magazine News@astronomy.com
> > > >>NASA Watch nasawatch@reston.com
> > > >>Department of Interior Inspector General :::
> > > >><http://www.oig.doi.gov/hotline.html>
> > > >>
> > > >>KAHEA kahea-alliance@hawaii.rr.com
> > >
> >>งขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงขงข
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>NASA & the Race for “Total Space Dominance”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>9 January 2002: New NASA Chief Sees Closer
> Ties to Pentagon , Reuters,
> > > >>Yahoo “I don’t think we have a choice. I think
> it’s imperative that we
> > > >>have a more direct association” between the
> Defense Department and
> >NASA,
> > > >>O’Keefe told reporters at a breakfast on the
> sixth day of his tenure
> >at
> > > >>the National Aeronautics and Space
> Administration.”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>6 February 2002: STA Urges Bush Administration
> to Seek Centralized
> >Space
> > > >>Management
> http://www.spaceref.com/news/viewpr.html?pid=732
> Space
> > > >>Transportation Association “The Bush
> administration, thus, must match
> >this
> > > >>rhetoric about the importance of space to
> national security with more
> >than
> > > >>words. Therefore, the Space Transportation
> Association is today
> >calling
> > > >>for the administration to reestablish a
> central organizing body for
> >space
> > > >>within the Executive Office of the President
> modeled on the previous
> > > >>National Space Council. Space issues clearly
> need an emphasis and
> > > >>advocates in the White House beyond any one
> single agency or one
> >agency’s
> > > >>space agenda. Vice-President Cheney could
> chair such a group to give
> >it
> > > >>the attention and the visibility that space
> issues deserve.”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>20 March 2002: Aerospace Daily: U.S. Space
> Dominance Faces Growing
> > > >>Threats, Officials Say “The U.S. faces growing
> threats to its space
> > > >>dominance, as potential adversaries are making
> significant progress in
> > > >>fielding their own space assets and developing
> tools to disrupt
> >American
> > > >>space systems, U.S. intelligence officials
> said March 19.”
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>US Space Command Doctrine
> > > >>
> > >
> >><http://www.fas.org/spp/military/docops/usspac/>
> > > >>
> > > >>U.S. Space Command
> > > >>
> > > >>One of the nine Unified (multi-service)
> Combatant Commands in the
> > > >>Department of Defense, the U.S. Space Command
> coordinates the use of
> >Army,
> > > >>Naval and Air Force space forces to perform
> these missions:
> > > >>- Space Support
> > > >>- Force Enhancement
> > > >>- Space Control
> > > >>- Force Application
> > > >>- Computer Network Defense
> > > >>- Computer Network Attack
> > > >>- Information Operations
> > > >>
> > > >><http://www.spacecom.af.mil/usspacecom/>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Welcome to the Naval Space Command
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Naval Space Command uses the medium of space
> and its potential to
> >provide
> > > >>essential information and capabilities to
> ashore and afloat naval
> >forces.
> > > >>As a focal point of operational space support,
> Naval Space Command
> >enables
> > > >>naval forces to use space assets, expertise
> and technologies to
> >achieve
> > > >>and maintain knowledge superiority essential
> for dominating the battle
> > > >>space.
> > > >>
> > > >><http://www.navspace.navy.mil/>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > >
>
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> > > >>
> > > >>”Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only
> light can do that. Hate
> >cannot
> > > >>drive out hate; only love can do that.”
> > > >>– Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>”Power concedes nothing without a demand.
> > > >>It never did and never will.”
> > > >>Frederick Douglass
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>Wealth heaped on wealth,
> > > >>nor truth nor safety buys,
> > > >>The dangers gather
> > > >>as the treasures rise.
> > > >>Samuel Johnson
> > > >>
> > > >>
> > > >>”When the people fear the government you have
> tyranny…
> > > >>when the government fears the people you have
> liberty.”
> > > >>–Thomas Jefferson
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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 21, 2002 at 7:27:43 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 20, 2002 at 11:04:08AM -0700], [vector6@space.com] wrote:

| It’s great !  Going to alt.2600 you’re lucky to get 15 or 20, you listed
| hundreds and the few i’ve tried are all there!
|
| .:vector:.

I uhm, wouldn’t do that if I were you.  Much — if not most — of that
stuff will be some guy’s personal machine, or an open-access internet
thing, where somebody is just SUrfiNG the nEt do0d.  But if you start
running port scans and probes on those IP’s … well, odds are nothing
will happen and nobody will notice.

On the flipside if some guy there is actually looking at what’s up, then
you have the opportunity to win the Scapegoat of the Month sweepstakes, and
have a lotta people kick in your door, take all your shit, and depending
on your age, either give you a Stern Reprimand, or life in prison for
being a TerrorisT.

I would, strongly suggest you find sumthin’ else ta do.  Unless of course
it is your goal to become an Interesting Anecdote on a buncha web sites
for a few weeks, before some other Interesting Anecdote replaces you.

– – – – – – – – –

On Sat, 20 April 2002, Carla Barnes wrote

| I don’t want to sound hopelessly dumb. But was that legal? patrick? you

Yeah, sure it is.  That wuz a partial list of IP’s these people used to
access our property.  We didn’t scan those, or look for them, they chose
to connect to our system, thus generating logs in the web server software.
<Shrug>.

However, see above.  I wouldn’t recommend eXploring ’em.  Were you to
actually ever attach to said machine, you’d prolly find a buncha mp3’s,
personal email, porno, whatever crap some guy has dumped on his machine.
Not GREAT SECRETS! <ShhhhH!>

| Carla B backgammon, pool and more

Sounds good to me, what’s the “more” part…?

Patrick

From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] another military intelligence trip
Date: April 20, 2002 at 4:07:32 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I know it’s off topic,but…

http://www.truthout.com/docs_02/04.10E.Bernie.Alice.htm

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From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] indra extract
Date: April 20, 2002 at 3:55:31 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 20, 2002 1:29 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] indra extract

From: Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] indra extract
Date: Fri, 19 Apr 2002 23:13:07 -0700 (PDT)

Testing. If this message goes through more then once I’m sorry but I am
having problems mailing from yahoo lately. I hit send and freezes or I
hit
send and it sends 5 or 10 copies. I think it is starting to fall apart
because millions of people moved from hotmail here when they started
asking
for money at hotmail, now they are starting the same thing on yahoo and
lycos. Maybe its time to move mail somewhere else again.

Indra you’re saying is extract from the root of taberanthe iboga which
has
many other active alkaloids which are not found in ibogaine hcl. What are
these alkaloids and do they make any difference? If I’m asking something
to
which there isn’t a exact answer, I understand that, but ibogaine hcl is
what all the experiments being written in the science journals are being
done with so I’m lost. What testing has been done with the extract. I’m
not
challenging you only trying to understand what basis your statement is
made
from.

The extract has a different pharmacodynamic action.It may be taken in
small
amounts over extended periods of time to relieve fatigue and/or
opiod withdrawal symptoms.Specifically,when it comes to Methadone
withdrawals,(which can be quite unbearable and long-lasting)the extract
has
been proven to be far superionr to Ibogaine HCL,(which to the best of my
knowledge is not advisable to use in repeated high dosages),and the inner
journey seems to feel more mellow and benign to the
clients,who,furthermore,can be treated in non-clinical settings without
the
use of electronic measuring devices and other fancy gadgets of the
“scientific” disciplines.The Pygmy and other tribes  have used this stuff
for millennia in the treatment of sleeping sickness and so it should be
quite safe and if you get too much you will throw it up.There was one
fatality reported in London where rumour has it that the man choked to
death
from his own vomit while the original coroner’s report wrote about an
inner
hemorrage due to Hepatitis C,

Just to set the record straight, the only rumor was that of the internal
hemorrhage. There was a gap of about a year between the death and the
inquest, and in this time for some reason, the idea got out that the
unfortunate deceased had died as a result of a stomach hemorrhage. However,
I was at the inquest, and the pathologist did not find any hemorrhaging at
all. Death was put down to “fatal reaction to t. iboga extract” with
secondary cause as liver disease. The “fatal reaction” took the form of
vomiting shortly after eating food about 38 hours after taking 6 g of the
Indra extract. The treatment was characterized by near constant vomiting
throughout. Basically, the tragic incident reinforces the need for constant
observation of clients, especially where there’s a lot of throwing up, and
for treatment providers to be familiar with resuscitation procedures.
Personally, I think the “fatal reaction” bit was overplayed and, had there
been any defence, iboga would not have been blamed for the death, at least
not primary cause. The researches I did indicated that the pathologist’s
testimony would not have been able to withstand expert cross-examination. T.
iboga and T. iboga extract are now on the list of about 50 substances the
UK’s medicines control agency wants to restrict as prescription only
medicines. Such is life.

Nick

but I have never ever heard of anyone else
having any problems with the stuff except the seasickness and the
sometimes
very intense long-lasting introspective mood of the journey in the high
dosage range,which usually can be alleviated by the skilled psychedelic
guide who has tried the stuff before giving it to someone else.This I
believe to be imperative for good results in its therapeutic use,and
that,I
believe, goes for the entire family of mind-revealing substances from the
plant kingdom,ancient & modern,in clinical as well as ritual settings.

Why is taking more then 1,000mg of ibogaine hcl toxic or dangerous?
Haven’t
people who detoxed with ibogaine taken amounts nearly twice that in order
to do it and come out ok?
To illustrate this let us take an example,coffee beans.Coffee can be
considered to be an extract of coffee beans.Drinking coffee is one
thing,downing caffeine tablets en masse is somewhat different…
I don’t know,man I never administered the HCL,but I have been giving away
some twenty-five kiloes of the extract since 1985 and my friends did not
give it to rats.

The ibogaine fatalities that have been recorded were all with hcl?

As far as I know,yes,with the exception of the above-mentioned case.

_Synergy_

I hope that this may bring some clarity.May virtue increase.Soon.

cordially,Carl W.

From: vector6@space.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 20, 2002 at 2:04:08 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

It’s great ! Going to alt.2600 you’re lucky to get 15 or 20, you listed hundreds and the few i’ve tried are all there! .:vector:. On Sat, 20 April 2002, Carla Barnes wrote I don’t want to sound hopelessly dumb. But was that legal? patrick? you posted something like a thousand or more of military computer ip’s a day ago. This list is a interesting collection of a lot of things, but wasnt that a little much? Carla B backgammon, pool and more
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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 20, 2002 at 1:36:10 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t want to sound hopelessly dumb. But was that legal? patrick? you posted something like a thousand or more of military computer ip’s a day ago. This list is a interesting collection of a lot of things, but wasnt that a little much?
Carla B
Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:
a charming piece of “military intelligence”,now that we have such a
distinguished ibogaine fan club in the armed forces of the U.S.of A.
The End of the Oil Age?
cheers,Carlito

>From: “Carl Waltenburg”
>To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
>Subject: Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
>Date: Sat, 20 Apr 2002 18:55:16 +0200
>>
>>Forwarding a message from the newelectrogravity group. Article 5 (by
>>Chubb) of the first document mentioned (right at the end: tr1862-
>>vol1.pdf) is particularly interesting, as it analyses the deleterious
>>effects of “conventional thinking” on the whole Cold Fusion
>>discussion.
>>
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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: April 20, 2002 at 1:09:04 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

a charming piece of “military intelligence”,now that we have such a distinguished ibogaine fan club in the armed forces of the U.S.of A.
The End of the Oil Age?
cheers,Carlito

From: “Carl Waltenburg” <saucertrips@hotmail.com>
To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
Subject: Fwd: [antigrav] Cold Fusion is Back
Date: Sat, 20 Apr 2002 18:55:16 +0200

Forwarding a message from the newelectrogravity group. Article 5 (by
Chubb) of the first document mentioned (right at the end: tr1862-
vol1.pdf) is particularly interesting, as it analyses the deleterious
effects of “conventional thinking” on the whole Cold Fusion
discussion.

John T.

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From:  “Integrity Research Institute, Thomas Valone” <iri@e…>
Date:  Sun Apr 14, 2002  7:37 am
Subject:  Navy Report Supports Cold Fusion
To:  “Integrity Research Institute, Thomas Valone” <iri@e…>

Future Energy
eNews
April 15, 2002

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—– Original Message —–
From: “Eugene F. Mallove” <editor@infinite-energy.com>
To: “Eugene Mallove” <editor@infinite-energy.com>
Sent: Friday, April 12, 2002 7:28 PM
Subject: New Navy Report Supports Cold Fusion

All,

A new official report just out, prepared by the U.S. Navy, is strongly
supportive of cold fusion research:

TECHNICAL REPORT 1862, February 2002
Thermal and Nuclear Aspects of the Pd/D2O System
(In two volumes)

It is a public document with unlimited distribution, so we are
posting below
some of the introductory material in each of the volumes.

Infinite Energy will be making copies of the full report — hard
copy, CD
version, and perhaps web site posting. We’ll keep you posted about the
availability of the full document.

I wish to highlight in particular this statement from the Foreword:

“As I write this Foreword, California is experiencing rolling
blackouts due
to power shortages. Conventional engineering, planned ahead, could
have
prevented these blackouts, but it has been politically expedient to
ignore
the inevitable. We do not know if Cold Fusion will be the answer to
future
energy needs, but we do know the existence of Cold Fusion phenomenon
through repeated observations by scientists throughout the world. It
is
time that this phenomenon be investigated so that we can reap whatever
benefits accrue from additional scientific understanding. It is time
for
government funding organizations to invest in this research.

Dr. Frank E. Gordon
Head, Navigation and Applied Sciences Department
Space and Naval Warfare Systems Center, San Diego”

Sincerely,

Dr. Eugene F. Mallove
Editor-in-Chief, Infinite Energy Magazine
Director, New Energy Research Laboratory
PO Box 2816
Concord, NH 03302-2816
editor@infinite-energy.com
www.infinite-energy.com
Ph: 603-228-4516
Fx: 603-224-5975

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TECHNICAL REPORT 1862, February 2002

Thermal and Nuclear Aspects of the Pd/D2O System

Volume 1: A Decade of Research at Navy Laboratories

S. Szpak, P. A. Mosier-Boss, Editors

Approved for public release; distribution is unlimited

SPAWAR Systems Center San Diego

SSC San Diego
San Diego, CA 92152-5001

SSC SAN DIEGO
San Diego, California 92152-5001

P. A. Miller, CAPT, USN Commanding Officer

R. C. Kolb, Executive Director

ADMINISTRATIVE INFORMATION

The work described in this report was performed for the Office of
Naval
Research through the collaboration of Space and Naval Warfare Systems
Center, San Diego (SSC San Diego); the Naval Air Warfare Center,
Weapons
Division, China Lake; and the Naval Research Laboratory (NRL).

Released by
G. W. Anderson, Head
Applied Research & Technology Branch

Under authority of R. H. Moore, Head, Environmental Sciences Division

Contributing authors (in alphabetical order)

Dr. Pamela A. Mosier-Boss
Code D363
Spawar Systems Center San Diego
San Diego, CA 92152-5000
(619) 553-1603; FAX (619) 553-1269; e-mail bossp@spawar.navy.mil

Dr. Scott R. Chubb
Code 7252
Naval Research Laboratory
Washington, DC 20375-5343
(202) 767-5270; FAX (202) 767-3303; e-mail scott.chubb@nrl.navy.mil

Professor Martin Fleischmann, F.R.S.
Bury Lodge, Duck Street
Tisbury, Salisbury, Wilts SP3 6LJ
United Kingdom
FAX (+44) 1747 870845

Dr. M. Ashraf Imam
Code 6320
Naval Research Laboratory
Washington, DC 20375-5343
(202) 767-2185; FAX (202) 767-2623 e-mail imam@angil.nrl.navy,mil

Dr. Melvin H. Miles
Department of Chemistry
Middle Tennessee State University
Murfreeboro, TN 37132
(615) 904-8558; e-mail mmiles@mtsu.edu

Dr. Stanislaw Szpak
3498 Conrad Ave
San Diego, CA 92117
(858) 272-9401

FOREWORD

Twelve years have passed since the announcement on 23 March 1989 by
Professors Fleischmann and Pons that the generation of excess enthalpy
occurs in electrochemical cells when palladium electrodes, immersed
in D2O
+ LiOH electrolyte, are negatively polarized. The announcement, which
came
to be known as “Cold Fusion,” caused frenzied excitement. In both the
scientific and news communities, fax machines were used to pass along
fragments of rumor and “facts.” (Yes, this was before wide spread use
of
the internet. One can only imagine what would happen now.) Companies
and
individuals rushed to file patents on yet to be proven ideas in hopes
of
winning the grand prize. Unfortunately, the phenomenon described by
Fleischmann and Pons was far from being understood and even factors
necessary for repeatability of the experiments were unknown. Over the
next
few months, the scientific community became divided into
the “believers”
and the “skeptics.” The “believers” reported the results of their
work with
enthusiasm that at times overstated the significance of their
results. On
the other hand, many “skeptics” rejected the anomalous behavior of the
polarized Pd/D system as a matter of conviction, i.e., without
analyzing
the presented material and always asking “where are the neutrons?”
Funding
for research quickly dried up as anything related to “Cold Fusion” was
portrayed as a hoax and not worthy of funding. The term “Cold Fusion”
took
on a new definition much as the Ford Edsel had done years earlier.

By the Second International Conference on Cold Fusion, held at Villa
Olmo,
Como, Italy, in June/July 1991, the altitude toward Cold Fusion was
beginning to take on a more scientific basis. The number of
flash-in-the-pan “believers” had diminished, and the “skeptics” were
beginning to be faced with having to explain the anomalous phenomenon,
which by this time had been observed by many credible scientists
throughout
the world. Shortly after this conference, the Office of Naval Research
(ONR) proposed a collaborative effort involving the Naval Command,
Control
and Ocean Surveillance Center, RDT&E Division, which subsequently has
become the Space and Naval Warfare Systems Center, San Diego (SSC San
Diego); the Naval Air Warfare Center, Weapons Division, China Lake;
and the
Naval Research Laboratory (NRL). The effort’s basic premise was to
investigate the anomalous effects associated with the prolonged
charging of
the Pd/D system and “to contribute in collegial fashion to a
coordinated
trilaboratory experiment.”

Each laboratory took a different area of research. At San Diego, our
goal
was to understand the conditions that initiate the excess heat
generation
(the Fleischmann-Pons effect) and the search for evidence that
indicates
their nuclear origin. To eliminate the long incubation times (often
weeks),
Drs. Stan Szpak and Pam Boss decided to prepare the palladium
electrodes by
the co-deposition technique. Initially, they concentrated on tritium
production and the monitoring of emanating radiation. More recently,
they
extended their effort to monitoring surface temperature via IR imaging
technique and showed the existence of discrete heat sources randomly
distributed in time and space. This discovery may prove to be a
significant
contribution to the understanding of the phenomenon.

At China Lake, Dr. Miles and his collaborators showed that a
correlation
exists between the rate of the excess enthalpy generation and the
quantity
of helium in the gas stream. Such a correlation is the direct
evidence of
the nuclear origin of the Fleischmann-Pons effect.

The research at NRL was directed toward the metallurgy of palladium
and its
alloys and the theoretical aspects of the Fleischmann-Pons effect. In
particular, Dr. Imam prepared Pd/B alloys that Dr. Miles used in
calorimetric experiments. It was shown that these alloys yielded
reproducible excess enthalpy generation with minimal incubation times
(approximately 1 day). The theoretical work of Dr. Chubb contributed
much
to our understanding of the Fleischmann-Pons effect.

Although funding for Cold Fusion ended several years ago, progress in
understanding the phenomenon continues at a much slower pace, mostly
through the unpaid efforts of dedicated inquisitive scientists. In
preparation of this report the authors spent countless hours outside
of
their normal duties to jointly review their past and current
contributions,
including the “hidden” agenda that Professor Fleischmann pursued for
several years in the 1980s when he was partially funded by ONR.
Special
thanks are extended to all scientists who have worked under these
conditions, including those who contributed to this report and
especially
to Professor Fleischmann.

As I write this Foreword, California is experiencing rolling
blackouts due
to power shortages. Conventional engineering, planned ahead, could
have
prevented these blackouts, but it has been politically expedient to
ignore
the inevitable. We do not know if Cold Fusion will be the answer to
future
energy needs, but we do know the existence of Cold Fusion phenomenon
through repeated observations by scientists throughout the world. It
is
time that this phenomenon be investigated so that we can reap whatever
benefits accrue from additional scientific understanding. It is time
for
government funding organizations to invest in this research.

Dr. Frank E. Gordon
Head, Navigation and Applied Sciences Department
Space and Naval Warfare Systems Center, San Diego

TABLE OF CONTENTS

1. THE EMERGENCE OF COLD FUSION
S. Szpak and P. A. Mosier-Boss

2. EVENTS IN A POLARIZED Pd+D ELECTRODES PREPARED BY CO-DEPOSITION
TECHNIQUE
S. Szpak and P. A. Mosier-Boss

3. EXCESS HEAT AND HELIUM PRODUCTION IN PALLADIUM AND PALLADIUM ALLOYS
Melvin H. Miles

4. ANALYSIS OF EXPERIMENT MC-21: A CASE STUDY
Part I: Development of Diagnostic Criteria
Part II: Application of Diagnostic Criteria
S. Szpak, P. A. Mosier-Boss, M. H. Miles, M. A. Imam and M.
Fleischmann

5. AN OVERVIEW OF COLD FUSION THEORY
Scott Chubb

APPENDIX: LISTING OF PUBLICATIONS/PRESENTATIONS RELATED TO COLD
FUSION BY
NAVY LABORATORIES

STAFF

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VOLUME #2

TECHNICAL REPORT 1862
February 2002

Thermal and Nuclear Aspects of the Pd/D2O System
Volume 2: Simulation of the Electrochemical Cell (ICARUS) Calorimetry

S. Szpak
P. A. Mosier-Boss
Editors

Approved for public release; distribution is unlimited

SPAWAR
Systems Center San Diego

SSC San Diego
San Diego, CA 92152-5001

FOREWORD

The calorimetry of any electrochemical cell involves two type of
activities: data collection and data evaluation. The required data
are the
cell potential-time and cell temperature-time series. The evaluation
is
based on conservation laws subject to constraints dictated by cell
design
and the adapted experimental procedure.

Volume 2 of this report deals with the modeling and simulation of the
Dewar-type calorimeter. It was written by Professor Fleischmann to
provide
an authoritative discussion of the calorimetry of electrochemical
cells.
The emphasis is on the interpretation of data and the accuracy of the
determination of the excess enthalpy generation via the appropriate
selection of heat transfer coefficients. The discussion of the
calorimetry
of the Dewar-type cells is presented in the form of technical report
for a
number of reasons, among them: (I) its length would likely prohibit
publication in topical journals, (ii) to clarify misunderstandings
regarding the principles of calorimetry as applied to electrochemical
cell
in general and to the cell employed by Fleischmann and his
collaborators,
in particular.

S. Szpak and P.A. Mosier-Boss, eds.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

INTRODUCTION
SYMBOLS USED

1. THE EVOLUTION OF THE ICARUS DATA EVALUATION STRATEGIES
2. DEFINITION OF THE HEAT TRANSFER COEFFICIENTS
3. DIFFERENTIAL EQUATIONS GOVERNING THE BEHAVIOR OF THE CALORIMETERS:
SIMULATIONS OF THE TEMPERATURE-TIME SERIES
4. SPECIFICATION OF THE ICARUS-1 EXPERIMENTAL PROTOCOLS AND DATA
EVALUATION
PROCEDURES
5. EVALUATION OF THE “RAW DATA” GENERATED USING THE SIMULATION
DESCRIBED IN
SECTION 4
6. EVALUATION OF A MEASUREMENT CYCLE FOR    A “BLANK EXPERIMENT”
USING AN
ICARUS-2 SYSTEM
7. ASSESSMENT OF THE SPECIFICATION OF THE ICARUS-1 EXPERIMENTAL
PROTOCOLS
AND DATA

EVALUATION PROCEDURES

REFERENCES
FIGURES
TABLES

INTRODUCTION

Apart from some fragmentary investigations, primarily related to the
study
of the self-discharge of batteries, there exists no well defined set
of
studies in the field of the electrochemical calorimetry. We note that
such
studies would allow the investigation of the thermal behavior of a
wide
range of reactions, especially irreversible processes. Thus, the
establishment of an accurate model of an experiment is very important.
However, as this aspect is not generally understood, we felt it
necessary
to produce this document.

In spite of its length, this volume only covers the analysis of a
data set
generated by calculation and one measurement cycle for a “blank
experiment.” We believe that it is very important to produce a
detailed
analysis and account (as far as is possible at this stage) of the
methodology which we adopted. This is especially important in view of
the
misleading comments which have been made about the calorimetry of the
Pd/D
system. Taken at face value, one must believe that the workers
concerned do
not understand the difference between differential and integral
coefficients, the disadvantages of differentiating “noisy” data as
compared
to integrating such data, the differences between the precision and
accuracy of data evaluations, the recognition of “negative”
and “positive
feedback,” the analysis of cooling curves, etc. They do not understand
relaxation nor recognize the presence of strange attractors and the
way in
which the effects of such complications can be circumvented. [1]

It is relevant here to reflect on the precision and accuracy of the
experiments. Of course, if the precision is high, then there will be
no
difficulty in interpreting changes in the rates of excess enthalpy
generation as small as 1 mW at the 10-sigma level. [2]. Of course, the
question of the magnitude of the errors raises three further important
questions: (I) what error limits are required so as to be able to
detect
excess enthalpy generation at an adequate level of statistical
significance? (ii) what is the difference (if any) between the
experiments
carried out with ICARUS systems and ICARUS lookalikes and with other
types
of calorimetry? (iii) how can one assess the error limits of a given
piece
of instrumentation?

The answer is that one simply stops the development of the
methodology when
one is able to make an adequate set of measurements. We note here
that this
particular specification is itself dependent on the physical size of
the
systems being investigated as well as the chosen operating
conditions. In
our particular investigation the limit was certainly reached when the
errors had been reduced to the 0.01% level. Naturally, the first
question
impacts on the second and we note that it is the use of less precise
and
accurate calorimetric methods which has bedeviled so much of the
research
in this field. The reason is that with the use of less
precise/accurate
methods, it becomes impossible to monitor the build-up of excess
enthalpy
generation. This then brings us to the third question and the answer
to
this is exactly with the methods outlined in this document, at least
as far
as isoperibolic calorimetry is concerned (although it is not very
difficult
to specify improvements in those methods!). [3] It is relevant that
although errors had undoubtedly been made in setting up these
experiments,
the detailed data analyses had also shown the way in which such errors
could be allowed for. [4]

To reiterate, we considered it necessary to produce this document for
the
following reasons: Firstly, it is always essential to determine the
Instrument Function (or of a parameter or sets of parameters which
define
the Instrument Function) and to validate the methods of data
analysis. Such
validation is best done using simulated/calculated data. Secondly, one
needs to see the extent to which “blank” experiments conform to
expectations. Thirdly, one needs to investigate the ways in which
methods
of data analysis may fail.

Footnotes:

(l.) Of course, it is possible that the researchers concerned do not
understand any of these matters, but what is so remarkable is that
they
have failed to understand these topics even when they have been
described
to them.

(2) However, the high precision of the instrumentation (relative
errors
below 0.01%) has been converted into a 10% error by the group at NHE.
It is
hard to see how anybody can make such an assertion while still
keeping a
straight face. If the errors were as high as this, then it would be
impossible to say anything sensible about calorimetry – for that
matter, it
would remove one of the main planks of scientific methodology

(3) The answer to this question brings us to very interesting further
lines
of enquiry which can be summarized by the question: “why is it that
NHE
have never made any sets of raw data for blank experiments available
for
further analysis?” If one considers this question in a naive way,
then one
would say that there can hardly be any reason for not releasing data
sets
which do not show any generation of excess enthalpy!

(4) Instead of seeking to establish the correct way(s) of calibrating
the
systems, the group at NHE used the procedure leading to (k^’,0 R)362,
probably coupled to timing errors in the calibration pulse which they
did
not allow for. Needless to say, this produced nonsensical results
which
they used as a justification for substituting an invalid method of
data
analysis. Moreover, this invalid method of data analysis was applied
to
just two experiments, regarded as being typical, although the fact
that
there were malfunctions in these experiments has also been pointed
out.

These reports are available at:
Vol.I, 3.5 Meg   ~121 pages
http://www.spawar.navy.mil/sti/publications/pubs/tr/1862/tr1862-
vol1.pdf

Vol. II, 178 pgs, 42,810 kbytes
http://www.spawar.navy.mil/sti/publications/pubs/tr/1862/tr1862-
vol2.pdf

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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] indra extract
Date: April 20, 2002 at 8:29:00 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] indra extract
Date: Fri, 19 Apr 2002 23:13:07 -0700 (PDT)

Testing. If this message goes through more then once I’m sorry but I am having problems mailing from yahoo lately. I hit send and freezes or I hit send and it sends 5 or 10 copies. I think it is starting to fall apart because millions of people moved from hotmail here when they started asking for money at hotmail, now they are starting the same thing on yahoo and lycos. Maybe its time to move mail somewhere else again.

Indra you’re saying is extract from the root of taberanthe iboga which has many other active alkaloids which are not found in ibogaine hcl. What are these alkaloids and do they make any difference? If I’m asking something to which there isn’t a exact answer, I understand that, but ibogaine hcl is what all the experiments being written in the science journals are being done with so I’m lost. What testing has been done with the extract. I’m not challenging you only trying to understand what basis your statement is made from.

The extract has a different pharmacodynamic action.It may be taken in small amounts over extended periods of time to relieve fatigue and/or
opiod withdrawal symptoms.Specifically,when it comes to Methadone withdrawals,(which can be quite unbearable and long-lasting)the extract has been proven to be far superionr to Ibogaine HCL,(which to the best of my knowledge is not advisable to use in repeated high dosages),and the inner journey seems to feel more mellow and benign to the clients,who,furthermore,can be treated in non-clinical settings without the use of electronic measuring devices and other fancy gadgets of the “scientific” disciplines.The Pygmy and other tribes  have used this stuff for millennia in the treatment of sleeping sickness and so it should be quite safe and if you get too much you will throw it up.There was one fatality reported in London where rumour has it that the man choked to death
from his own vomit while the original coroner’s report wrote about an inner
hemorrage due to Hepatitis C,but I have never ever heard of anyone else having any problems with the stuff except the seasickness and the sometimes very intense long-lasting introspective mood of the journey in the high dosage range,which usually can be alleviated by the skilled psychedelic guide who has tried the stuff before giving it to someone else.This I believe to be imperative for good results in its therapeutic use,and that,I believe, goes for the entire family of mind-revealing substances from the plant kingdom,ancient & modern,in clinical as well as ritual settings.

Why is taking more then 1,000mg of ibogaine hcl toxic or dangerous? Haven’t people who detoxed with ibogaine taken amounts nearly twice that in order to do it and come out ok?
To illustrate this let us take an example,coffee beans.Coffee can be considered to be an extract of coffee beans.Drinking coffee is one thing,downing caffeine tablets en masse is somewhat different…
I don’t know,man I never administered the HCL,but I have been giving away some twenty-five kiloes of the extract since 1985 and my friends did not give it to rats.

The ibogaine fatalities that have been recorded were all with hcl?

As far as I know,yes,with the exception of the above-mentioned case.

_Synergy_

I hope that this may bring some clarity.May virtue increase.Soon.

cordially,Carl W.

Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:

>From: Carl Waltenburg
>To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
>Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
>Date: Wed, 17 Apr 2002 17:42:24 +0100 (BST)
>
>Dear friends
>Since there seems to be a great deal of confusion on
>the Net as to what is what I would like to make a
>comment to the statement attached below.The book I
>came across when I returned from the Kilimanjaro was
>not Schultes’&Hofmann’s “Plants of the gods”.It was
>their “botany and chemistry of hallucinogens”.Apart
>from correcting that error the statement deserves some
>further clarification…
>What is “Indra”?
>”Indra” was the name chosen for an internet shop
>selling ethnobotanical specialties for shamanic use.
>I happened to know the guys who started the shop and
>gave them some of my Iboga extract so that they could
>make it commercially available.
>I am not so happy with the way that went down.Although
>they surely distributed substantial amounts of the
>stuff,I did not see much of any benign influence from
>their endeavour,(nor did I see any money coming my way
>from providing the stuff to them in the first place).
>It stands to reason,when I view the episode in
>retrospect,that entheogens and sacred plants and their
>congeners should not be handled by people whose only
>religion is money,whose only incentive is profit and
>who approach me with an intent to GET whateveritis
>from me to take personal advantage of the situation.
>The Iboga extract that was released to the world
>through this conduit was,however,remarkably safe and
>sort of tailor-made for the elimination of addictive
>demands and applicable over a wide variety of
>drug-related problematiques.Crystalline Ibogaine HCL
>is to this extract somewhat like taking ONE active
>ingredient out of a plant with at least EIGHTEEN
>different active ingredients.You end up with a
>different pharmacodynamic profile,and also something
>quite toxic in the dosages proposed (e.g.1000
>milligrams) and hence impossible to administer under
>any but highly supervised clinical settings.
>Considering the popularity of another historically
>known Iboga extract called “Lambarene” in the early
>days of the 20th century,experience shows that this is
>a promising field indeed,but only as good as the
>players in it…
> cordially,Carl W.
> >
> > >From: vector6@space.com
> > >Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > >To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > >Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
> > >Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)
>
> >
>
> > ATTACHMENT part 2 message/rfc822
> > Reply-to: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > From: vector6@space.com
> > Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)
> > Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
> >
>
>

>This doesn’t answer what indra is exactly, if it’s
>still any good after being stored for so long and what
>potency is left in it. But like almost everything at
>least some of the answers are on the internet and you
>can find them using google 🙂
>
>.:vector:.
>
>Reprinted from:
>http://www.ridgetelnet.com/~jenks/ibogaine/121299.html
>
>Date: Sun, 12 Dec 1999 08:24:43 EST
>From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg”
>Subject: Re: indra ibo(beginning)
>
>
>In a message dated 12/11/99 10:48:50 AM,
>ibogalab@hotmail.com (Carl) wrote:
>
> > I have been working with the Iboga alkaloids over
>the last sixteen years
>
>Carl,
>
>What precipitated your work with ibogaine? How did
>you come to it? Please
>be only as open as you feel comfortable in being.
>
>Thanks.
>
>Howard
>
>Well,Howard it is a very long story,I guess it started
>with being born into a family where visionary plants
>and drugs was part of the cultural heritage,and
>literature in that field was
>abundant.Huxley’s”Island”,Baudelaire’s”the artificial
>paradises”de Ropp’s “drugs and the mind” etc. was my
>childhood literature,my father was a book publisher
>and translator and a journalist with a strong
>revolutionary impact on contemporary society
>throughout the 1960’s and my school years in the late
>sixties were heavily laced with psychedelic drugs and
>social protest,the Vietnam war being what it was and
>youth culture being what it was…
>I first came across the Iboga plant when I returned
>from a soujourn with the medicine men of Tanzania
>,Kenya and Uganda in the Kilimanjaro area (doing some
>highly classified magic that was part of overthrowing
>the Idi Amin dictatorship),finding dr Hofmann’s and dr
>Schultes’ elegant volume “Plants of the Gods”.Then,as
>I stated earlier,I was working with numerous medicinal
>plants in a pharmaceutical house,and the Iboga plant
>was one of them.At that time,we considered it to be a
>rather wild and rough trip with a lot of undesirable
>side effects,so I set out to “tame” this wild spirit
>into something more manageable,as I intuitively felt
>that here was something with a tremendous healing
>potential.In the same time period Christiania Freetown
>had a severe problem with hard drug abuse,criminal
>biker gangs fighting over street level drug market
>control,heavily armed maniacs, and a lot of police
>brutality.The scene was disgusting,so the Psychedelic
>Movement decided to make the entire arsenal of
>visionary plants and drugs readily available at street
>level,on the principle that on a truly free market
>good drugs will drive out the bad,and the Iboga
>extract was one of the materials employed in this
>endeavour.It was a successful operation,and Chritiania
>Freetown has remained a zone entirely free from hard
>drugs like opiates,cocaine, speed etc.to this day, and
>violence is rare,although there are some problems with
>alcohol and tourism…
>To acheive consensus on “no hard drugs” in a community
>is no easy thing and our model may not be universally
>applicable,but the principles involved could indeed be
>applied worldwide in a more enlightened future.To some
>extent there are hopeful signs that visionary plants
>and drugs are becoming an accepted part of everyday
>reality in the western “civilization”,and that
>long-lost profession of being a psychedelic guide will
>be back in business, as was the case in the 1950’s and
>early60’s,with a new role to play in using the Iboga
>alkaloids in therapy and counseling.In this spirit,I
>will do what I can,as much as I can, as fast as I
>can…
>
>Cordially,Carl
>
>
>
>On Mon, 08 April 2002, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote
>
> > Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is
>less dangerous
> > than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine.
>For people
> > who need codeine, why not prescribe really small
>amounts of
> > heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no
>sense and
> > doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics
>to pre-meds; it
> > was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my
>first student
> > becoming a license physician.)
> >
> > Francis
> >
> >
> > On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:
> >
> > >
> > > In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM,
>synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:
> > >
> > > > Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it
>answered my question.
> > > >What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and
>if they broke it down
> > > >from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that
>instead of turning it
> > > >into HCL? Is this some company making it right
>now or what. I’m lost. What
> > > >I mean is what is the reason, why make this when
>you can get HCL from it
> > > >and what am I buying if I buy indra?
> > >
> > > Without giving you a direct response… why does
>opium exist and morphine
> > > exist when the manufacturer could go on to make
>heroin? I think indra is the
> > > equivalent of a trade name. Indra can be reached
>at
> > > . You
>might ask them to explain
> > > themselves.
> > >
> > > Howard
> > >
>
>

>

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From: “Les Smith” <leesmithjr@prodigy.net>
Subject: [ibogaine] Where is Ibogaine Treatment Legal?
Date: April 20, 2002 at 2:24:06 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I would like to know where to find a list of countries in which Ibogaine Treatment is Legal… in particular, I am interested in the laws for Costa Rica. Please advise.

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From: Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] indra extract
Date: April 20, 2002 at 2:11:42 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Testing. If this message goes through more then once I’m sorry but I am having problems mailing from yahoo lately. I hit send and freezes or I hit send and it sends 5 or 10 copies. I think it is starting to fall apart because millions of people moved from hotmail here when they started asking for money at hotmail, now they are starting the same thing on yahoo and lycos. Maybe its time to move mail somewhere else again.
Indra you’re saying is extract from the root of taberanthe iboga which has many other active alkaloids which are not found in ibogaine hcl. What are these alkaloids and do they make any difference? If I’m asking something to which there isn’t a exact answer, I understand that, but ibogaine hcl is what all the experiments being written in the science journals are being done with so I’m lost. What testing has been done with the extract. I’m not challenging you only trying to understand what basis your statement is made from.
Why is taking more then 1,000mg of ibogaine hcl toxic or dangerous? Haven’t people who detoxed with ibogaine taken amounts nearly twice that in order to do it and come out ok?
The ibogaine fatalities that have been recorded were all with hcl?
_Synergy_
Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg <ibogalab@hotmail.com> wrote:
>From: Carl Waltenburg 
>To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
>Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
>Date: Wed, 17 Apr 2002 17:42:24 +0100 (BST)
>
>Dear friends
>Since there seems to be a great deal of confusion on
>the Net as to what is what I would like to make a
>comment to the statement attached below.The book I
>came across when I returned from the Kilimanjaro was
>not Schultes’&Hofmann’s “Plants of the gods”.It was
>their “botany and chemistry of hallucinogens”.Apart
>from correcting that error the statement deserves some
>further clarification…
>What is “Indra”?
>”Indra” was the name chosen for an internet shop
>selling ethnobotanical specialties for shamanic use.
>I happened to know the guys who started the shop and
>gave them some of my Iboga extract so that they could
>make it commercially available.
>I am not so happy with the way that went down.Although
>they surely distributed substantial amounts of the
>stuff,I did not see much of any benign influence from
>their endeavour,(nor did I see any money coming my way
>from providing the stuff to them in the first place).
>It stands to reason,when I view the episode in
>retrospect,that entheogens and sacred plants and their
>congeners should not be handled by people whose only
>religion is money,whose only incentive is profit and
>who approach me with an intent to GET whateveritis
>from me to take personal advantage of the situation.
>The Iboga extract that was released to the world
>through this conduit was,however,remarkably safe and
>sort of tailor-made for the elimination of addictive
>demands and applicable over a wide variety of
>drug-related problematiques.Crystalline Ibogaine HCL
>is to this extract somewhat like taking ONE active
>ingredient out of a plant with at least EIGHTEEN
>different active ingredients.You end up with a
>different pharmacodynamic profile,and also something
>quite toxic in the dosages proposed (e.g.1000
>milligrams) and hence impossible to administer under
>any but highly supervised clinical settings.
>Considering the popularity of another historically
>known Iboga extract called “Lambarene” in the early
>days of the 20th century,experience shows that this is
>a promising field indeed,but only as good as the
>players in it…
> cordially,Carl W.
> >
> > >From: vector6@space.com
> > >Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > >To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > >Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
> > >Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)
>
> >
>
> > ATTACHMENT part 2 message/rfc822
> > Reply-to: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> > From: vector6@space.com
> > Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)
> > Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
> >
>
>

>This doesn’t answer what indra is exactly, if it’s
>still any good after being stored for so long and what
>potency is left in it. But like almost everything at
>least some of the answers are on the internet and you
>can find them using google :)
>
>.:vector:.
>
>Reprinted from:
>http://www.ridgetelnet.com/~jenks/ibogaine/121299.html
>
>Date: Sun, 12 Dec 1999 08:24:43 EST
>From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” 
>Subject: Re: indra ibo(beginning)
>
>
>In a message dated 12/11/99 10:48:50 AM,
>ibogalab@hotmail.com (Carl) wrote:
>
> > I have been working with the Iboga alkaloids over
>the last sixteen years
>
>Carl,
>
>What precipitated your work with ibogaine? How did
>you come to it? Please
>be only as open as you feel comfortable in being.
>
>Thanks.
>
>Howard
>
>Well,Howard it is a very long story,I guess it started
>with being born into a family where visionary plants
>and drugs was part of the cultural heritage,and
>literature in that field was
>abundant.Huxley’s”Island”,Baudelaire’s”the artificial
>paradises”de Ropp’s “drugs and the mind” etc. was my
>childhood literature,my father was a book publisher
>and translator and a journalist with a strong
>revolutionary impact on contemporary society
>throughout the 1960’s and my school years in the late
>sixties were heavily laced with psychedelic drugs and
>social protest,the Vietnam war being what it was and
>youth culture being what it was…
>I first came across the Iboga plant when I returned
>from a soujourn with the medicine men of Tanzania
>,Kenya and Uganda in the Kilimanjaro area (doing some
>highly classified magic that was part of overthrowing
>the Idi Amin dictatorship),finding dr Hofmann’s and dr
>Schultes’ elegant volume “Plants of the Gods”.Then,as
>I stated earlier,I was working with numerous medicinal
>plants in a pharmaceutical house,and the Iboga plant
>was one of them.At that time,we considered it to be a
>rather wild and rough trip with a lot of undesirable
>side effects,so I set out to “tame” this wild spirit
>into something more manageable,as I intuitively felt
>that here was something with a tremendous healing
>potential.In the same time period Christiania Freetown
>had a severe problem with hard drug abuse,criminal
>biker gangs fighting over street level drug market
>control,heavily armed maniacs, and a lot of police
>brutality.The scene was disgusting,so the Psychedelic
>Movement decided to make the entire arsenal of
>visionary plants and drugs readily available at street
>level,on the principle that on a truly free market
>good drugs will drive out the bad,and the Iboga
>extract was one of the materials employed in this
>endeavour.It was a successful operation,and Chritiania
>Freetown has remained a zone entirely free from hard
>drugs like opiates,cocaine, speed etc.to this day, and
>violence is rare,although there are some problems with
>alcohol and tourism…
>To acheive consensus on “no hard drugs” in a community
>is no easy thing and our model may not be universally
>applicable,but the principles involved could indeed be
>applied worldwide in a more enlightened future.To some
>extent there are hopeful signs that visionary plants
>and drugs are becoming an accepted part of everyday
>reality in the western “civilization”,and that
>long-lost profession of being a psychedelic guide will
>be back in business, as was the case in the 1950’s and
>early60’s,with a new role to play in using the Iboga
>alkaloids in therapy and counseling.In this spirit,I
>will do what I can,as much as I can, as fast as I
>can…
>
>Cordially,Carl
>
>
>
>On Mon, 08 April 2002, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote
>
> > Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is
>less dangerous
> > than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine.
>For people
> > who need codeine, why not prescribe really small
>amounts of
> > heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no
>sense and
> > doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics
>to pre-meds; it
> > was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my
>first student
> > becoming a license physician.)
> >
> > Francis
> >
> >
> > On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:
> >
> > >
> > > In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM,
>synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:
> > >
> > > > Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it
>answered my question.
> > > >What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and
>if they broke it down
> > > >from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that
>instead of turning it
> > > >into HCL? Is this some company making it right
>now or what. I’m lost. What
> > > >I mean is what is the reason, why make this when
>you can get HCL from it
> > > >and what am I buying if I buy indra?
> > >
> > > Without giving you a direct response… why does
>opium exist and morphine
> > > exist when the manufacturer could go on to make
>heroin? I think indra is the
> > > equivalent of a trade name. Indra can be reached
>at
> > > . You
>might ask them to explain
> > > themselves.
> > >
> > > Howard
> > >
>
>
>
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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Cigarette Addiction drives you crazy
Date: April 19, 2002 at 2:02:39 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 16, 2002 at 08:49:38PM -0700], [Dana Beal] wrote:

| Cigarettes ‘can cause mental ills’

Is that what’s doing it…?

Who woulda thunK

PatricK

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] advertising
Date: April 18, 2002 at 7:47:01 PM EDT
To: digital@phantom.com

Do not dump all this drivel here.

Seemed like you were asking for help? Anyway, it was interesting
facts-o-life stuff for me.

Bill

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] advertising
Date: April 18, 2002 at 7:23:53 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 11:04:37PM +0000], [tboz] wrote:

| <Exciting opportunities Edited ouT>

Dude, that’s all terribly exciting.  All I wanna know is…  Can you get
BD Medical Devices to manufacture syringes with a MindVox logo on ’em…?

Seriously, please…  Do not dump all this drivel here.  I can lock down
the list and release messages by approval — meaning: they pertain to the
topic of ibogaine and/or addiction, however vaguely.  But that’s a pain in
the ass.

I realize I prolly should not have posted the gov/mil thing which filled
me with glee and paranoia all at once, but just send me email so that I
can add you to my filter and proceed to ignore you; or throw it into the
vox list, which is all about high volume noise on the topic of Nothing in
particulaR.

Thank you

Patrick

Okay…  I WILL read my email now.  I can do this.  Killing spam, chain
letters, and not reading the lists, there are only 450 messages to go.  I
CAN DO THIS…  Unless, I rationalize a way to put it off until tomorrow,
or an emergency takes place…  Emergencies are always taking place, it
prolly would not be my fault…  At all…

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] Hep C May Kill More than AIDS
Date: April 18, 2002 at 10:15:40 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: chrischmoo@yahoo.co.uk, biuro_69@csk.pl, Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com>, “tony conte” <contetony@hotmail.com>, Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>, “Gregory Lake” <lakeg@hotmail.com>, actupny@panix.com, “Allan clear” <clear@harmreduction.org>, GroveDS@aol.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Pubdate: Mon, 22 Apr 2002
Source: Newsweek (US)
Copyright: 2002 Newsweek, Inc.
Contact: letters@newsweek.com
Website: http://www.msnbc.com/news/NW-front_Front.asp
Details: http://www.mapinc.org/media/309
Section: Health, page 47
Author: Goeffrey Cowley

HEPATITIS C: THE INSIDIOUS SPREAD OF A KILLER VIRUS

This Stealthy Disease Can Incubate For Decades. Now Thousands Of People Are
Getting Sick. By 2010 It May Strike Down More Americans Each Year Than AIDS.

Merrily Anderson was an actuary’s dream when her life-insurance policy came
up for renewal three years ago. At 50 years old, she had enjoyed good
health and a happy marriage all her adult life. There was no illness in her
family.

Her job was stable, and her lovely twin daughters had just turned 21. When
the insurance agent suggested applying for a discounted rate, she supplied
urine and blood samples and figured she was a shoo-in. She wasn’t. When the
agent called back, he said the whole application had been nixed, and
suggested she write the company to ask why. Anderson dashed off a note
before leaving on a brief vacation with her husband, and the answer was
lodged in a stack of mail when they got home.

URL: http://www.mapinc.org/drugnews/v02.n746.a04.html

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From: “tboz” <tboz@subdimension.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] advertising
Date: April 18, 2002 at 7:04:37 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m signed here to read the ibogaine list, I’ll keep it
short because I don’t really understand what you’re doing
but marketing and sales is something I know about more then
ibogaine.

Slashdot has no business model besides being purchased by
V.A. Linux and folded into OSDN. VA is under investigation
by the SEC and sliding into it’s grave. It makes no money.
It has never made any money except at the IPO. Standard dot
com business model. Not applicable.

High Times publishes a magazine and sells products and sells
their telephone support for beating drug tests. They
probably lose money on their web site. Not applicable.

Fucked Company was in the right place at the right time and
is about the destruction of dot com.

What is applicable is that you rate very high on a
verifiable third party ratings system which is owned by
Amazon. Alexa. Amazon pays for advertising on certain sites.
You rank high based on their own ranking system. It is
likely that people who use Mindvox would purchase products
related to drug culture and technolgy from Amazon.

If you are not making some kind of profit, which I don’t
understand because then what you have here is a hobby which
must be costing you thousands a month to maintain, you
certainly could be.

I’d be more then happy to assist you with finding sources of
revenue and writing contracts for points 🙂 You don’t
profit, I don’t make any money.

The first thing you need to do is place a Adult Content sign
somewhere on your site or in the html, or some civic group
will find a way to sue your advertisers when they get angry
with you. And they will, this will happen, believe me.

Sending you a attachment in private email

If anyone reading this is running a site with a traffic
ranking of 50,000 or higher as verifiable on Alexa and you’d
like the same offer, please email me. I want no money except
a percent of money that I make for you. There are no fees,
no costs, my references and work history available upon
request to qualified parties.

Tboz

_____________________________________________________________________
// free anonymous email || forums \\ subZINE || anonymous browsing
subDIMENSION — http://www.subdimension.com

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 5:47:30 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hey, am I the only one who doesn’t understand what’s all this about? Which system isn’t opened and why? And HoWWW? (jeez, it must be CONtageous, now even i STARted to write like mimicking someOn-e…

Marko

At 23:22 18.4.2002, you wrote:

If you would just buy a small-mug everytime you had the urge to tell
patrick to open the system.. everything would be okay..

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/Store/

BUY NOW!

On Thu, 18 Apr 2002, Pinky White wrote:

>
> Hmmm. That’s a tough one Patrick.
> Why don’t you………………………………………………………………
>
> O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M
>
> You just broke 20,000 and passed Attrition. There are no “hacker” sites left which outrank you.
>
> Throw the links in the garbage, take P A Y I N G banners from real companies that can afford it. Beer goes great with mindvox, light a cigarette and surf Vox, click for porn, check out this headshop. Things like that.
>
> Then O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M
>
> Here’s what you’re competing with
>
> slashdot 1563
>
> fuckedcompany 3840
>
> hightimes 9346
>
> You know what they all have in common? They’re O P E N. You’re not. You are doing magic with little content, no registered users because there is nothing to login to. If you can do all that with some rants, your media kit and nothing but attitude. You’ll break the top 1000 nearly instantly if you O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M.
>
> None of that will make you wealthy overnight.
>
> Taking any of my advice will make you a few thousand a month and cause V.C.’s to at least look at you.
>
>
>
>   “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote: On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 01:23:23PM -0700], [Bill Ross] wrote:
>
> | It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
> | locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net! According to Statistics and
> | Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
> | wack.
> |
> | (There are 528 total locations, about 400 with repeat visits.)
> |
> | 1261 total hits – “well below .01%” means that’s out of over 12610000
> | total hits. Now I’m more worried that that’s not _enough_ hits from the
> | gov’t. 🙂
>
> Look, there is really only one question here and one statement.
>
> Question: How do we become FABULOUSLY WEALTHY from this — overnight, if
> at all possible — now that .dot.bomb has melted down.
>
> Statement: Clearly none of us are of arabic descent. Clearly, THE ENEMY
> *destroyed* our office building! Fully Documented Conclusive Proof:
>
> http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/About/Photos.html
>
> (Scroll down to Trashed Building nExt to WTC).
>
> We are all on the Same Exact Page Bible> DRUGS, GUNS, and KILL FOR PEACE! Yeah mahn.
>
> Patrick
>
>
>
> ———————————
> Do You Yahoo!?
> Yahoo! Tax Center – online filing with TurboTax

From: dross <dross@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 5:22:44 PM EDT
To: Pinky White <uselessaccount24@yahoo.com>
Cc: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

If you would just buy a small-mug everytime you had the urge to tell
patrick to open the system.. everything would be okay..

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/Store/

BUY NOW!

On Thu, 18 Apr 2002, Pinky White wrote:

Hmmm. That’s a tough one Patrick.
Why don’t you………………………………………………………………

O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M

You just broke 20,000 and passed Attrition. There are no “hacker” sites left which outrank you.

Throw the links in the garbage, take P A Y I N G banners from real companies that can afford it. Beer goes great with mindvox, light a cigarette and surf Vox, click for porn, check out this headshop. Things like that.

Then O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M

Here’s what you’re competing with

slashdot 1563

fuckedcompany 3840

hightimes 9346

You know what they all have in common? They’re O P E N. You’re not. You are doing magic with little content, no registered users because there is nothing to login to. If you can do all that with some rants, your media kit and nothing but attitude. You’ll break the top 1000 nearly instantly if you O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M.

None of that will make you wealthy overnight.

Taking any of my advice will make you a few thousand a month and cause V.C.’s to at least look at you.

“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote: On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 01:23:23PM -0700], [Bill Ross] wrote:

| It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
| locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net! According to Statistics and
| Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
| wack.
|
| (There are 528 total locations, about 400 with repeat visits.)
|
| 1261 total hits – “well below .01%” means that’s out of over 12610000
| total hits. Now I’m more worried that that’s not _enough_ hits from the
| gov’t. 🙂

Look, there is really only one question here and one statement.

Question: How do we become FABULOUSLY WEALTHY from this — overnight, if
at all possible — now that .dot.bomb has melted down.

Statement: Clearly none of us are of arabic descent. Clearly, THE ENEMY
*destroyed* our office building! Fully Documented Conclusive Proof:

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/About/Photos.html

(Scroll down to Trashed Building nExt to WTC).

We are all on the Same Exact Page Bible> DRUGS, GUNS, and KILL FOR PEACE! Yeah mahn.

Patrick

———————————
Do You Yahoo!?
Yahoo! Tax Center – online filing with TurboTax

From: Pinky White <uselessaccount24@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 4:52:48 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hmmm. That’s a tough one Patrick.
Why don’t you………………………………………………………………
O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M
You just broke 20,000 and passed Attrition. There are no “hacker” sites left which outrank you.
Throw the links in the garbage, take P A Y I N G banners from real companies that can afford it. Beer goes great with mindvox, light a cigarette and surf Vox, click for porn, check out this headshop. Things like that.
Then O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M
Here’s what you’re competing with
slashdot 1563
fuckedcompany 3840
hightimes 9346
You know what they all have in common? They’re O P E N. You’re not. You are doing magic with little content, no registered users because there is nothing to login to. If you can do all that with some rants, your media kit and nothing but attitude. You’ll break the top 1000 nearly instantly if you O P E N T H E F U C K I N G S Y S T E M.
None of that will make you wealthy overnight.
Taking any of my advice will make you a few thousand a month and cause V.C.’s to at least look at you.

“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 01:23:23PM -0700], [Bill Ross] wrote:

| It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
| locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net! According to Statistics and
| Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
| wack.
|
| (There are 528 total locations, about 400 with repeat visits.)
|
| 1261 total hits – “well below .01%” means that’s out of over 12610000
| total hits. Now I’m more worried that that’s not _enough_ hits from the
| gov’t. 🙂

Look, there is really only one question here and one statement.

Question: How do we become FABULOUSLY WEALTHY from this — overnight, if
at all possible — now that .dot.bomb has melted down.

Statement: Clearly none of us are of arabic descent. Clearly, THE ENEMY
*destroyed* our office building! Fully Documented Conclusive Proof:

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/About/Photos.html

(Scroll down to Trashed Building nExt to WTC).

We are all on the Same Exact Page
Bible> DRUGS, GUNS, and KILL FOR PEACE! Yeah mahn.

Patrick
Do You Yahoo!?
Yahoo! Tax Center – online filing with TurboTax

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [vox] Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 4:27:56 PM EDT
To: vox@mindvox.com
Cc: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: vox@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 01:23:23PM -0700], [Bill Ross] wrote:

| It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
| locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net!  According to Statistics and
| Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
| wack.
|
| (There are 528 total locations, about 400 with repeat visits.)
|
| 1261 total hits – “well below .01%” means that’s out of over 12610000
| total hits. Now I’m more worried that that’s not _enough_ hits from the
| gov’t. 🙂

Look, there is really only one question here and one statement.

Question: How do we become FABULOUSLY WEALTHY from this — overnight, if
at all possible — now that .dot.bomb has melted down.

Statement: Clearly none of us are of arabic descent.  Clearly, THE ENEMY
*destroyed* our office building!  Fully Documented Conclusive Proof:

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/About/Photos.html

(Scroll down to Trashed Building nExt to WTC).

We are all on the Same Exact Page <waving American Flag, reading from
Bible> DRUGS, GUNS, and KILL FOR PEACE!  Yeah mahn.

Patrick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 4:23:23 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net!  According to Statistics and
Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
wack.

(There are 528 total locations, about 400 with repeat visits.)

1261 total hits – “well below .01%” means that’s out of over 12610000
total hits. Now I’m more worried that that’s not _enough_ hits from the
gov’t. 🙂

Bill Ross

From: dross <dross@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 4:13:03 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

did anybody else find this entry odd?

16824859 208.213.152.2 cox-smoker.thailand.navy.mil

wtf?

On Thu, 18 Apr 2002, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 03:58:23PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| what’s with all the what appears to my not-so-computer-literate self as
| military stopping by?
| Peace,
| Preston

It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net!  According to Statistics and
Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
wack.  95% is prolly people dicking around, 5% is someone doing research
on the coMputEr undergroUnd or security.

Anybody who is actually The Men in Grey, would fall under that mountain of
IP’s which do not reverse resolve, are behind proxies and firewalls
sumplace, and prolly coming out of a .dot.com address for that matter.

z00m,

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 4:09:02 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 18, 2002 at 03:58:23PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| what’s with all the what appears to my not-so-computer-literate self as
| military stopping by?
| Peace,
| Preston

It’s basically exactly whut Bill just sed’: dudes and dudettes at these
locations, hangin’ out and Surfing the Net!  According to Statistics and
Other Lies, this is sumwhere well below .01%, so it’s really not out of
wack.  95% is prolly people dicking around, 5% is someone doing research
on the coMputEr undergroUnd or security.

Anybody who is actually The Men in Grey, would fall under that mountain of
IP’s which do not reverse resolve, are behind proxies and firewalls
sumplace, and prolly coming out of a .dot.com address for that matter.

z00m,

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 3:58:23 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

what’s with all the what appears to my not-so-computer-literate self as
military stopping by?
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <vox@mindvox.com>; <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 18, 2002 2:52 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!

I wonder if we should put up like a WELCOME sign or sumthin’

This is a half-assed, incomplete, not finished pass through the logs for
the last 30 days … and this is just the shit that reverse resolves…
and just MindVox, it duz’ not include any of the other domains or ib0ga1ne
things.

woo hoo

– – – – – – – – –

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16824859 62.254.240.228 mailhost.newport.gov.uk
16824859 198.81.129.194 relay2.ucia.gov
16824859 130.132.32.231 govdoc2.library.yale.edu
16824859 162.140.64.100 diamond.access.gpo.gov
16824859 212.74.31.130 mail.westsussex.gov.uk
16824859 194.247.83.16 hal.aberdeenshire.gov.uk
16824859 140.172.180.164 apex.ngdc.noaa.gov
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16824859 63.82.114.157 P8-157.senate.gov
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16824859 152.76.0.130 gw1.cs.nsw.gov.au

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 3:58:52 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Lotsa duplicates (408 cases of same machine showing up 2 or 3 times):

% cat list |  awk ‘{print $NF}’ | sort | uniq -c | awk ‘$1 != “1”‘

But assuming you egrepped ‘mil|gov’ from the resolvable list, what
percentage are they of the total resolvables?

Looks like the .mil folk are enjoying the freedom they’re (potentially)
fighting for.

Bill Ross

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Hello we Love you Lots and lotS!
Date: April 18, 2002 at 2:52:34 PM EDT
To: vox@mindvox.com, ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I wonder if we should put up like a WELCOME sign or sumthin’

This is a half-assed, incomplete, not finished pass through the logs for
the last 30 days … and this is just the shit that reverse resolves…
and just MindVox, it duz’ not include any of the other domains or ib0ga1ne
things.

woo hoo

– – – – – – – – –

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From: Pinky White <uselessaccount24@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] All access is a security violation
Date: April 17, 2002 at 11:16:51 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

My work is never done.
Whatever you people did you made your servers so secure that nobody can access them.
Your machines have been sitting there all day, they ping, they are alive and on the net.
And you probably haven’t noticed that nobody except you and whatever you put into the tcp/ip wrappers or firewall rules, can get through.
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From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 17, 2002 at 12:46:42 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: Carl Waltenburg <saucertrips@yahoo.co.uk>
To: ibogalab@hotmail.com
Subject: Fwd: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: Wed, 17 Apr 2002 17:42:24 +0100 (BST)

Dear friends
Since there seems to be a great deal of confusion on
the Net as to what is what I would like to make a
comment to the statement attached below.The book I
came across when I returned from the Kilimanjaro was
not Schultes’&Hofmann’s “Plants of the gods”.It was
their “botany and chemistry of hallucinogens”.Apart
from correcting that error the statement deserves some
further clarification…
What is “Indra”?
“Indra” was the name chosen for an internet shop
selling ethnobotanical specialties for shamanic use.
I happened to know the guys who started the shop and
gave them some of my Iboga extract so that they could
make it commercially available.
I am not so happy with the way that went down.Although
they surely distributed substantial amounts of the
stuff,I did not see much of any benign influence from
their endeavour,(nor did I see any money coming my way
from providing the stuff to them in the first place).
It stands to reason,when I view the episode in
retrospect,that entheogens and sacred plants and their
congeners should not be handled by people whose only
religion is money,whose only incentive is profit and
who approach me with an intent to GET whateveritis
from me to take personal advantage of the situation.
The Iboga extract that was released to the world
through this conduit was,however,remarkably safe and
sort of tailor-made for the elimination of addictive
demands and applicable over a wide variety of
drug-related problematiques.Crystalline Ibogaine HCL
is to this extract somewhat like taking ONE active
ingredient out of a plant with at least EIGHTEEN
different active ingredients.You end up with a
different pharmacodynamic profile,and also something
quite toxic in the dosages proposed (e.g.1000
milligrams) and hence impossible to administer under
any but highly supervised clinical settings.
Considering the popularity of another historically
known Iboga extract called “Lambarene” in the early
days of the 20th century,experience shows that this is
a promising field indeed,but only as good as the
players in it…
cordially,Carl W.
>
> >From: vector6@space.com
> >Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> >To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> >Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
> >Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)

>

> ATTACHMENT part 2 message/rfc822
> Reply-to: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> From: vector6@space.com
> Date: Mon, 08 Apr 2002 18:00:27 -0700 (PDT)
> Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
>

<HR>
This doesn’t answer what indra is exactly, if it’s
still any good after being stored for so long and what
potency is left in it. But like almost everything at
least some of the answers are on the internet and you
can find them using google 🙂

.:vector:.

Reprinted from:
http://www.ridgetelnet.com/~jenks/ibogaine/121299.html

Date: Sun, 12 Dec 1999 08:24:43 EST
From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” <ibogalab@hotmail.com>
Subject: Re: indra ibo(beginning)

In a message dated 12/11/99 10:48:50 AM,
ibogalab@hotmail.com (Carl) wrote:

> I have been working with the Iboga alkaloids over
the last sixteen years

Carl,

What precipitated your work with ibogaine?  How did
you come to it?  Please
be only as open as you feel comfortable in being.

Thanks.

Howard

Well,Howard it is a very long story,I guess it started
with being born into a family where visionary plants
and drugs was part of the cultural heritage,and
literature in that field was
abundant.Huxley’s”Island”,Baudelaire’s”the artificial
paradises”de Ropp’s “drugs and the mind” etc. was my
childhood literature,my father was a book publisher
and translator and a journalist with a strong
revolutionary impact on contemporary society
throughout the 1960’s and my school years in the late
sixties were heavily laced with psychedelic drugs and
social protest,the Vietnam war being what it was and
youth culture being what it was…
I first came across the Iboga plant when I returned
from a soujourn with the medicine men of Tanzania
,Kenya and Uganda in the Kilimanjaro area (doing some
highly classified magic that was part of overthrowing
the Idi Amin dictatorship),finding dr Hofmann’s and dr
Schultes’ elegant volume “Plants of the Gods”.Then,as
I stated earlier,I was working with numerous medicinal
plants in a pharmaceutical house,and the Iboga plant
was one of them.At that time,we considered it to be a
rather wild and rough trip with a lot of undesirable
side effects,so I set out to “tame” this wild spirit
into something more manageable,as I intuitively felt
that here was something with a tremendous healing
potential.In the same time period Christiania Freetown
had a severe problem with hard drug abuse,criminal
biker gangs fighting over street level drug market
control,heavily armed maniacs, and a lot of police
brutality.The scene was disgusting,so the Psychedelic
Movement decided to make the entire arsenal of
visionary plants and drugs readily available at street
level,on the principle that on a truly free market
good drugs will drive out the bad,and the Iboga
extract was one of the materials employed in this
endeavour.It was a successful operation,and Chritiania
Freetown has remained a zone entirely free from hard
drugs like opiates,cocaine, speed etc.to this day, and
violence is rare,although there are some problems with
alcohol and tourism…
To acheive consensus on “no hard drugs” in a community
is no easy thing and our model may not be universally
applicable,but the principles involved could indeed be
applied worldwide in a more enlightened future.To some
extent there are hopeful signs that visionary plants
and drugs are becoming an accepted part of everyday
reality in the western “civilization”,and that
long-lost profession of being a psychedelic guide will
be back in business, as was the case in the 1950’s and
early60’s,with a new role to play in using the Iboga
alkaloids in therapy and counseling.In this spirit,I
will do what I can,as much as I can, as fast as I
can…

Cordially,Carl

On Mon, 08 April 2002, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote

> Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is
less dangerous
> than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine.
For people
> who need codeine, why not prescribe really small
amounts of
> heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no
sense and
> doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics
to pre-meds; it
> was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my
first student
> becoming a license physician.)
>
> Francis
>
>
> On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:
>
> >
> > In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM,
synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:
> >
> > > Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it
answered my question.
> > >What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and
if they broke it down
> > >from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that
instead of turning it
> > >into HCL? Is this some company making it right
now or what. I’m lost. What
> > >I mean is what is the reason, why make this when
you can get HCL from it
> > >and what am I buying if I buy indra?
> >
> > Without giving you a direct response… why does
opium exist and morphine
> > exist when the manufacturer could go on to make
heroin? I think indra is the
> > equivalent of a trade name.  Indra can be reached
at
> > <http://www.indra.dk/ukversion/ukindex.htm>.  You
might ask them to explain
> > themselves.
> >
> > Howard
> >

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From: “Les Smith” <leesmithjr@prodigy.net>
Subject: [ibogaine] Fw: Re: Nature’s own antidote to cocaine
Date: April 16, 2002 at 11:11:47 PM EDT
To: “ibogaine@mindvox.com” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Cc: “HSLotsof@aol.com” <HSLotsof@aol.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

——-Original Message——-

From: Academic and Scholarly Discussion of Addiction Related Topics.
Date: Tuesday, April 16, 2002 11:09:38 PM
To: ADDICT-L@LISTSERV.KENT.EDU
Subject: Re: Nature’s own antidote to cocaine

— Les Smith <leesmithjr@PRODIGY.NET> wrote:
> D.C., J.C., and Others:
>
> I am curious as to your opinions on Ibogaine
> treatment for chronic addiction

Quick Response (I had to leave ALL of my Ibo lit. in
my old computer and have not had a chance yet to get
back into such files with my new computer):

I’ve been impressed with what I’ve read, specifically
about the blend of Ibo + its metabolite (neither seems
as effective solo). The personal reports I’ve seen re
treated patients is typical, however: The DESIRE to
stay clean is paramount. With Ibo, as well as all
anti-addiction drugs, patients tend to believe that if
they “take the pill”, they can sit back and relax
while the pill does all the work. Instant sobriety,
as it were. Even with Ibo, the patient has to be
willing to do some work. Unfortunately, it hasn’t
been in use long enough to see what long-term effects
are on a large enough sample.

When used under rigid supervision, it appears that
Ibogaine + genuinely attenuates craving/withdrawal
symptoms for several weeks. But, if a doper thinks
it’ll take the edge off until they can get better
control of their usage, it can kill them. Therefore,
the patient has to want to stay sober *more* than they
want to get f**ked up.

IMO, Ibogaine + is a very good anti-addiction
alternative, but it is NOT for amateurs to do at
home…

— JC

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From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] Cigarette Addiction drives you crazy
Date: April 16, 2002 at 11:49:38 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Cc: chrischmoo@yahoo.co.uk, biuro_69@csk.pl, Hattie <epoptica@freeuk.com>, “tony conte” <contetony@hotmail.com>, Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>, “Gregory Lake” <lakeg@hotmail.com>, actupny@panix.com, “Allan clear” <clear@harmreduction.org>, GroveDS@aol.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

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From: NYAPRS@aol.com
Full-name: NYAPRS
Message-ID: <124.f05fd11.29e82a0d@aol.com>
Date: Fri, 12 Apr 2002 08:16:13 EDT
Subject: Study: Smoking Potential Cause, Not Just Effect, of Mental
Health Problems
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Cigarettes ‘can cause mental ills’
by Mark Henderson   The Times   April 11, 2002

SMOKING may be a major cause of mental illness as well as lung cancer and
heart disease, research has found.

Evidence in the US suggests that tobacco can contribute to panic attacks,
anxiety problems and schizophrenia. While it has long been known that
mentally ill people, such as those suffering from schizophrenia, are more
likely to smoke, this has usually been thought to be a consequence rather
than a cause of their condition.

Jeffrey Johnson, of New York Psychiatric Institute, found that people who
smoke a packet of cigarettes a day at the age of 16 are 16 times more likely
to develop panic disorders, seven times more likely to become agoraphobic and
five times more likely to develop generalised anxiety disorder than
non-smoking peers.

Source:   http://www.thetimes.co.uk/printFriendly/0,,1-2-263547,00.html

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Mytragina, Kratom, etc
Date: April 16, 2002 at 4:23:45 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 16, 2002 at 12:23:50PM -0700], [Gamma] wrote:

| interesting…
|
| http://www.erowid.org/plants/kratom/kratom_info1.shtml

Whut they don’t mention is this stuff has a ph similar to battery acid.
Drink 50-80cc’s of it, and mahn do you need 20 tums.

z00m

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Mytragina, Kratom, etc
Date: April 16, 2002 at 3:23:50 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

interesting…

http://www.erowid.org/plants/kratom/kratom_info1.shtml

-gamma

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Testing 1 . 1 . 1
Date: April 16, 2002 at 12:31:14 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 16, 2002 at 02:57:58AM -0700], [Carla Barnes] wrote:

| I know it was only for the weekend but I didn’t realize how much I’ve
| gotten used to reading all this and feeling like I’m starting to know
| some of you and I did go through withdrawl when it just vanished for 2
| days! Don’t do that again! 🙂

Not a problem, we’re STABLE and not FLYING out of anything for the next
year or so.  However, we are adding 24 hour a day customer support, being
handled by: Vic!  We’ll be providing all 5 cellphone numbers, and his home
number.  The best time to call is noonish; Vic loves receiving messages on
his answering machine!  The best kind to leave are these: “Hiiiiii,
Vicccc, We met at the Adult Video Convention!  It was suchhhhh goooooood
times.  You don’t write, you don’t call, by the way, I’m pregnant!”  His
wife really enjoys them.

– – – – – – – – –

Semi-serious part of message type thing:  To all the people who just
landed here.  Hullo.  Reading the logs many of you appear to be writing
very long and detailed messages to the listserver.  Nobody reads these —
until I just scanned them.  It isn’t a person, there isn’t anyone who can
reply to any of it.

If you have some particular question for me, I will do my best to answer
it.  It may take a while, and if you’re having a crisis I’m sorry — in
all honesty, no sarcasm.  There are a variety of people on this list, many
have done ibogaine, many have not, most have been drug dependent, and some
I s’pose are just curious.  But if it’s not extremely personal, you can
certainly ask it, and probably get at least a couple of people who have
been there — or are currently there, and trying to deal.

If anyone wants to get OFF the list, send mail to:

ibogaine-unsubscribe@mindvox.com

laters,

Patrick

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 15, 2002 at 1:45:45 PM EDT
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

John Morgan doesn’t believe addiction exists??!

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—–Original Message—–
From: Dana Beal [mailto:dana@cures-not-wars.org]
Sent: 13 April 2002 18:15
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply

Randy Kieser writes:

I could not read this message. Can you please resend?

I’ve read the ibogaine sites and materials. From these my general
understanding is that ibogaine is a medication which has hallucinogenic
properties and will detoxify you from heroin or longer acting narcotics
like methadone.

Does this include LAAM?

My secondary question is, what is preventing ibogaine from being tested in
clinical trials? It is schedule I, but MDMA appears to have made it past
that hurdle recently, at least in part because of the work of MAPS. What is
holding up ibogaine?

Thanks

Rob

MDMA is funded by people who want to legalize it for recreational
use. Unfortunately, there is no one who wants to use ibo
recreationally, and NIDA won’t because of the Joyce Nalepka’s of the
world, so it just isn’t happening.

A lot of legalizers are offended by ibogaine, like John Morgan or
Stanton Peele, because they don’t believe addictions exist.

Dana/cnw

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Testing 1 . 1 . 1
Date: April 16, 2002 at 5:57:58 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi and welcome back!
I wrote you this in email but I don’t know if you read your email or ever reply to it 😉 I do know you read this so I wanted to say thanks for I’m not sure what exactly. Being here! I’m not the best with words what I’m trying to say is addiction and yes I know you don’t even believe in it exactly but addiction or drug dependence or whatever you call it isn’t the easiest thing to deal with and having this here is really good. Not even so much as a source of information but knowing that there are a lot of people some of them who look like they have a lot of problems who are dealing with it somehow and knowing that this is here is like a great support system and I know you don’t do the 12 steps or believe in them either but it’s really nice when it feels like whenever I want to I can go here and there are a lot of very different people who I can talk to.
I know it was only for the weekend but I didn’t realize how much I’ve gotten used to reading all this and feeling like I’m starting to know some of you and I did go through withdrawl when it just vanished for 2 days! Don’t do that again! 🙂
I don’t understand any of it but Mindvox is very pretty and I do load it into the browser a lot like that other person made fun of. It’d be nice if you opened it, I want to see what’s inside 🙂
I have to ask, what is BSD? Those lines that rotate, when I loaded mindvox just now it said: lsd 25, bsd 4.4 What is bsd?
Thanks for being here!
Carla B
“Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
We’re Back…

I’m going to collapse now.

Buh-bye and laters,

Patrick

 

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From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 13, 2002 at 9:34:45 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/13/02 10:15:48 AM, dana@cures-not-wars.org writes:

MDMA is funded by people who want to legalize it for recreational
use. Unfortunately, there is no one who wants to use ibo
recreationally, and NIDA won’t because of the Joyce Nalepka’s of the
world, so it just isn’t happening.

MAPS directed approximately $50,000.00 toward ibogaine clinical studies.

Howard

And then they stopped. Haven’t stopped pushing MDMA, though.

dana/cnw

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [vox] Final thotS
Date: April 15, 2002 at 6:47:26 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: vox@mindvox.com

You should be reading dese heah werds…  However, you will prolly not be
able to FIND US until your DNS refreshes (meaning anytime between RIGHT
NOW, and A WHILE LATER).

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Testing 1 . 1 . 1
Date: April 15, 2002 at 6:35:27 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

We’re Back…

I’m going to collapse now.

Buh-bye and laters,

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Very Last Final Update Type Thing
Date: April 13, 2002 at 4:39:24 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 13, 2002 at 04:39:47PM -0400], [HSLotsof@aol.com] wrote:

Howard!

Hey, it ain’t that bad, just the notice was SUDDEN “Okay, we’re closed
now!  Thanks for the bid’ness!”

We will apparently be back up within roughly 3 hours.

Even the slowest DNS which refreshes every 24hrs, should find us by Sunday
at roughly 3am.

z00m!

Gosh this is exciting!

Patrick

| Jesus! Patrick,
|
| Ibogaine list withdrawal!
|
| Howard
|
| In a message dated 4/13/02 4:31:59 PM, digital@phantom.com writes:
|
| >Okay, everything is FLYING in 8 different directions all at once, and
| >appears to be all-good.  We will have sumplace to relight over the weekend
| >prior to a final lurch mid-week.
| >
| >One thing to take note of is: DNS hasta propagate (our new IP has to reach
| >whatever nameservers you are using.  How fast it does this depends upon
| >your refresh rate).  Therefore, it may come back on in blips and spurts,
| >depending on where and how, you connect to the .NET (TM)
| >
| >To everybody writing my stacks of mail with, “We can host the sites!”
| >Thanks a bunch, no really, it’s appreciated, but it don’t work that way.
| >It’s not a site (or sites), it is a huge mountain of STUFF in the backend,
| >without which the front-end thatcha see will not run.  It isn’t a case
| >of,
| >”here’s the .tar.gz file.”  It’s more like, “here is a rack of machines
| >to
| >be plugged in.”  We aren’t “web hosted” we have servers which are ours,
| >which are plugged in sumplace.
| >
| >All’s — more or less — good.
| >
| >Patrick

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Very Last Final Update Type Thing
Date: April 13, 2002 at 4:39:47 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Jesus! Patrick,

Ibogaine list withdrawal!

Howard

In a message dated 4/13/02 4:31:59 PM, digital@phantom.com writes:

Okay, everything is FLYING in 8 different directions all at once, and
appears to be all-good.  We will have sumplace to relight over the weekend
prior to a final lurch mid-week.

One thing to take note of is: DNS hasta propagate (our new IP has to reach
whatever nameservers you are using.  How fast it does this depends upon
your refresh rate).  Therefore, it may come back on in blips and spurts,
depending on where and how, you connect to the .NET (TM)

To everybody writing my stacks of mail with, “We can host the sites!”
Thanks a bunch, no really, it’s appreciated, but it don’t work that way.
It’s not a site (or sites), it is a huge mountain of STUFF in the backend,
without which the front-end thatcha see will not run.  It isn’t a case
of,
“here’s the .tar.gz file.”  It’s more like, “here is a rack of machines
to
be plugged in.”  We aren’t “web hosted” we have servers which are ours,
which are plugged in sumplace.

All’s — more or less — good.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Very Last Final Update Type Thing
Date: April 13, 2002 at 4:27:48 PM EDT
To: vox@mindvox.com, ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Okay, everything is FLYING in 8 different directions all at once, and
appears to be all-good.  We will have sumplace to relight over the weekend
prior to a final lurch mid-week.

One thing to take note of is: DNS hasta propagate (our new IP has to reach
whatever nameservers you are using.  How fast it does this depends upon
your refresh rate).  Therefore, it may come back on in blips and spurts,
depending on where and how, you connect to the .NET (TM)

To everybody writing my stacks of mail with, “We can host the sites!”
Thanks a bunch, no really, it’s appreciated, but it don’t work that way.
It’s not a site (or sites), it is a huge mountain of STUFF in the backend,
without which the front-end thatcha see will not run.  It isn’t a case of,
“here’s the .tar.gz file.”  It’s more like, “here is a rack of machines to
be plugged in.”  We aren’t “web hosted” we have servers which are ours,
which are plugged in sumplace.

All’s — more or less — good.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Hey
Date: April 13, 2002 at 3:49:52 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com, vox@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I cannot answer all this mail, no fucking way peoples.  I am typing as
fast as I can in like 6 windows:  We’re moving from Verio NJ to Verio NYC,
latest relight is WED.  We may be back in a few hours as we mirror this
shit to another server living elsewhere.

This was expected.  What was unexpected is 15 mins notice instead of
several days.

DON’T PANIC, ALL IS WELL! (moving towards the door, running).  STAY CALM!

=)

Patrick

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 13, 2002 at 12:41:31 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

At 19:15 13.4.2002, you wrote:
Randy Kieser writes:

I could not read this message. Can you please resend?

I’ve read the ibogaine sites and materials. From these my general
understanding is that ibogaine is a medication which has hallucinogenic
properties and will detoxify you from heroin or longer acting narcotics
like methadone.

Does this include LAAM?

My secondary question is, what is preventing ibogaine from being tested in
clinical trials? It is schedule I, but MDMA appears to have made it past
that hurdle recently, at least in part because of the work of MAPS. What is
holding up ibogaine?

Thanks

Rob

MDMA is funded by people who want to legalize it for recreational use. Unfortunately, there is no one who wants to use ibo recreationally, and NIDA won’t because of the Joyce Nalepka’s of the world, so it just isn’t happening.

A lot of legalizers are offended by ibogaine, like John Morgan or Stanton Peele, because they don’t believe addictions exist.

Dana/cnw

he he he …
Nalepka in my language means “sticker”

Marko

From: Jack Honeycutt <jhoneycutt@qwest.net>
Subject: [ibogaine] botany sources?
Date: April 13, 2002 at 12:00:19 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I am an amateur botanist. My interest is in the plant, T. iboga, not so much the drug.  I am interested in taxonomic and culture information.

My understanding is that the plant is illegal in the US (where I am located).  I would enjoy exchanging information with folks who grow this plant (perhaps in other countries where it is legal).

If anyone could refer me to a mailing list, web site, or other botany type folks that would be great.

Thanks in advance.

James Honeycutt

 

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 13, 2002 at 10:43:14 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/13/02 10:15:48 AM, dana@cures-not-wars.org writes:

MDMA is funded by people who want to legalize it for recreational
use. Unfortunately, there is no one who wants to use ibo
recreationally, and NIDA won’t because of the Joyce Nalepka’s of the
world, so it just isn’t happening.

MAPS directed approximately $50,000.00 toward ibogaine clinical studies.

Howard

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 13, 2002 at 1:15:17 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Randy Kieser writes:

I could not read this message. Can you please resend?

I’ve read the ibogaine sites and materials. From these my general
understanding is that ibogaine is a medication which has hallucinogenic
properties and will detoxify you from heroin or longer acting narcotics
like methadone.

Does this include LAAM?

My secondary question is, what is preventing ibogaine from being tested in
clinical trials? It is schedule I, but MDMA appears to have made it past
that hurdle recently, at least in part because of the work of MAPS. What is
holding up ibogaine?

Thanks

Rob

MDMA is funded by people who want to legalize it for recreational
use. Unfortunately, there is no one who wants to use ibo
recreationally, and NIDA won’t because of the Joyce Nalepka’s of the
world, so it just isn’t happening.

A lot of legalizers are offended by ibogaine, like John Morgan or
Stanton Peele, because they don’t believe addictions exist.

Dana/cnw

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 12, 2002 at 9:20:23 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/12/02 9:05:24 PM, robertbosch@softhome.net writes:

I’ve read the ibogaine sites and materials. From these my general
understanding is that ibogaine is a medication which has hallucinogenic
properties and will detoxify you from heroin or longer acting narcotics
like methadone.

Does this include LAAM?

My secondary question is, what is preventing ibogaine from being tested
in clinical trials? It is schedule I, but MDMA appears to have made it past
that hurdle recently, at least in part because of the work of MAPS. What
is holding up ibogaine?

I don’t believe that anyone on LAAM has been treated so it is an unknown.
What is preventing ibogaine from being tested in clinical trials is money.
Lots of it.  The FDA did approve a clinical study for ibogaine but, it was
stipulated to be stopped for a lack of money.

Howard

From: robertbosch@softhome.net
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 12, 2002 at 9:05:09 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Randy Kieser writes:

I could not read this message. Can you please resend?

I’ve read the ibogaine sites and materials. From these my general
understanding is that ibogaine is a medication which has hallucinogenic
properties and will detoxify you from heroin or longer acting narcotics
like methadone.

Does this include LAAM?

My secondary question is, what is preventing ibogaine from being tested in
clinical trials? It is schedule I, but MDMA appears to have made it past
that hurdle recently, at least in part because of the work of MAPS. What is
holding up ibogaine?

Thanks

Rob

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Addiction Treatment
Date: April 12, 2002 at 5:06:06 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/12/02 4:36:05 PM, kdawsonais@yahoo.com writes:

Kerry Dawson, AIS, CAP, MAC

Hi Kerry,

Just figuring out your credentials I found a great page,

http://www.counselingseattle.com/initials.htm  (Dictionary of Initials
Acronyms and Abbreviations).

Howard

From: Kerry Dawson <kdawsonais@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Addiction Treatment
Date: April 12, 2002 at 4:35:32 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t have that much to say except you are some of the smartest and weirdest people I have ever encountered.
I’m not sure how to get a handle on all this yet or who I would recommend ibogaine treatment for. The fact that some of you are clean from heroin addiction amazes me.
I started reading this list because of the articles in Heroin Times. I am learning a lot and discovering I don’t know as much about addiction as I may have thought I did.
That was all and thanks!
Kerry Dawson, AIS, CAP, MAC

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] great idea my second try
Date: April 12, 2002 at 2:52:42 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 11, 2002 at 09:12:02PM -0700], [Pinky White] wrote:

| I have returned with more insight because you have not heeded my last message.

Look dude, pick a response:

[> Nothing, at all, ever, is my fault.  I suffer from the Mysterious
Disease of Addiction and cannot be held accountable for any of my actions.

[> Gosh, you are ABSOLUTELY CORRECT.  Why *are* we wasting our time with
this.  Fuck it, let’s dump the whole site and start selling porno.  Woo
hoo!

[> I am fully cogent and aware that you, Dennis and 3E, *must* post
extremely obnoxious and embarassing missives ’bout all your ENEMIES, and
it’s no good to do that unless it’s on a “live” forum being indexed out,
so that the next time any of these people are searching for themselves
under google, they may FIND IT, and read, while steam comes out of their
ears… — It’ll happen Any Minute Now.  Far be it from me to deprive you
of True Happiness.

[> Just because I never reply to my mail is No Reason to splatter stupid
shit all over the ibogaine list.  Get out.  Stop posting drivel.  Go get a
real problem, use a lot of drugs, then come back.

[> Ouch, that hurt.  Some of that splattered all over the place, but some
was a direct hit.  Go directly to The First Option.

Patrick / Brilliant Weirdos on Drugs

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 12, 2002 at 1:31:19 PM EDT
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dear Preston

Of course, u r totally right about us having the motivation to change first
– true 4 all, (or most) things, no?
The big difference with Iboga is the chemical composition that makes it
possible not to have to undergo unbearable withdrawal syndromes, if any at
all..

Also, I do remember for MONTHS after, feeling terribly serene and lamb-like;
sorta SF Hippy chick with big bootiful flower hanging out of my mouth – just
trying to give u a pic of what I find hard 2 describe in words.. u’ll c,
when/if u do try it.

Love

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: preston peet [mailto:ptpeet@nyc.rr.com]
Sent: 10 April 2002 23:45
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.<

Thanks Patrick.
I was actually asking from a slightly more personal viewpoint, rather
than relying on anything ala Lyttle, (I think that was the name mentioned by
Nick, but I seem to have deleted that message somehow), and I must say, you
make a good point Patrick, in that you pretty much quoted me during my own
major out-of-body/time experience with K. It was very special and something
I won’t ever forget entirely, but it did NOTHING to stop my banging, hell I
used the same rig to boot cocaine, dope and k, on the same bed on the same
night.
So this brings back the question of how it makes that dependence fade
out.
Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good idea.
Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse, mandating it for
everyone?
Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that keep a
person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
question anything having the power to change a person without the desire for
change already being there, which doesn’t necessarily denigrate ibogaine as
it may, (or obviously does for some) allow a person seeking that way to
achieve change that will only work for them when nothing else will.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 09, 2002 4:14 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 03:58:20PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| >Another issue is talking to the
| | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
| | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
| | this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues
of
| | neurology and brain science.<
|
| So, how is this different than say, mainlining Ketamine? Other than for
| length of trip?
| Peace,
| Preston

Well, gah, I have like an entire chapter’s worth of material ’bout that
(the headspace properties of various hallucinogens, natural vs. synthetic,
LSD vs. ketamine vs. ibogaine vs…), but the compressed, highly short,
abridged if ya will; answer:

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.

There isn’t anything else which does this.  (That I know about anyway.)

Patrick

From: Randy Kieser <RKIESER@metastar.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox -Reply
Date: April 12, 2002 at 12:30:30 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] simplified extraction process published
Date: April 12, 2002 at 11:22:52 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Chris Jenk’s extraction process for ibogaine was cited on medline.

Howard

Nat Prod Lett 2002 Feb;16(1):71-6

Extraction studies of Tabernanthe iboga and Voacanga africana.

Jenks CW.

cwj@earthling.net

The root bark of Tabernanthe iboga contains ibogaine as its predominant
alkaloid and has been an important source of it. Ibogaine is used
experimentally to interrupt drug addiction and allow therapeutic
intervention, but is currently unaffordable to doctors in less economically
developed countries. To meet this need, an extraction of alkaloids from T.
iboga root bark was optimized and simplified to use only diluted vinegar and
ammonia, and was successfully applied to related alkaloids from Voacanga
africana bark also. The alkaloids were converted to their hydrochlorides and
purified, and the minor alkaloids were recovered.

From: dross <dross@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] great idea my second try
Date: April 12, 2002 at 2:29:15 AM EDT
To: Pinky White <uselessacount23@yahoo.com>
Cc: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Did anybody mention to you that the MindVox >store< is open?

http://www.mindvox.com/staticpage/Store/

Cordially yours,

dross

On Thu, 11 Apr 2002, Pinky White wrote:

I have returned with more insight because you have not heeded my last message.

Patrick. Very profound. You are cooler then Morrison, brilliant, you’re all that.

But you proved that 10 years ago, 15 years ago.

Morisson was 27 when he died. You’re 33 aren’t you?

Here is more advice for you. That thing you have, what’s it called MindVox? Why don’t you

O P E N  T H E  F U C K I N G  T H I N G

You people are all so dysfunctional it never ceases to amaze me. It’s great that you’re back from the dead and seem to have at least most of your brain cells intact even if your sanity is gone. But.  OPEN MINDVOX.

What ibogaine list? You’re running some weird private club in cyberspace for the junkie intelligencia. I’ll give you that it’s one of the more interesting things I’ve ever read online but you can’t have more then a few hundred people reading this thing.

It’s interesting. Wow. Why don’t you stop writing all these messages, put all of that into your book which is only a decade late so far? You know what’s going to happen? Someone will finally kill you or you will OD and then Bruce will take your computers and throw them on your agent’s desk and there will be enough material for a 10 volume set. You will be rich, famous and dead.

You know there are conferences on slashdot, fark and metafilter devoted to discussing what Mindvox is and when it will open again. Your numbers are insane for a site  T H A T  I S  N O T  O P E N  What are you waiting for? I want to post messages and read thoughts I do not want to wait 2 minutes for 5 megabytes of flash and graphics to open each page. You do not need that. It gets in the way.

There. NOW OPEN IT.

Please.

While you’re at it did you know that jpegs can compress down? I know you know this so why don’t you do that. You have banners that are 80k large. They could be 18k.

I will be back again in another month. I know you still won’t be open in another month and I will have more advice then. I think it will be something like.  W H Y  D O N ‘ T  Y O U  O P E N  T H E  F U C K I N G  S Y S T E M ?  Someone will come along and dump money all over all of you and you’ll be rich again.

Rich, famous and alive is more fun then dead.

Tell that to Sartre.

Here’s my prediction. Within 6 months you will break the Top 100 sites on the entire net. Nielson Netratings will hold a week long conference trying to decide what this means and what Mindvox is. They will find no answers. Experts will be called in, the conference will last months, Mindvox will overtake Microsoft, it will be the greatest enigma that ever existed. Stonehende, the crop circles and Mindvox.

Meanwhile 5 million in venture capital will go to 10 losers who threw up crappy looking html but MANAGED TO  O P E N  T H E I R  F U C K I N G  S I T E S.

In 2004 Patrick will reply to a letter I wrote him in 1992.

In 2005 MindVox will be the #1 site on the entire internet.  It will STILL NOT BE OPEN. Nobody will ever understand it, but this won’t stop them from hitting load on their browser. Books will be written attempting to understand what it all means. The US will be nuked and everything will be gone.

Patrick will be vaporised on paragraph 50 of his response to a 300 paragraph long message from someone else in his new gang which has replaced the Legion of Doom: Brilliant Weirdos on Drugs. The ibogaine list will have grown to a 2,000 volume set by then containing the greatest thoughts mankind has ever seen. It will be read by 1,000 people because nobody else ever figured out how to subscribe to an old style email list and Mindvox never managed to open their browser interface. None of it will ever be published because nobody was functional enough to do that.

The End

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From: Pinky White <uselessacount23@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] great idea my second try
Date: April 12, 2002 at 12:12:02 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I have returned with more insight because you have not heeded my last message.

Patrick. Very profound. You are cooler then Morrison, brilliant, you’re all that. 

But you proved that 10 years ago, 15 years ago. 

Morisson was 27 when he died. You’re 33 aren’t you?

Here is more advice for you. That thing you have, what’s it called MindVox? Why don’t you

O P E N  T H E  F U C K I N G  T H I N G 

You people are all so dysfunctional it never ceases to amaze me. It’s great that you’re back from the dead and seem to have at least most of your brain cells intact even if your sanity is gone. But.  OPEN MINDVOX.

What ibogaine list? You’re running some weird private club in cyberspace for the junkie intelligencia. I’ll give you that it’s one of the more interesting things I’ve ever read online but you can’t have more then a few hundred people reading this thing.

It’s interesting. Wow. Why don’t you stop writing all these messages, put all of that into your book which is only a decade late so far? You know what’s going to happen? Someone will finally kill you or you will OD and then Bruce will take your computers and throw them on your agent’s desk and there will be enough material for a 10 volume set. You will be rich, famous and dead.

You know there are conferences on slashdot, fark and metafilter devoted to discussing what Mindvox is and when it will open again. Your numbers are insane for a site  T H A T  I S  N O T  O P E N  What are you waiting for? I want to post messages and read thoughts I do not want to wait 2 minutes for 5 megabytes of flash and graphics to open each page. You do not need that. It gets in the way. 

There. NOW OPEN IT.

Please.
While you’re at it did you know that jpegs can compress down? I know you know this so why don’t you do that. You have banners that are 80k large. They could be 18k.
I will be back again in another month. I know you still won’t be open in another month and I will have more advice then. I think it will be something like.  W H Y  D O N ‘ T  Y O U  O P E N  T H E  F U C K I N G  S Y S T E M ?  Someone will come along and dump money all over all of you and you’ll be rich again.

Rich, famous and alive is more fun then dead.

Tell that to Sartre.

Here’s my prediction. Within 6 months you will break the Top 100 sites on the entire net. Nielson Netratings will hold a week long conference trying to decide what this means and what Mindvox is. They will find no answers. Experts will be called in, the conference will last months, Mindvox will overtake Microsoft, it will be the greatest enigma that ever existed. Stonehende, the crop circles and Mindvox.

Meanwhile 5 million in venture capital will go to 10 losers who threw up crappy looking html but MANAGED TO  O P E N  T H E I R  F U C K I N G  S I T E S.

In 2004 Patrick will reply to a letter I wrote him in 1992.

In 2005 MindVox will be the #1 site on the entire internet.  It will STILL NOT BE OPEN. Nobody will ever understand it, but this won’t stop them from hitting load on their browser. Books will be written attempting to understand what it all means. The US will be nuked and everything will be gone.

Patrick will be vaporised on paragraph 50 of his response to a 300 paragraph long message from someone else in his new gang which has replaced the Legion of Doom: Brilliant Weirdos on Drugs. The ibogaine list will have grown to a 2,000 volume set by then containing the greatest thoughts mankind has ever seen. It will be read by 1,000 people because nobody else ever figured out how to subscribe to an old style email list and Mindvox never managed to open their browser interface. None of it will ever be published because nobody was functional enough to do that.

The End
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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] sara arrested?
Date: April 11, 2002 at 8:27:32 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Dana received an incomplete communication indicating that Sara has been
arrested.  The charges are not known and Sara’s telephone appears to be out.

Does anyone have the ability to contact her or determine what the situation
may be.

Is anyone from the list in The Netherlands?

Howard

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 11, 2002 at 8:07:37 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 11, 2002 at 05:07:48PM -0700], [Bill Ross] wrote:

|   “I had never come across such an asocial monster before.”
|
|                                 A schoolmate of Carl Jung

LOOK, being a sociopath doesn’t make you a bad person.  And if one more
fucking shrink sez that ’bout me, I’m gonna go burn down his house, just
like I did to all the others.

|   lament the absence of strong leaders.” [1932] “Since this sentence
|   was written, Germany too has found its Fuhrer.” [1934]
|
|   “As Hitler said recently, the leader must be able to be alone and
|   must have the courage to go his own way.” [1933]
|
|   “…Hitler is a medicine man, a form of spiritual vessel, a demi-
|   deity or, even better, a myth.” [1939]

Well, Hitler sure wuz an archtype, and did accomplish a whole lot.   In
his next lives, that’ll TEACH THEM to try and keep HIM out of art school.

|                         Quotations from Richard Wolin, “Prometheus Unhinged,”
|                         a review of _The Aryan Christ: The Secret Life of
|                         Carl Jung_ by Richard Noll.

“I don’t believe in Goldman, his type like a curse, instant karma’s gonna
get him, if I don’t get him first.”  –Jesus Christ (woops, I meant Bono!)

Patrick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 11, 2002 at 8:07:48 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

It’s all the same rat in a cage trip.  And I mean, I don’t
think there is anything WRONG with it, it just ain’t my trip …
it’s the “officially approved” method of filling that black hole
inside, with SOMETHING in the hopes that it’ll work, and get you
through life.

Probably the first guy who specifically pointed this out with regards to
drug dependence was Jung, who was a pretty smart dude, and I like most
of what he had to say.

As a onetime admirer of Jung who hasn’t been able to focus on
his writing for a while, it was interesting to come across the
following (not to contradict any of the above). Surprising to
find that he had a hankering for a cagemaster:

“I had never come across such an asocial monster before.”

A schoolmate of Carl Jung

“The huzzahs of the Italian nation go forth to the personality
of the Duce [dictator Mussolini], and the dirges of other nations
lament the absence of strong leaders.” [1932] “Since this sentence
was written, Germany too has found its Fuhrer.” [1934]

“As Hitler said recently, the leader must be able to be alone and
must have the courage to go his own way.” [1933]

“…Hitler is a medicine man, a form of spiritual vessel, a demi-
deity or, even better, a myth.” [1939]

Carl Jung

Quotations from Richard Wolin, “Prometheus Unhinged,”
a review of _The Aryan Christ: The Secret Life of
Carl Jung_ by Richard Noll.

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 11, 2002 at 7:45:25 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 10, 2002 at 09:15:06PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:
| >I doubt anyone would advocate that.<
|
| I realize the post may have been in jest, but as my companion V pointed out
| synchronistically enough just moments ago, “there’s truth in jest,” and
| Patrick did suggest recently dumping it (ibogaine) into the water supply.
| Granted, some people rely on bottled water nowadays, but I bet not all of
| us. To suggest such action would imply some pretty heavy faith in ibogaine.

Hey, your companion V is a wise person =)

And yeah, within jest there’s truth — although, dumping ibogaine into the
water supply would be just a lil’ different than doing so with LSD, which
has no taste or odor…  Perhaps these ISSUES n things could be overcome
if one were truly inspired, but that’s not exactly at the heart of it all.

I think what Francis said is pretty much true, to paraphrase, “drugs have
never brought me any closer to God, that’s what I use to escape,” this
wasn’t exactly what he said, but close … to which my reply was that
everything is “spiritual” because really, what isn’t…  And heroin and
cocaine and everything else, have their own lessons to teach you.  But,
again, this is much eaisier to see in retrospect, then when you’re right
in the middle of all this shit, because at that stage there is really
exactly one motivational force happening — at least for me — and that is
surviving today, and trying to make it into tomorrow.

All the concepts of right, wrong, positive, negative, self-awareness,
denial… are completely irrelevent in the face of REALITY, which is, I
need to get straight; after this, I’d like to get high.  And that, pretty
much, fills up 100% of my time and cognitive functioning.  There isn’t
too much gazing at the bigger picture, or pondering the fact that I should
not be forced to live and act this way, just because I do drugs…  Oh
well, shit happens, life’s a bitch, then you marry one, then you die,
s’cuse me, gotta go make mo’ money mo’ money mo’ money, ‘cuz dope ain’t
free, and no matter how much I have — dope or money — it’s never enough
anyway.

Not a very bright scenario.  But… taking away the drama and surreal, bad
b-movie quality vibe that surrounds this lifestyle due to that War on
Drugs thing, and transfer that same mindset, mode of living/existing to
the way MANY people get through their lives…  “I need to rise up in this
company, instead of hassling with distributors and dealers, I hassle with
middle management, I need to get a raise, get a bigger house, get a…”
whatever…  It’s all the same rat in a cage trip.  And I mean, I don’t
think there is anything WRONG with it, it just ain’t my trip … it’s the
“officially approved” method of filling that black hole inside, with
SOMETHING in the hopes that it’ll work, and get you through life.

Probably the first guy who specifically pointed this out with regards to
drug dependence was Jung, who was a pretty smart dude, and I like most of
what he had to say.

So, there’s this black hole inside…  and in MY experience anyway, no
matter whatcha try to fill it with, it doesn’t work, very well, or for too
long.

And “society” in general, western society in particular, appears to
largely be in denial of all this, and wants to condition you to respond to
the get more more more, and be happier happier happier, scene, which is
okay, but it’s never really worked out for me personally.

To sorta wind down my rant ‘cuz I gotta go inna minute, heroin is sort of
like Universal Duct Tape, and you can keep wrapping yourself in hundreds,
or thousands of layers of this stuff — much as X windows has done to
perfection!  (which is to say wrapped 10,000 layers of (non universal)
duct tape, around a broken 2×4 and declared it a window manager!)  But I
digress — the accumulating shit scenario is sort of a step down from
heroin, because I mean, if you’re gonna be a rat in a cage, then at least
I personally prefer the whole entire Attaching Soothing Molecules to
Receptors scenario, over buying a new Lexus…

However, entheogens/psychedelics/hallucinogens, have this neat effect of
strapping you to a rocket and shredding through all this conditioning.
You cannot sit and spin on psychedelics for 35 years — which you can
EASILY manage in therapy, provided you keep coughin up $185 – $275 an hour
for this privledge — and keep covering the same ground over, and over,
and over again…  You sooner or later — usually sooner if you are dosing
at a high enough range to get to that Over the Treetops level, where your
ego will get smashed with the cosmic sledgehammer — get a look behind
the magic curtain and cease to believe in all the bullshit that’s been
sold to you for so long…

And I don’t mean that in a NEGATIVE way, which I quite easily managed
without psychedelics all by myself, simply by virtue of having a mind and
filling it with things, and then contrasting what was being sold to me,
with what I saw all around me…  The difference is the entheogens have
the same stripping away the bullshit effect, but at the same time DO fill
it with something else…  They connect or reconnect you to whatever your
understanding of spirituality/God is, and allow you to experience and
actually live within that state — however briefly.  Usually, speaking for
myself, i fuck things up and throw it all outta aligment on a regular
basis…  <shrug>  Go figure, I have a lifetime of practice…

The black hole goes away and fills with pretty colors on that fucking
awesome ride upwards to Godhead…  Like rock the fuck out.

To shut up now…  if “all the bullshit being sold to you” is scotch tape
holding your psyche and soul together, and heroin is Universal Duct Tape,
which works a lot better; then entheogens amount to a Universal Toolkit to
actually fix what’s wrong in the first place.

Basically, yeah, I certainly believe that pretty much everyone would be
happier and better off, if they experienced at least pieces of the greater
whole, once in a while, in some context which is accepted by society,
instead of perpetually divorced from it, and relegated to the
aforementioned subcultures, where you basically have cast yourself adrift
from “mainstream society” simply by virtue of doing something which is
completely normal and human…  ‘Cuz to be human means to reach towards
being God…  Sartre sed’ that first I think, I thunk…  Although, he
also sed that hooking up with some particular chick you think is all-that,
has nothing to do with the chick, and everything to do with what you’re
projecting onto her and imagining her to mean to you; he then followed
this up by stating that she’s just a hole that needs to get filled…

In my experience Sartre changed his mind a lot — probably depending on
his swings through manic depresion, plus, also, his current blood levels
of testosterone, which can have a whole lot to do with things — and is
very hard to follow unless I’m extremely drunk.

Patrick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 11, 2002 at 4:41:18 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Nick and someone else were offended by it seemingly.

Assuming the other person was me, since I corrected some
Bwiti facts – I’m always irritated by inaccuracies, particularly
when they seem a byproduct of lack of care about the subject.
(Next thing you know, people will be using that review to refute
the actual facts.) But it wasn’t completely wrong and was
amusingly naive – and a satire by an outsider does after all
show that one has arrived :-).

Bill Ross

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 11, 2002 at 1:22:50 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: Carla Barnes
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Sent: Wednesday, April 10, 2002 7:37 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

I’ve read this, it’s a little pompous maybe it reads like the author is more interested in being amusing then reporting the story. But I don’t know who this person is and if they are any kind of established name who has been writing about entheogens for years, then he’s no different from anyone else who does that and that’s ok I think.
My question was so far from the responses Patrick thought it was funny or liked it, Howard had nearly the same attitude, so did Gamma and then Nick and someone else were offended by it seemingly. Was he that far wrong and got so few facts right, or what is the reason for the unhapiness with what he wrote?
I haven’t read entheogen review before but I’ve read John Ott and in comparison to his writing that person was downright humble and listened to all sides 🙂
Carla B

Yeah, I think I was being pretty harsh, actually. I’m sure TL is a nice enough guy. Was back in London for the day from the countryside and just stressing mindlessly. It ain’t such a terrible review, and it does have a kind of endearing naivety to it. Plus it’s not like it’s in the NY Times or something. So, sorry Thomas Lyttle, on the off chance you get to read this collection of posts. all the best. Nick

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Re: ER article
Date: April 10, 2002 at 10:24:22 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/10/02 4:37:09 PM, flashbks@earthlink.net writes:

Please tell me in which issue of Entheogen Review the article on ibogaine
appears that is being discussed in email by Barnes and Sandberg.  I have
a
subscription but can’t find it–might be missing that issue.

Volume XI, Number 1, 2002, pages 37-38

Howard

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 9:18:41 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Would it be taking up too much bandwidth to simply say ditto to the first
three paragraphs, and I’m becoming more intrigued by the idea of ingesting
this stuff as each day goes by?
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 10, 2002 7:12 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

On [Wed, Apr 10, 2002 at 06:44:57PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

|     Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
| advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good
idea.
| Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse, mandating it
for
| everyone?

Nah, no way.  I am sometimes a little too flippant and glib, perhaps even
facetious.  I believe in mandating nothing for nobody.  I fundamentally
think the people have the basic human right to be left alone, and should
be allowed to pursue their happiness and/or misery, however they see fit.
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being drug dependent — unless
of course, you choose not to be; at which point you should be able to take
advantage of whatever modalities exist, and could provide you with help in
getting unsprung.

I think it’s basically disgusting that people who use drugs — whatever
drugs — are marginalized, and pushed into this endless series of
perpetually underground subcultures, because they are guilty of the crime
of altering their state of consciousness against the government’s wishes.

So, like, no…  I don’t think ANYBODY should “have” to take anything.  I
just feel that having undergone — literally — every single opiate/opioid
detox that presently exists, having a background of lifelong drug
addiction, and finally stepping off using ibogaine…  If your goal is
eventual termination of your dependence on opiates; taking ibogaine will
not in any way hinder or derail you, and even if it doesn’t work out the
first time, it can provide a push in whatever direction you wind up
travelling…  Hopefully a positive one.

So yeah: if you are sprung, and wanna get unsprung, I would strongly
suggest it.  But it is certainly not the ONLY solution.

|     Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that
keep a
| person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
| question anything having the power to change a person without the desire
for
| change already being there, which doesn’t necessarily denigrate ibogaine
as
| it may, (or obviously does for some) allow a person seeking that way to
| achieve change that will only work for them when nothing else will.
| Peace,
| Preston

Again, on this point I am in absolute agreement with you.  I think that at
least the inceptions of the desire to change, need to be present for any
of this to work out.  I have not personally met anybody who just took
ibogaine and suddenly they spontaeneously dropped all their other drug
use, … just because…  Although I have HEARD of this happening, and
don’t necessarily doubt it…  I just haven’t witnessed it, and that’s
certainly not how it worked out for me.

z00m,

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 9:15:06 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I doubt anyone would advocate that.<

I realize the post may have been in jest, but as my companion V pointed out
synchronistically enough just moments ago, “there’s truth in jest,” and
Patrick did suggest recently dumping it (ibogaine) into the water supply.
Granted, some people rely on bottled water nowadays, but I bet not all of
us. To suggest such action would imply some pretty heavy faith in ibogaine.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Bill Ross” <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 10, 2002 7:07 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

So this brings back the question of how it makes that dependence
fade out.

“Resetting habit-oriented neural pathways” is the simplest
description I’ve seen. The physical dependence apparently
disappears immediately rather than fades, while the psychological
one is apt to take a dent of some magnitude, but is equally
likely to fade back in and this is what the aftercare is for.

Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good
idea.  Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse,
mandating it for everyone?

I doubt anyone would advocate that.

Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that keep a
person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
question anything having the power to change a person without the
desire for change already being there,

The theme of the ibogaine-for-addiction folks has been exactly
this for some time – it interrupts the craving, eliminates
withdrawal. And may lead to useful insights that could trigger
the desire to change and thus appear to give a magical recovery,
but this is relatively rare.

Bill Ross

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 7:12:37 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 10, 2002 at 06:44:57PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

|     Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
| advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good idea.
| Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse, mandating it for
| everyone?

Nah, no way.  I am sometimes a little too flippant and glib, perhaps even
facetious.  I believe in mandating nothing for nobody.  I fundamentally
think the people have the basic human right to be left alone, and should
be allowed to pursue their happiness and/or misery, however they see fit.
I don’t think there’s anything wrong with being drug dependent — unless
of course, you choose not to be; at which point you should be able to take
advantage of whatever modalities exist, and could provide you with help in
getting unsprung.

I think it’s basically disgusting that people who use drugs — whatever
drugs — are marginalized, and pushed into this endless series of
perpetually underground subcultures, because they are guilty of the crime
of altering their state of consciousness against the government’s wishes.

So, like, no…  I don’t think ANYBODY should “have” to take anything.  I
just feel that having undergone — literally — every single opiate/opioid
detox that presently exists, having a background of lifelong drug
addiction, and finally stepping off using ibogaine…  If your goal is
eventual termination of your dependence on opiates; taking ibogaine will
not in any way hinder or derail you, and even if it doesn’t work out the
first time, it can provide a push in whatever direction you wind up
travelling…  Hopefully a positive one.

So yeah: if you are sprung, and wanna get unsprung, I would strongly
suggest it.  But it is certainly not the ONLY solution.

|     Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that keep a
| person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
| question anything having the power to change a person without the desire for
| change already being there, which doesn’t necessarily denigrate ibogaine as
| it may, (or obviously does for some) allow a person seeking that way to
| achieve change that will only work for them when nothing else will.
| Peace,
| Preston

Again, on this point I am in absolute agreement with you.  I think that at
least the inceptions of the desire to change, need to be present for any
of this to work out.  I have not personally met anybody who just took
ibogaine and suddenly they spontaeneously dropped all their other drug
use, … just because…  Although I have HEARD of this happening, and
don’t necessarily doubt it…  I just haven’t witnessed it, and that’s
certainly not how it worked out for me.

z00m,

Patrick

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 7:07:30 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

So this brings back the question of how it makes that dependence
fade out.

“Resetting habit-oriented neural pathways” is the simplest
description I’ve seen. The physical dependence apparently
disappears immediately rather than fades, while the psychological
one is apt to take a dent of some magnitude, but is equally
likely to fade back in and this is what the aftercare is for.

Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good
idea.  Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse,
mandating it for everyone?

I doubt anyone would advocate that.

Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that keep a
person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
question anything having the power to change a person without the
desire for change already being there,

The theme of the ibogaine-for-addiction folks has been exactly
this for some time – it interrupts the craving, eliminates
withdrawal. And may lead to useful insights that could trigger
the desire to change and thus appear to give a magical recovery,
but this is relatively rare.

Bill Ross

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Sorry!
Date: April 10, 2002 at 6:57:51 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 10, 2002 at 03:37:23PM -0700], [Carla Barnes] wrote:

| I’m very sorry! I don’t know what I set in my email to make it send so
| many times.
|
| Sorry!

It’s not a problem.  If I ever lose my 8 other copies of this
classic document, I will now always have a ninth — presuming I have not
thrown them all into the same mailbox as I probably have.

Never let it be said we don’t blatantly rip copyrighted material and
retransmit it all over the whole entire planet — and into outer space
too.

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 6:44:57 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.<

Thanks Patrick.
I was actually asking from a slightly more personal viewpoint, rather
than relying on anything ala Lyttle, (I think that was the name mentioned by
Nick, but I seem to have deleted that message somehow), and I must say, you
make a good point Patrick, in that you pretty much quoted me during my own
major out-of-body/time experience with K. It was very special and something
I won’t ever forget entirely, but it did NOTHING to stop my banging, hell I
used the same rig to boot cocaine, dope and k, on the same bed on the same
night.
So this brings back the question of how it makes that dependence fade
out.
Are you really so confidant of the powers of ibogaine that you’d
advocate everyone taking it? I would think that not an entirely good idea.
Not to say banning it is a good idea, but on the obverse, mandating it for
everyone?
Is it the aftercare, (in whatever its form), or the ibogaine that keep a
person from going back to using? Magical as it might be, I continue to
question anything having the power to change a person without the desire for
change already being there, which doesn’t necessarily denigrate ibogaine as
it may, (or obviously does for some) allow a person seeking that way to
achieve change that will only work for them when nothing else will.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 09, 2002 4:14 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 03:58:20PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| >Another issue is talking to the
| | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
| | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
| | this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues
of
| | neurology and brain science.<
|
| So, how is this different than say, mainlining Ketamine? Other than for
| length of trip?
| Peace,
| Preston

Well, gah, I have like an entire chapter’s worth of material ’bout that
(the headspace properties of various hallucinogens, natural vs. synthetic,
LSD vs. ketamine vs. ibogaine vs…), but the compressed, highly short,
abridged if ya will; answer:

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.

There isn’t anything else which does this.  (That I know about anyway.)

Patrick

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Sorry!
Date: April 10, 2002 at 6:37:23 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m very sorry! I don’t know what I set in my email to make it send so many times.
Sorry!
Carla B

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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 6:33:11 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

This was the article, it was posted to the list a day or two ago I think.
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:
Here’s a copy of the review from the latest Entheogen Review, on the
Proceedings from the Ibogaine Conference book. Many thanks to Howard for
sending me hard copy. Personally, I thought the review was OK, but rather
overly sensationalist, with some weak styling, and containing several
factual innaccuracies, especially in its description of the Indra iboga
extract

all the best

Nick

………………………………………………………………….
………………………

from The Entheogen Review, Vol XI, Number 1, Vernal Equinox

Ibogaine: Proceedings of the First International Conference, by KENNETH R.
ALPER and STANLEY D. GLICK (Eds) 2001. (ACADEMIC PRESS, 525 B Street, Suite
1900, San Diego, CA 92101-4495, www.academicpress.com), ISBN 0-12053-206-9
(6″ x 9″ softbound $79.95, 333 pp., alkaloid index and general index.

I’ve had a long-standing interest in Tabernanthe iboga and ibogaine studies
ever since I published the GOUTAREL, GOLLNOFER, and SILLANS summary,
“Pharmacodynamics and Therapeutic Applications of Iboga and Ibogaine,” in my
Psychedelic Monographs and Essays Vol. 6. This article collected everything
known in English in 1993 about ibogaine research. Dr GOUTAREL was the
scientist who originally helped isolate ibogaine alkaloids in the early
1950s. Soon after this article was published, several books appeared,
including The Ibogaine Project: Report on the Staten Island Project by PAUL
DE RIENZO and DANA BEAL (Autonomedia, 1997), and Iboga by AMON KNUT ML
(Maribor, 1994). And papers continue to appear in academic and medical
journals.

Along with this glut of publishing came many mystical and romantic notions
of ibogaine as an “addiction cure” (now called an “addiction interrupter”).
Ibogaine achieved – at least for a while – postmodern ‘soma’ status. Soap
opera camp – as publicized by the HOWARD LOTSOF/DEBORAH MASH “wars”
surrounding ibogaine patents – appeared as an aside. During this tug-of-war,
science continued onward. Research has been collected and serious science
has evolved regarding ibogaine. Ibogaine: The Proceedings celebrates 40
years of investigations and evolving therapy regimes.

As with soma, ibogaine is a subject which deserves the higher ground, and
this new book is written by the best minds available, with funding and
continued research as its goal. IBOGAINE: THE FIRST INTERNATIONAL CONFERENCE
was held in New York City in 1999, and this book collects the proceedings,
plus more. Adding to pharmaceutical and toxicology research is new
information regarding therapies that use ibogaine, including traditional
Bwiti therapies, various encounter and shock therapies, dream therapies –
even amateur therapies using ibogaine in uncontrolled doses, based on
self-help models.

What are the real issues here? One real issue is hard-core heroin and
cocaine addiction and the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
imparts psychic powers on the survivor. Another issue is talking to the
dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
neurology and brain science.

Many of the chapters and papers in Ibogaine: The Proceedings are highly
technical, and deal with aspects of ibogaine’s pharmacological and
toxicological actions. Such include neurotransmitter activities, effects on
neuropeptides, metabolism, excretion, and locomotor activity. Of interest to
me however were the psychological papers studying ibogaine’s effects on
learning, memory, and EEG. EMMANUEL NAIVE’S chapter “Changes in Gene
Expression and Signal Transduction Following Ibogaine Treatment” presents
the startling fact that ibogaine can rewrite gene expression, which leads
directly to voltage and electrical regulation through intracellular
communication. Such cell cross-talk is connected to learning and the way
information is gated or processed into memory – something that is claimed to
be observable in real time by some ibogaine trippers.

The chapter “Returning to the Path: The Use of Iboga[ine] in Equatorial
African Ritual Context and the Binding of Time, Space, and Social
Relationship” by JAMES and RENATE FERNANDEZ is also important. JAMES wrote
the seminal study – Bwiti: An Ethnography of the Religious Imagination in
Africa (PRINCETON UNIVERSITY PRESS, 1982). The Bwiti are the celebrated
African tribe that originally used the iboga plant in its occult ceremonies.
A cult within the Bwiti called the Fang is also mentioned. The Bwiti live
partly in this world, and partly in a mythical land contacted by iboga
initiates.

We also see reviews of LOTSOF’S NDA INTERNATIONAL AND ICASH (International
Coalition of Addiction Self-Help), a therapy based loosely on the work of
ALDOUS HUXLEY and DR TIMOTHY LEARY. DR DEBORAH MASH and her ibogaine clinics
in St Kitts in the Caribbean are described. Dr MASH is also famous at the
UNIVERSITY OF MIAMI MEDICAL SCHOOL for performing a brain autopsy, seeking
clues to ibogaine’s inner workings.

ERIC TAUB’S ibogaine sessions are discussed. Here we see less therapy and
more shamanic ritual (similar to the ideals of the Bwiti). MYRON STOLAROFF
reports on west coast therapy scenes and regimens, and his book ‘The Secret
Chief’ is mentioned. From the Netherlands we hear about DASH/INTASH, THE
CENTER FOR ADDICTION RESEARCH AT ERASMUS UNIVERSITY and the work of NICO
ADRIAANS, a field researcher studying street addiction and therapeutic
communities. From Slovenia we hear about the work of MARKO RESINOVIC, who
founded the SLOVENIAN IBOGAINE FOUNDATION in 1995. Worth noting is the
pricing structure – $200.00 for a gram of ibogaine hydrochloride with
therapy, as opposed to several thousand dollars for the therapy of DR. MASH
or ERIC TAUB! Curious. The section on Denmark describes interesting scenes
alleged to have existed within CHRISTIANA, the anarchist “village” near
Copenhagen. A 44 kilogram supply of ibogaine hydrochloride connected to
CHRISTIANA was mentioned, circa 1981. This stash was code named “Indra” and
used to treat over 1000 advanced heroin junkies in CHRISTIANA village. We
hear of a gram of ibogaine hydrochloride going for $25 in CHRISTIANA….
Netherlands therapists worked with this same “Indra” supply for years,
pricing therapy at $600.00 to $1000.00. In the United Kingdom, thanks to
sales of The Ibogaine Story, and a video sponsored by the group CURES NOT
WARS and promoted by the GREEN political party, ibogaine therapy flourishes.
In Italy, GIORGIO SAMORINI’S work is mentioned, as are his forays into Bwiti
Initiations. In the Czech Republic, it costs $500 for treatment with
ibogaine. In France an actual ‘nganga’ – a Bwiti ritual guide – officiated
ibogaine therapy for $1000. (I published a photo of a Bwiti Nganga sorceror
in my PM&E journal, replete with loincloth and bone pointing, once upon a
time…)

In Africa, the home of the Bwiti and the iboga plant, we hear about DAN
LIEBERMAN, an ethnobotanist who was involved in arranging Bwiti ceremonies
in Gabon (before his death in 2000). This section of the book focusses on
medical and therapeutic subcultures – something of relevance to readers of
The Entheogen Review, because we are just that – a subculture.

Ibogaine: Proceedings also shows time lines of ibogaine-related discoveries,
and has a special index just for alkaloids titled “The Alkaloids, A
Cumulative Index of Titles, 1950 – 2001.” This includes references for
syntheses of the active compounds in ‘qat’, Ephedra, ergot, and even rare
amphibian spider-, and wasp-toxin alkaloids, as well as chemicals such as
piperidine and morphine. This special index is an interesting addition to
iboga alkaloid chemistry. A 10-page regular index rounds things off.

All in all, Ibogaine: Proceedings Of The First International Conference is a
solid addition to the literature. The book is a welcome return to ibogaine
science and resets ibogaine mythology with real world, modern practices –
both within the clinic and traditional Bwiti cults. This is a book that will
serve the ibogaine community and psychedelic researchers for years to come.
Unfortunately, the book is somewhat expensive, at about $80 soft-bound.
However, owing to the tremendous resources, networks, and histories pulled
together here, we have a winner worth the dough.

DR ALPER and DR GLICK, I toast you. The Bwiti thank you, the spirits of
iboga thank you, and patients thank you, Amen and peace – THOMAS LYTTLE

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From: Flashback Books <flashbks@earthlink.net>
Subject: [ibogaine] Re: ER article
Date: April 10, 2002 at 4:36:51 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Please tell me in which issue of Entheogen Review the article on ibogaine
appears that is being discussed in email by Barnes and Sandberg.  I have a
subscription but can’t find it–might be missing that issue.

Thanks.

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 2:37:48 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’ve read this, it’s a little pompous maybe it reads like the author is more interested in being amusing then reporting the story. But I don’t know who this person is and if they are any kind of established name who has been writing about entheogens for years, then he’s no different from anyone else who does that and that’s ok I think.
My question was so far from the responses Patrick thought it was funny or liked it, Howard had nearly the same attitude, so did Gamma and then Nick and someone else were offended by it seemingly. Was he that far wrong and got so few facts right, or what is the reason for the unhapiness with what he wrote?
I haven’t read entheogen review before but I’ve read John Ott and in comparison to his writing that person was downright humble and listened to all sides 🙂
Carla B
Nick Sandberg <sandberg@onetel.net.uk> wrote:
> | >Another issue is talking to the
> | | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
> | | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
> | | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
> | | this?

All this stuff is astral stuff – angels, demons, heaven, hell. I AM the
Alpha and Omega, as a classic text on the subject commences, meaning in this
experience I AM beyond time, space and time being merely the dimensions that
facilitate the integration of repressed aspects of our being, a process
iboga naturally speeds up because its action is seated in the astral.

Iboga talks to the soul through dreams, and furthermore, initiates dreams
about itself in people who’ve only heard the word “i-bo-ga” or “ee-bo-ka”
without ever touching the stuff. (the word “iboga” is yod, beth, vav, gimel,
aleph in Chaldean or Hebrew, the mystical language of dreams, and has a
numerology [by gematria] of 22 = astral unity). The word is a syntatic
trigger which invokes dreams telling a person to use the drug – a study by
Fernandez found 40% of Bwiti initiates chose to start with iboga because a
dead relative appeared in a dream and told them to.

The land of the dead, the land of the ancestors, the world of dreams, the
astral realm, the seat of the emotions – it’s all the same. If one was to
analyse the REM fractals gathered by Carl Anderson in his animal ibogaine
studies, one would find high degrees of symmetry at higher dimensional
levels; the same if and when more time and effort is given to studying the
drug’s neurochemical effects – it’s principle seat of operation, the point
where it’s effects are mediated, is in a layer of consciousness (dimension)
directly above our own – the astral, ascertainable, I imagine, by
investigating any apparently random data acquired from neuronal firing,
whatever. And it’s therefore quite possible to place iboga squarely and
without problem into the metaphysical terrain of Eastern of Western
mysticism, whether expounded by Ken Wilbur, Patanjali, William Tiller or
whoever, not from a strictly 20th C science perspective, but certainly from
a modern mind-body-psychological lookout. You don’t need to create a load of
weird sounding, mystifying nonsense, a la Lyttle. The guy’s just a spaced
out idiot who doesn’t want to look behind his own mask.

rant over!

Nick
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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Mayor Bloomberg’s Pot Smoking is NORML
Date: April 10, 2002 at 10:49:43 AM EDT
To: <FreedomNewsNet@aol.com>
Cc: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>, “CRRH” <restore@crrh.org>, “cia-drugs” <cia-drugs@yahoogroups.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi all,
Here’s an article on the press conference held yesterday, (Tuesday,
April 9) by NORML to announce their new ad campaign in NYC.

http://www.drugwar.com/pnormlnycad.shtm

Does anyone at all suppose Mayor Bloomberg ever faced a choice between
treatment or jail for his pot use?
Peace,
Preston

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 10, 2002 at 5:17:42 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@ibogaine.org>, <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Sent: Tuesday, April 09, 2002 1:14 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 03:58:20PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| >Another issue is talking to the
| | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
| | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
| | this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues
of
| | neurology and brain science.<
|
| So, how is this different than say, mainlining Ketamine? Other than for
| length of trip?
| Peace,
| Preston

Well, gah, I have like an entire chapter’s worth of material ’bout that
(the headspace properties of various hallucinogens, natural vs. synthetic,
LSD vs. ketamine vs. ibogaine vs…), but the compressed, highly short,
abridged if ya will; answer:

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.

There isn’t anything else which does this.  (That I know about anyway.)

Patrick

The THING with iboga, that to me makes it SPECIAL, is that it doesn’t take
you too far away. Other tryptamines pull a person off into the whole
unitive/God/look-no-more-ego terrain, but iboga usually just holds a person
in the astral, the layer of dreams, where all our issues and trips reside.

Thomas Lyttle, who wrote the article, seems to fail to comprehend this
point, (and thus gets himself totally lost in a mish-mash of spaced out
mumblings), I assume because he’s had too much experience with those
tryptamines that don’t load the 3 position on the indole ring – lsd,
psilocin, dmt, etc – and therefore DO have the potential send you off into
inner space too far for the undeveloped ego to deal with.

| >Another issue is talking to the
| | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
| | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
| | this?

All this stuff is astral stuff – angels, demons, heaven, hell. I AM the
Alpha and Omega, as a classic text on the subject commences, meaning in this
experience I AM beyond time, space and time being merely the dimensions that
facilitate the integration of repressed aspects of our being, a process
iboga naturally speeds up because its action is seated in the astral.

Iboga talks to the soul through dreams, and furthermore, initiates dreams
about itself in people who’ve only heard the word “i-bo-ga” or “ee-bo-ka”
without ever touching the stuff. (the word “iboga” is yod, beth, vav, gimel,
aleph in Chaldean or Hebrew, the mystical language of dreams, and has a
numerology [by gematria] of 22 = astral unity). The word is a syntatic
trigger which invokes dreams telling a person to use the drug – a study by
Fernandez found 40% of Bwiti initiates chose to start with iboga because a
dead relative appeared in a dream and told them to.

The land of the dead, the land of the ancestors, the world of dreams, the
astral realm, the seat of the emotions – it’s all the same. If one was to
analyse the REM fractals gathered by Carl Anderson in his animal ibogaine
studies, one would find high degrees of symmetry at higher dimensional
levels; the same if and when more time and effort is given to studying the
drug’s neurochemical effects – it’s principle seat of operation, the point
where it’s effects are mediated, is in a layer of consciousness (dimension)
directly above our own – the astral, ascertainable, I imagine, by
investigating any apparently random data acquired from neuronal firing,
whatever. And it’s therefore quite possible to place iboga squarely and
without problem into the metaphysical terrain of Eastern of Western
mysticism, whether expounded by Ken Wilbur, Patanjali, William Tiller or
whoever, not from a strictly 20th C science perspective, but certainly from
a modern mind-body-psychological lookout. You don’t need to create a load of
weird sounding, mystifying nonsense, a la Lyttle. The guy’s just a spaced
out idiot who doesn’t want to look behind his own mask.

rant over!

Nick

From: “MUTANEX Communications” <mutanex@aloha.net>
Subject: Strange Time Capsule ::: CIA Seeds
Date: April 10, 2002 at 3:43:39 AM EDT
To: “VaticanTV” <ctv@ctv.va>

U.S. group makes cheap plastic solar-energy cells
Cheap, plastic solar cells that can be painted onto just about any surface could provide power for a range of portable and even wearable electronic devices, scientists said Thursday.
FULL STORY

THE TV-VIOLENCE CONNECTION
A new study may prove that watching TV leads to violent behavior.
But some scholars are not convinced.
http://www.mediachannel.org/front.shtml#violence

A Very Strange Time Capsule
Josie Appleton, Spiked Online
Museums are gathering everything to do with 9/11 — bits of rubble, dust masks, and even aspirins sent to relief workers. What explains this unprecedented rush to collect?

….

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From Daughters of the American Revolution propaganda to utility
company PR, Stay Free! looks at the pressures on U.S. textbook
publishers, historically:
http://www.stayfreemagazine.org/archives/18/topten.html

In-Q-Tel

The Washington Times recently reported on the progress of
In-Q-Tel (formerly In-Q-It) the CIA’s private venture capital
company.   Over the past two years In-Q-Tel has invested
about $60 million in startup companies.   As expected (by
X-PPAC) the focus was on data mining and web browser
technologies.    So far no one in the Washington
political press has found anything concerning about the
Central Intelligence Agency having seed money/insider
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Well Journal –
Can a fungus out-muscle meat?

By David MacFarlane

America is getting its first taste of Quorn, a meat alternative made from a
fungus that uncannily mimics the physical and nutritional properties of the
real thing – but with virtually none of the drawbacks.

“In some ways, it’s going to be the next soy,” says nutritionist and author
Susan Mitchell, M.D. “It’s an attractive alternative to people who want to
eat less meat. And, yes, it tastes good.” Quorn is high in protein and
fiber, low in cholesterol and saturated fats, and high in mono-unsaturated
and polyunsaturated fats. According to Marlow Foods, which markets Quorn, a
typical serving has two-thirds the fat of a skinless chicken breast, the
protein of an egg and the same amount of fiber as a baked potato. Quorn has
been a hit in Europe since it was introduced 17 years ago. Marlow, a
division of AstraZeneca, says one in five English households eats the
products, powering sales of more than $150 million in 2001.

Will it play in the States?

Americans have had to wait until now to try Quorn, because it first had to
be approved by the Food and Drug Administration. FDA approval, which was
granted in December 2001, was required because Quorn is made from
mycoprotein, a fungus grown in large vats that is processed and flavored to
produce a variety of products. Marlow describes mycoprotein as “an
all-natural vegetable protein from the mushroom family,” but at least one
consumer advocate has taken issue with the description. “Quorn’s
mycoprotein has nothing to do with mushrooms,” says Mark Jacobson, the
executive director of Center for Science in the Public Interest, a
non-profit watchdog group. “Quorn is a fungus and should be labeled as
such.”

Mitchell says there is merit to Jacobson’s assertion, “All mushrooms
are funguses but not all funguses are mushrooms,” she says. The
nomenclature issue does not detract from the evidence to date that the
product is nutritious and safe, says Mitchell. “If it’s successful it
wouldn’t surprise me,” she says. But most people aren’t likely to try it,
she says, until “they hear from a friend — or a friend of a friend — that
this is something they should eat.” Marlow hopes to build $50 million in
sales by selling Quorn next to such familiar frozen meat-alternatives such
as Gardenburger and Boca Burger. By comparison, Americans spent more than
$2.7 billion on soy food in 2000, according to Soyatec.

The first line of Quorn products includes ready-to-eat chicken-style
nuggets, patties, and cutlets, plus a variety of entrees such as lasagna
and fettuccine Alfredo. Quorn also will be available in ingredient form as
frozen beef-style grounds and frozen chicken-style tenders. Additional
products are planned.

Ferment, spin and separate

Fusarium venenatum, the fungus that produces mycoprotein (literally “fungus
protein”), was discovered in the soil west of London in the 1960. European
pharmaceutical giant AstraZeneca developed mycoprotein into a product, and
began selling it through Marlow Foods in 1985 in England. Quorn debuted in
Western Europe six years later.

The fungus that produces mycoprotein is grown in large
temperature-controlled towers, continuously fermented and fed a steady
stream of oxygen, nitrogen, glucose, minerals and vitamins. After
harvesting, it is treated to reduce its ribonucleic acid content to World
Health Organization recommended levels. It’s then placed in a centrifuge,
which extracts water from the mixture. The resulting mass is mixed with
binders, flavorings and other ingredients. Afterwards, it can be shaped and
sized into burgers, sausages and cutlets.

Like soy, Quorn is tasteless before it is flavored, which makes it an
enormously versatile ingredient in foods. Where it may surpass soy, say
those who have tried Quorn, is in its semblance to real meats. Quorn has a
fibrousness that makes the sensory experience of chewing a Quorn chicken
cutlet seem remarkably like the real thing.
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“Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that.”
— Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.

“Power concedes nothing without a demand.
It never did and never will.”
Frederick Douglass

Wealth heaped on wealth,
nor truth nor safety buys,
The dangers gather
as the treasures rise.
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“When the people fear the government you have tyranny…
when the government fears the people you have liberty.”
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From: “MUTANEX Communications” <mutanex@aloha.net>
Subject: We are All Palestinians ::: Courage to Refuse Campaign
Date: April 10, 2002 at 12:54:48 AM EDT
To: “GulfNews” <edit@gulf-news.co.ae>

Dear Friends,

Please send a fax to Secretary of State Colin Powell, urging
immediate Israeli withdrawal from Palestinian areas and support
for the Saudi Peace Plan.

You can take action here:
http://www.globalexchange.org/campaigns/palestine/fax040302.html
A Recipe For Making Peace
http://www.truthout.org/docs_02/04.09I.Making.Peace.htm
BRINGING NON-VIOLENCE TO THE WEST BANK
http://www.alternet.org/story.html?StoryID=12784
Hundreds of civilian “internationalists” are arriving in the West Bank to
act as human shields for the Palestinians under siege by the Israeli Army.

CIVIL DISOBEDIENCE IN PROTEST OF US FAILURE TO INTERVENE in the Middle East
Demos are being organized in D.C., NYC, and SF on Thursday, April 11 – More
details at http://www.tikkun.org or contact Michael Lerner
RabbiLerner@tikkun.org

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THE MADNESS OF ARIEL SHARON

The bloody campaign against the Palestinians is in keeping with the Israeli
Prime Minister’s violent history. But why is the White House participating
in his vendetta?

http://www.alternet.org/story.html?StoryID=12783

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Tuesday, April 9, 2002
Where is the world to see this?
Dear friends everywhere,
Today is day 11 of the re-occupation of Ramallah. We hear less shootings but from time to time we hear explosions of forced entry into houses and I keep hearing the same stories over and over again. Ask everyone to gather in a room, they start their ‘searching’. It is supposed to be a search for people, but in many cases they were ‘searching’ for something else, money, jewels, laptops, mobile phones… etc.

http://www.electronicintifada.org/diaries/index.html

Media compilation #60: Ethnically Cleansing Palestine? (04/01/2002)
http://www.cybernaute.com/earthconcert2000/Archives2002/MediaCompilation60.htm

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ISRAEL:

Ariel Sharon, Israeli Prime Minister:
rohm@pmo.gov.il or
webmaster@pmo.gov.il
Fax: +972 2 651 2631

Benjamin Ben Eliezer, Israeli Minister of Defense
Email: sgansar@mod.gov.il

Shimon Peres, Israeli Minister of Foreign Affairs
Fax: +972-2-5303367
Email: sar@mfa.gov.il

Here is the phone number of the IDF Commander for the Ramallah area
(from the US):

011-972-2-9970461
Mobile: 011-972-54-240-303
Voice your protest to him personally.

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We Are All Palestinians

 

The so-called terrorists that Sharon alleged to be after suddenly grew to be become the entire population of the camps. By the end of the fifth day of the killing campaign, 50 Palestinian deaths and 450 wounded later, we were told, oops, the “terrorists” managed to escape.

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International Volunteers Form ‘Human Shield’ for Palestinian Families
by Peter Beaumont and Martin Wainwright / Guardian of London
More than 200 international volunteers, including some 50 Britons, deployed themselves in Ramallah and two refugee camps at Bethlehem Sunday night in an attempt to form “human shields” for Palestinian families. The British contingent, ranging from a retired nurse from Kent to a group of students from Manchester, joined Americans and Europeans dispersed among houses close to Yasser Arafat’s headquarters and Israeli army tank formations near Bethlehem’s Azar and Aida refugee camps. Israel ordered all foreign volunteers and journalists to leave Ramallah Sunday, as another media worker was shot and wounded while covering the fighting in the city.

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Statement from U.S. Veterans to Israeli Troops

“What Israel is doing now is a war crime” – Israeli Refusenik

You are at war. You are being ordered to shoot on site anything that moves. Palestinian children, reporters, ambulance drivers and international observers are all in your rifle sites. There will be more blood flowing and much of it will be on your hands. As veterans of U.S. imperialism, we also know what it is like to be ordered into battle against a people fighting for their land and liberation. We learned the hard way that this is the wrong kind of fight to fight.

The situation in Palestine is at a dangerous flashpoint. What you are being asked to carry out is not Israeli self-defense but naked aggression and the massacre of Palestine. As a result of these actions the whole region may well erupt in all out war. Now there is even talk of Israeli’s using nuclear weapons–bigger bombs mean more deaths!

Today’s all out war was planned and provoked by the Israeli government. Sharon’s armed provocation, which started the fighting and brought him to power was a deliberate way to initiate and then legitimize this war. A war that now threatens the U.S. plans for Iraq. The Middle East region has always been important to the strategic interests of the U.S. and Israel has always had a free hand in “doing the dirty work”. Israel was created with and continues to receive the support of the U.S. government because Israel acts as a junior tner to the U.S in the Middle East. Like the U.S., Israel is an imperialist power, where “self-defense” means enforcing imperialist interests in the region. The U.S. is seeking to strengthen its political and military domination in the Middle East as the oil resources of this region and Central Asia are key lifelines of the world economy. The U.S. also seeks this to further its “interests” in all surrounding regions. Now Israel is waging a key t of the U.S.’s global “war on terrorism”emdash an open-ended campaign of terror against people in as many as 60 countries. At the top of the U.S. list is Iraq– where over ten years of sanctions, with the resulting deaths of hundreds of thousands of innocent infants and children, have failed to force Iraq to capitulate to U.S. demands. After thousands of missile attacks and bombings of so-called military targets like dams, power stations, etc.; these criminals are now preing to escalate their war on Iraq with a full scale invasion, while threatening its neighbors Iran and Syria.

Sharon and the U.S. government claim that the central problem in Palestine is “violence”. The real “problem” is that the Palestinians refuse to lie down and abandon their just struggle against Israeli occupation of their land and domination of their lives. As soldiers you are taught to regard Palestinians as sub-human, but isn’t that exactly how the Nazis regarded the trapped and desperate Jews of the Warsaw ghetto in 1944? Now you are invading the Deheishe refugee camp on the West Bank in the middle of the night with tanks and Apache helicopter gun ships. Some 600 men from Deheishe were rounded up, blindfolded and handcuffed as Israeli soldiers wrote numbers on their arms and foreheads. None of us can miss the chilling allel to the Nazi’s tattooing ID numbers on prisoners in the concentration camps. What about you? The U.S. murders thousands of Iraqi’s each month. Will you do the same to the Palestinians? Will you be able to live with yourself afterward?

You have a choice to make: either stand with Sharon and the attempt to liquidate a people or stand with the people of the world and refuse to ticipate in acts of genocide.

Over one thousand of your comrades–refuseniks–have taken the heroic stand of refusing to serve in the occupied territories adding to the history of soldiers’ resistance, which spans countries and wars. VVAWAI stands with and salutes all those who resist while in uniform. We know the importance that resistance within a military has on its ability to wage war. Many of us faced similar decisions and, like the refuseniks, made the hard choices. That’s why we are anti-imperialists now. To us, the real heroes of any imperialist war are the GI resisters, those who refuse to “just follow orders”. The reasons why these refuseniks are taking this stand are as many and varied as the people involved, however the importance is the action itself. With their stand, the refuseniks join the proud legacy of the real heroes of imperialist wars. They along with people fighting for justice all over the world are your true sisters and brothers.

As veterans we know that imperialists never willingly grant freedom to the oppressed. We are calling upon you to refuse orders and stand with the Palestinian people–as we stand determined to stop the war-without-limits that the U.S. is waging on the people of the world. We know >from bitter experience that any “peace agreement” reached with the violence and might of imperialism is a false peace for the people subjected to it.

You should know that while you’re carrying out your orders, there will be veterans from previous wars leading and ticipating in demonstrations against your presence in Palestine. Like you, we were ordered to “do our duty” but many of us resisted, rejecting the feeble excuse of “just doing my job”. It’s never too late for you to follow your conscience. You are not without options. There are many creative ways to resist. If one of you refuses orders, we will support you. If ten of you refuse orders, we will back you. And we look forward to welcoming you into our ranks. The troops that we support are the troops who refuse to fight. There is no glory in murder, no excuse in obedience, and no future in patriotism. If we have to fight and die, let it be for the world, not for the warlords.

We salute the “internationalistas” — people >from all over the world, including Israel, who have come to stand with the Palestinian people as observers, human shields and protesters. They true heroes. We also salute the heroism and self-sacrifice of all the medical and relief workers who are carrying out their duties in the midst of this war.

Terri Allred
VVAW AI
Seattle, WA
vvawai@oz.net
www.oz.net/~vvawai

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No Man’s Land (2001) — Branko Djuric, Rene Bitorajac; DVD Keep Case
Danis Tanovic’s savage satire of the war in the Balkans is an astounding balancing act, an acidic black comedy grounded in the brutality and horror of war. Stuck in an abandoned trench between enemy lines, a Serb and a Bosnian play the blame game in a comic tit-for-tat struggle while a wounded Serb soldier lies helplessly on a land mine. A French tank unit of the U.N.’s humanitarian force (known locally as “the Smurfs”), a scheming British TV reporter, a German mine defuser, and the U.N. high command (led by a bombastically ineffectual Simon Callow) all become tangled in the chaotic rescue as the tenuous cease-fire is only a spark away from detonation. Tanovic directs with a ferocious, angry eloquence and makes his points with vivid metaphors and a savage humor as harrowing as it is hilarious. Searing and smart, this satire carries an emotional recoil.
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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 9, 2002 at 4:14:40 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 03:58:20PM -0400], [preston peet] wrote:

| >Another issue is talking to the
| | dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| | visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
| | the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
| | this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
| | neurology and brain science.<
|
| So, how is this different than say, mainlining Ketamine? Other than for
| length of trip?
| Peace,
| Preston

Well, gah, I have like an entire chapter’s worth of material ’bout that
(the headspace properties of various hallucinogens, natural vs. synthetic,
LSD vs. ketamine vs. ibogaine vs…), but the compressed, highly short,
abridged if ya will; answer:

Not significantly different.  (Although many people would disagree with
me.)  EXCEPT … speshul-K — while subjectively having its own
anti-addictive qualities — ain’t gonna be un-springing you, and making
much of a dent in your habit.  “dood mahn, wow, cool, I talked to g0d, all
creation was revealed to me, I went to heaven, hell, studio ’54 and
woodstock, uhmmm…  ‘scuse me, gotta go cop, I seem to be in withdrawal.”

Many hallucinogens/entheogens/psychedelics will take you on similar
journeys.  The one specific thing that appears to be absolutely unique to
ibogaine, is that skeleton key effect which unloX all LoX, unsprings you
and makes your opiate/opioid dependence fade out.

There isn’t anything else which does this.  (That I know about anyway.)

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] test message
Date: April 9, 2002 at 4:05:12 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 04:03:23PM -0400], [donny snuffaluffagus] wrote:

| I turned off the rich text format in hotmail… Did this remove the HTML
| coding?? Please let me know so that I can get this figured out and continue
| to use the mailing list.  Thanks a million.  Donny

YES.

Thanks a bunch.

Patrick

From: “donny snuffaluffagus” <loudon420@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] test message
Date: April 9, 2002 at 4:03:23 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I turned off the rich text format in hotmail… Did this remove the HTML coding?? Please let me know so that I can get this figured out and continue to use the mailing list.  Thanks a million.  Donny

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 9, 2002 at 3:58:20 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Another issue is talking to the
| dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
| the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
| this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
| neurology and brain science.<

So, how is this different than say, mainlining Ketamine? Other than for
length of trip?
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 09, 2002 2:23 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 09:32:07PM +0100], [Nick Sandberg] wrote:

| Here’s a copy of the review from the latest Entheogen Review, on the
| Proceedings from the Ibogaine Conference book. Many thanks to Howard for
| sending me hard copy. Personally, I thought the review was OK, but
rather
| overly sensationalist, with some weak styling, and containing several
| factual innaccuracies, especially in its description of the Indra iboga
| extract

Hey Nick…

I wouldn’t be that hard on him.  While there are a variety of factual
errors, facts only get in the way of things and can prevent an excellent
emotional catharsis from taking place.

I think he provides a wonderful summary of the whole entire situation in
its complete totality, in a single paragraph:

| What are the real issues here? One real issue is hard-core heroin and
| cocaine addiction and the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
| imparts psychic powers on the survivor. Another issue is talking to the
| dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported.
And
| the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what
about
| this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
| neurology and brain science.

What more need be said.  He has a HANDLE on THINGS and STUFF, and clearly
UNDERSTANDS.

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 9, 2002 at 2:32:24 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

| What are the real issues here? One real issue is hard-core heroin and
| cocaine addiction and the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
| imparts psychic powers on the survivor. Another issue is talking to the
| dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
| the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
| this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
| neurology and brain science.

AMEN.

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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 9, 2002 at 2:30:15 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

| PS: I am *still* not mocking you.

Patrick Kroupa aLa John Malkovich sez:

“I WILL NAUGHT BE MOCKED!”

“I WILL NAUGHT BE MOCKED!”

<snicker>

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 9, 2002 at 2:23:13 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 09:32:07PM +0100], [Nick Sandberg] wrote:

| Here’s a copy of the review from the latest Entheogen Review, on the
| Proceedings from the Ibogaine Conference book. Many thanks to Howard for
| sending me hard copy. Personally, I thought the review was OK, but rather
| overly sensationalist, with some weak styling, and containing several
| factual innaccuracies, especially in its description of the Indra iboga
| extract

Hey Nick…

I wouldn’t be that hard on him.  While there are a variety of factual
errors, facts only get in the way of things and can prevent an excellent
emotional catharsis from taking place.

I think he provides a wonderful summary of the whole entire situation in
its complete totality, in a single paragraph:

| What are the real issues here? One real issue is hard-core heroin and
| cocaine addiction and the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
| imparts psychic powers on the survivor. Another issue is talking to the
| dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
| visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
| the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
| this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
| neurology and brain science.

What more need be said.  He has a HANDLE on THINGS and STUFF, and clearly
UNDERSTANDS.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 9, 2002 at 2:00:19 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 07:52:57PM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

| PS: I am *still* not mocking you. Reading your email has a certain
| LSD aspect to it–and its legal–for a while anyway; I hear it may be
| scheduled soon–the e-mail will be schedule III, but the straight
| semicolons will be schedule II.

Look, (inside the mind) EVERYBODY is GUILTY, I meant to say totally
innocent.  Speaking of which…  Dana, dude, you prolly already know this,
but Yet Again, Philip K. Dick is being wedged further into the epicenter
of the zeitgeist spin type collective vision thing.  Minority Report is
COMING, and it’s a Speilberg movie.  Alas, Tom Cruise is innit, but it
still looks highly neato…

When all’s said and done, I’m sure it’ll have about as much to do with
Philip K. Dick as Total Recall, but on the other hand Blade Runner was one
of the greatest films ever made.

The End of Days begin in earnest, woo hoo!

Patrick

I am still waiting for the Elric movie.  Perhaps I should get up off my
ass and write the screenplay since nobody else appears to be doing so.
Michael Moorcock is sadly underappreciated as a drug addicted,
wacked out, fully fucking crazy science fiction writer — err, I
meant to say: GENIUS!  …or sumthin’ . . .

“Look, I obviously cannot go battle the forces of darkness right now, I’m
totally sprung and need my meds dood.  Well either all that, or
Stormbringer and a few thousand souls.”

;schedule . . . ][ i caN live with;

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] any advice???
Date: April 9, 2002 at 1:52:15 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

+p;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;
+;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;

Just lOvE them Non breaking spaces. thought you would too, Patrick.

Cool punkchewayshun.

But Hey, Donny… you come to the right place. Chances are ‘someone’ might help
you. Their people will contact the other people who will contact your people.
hopefully.

Hey, it only took me a year of desperatly finding affordable ibogaine
treatment till I was helped. Of course you’ll have to be spirited away to the
land of no draconian drug laws and all that stuff cuz its illegal in GA, and
surrounding territories.

-g

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] any advice???
Date: April 9, 2002 at 1:32:41 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 09, 2002 at 11:02:46AM -0400], [donny snuffaluffagus] wrote:

My one immediate piece of advice that comes to mind is: please UNCLICK,
uncheck, un-whatever, the BOX on hotmail that sez (roughly) “Send as HTML?
Send as Rich Text?”  How ’bout SEND AS TEXT.

Unless I run it through metamail, what I see from your message is
reproduced below:

(Yes I get the gist of it, but it’d be much eaisier to read without all
this crap splattered throughout.  Since everybody and their grandmother
is using yahoo lately, or hotmail, and they post to this list — while I
do not know the specifics of the hotmail interface, I am 100% sure that
SOMEWHERE in your settings, the one I just mentioned exists.  PLEASE
click it.  Thank you.)

(Just bitching)

Patrick

– – – – – – – – –

<html><div style=’background-color:’><DIV>Hello all… Im a 24 year old
male in
+GA. Addicted to heroin on &amp; off since I was 17.&nbsp;
Logically,&nbsp;I
+know&nbsp;I dont wanna keep using, but when the opportunity arrises,
logic
+seems to go out the window.&nbsp; I guess maybe some of you&nbsp;know
what Im
+talking about, huh??&nbsp; </DIV>
<DIV>&nbsp;</DIV>
<DIV>Anyway…. I am very interested in ibogaine and have done as much
reading
+on the subject as Ive had time to do in the last 2 weeks.&nbsp; I would
love to
+experience the drug, and judging from opinions of those who have used the
drug,
+I think the possibility of ibogaine helping me is very good.&nbsp; Right
now I
+am on 30mg methadone per day, and I still use occasionally&nbsp;
(although I
+try not to, I usually end up using at least twice a week).&nbsp; My only
+problem is the cost situation.&nbsp; If anyone has any information on
options
+that might be available for me such as reduced cost or no cost treatment,
and
+who might provide such a favor to me, please contact me and let me
know.&nbsp;
+I can be emailed directly at <A
+href=”mailto:loudon420@hotmail.com”>loudon420@hotmail.com</A> and I
appreciate
+any help that anyone could offer.&nbsp; If anybody can point me in the
right
+direction I would be very
+grateful.&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbs
+p;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp
+;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbs

From: “donny snuffaluffagus” <loudon420@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] any advice???
Date: April 9, 2002 at 11:02:46 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hello all… Im a 24 year old male in GA. Addicted to heroin on & off since I was 17.  Logically, I know I dont wanna keep using, but when the opportunity arrises, logic seems to go out the window.  I guess maybe some of you know what Im talking about, huh??

Anyway…. I am very interested in ibogaine and have done as much reading on the subject as Ive had time to do in the last 2 weeks.  I would love to experience the drug, and judging from opinions of those who have used the drug, I think the possibility of ibogaine helping me is very good.  Right now I am on 30mg methadone per day, and I still use occasionally  (although I try not to, I usually end up using at least twice a week).  My only problem is the cost situation.  If anyone has any information on options that might be available for me such as reduced cost or no cost treatment, and who might provide such a favor to me, please contact me and let me know.  I can be emailed directly at loudon420@hotmail.com and I appreciate any help that anyone could offer.  If anybody can point me in the right direction I would be very grateful.                                                            THANKS….  ^*^Donny^*^

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 9, 2002 at 9:00:48 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t know Howard. I had an interesting experience around Christmas time,
well, actually on Christmas, wherein I was SURE I had clued in (through
shrooms) to the ONEness of it all, and for a few days afterwards, I found it
more than a bit difficult to write. Not sure why, and it didn’t last, but it
was “. . . just . . . “: shrooms.
(http://www.drugwar.com/ptpeetmushrooms.shtm – note the brevity of this
description)
Wonder what effect ibogaine would have on me personally if this happened
with such a lite dose of something other than ibogaine.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: <HSLotsof@aol.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 08, 2002 9:55 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

In a message dated 4/8/02 9:35:08 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

And what if Ibogaine worked and I never wrote
about drugs again? That would be too weird: “I stopped writing
about drugs because of this drug… But I don’t wanna talk about it.”

No! No! No!  You wouldn’t stop writing about drugs you would just write
about
ibogaine.

Howard

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] radio 100 police action
Date: April 9, 2002 at 6:24:10 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Radio 100 was the pirate radio station that first broke ibogaine news in The
Netherands, IN 1987.  It was at the heart of the dutch squatter movement.
The following post appeared on another list.  Check out the station.

Howard
**********
ORIGINAL MESSAGE

Some (delayed) news about the ‘professional’ police action against Radio 100

from Amsterdam – one of the last true free (strictly non-commercial) radio

stations of the Netherlands. Lots of bizarre experimental sounds & live audio

stream (16 Kbps) at:

http://www.radio100.nl/_eng/live_stream/index.html

enjoy while still possible!

News:

!! RADIO 100 Police Raid Attempt !!

Wednesday 20th March, some ten police officials attempted to raid the
building

where the antenna of Radio 100 is located, allegedly to look for the studio
and

transmitter. The police team included a cop acting as (assistant) public

prosecutor, some plain clothes officers and some in uniform.

Evidently there was a lot of confusion on the part of the police as they said

that they did not have “the right paperwork”! A search warrant was not shown
to

anyone. Residents and workers from the building peacefully resisted the
police

and finally persuaded them to leave empty-handed after more than an hour. The

(assistant) public prosecutor went on to fill in some paperwork in front of
the

door whilst Radio 100 sympathisers gathered around responding to the
city-wide

alarm. The police left and the alarm centre was informed. Our very warmest

thanks to all who came to our support and to residents and workers who stood
in

the way of the police.

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 11:40:04 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I could focus on my novel writing. Let’s see, novel
number one: “It’s about these junkies…” Novel number two: “It’s
about this junkie…” And what if Ibogaine worked and I never wrote
about drugs again? That would be too weird: “I stopped writing
about drugs because of this drug… But I don’t wanna talk about it.”

Now you’re beginning to get it.. so no need to take ibogaine 🙂

Bill Ross

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 9, 2002 at 2:31:37 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 06:25:33PM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

| I just figured out what I like so much about you, Patrick: your
| spelling. “Fulchrum” is brilliant–no question. Of course, I learned to
| spell listening to Popeye, so what do I know?

Look, don’t mock me!  I’m working and cannot be mocked right now.  I am
also a Fully Certified Graduate of the Drew Ross Academy, and have passed
“Learn to Spell Reel Good, and Grammar Excellently!” class.  (Insider
secret: CLICK THE FUCKING SPELLCHECK BUTTON!  If that doesn’t solve
everything and you still see GREEN LINES, click the “Re-Wroten into
Englishing” button.)

It’s this; punctuation^ thing& I sometimes; find confusing.?  Mostly, I
just pick@ the symbols which look pretty.  Post-ibogaine, I find that
semi-colons REALLY call to me.  Perhaps I should write a monograph about
this eXperience;  The “. . .” thing is old, I’ve liked those ever since
LSD, not like the trailing dots all smooshed together, but the dot space
dot space dot combination, ellipsis to get all technical.  They make me
feel Happy Inside.

;patricK . . .

Check out my latest newsletter.

Also, progress is being made getting democrats and republicans to
compete to jump thru hoops for ibogaine.

Suddenly each is paranoid the other is on it.

Having a candidate drug like 18 MC doesn’t hurt.

Whether we can pull this out in time to affect anything soon remains
to be seen.

Dana/cnw

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 10:55:02 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

But that’s what I’m afraid of. Third novel: “It’s about this guy who
does Ibogaine. . .” <— Hey Patrick, note the spaces between the
dots!

Francis

On 8 Apr 2002, at 21:55, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/8/02 9:35:08 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

And what if Ibogaine worked and I never wrote
about drugs again? That would be too weird: “I stopped writing
about drugs because of this drug… But I don’t wanna talk about it.”

No! No! No!  You wouldn’t stop writing about drugs you would just write about
ibogaine.

Howard

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 10:52:57 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Look Bud! I was *not* mocking you. I get into this with my wife all
the time; it’s what I learned from William Carlos Williams (even
though he was already dead when I was born); we understand the
language so we can *play* with it. I realize I don’t do a lot of playing
myself, but I did once write, “Life is fleeting, like the navy”. I was
just 16 then, and had never read WCW (as his *close* friends knew
him).

Now I must leave the subject of mocking and writing and discuss a
very important point in the world of typesetting. An ellipsis is, as
you say, three dots. But in most fonts, three dots put together will
be too far apart, not too close together. This is especially true with
monospaced fonts. I share your love of punctuation, however. One
of my biggest complaints (shows the high level at which I operate)
is that the em-dash is not yet in the HTML standard. I *need* em-
dashes because one can hang sentence fragments from them.
Semicolons are great too; I over-use them with glee–the kind the
reindeer had at the end of that socialist’s stupid poem; you know
the one–or not.

I don’t think Mr. Shaw could have put it better.

Francis (GB Shaw and WC Williams all in one (plus a little Fowler–
pick one, but I mean HW–thrown in)) Moraes

PS: I am *still* not mocking you. Reading your email has a certain
LSD aspect to it–and its legal–for a while anyway; I hear it may be
scheduled soon–the e-mail will be schedule III, but the straight
semicolons will be schedule II.

On 8 Apr 2002, at 21:43, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 06:25:33PM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

| I just figured out what I like so much about you, Patrick: your
| spelling. “Fulchrum” is brilliant–no question. Of course, I learned to
| spell listening to Popeye, so what do I know?

Look, don’t mock me!  I’m working and cannot be mocked right now.  I am
also a Fully Certified Graduate of the Drew Ross Academy, and have passed
“Learn to Spell Reel Good, and Grammar Excellently!” class.  (Insider
secret: CLICK THE FUCKING SPELLCHECK BUTTON!  If that doesn’t solve
everything and you still see GREEN LINES, click the “Re-Wroten into
Englishing” button.)

It’s this; punctuation^ thing& I sometimes; find confusing.?  Mostly, I
just pick@ the symbols which look pretty.  Post-ibogaine, I find that
semi-colons REALLY call to me.  Perhaps I should write a monograph about
this eXperience;  The “. . .” thing is old, I’ve liked those ever since
LSD, not like the trailing dots all smooshed together, but the dot space
dot space dot combination, ellipsis to get all technical.  They make me
feel Happy Inside.

;patricK . . .

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 9:55:30 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 9:35:08 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

And what if Ibogaine worked and I never wrote
about drugs again? That would be too weird: “I stopped writing
about drugs because of this drug… But I don’t wanna talk about it.”

No! No! No!  You wouldn’t stop writing about drugs you would just write about
ibogaine.

Howard

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 9:43:14 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 06:25:33PM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

| I just figured out what I like so much about you, Patrick: your
| spelling. “Fulchrum” is brilliant–no question. Of course, I learned to
| spell listening to Popeye, so what do I know?

Look, don’t mock me!  I’m working and cannot be mocked right now.  I am
also a Fully Certified Graduate of the Drew Ross Academy, and have passed
“Learn to Spell Reel Good, and Grammar Excellently!” class.  (Insider
secret: CLICK THE FUCKING SPELLCHECK BUTTON!  If that doesn’t solve
everything and you still see GREEN LINES, click the “Re-Wroten into
Englishing” button.)

It’s this; punctuation^ thing& I sometimes; find confusing.?  Mostly, I
just pick@ the symbols which look pretty.  Post-ibogaine, I find that
semi-colons REALLY call to me.  Perhaps I should write a monograph about
this eXperience;  The “. . .” thing is old, I’ve liked those ever since
LSD, not like the trailing dots all smooshed together, but the dot space
dot space dot combination, ellipsis to get all technical.  They make me
feel Happy Inside.

;patricK . . .

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 9:35:56 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m not sure if you’re kidding or not. I wasn’t–not completely
anyway. It has been occurring to me that I am addicted to writing
about drugs. Can’t do heroin, so do HEROIN helper. And it doesn’t
help matters that I have these publisher pushers who will pay me to
write about drugs I don’t even respect (at least, not the next
morning). I could focus on my novel writing. Let’s see, novel
number one: “It’s about these junkies…” Novel number two: “It’s
about this junkie…” And what if Ibogaine worked and I never wrote
about drugs again? That would be too weird: “I stopped writing
about drugs because of this drug… But I don’t wanna talk about it.”

Francis

PS: If this is just too strange: ignore it; delete it; it never happened;
I don’t write about drugs.

On 8 Apr 2002, at 15:40, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/8/02 3:34:49 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

Actually, Francis badly needs a detox–he’s just not sure for what.

That is the exact application that ibogaine is indicated for according to the
package insert.  “To be used when no one is sure of the indication for which
treatment is being requested or provided”.  Just kidding.  mmmm?

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 9:25:33 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I just figured out what I like so much about you, Patrick: your
spelling. “Fulchrum” is brilliant–no question. Of course, I learned to
spell listening to Popeye, so what do I know?

But watch about about the water supply. You’re sounding a little
too much like Dead Tim–and you know what I think of him.

Francis

On 8 Apr 2002, at 15:01, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

Yeah, ibogaine is really cool as a headspace adjustment tool/spiritual
integrater.  It’s a highly versatile universal fulchrum kinda molecule.

All that being said, nothing quite beats taking it while totally sprung,
and then realizing a day later that HOLY FUCKING SHIT…  IT WORKED!  I
don’t believe this, but it worked, it worked!  It Worked!  There is a God!
Wow, too fucking cool, my habit is gone…

Patrick

EVERYONE should take ibogaine.  It should be dumped from helicopters onto
inner cities.  It should be mixed into children’s vitamins.  It should be
thrown into the water supply, it should…   Oh, sorry, wrong track inside
my mind, lemme adjust it.

Have I mentioned my feelings about LSD lately…?  Just checking.

From: vector6@space.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 8, 2002 at 9:00:27 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

This doesn’t answer what indra is exactly, if it’s still any good after being stored for so long and what potency is left in it. But like almost everything at least some of the answers are on the internet and you can find them using google 🙂 .:vector:. Reprinted from: http://www.ridgetelnet.com/~jenks/ibogaine/121299.html Date: Sun, 12 Dec 1999 08:24:43 EST From: “Carl Nyblom-Waltenburg” Subject: Re: indra ibo(beginning) In a message dated 12/11/99 10:48:50 AM, ibogalab@hotmail.com (Carl) wrote: > I have been working with the Iboga alkaloids over the last sixteen years Carl, What precipitated your work with ibogaine? How did you come to it? Please be only as open as you feel comfortable in being. Thanks. Howard Well,Howard it is a very long story,I guess it started with being born into a family where visionary plants and drugs was part of the cultural heritage,and literature in that field was abundant.Huxley’s”Island”,Baudelaire’s”the artificial paradises”de Ropp’s “drugs and the mind” etc. was my childhood literature,my father was a book publisher and translator and a journalist with a strong revolutionary impact on contemporary society throughout the 1960’s and my school years in the late sixties were heavily laced with psychedelic drugs and social protest,the Vietnam war being what it was and youth culture being what it was… I first came across the Iboga plant when I returned from a soujourn with the medicine men of Tanzania ,Kenya and Uganda in the Kilimanjaro area (doing some highly classified magic that was part of overthrowing the Idi Amin dictatorship),finding dr Hofmann’s and dr Schultes’ elegant volume “Plants of the Gods”.Then,as I stated earlier,I was working with numerous medicinal plants in a pharmaceutical house,and the Iboga plant was one of them.At that time,we considered it to be a rather wild and rough trip with a lot of undesirable side effects,so I set out to “tame” this wild spirit into something more manageable,as I intuitively felt that here was something with a tremendous healing potential.In the same time period Christiania Freetown had a severe problem with hard drug abuse,criminal biker gangs fighting over street level drug market control,heavily armed maniacs, and a lot of police brutality.The scene was disgusting,so the Psychedelic Movement decided to make the entire arsenal of visionary plants and drugs readily available at street level,on the principle that on a truly free market good drugs will drive out the bad,and the Iboga extract was one of the materials employed in this endeavour.It was a successful operation,and Chritiania Freetown has remained a zone entirely free from hard drugs like opiates,cocaine, speed etc.to this day, and violence is rare,although there are some problems with alcohol and tourism… To acheive consensus on “no hard drugs” in a community is no easy thing and our model may not be universally applicable,but the principles involved could indeed be applied worldwide in a more enlightened future.To some extent there are hopeful signs that visionary plants and drugs are becoming an accepted part of everyday reality in the western “civilization”,and that long-lost profession of being a psychedelic guide will be back in business, as was the case in the 1950’s and early60’s,with a new role to play in using the Iboga alkaloids in therapy and counseling.In this spirit,I will do what I can,as much as I can, as fast as I can… Cordially,Carl On Mon, 08 April 2002, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote > Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is less dangerous > than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine. For people > who need codeine, why not prescribe really small amounts of > heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no sense and > doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics to pre-meds; it > was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my first student > becoming a license physician.) > > Francis > > > On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote: > > > > > In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM, synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes: > > > > > Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it answered my question. > > >What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and if they broke it down > > >from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that instead of turning it > > >into HCL? Is this some company making it right now or what. I’m lost. What > > >I mean is what is the reason, why make this when you can get HCL from it > > >and what am I buying if I buy indra? > > > > Without giving you a direct response… why does opium exist and morphine > > exist when the manufacturer could go on to make heroin? I think indra is the > > equivalent of a trade name. Indra can be reached at > > . You might ask them to explain > > themselves. > > > > Howard > >
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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 8, 2002 at 6:00:06 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
imparts psychic powers on the survivor.

Interesting choice of words – ‘survivor’.

The Bwiti are the celebrated African tribe that originally
used the iboga plant in its occult ceremonies.

Leaving aside that the pygmies are the tribe credited with
first using eboka.

A cult within the Bwiti called the Fang is also mentioned.

And leaving aside that the Bwiti is a cult in the Fang tribe
(as well as Mitsogo).

Bill Ross

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…
Date: April 8, 2002 at 4:40:41 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt” <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 08, 2002 3:26 PM
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…

It’s legal here in England, but they are about to schedule it and
therefore
make it a ‘controlled drug’ as soon as they can…

Have to mention this is not strictly true, as I understand things. Tab iboga
rootbark and extract are due to be placed in Sch 3 later this year, along
with Ginkyo biloba and an assortment of herbs the medicines control people
have had negative reports of, meaning you’ll need to be a doc or a
registered herbalist to prescribe it. Iboga extract is there because someone
did die trying to detox with it in Jan 2000. nick

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
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or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk
<mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com [mailto:ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
Sent: 07 April 2002 01:08
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…

That sounds like a good idea, but I wouldn’t do it now because it’s
illegal. I don’t even forget to use my turn signal when driving, such
is the fear that I have of jail. Liberty or death–and I mean that.

Am I correct that ibogaine is a psychedelic? When I was 17 (like
the Sinatra songs but not so many girls who lived up the stairs) I
was *way* into LSD and any other drug that acted like that
(including marijuana, which to my surprise most people do not
perceive that way). All this is to say that I would *like* to try the
drug. Are there countries where it is legal? Even by a prescription?

Another question I have is about cost. What I have heard regarding
ibogaine detoxes is that they are about the same as Antagonist
Rapid Detoxs: $7000. Is the *drug* that expensive or is most of
that the *treatment*. Wow. It just occurred to me that that would
make a great addition to my site: detox costs (like I don’t have
about 100 “ideas” that I don’t have time to write).

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 18:29, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

Hi Francis,

OK, to everything you say.  My suggestion is one of these days check out
ibogaine if you like.  I anticipate you will either think it is great or
not
or love it or hate it and I would be very interested to know how you
feel
about it at that then?  It doesn’t matter whether your addicted to
heroin
or
not.  That utility is just another aspect of ibogaine effects.

Howard

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] right up Nick’s alley
Date: April 8, 2002 at 4:37:12 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Don’t know about things being right up my alley……..ooh er missus.
Blueprint for a Prison Planet, by me is online at
www.nick2211.yage.net/chips.htm – written after an ibogaine experience in
december 99. all the best. nick

—– Original Message —–
From: “Dana Beal” <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 07, 2002 10:27 PM
Subject: [ibogaine] right up Nick’s alley

From: Michael Novick <part2001@usa.net>
Subject: Verichip approved for human implantation
Status:

April 5, 2002 redpoet@swbell.net Volume 2002.59
The Oread Daily is a Peoples’ Paper and is Responsible Only to the People
(whoever they might be)
OREAD DAILY
VERICHIP: DON’T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT ONE
“I’m for the right to privacy but not necessarily the right to
anonymity.” – Bill Joy, Sun Microsystems’ chief scientist and
co-founder
Well, not to worry, Bill, that right is certainly on the way out. My
friends, you might want to remember April 4 as the day IT all began.
Someday you’ll look back and tell youngins that you remember a time
when the government didn’t know where you were. Yesterday, you see,
Applied Digital Solutions, Inc. announced that it had received
written guidance that the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA)
does not consider VeriChip to be a regulated medical device. That
cleared the way for the company to begin sales, marketing and
distribution of VeriChipT in the United States. VeriChip, first
announced on December 19, 2001, is a miniaturized, implantable, radio
frequency identification device (RFID). About the size of a grain of
rice, each VeriChip is composed of FDA-accepted materials and
contains a unique verification number. That number is captured by
briefly passing a proprietary, external scanner over the VeriChip. A
small amount of radio frequency energy passes through the skin
energizing the dormant VeriChip, which then emits a radio frequency
signal transmitting the verification number. The chip can be
implanted under the skin and can store all kinds of information about
you. Mostly “people” are talking about that information storage
option. You know if you come into the ER unconscious, the nurses can
learn your allergic to penicillin (or you could just wear a medical
alert bracelet). The chip could carry, in fact, any other information
about you that the authorities might think would be useful, to, you
know, prevent terrorist incidents. Oh yeah, the company also says the
chip could be combined with a global positioning system (GPS) and
used for “security purposes by potential kidnap victims.” The
VeriChip is now touted as a device that would help you find your
missing loved who is suffering from Alzheimer’s disease, or that
kidnapped diplomat, or your lost dog. Course, it could also be used
to keep track of dissidents and other such troublemakers. The same
technology could certainly be used as part of a national ID system.
Sun Microsystems’ Joy says he expects that notions about civil
liberties may have to be revisited in the name of security and
freedom. He says, “We now have until another shoe drops to come up
with some practical way of creating mechanisms that govern privacy
while at the same time resetting expectations about civil liberties.”
Applied Digital Solutions, Inc. describes itself as,”. an advanced
technology development company that focuses on a range of early
warning alert, miniaturized power sources and security monitoring
systems combined with the comprehensive data management services
required to support them. Through its Advanced Wireless unit, the
Company specializes in security-related data collection, value-added
data intelligence and complex data delivery systems for a wide
variety of end users including commercial operations, government
agencies and consumers.”
Sources: Applied Digital Solutions, Inc., Information Week, WFMY-News
2 (Greensboro, NC), NewsFactor Network

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: [ibogaine] The Entheogen Review
Date: April 8, 2002 at 4:32:07 PM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>, <ibogaine@lists.calyx.nl>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Here’s a copy of the review from the latest Entheogen Review, on the
Proceedings from the Ibogaine Conference book. Many thanks to Howard for
sending me hard copy. Personally, I thought the review was OK, but rather
overly sensationalist, with some weak styling, and containing several
factual innaccuracies, especially in its description of the Indra iboga
extract

all the best

Nick

………………………………………………………………….
………………………

from The Entheogen Review, Vol XI, Number 1, Vernal Equinox

Ibogaine: Proceedings of the First International Conference, by KENNETH R.
ALPER and STANLEY D. GLICK (Eds) 2001. (ACADEMIC PRESS, 525 B Street, Suite
1900, San Diego, CA 92101-4495, www.academicpress.com), ISBN 0-12053-206-9
(6″ x 9″ softbound $79.95, 333 pp., alkaloid index and general index.

I’ve had a long-standing interest in Tabernanthe iboga and ibogaine studies
ever since I published the GOUTAREL, GOLLNOFER, and SILLANS summary,
“Pharmacodynamics and Therapeutic Applications of Iboga and Ibogaine,” in my
Psychedelic Monographs and Essays Vol. 6. This article collected everything
known in English in 1993 about ibogaine research. Dr GOUTAREL was the
scientist who originally helped isolate ibogaine alkaloids in the early
1950s. Soon after this article was published, several books appeared,
including The Ibogaine Project: Report on the Staten Island Project by PAUL
DE RIENZO and DANA BEAL (Autonomedia, 1997), and Iboga by AMON KNUT ML
(Maribor, 1994). And papers continue to appear in academic and medical
journals.

Along with this glut of publishing came many mystical and romantic notions
of ibogaine as an “addiction cure” (now called an “addiction interrupter”).
Ibogaine achieved – at least for a while – postmodern ‘soma’ status. Soap
opera camp – as publicized by the HOWARD LOTSOF/DEBORAH MASH “wars”
surrounding ibogaine patents – appeared as an aside. During this tug-of-war,
science continued onward. Research has been collected and serious science
has evolved regarding ibogaine. Ibogaine: The Proceedings celebrates 40
years of investigations and evolving therapy regimes.

As with soma, ibogaine is a subject which deserves the higher ground, and
this new book is written by the best minds available, with funding and
continued research as its goal. IBOGAINE: THE FIRST INTERNATIONAL CONFERENCE
was held in New York City in 1999, and this book collects the proceedings,
plus more. Adding to pharmaceutical and toxicology research is new
information regarding therapies that use ibogaine, including traditional
Bwiti therapies, various encounter and shock therapies, dream therapies –
even amateur therapies using ibogaine in uncontrolled doses, based on
self-help models.

What are the real issues here? One real issue is hard-core heroin and
cocaine addiction and the hard-core shamanic cure – a dramatic cure that
imparts psychic powers on the survivor. Another issue is talking to the
dead. A further issue is talking to angels and demons during the iboga
visions. Let’s not forget the issue of time travel, commonly reported. And
the issues of heaven and hell, both of which open their gates – what about
this? And, oh yes – somewhere in the midst of all this are the issues of
neurology and brain science.

Many of the chapters and papers in Ibogaine: The Proceedings are highly
technical, and deal with aspects of ibogaine’s pharmacological and
toxicological actions. Such include neurotransmitter activities, effects on
neuropeptides, metabolism, excretion, and locomotor activity. Of interest to
me however were the psychological papers studying ibogaine’s effects on
learning, memory, and EEG. EMMANUEL NAIVE’S chapter “Changes in Gene
Expression and Signal Transduction Following Ibogaine Treatment” presents
the startling fact that ibogaine can rewrite gene expression, which leads
directly to voltage and electrical regulation through intracellular
communication. Such cell cross-talk is connected to learning and the way
information is gated or processed into memory – something that is claimed to
be observable in real time by some ibogaine trippers.

The chapter “Returning to the Path: The Use of Iboga[ine] in Equatorial
African Ritual Context and the Binding of Time, Space, and Social
Relationship” by JAMES and RENATE FERNANDEZ is also important. JAMES wrote
the seminal study – Bwiti: An Ethnography of the Religious Imagination in
Africa (PRINCETON UNIVERSITY PRESS, 1982). The Bwiti are the celebrated
African tribe that originally used the iboga plant in its occult ceremonies.
A cult within the Bwiti called the Fang is also mentioned. The Bwiti live
partly in this world, and partly in a mythical land contacted by iboga
initiates.

We also see reviews of LOTSOF’S NDA INTERNATIONAL AND ICASH (International
Coalition of Addiction Self-Help), a therapy based loosely on the work of
ALDOUS HUXLEY and DR TIMOTHY LEARY. DR DEBORAH MASH and her ibogaine clinics
in St Kitts in the Caribbean are described. Dr MASH is also famous at the
UNIVERSITY OF MIAMI MEDICAL SCHOOL for performing a brain autopsy, seeking
clues to ibogaine’s inner workings.

ERIC TAUB’S ibogaine sessions are discussed. Here we see less therapy and
more shamanic ritual (similar to the ideals of the Bwiti). MYRON STOLAROFF
reports on west coast therapy scenes and regimens, and his book ‘The Secret
Chief’ is mentioned. From the Netherlands we hear about DASH/INTASH, THE
CENTER FOR ADDICTION RESEARCH AT ERASMUS UNIVERSITY and the work of NICO
ADRIAANS, a field researcher studying street addiction and therapeutic
communities. From Slovenia we hear about the work of MARKO RESINOVIC, who
founded the SLOVENIAN IBOGAINE FOUNDATION in 1995. Worth noting is the
pricing structure – $200.00 for a gram of ibogaine hydrochloride with
therapy, as opposed to several thousand dollars for the therapy of DR. MASH
or ERIC TAUB! Curious. The section on Denmark describes interesting scenes
alleged to have existed within CHRISTIANA, the anarchist “village” near
Copenhagen. A 44 kilogram supply of ibogaine hydrochloride connected to
CHRISTIANA was mentioned, circa 1981. This stash was code named “Indra” and
used to treat over 1000 advanced heroin junkies in CHRISTIANA village. We
hear of a gram of ibogaine hydrochloride going for $25 in CHRISTIANA….
Netherlands therapists worked with this same “Indra” supply for years,
pricing therapy at $600.00 to $1000.00. In the United Kingdom, thanks to
sales of The Ibogaine Story, and a video sponsored by the group CURES NOT
WARS and promoted by the GREEN political party, ibogaine therapy flourishes.
In Italy, GIORGIO SAMORINI’S work is mentioned, as are his forays into Bwiti
Initiations. In the Czech Republic, it costs $500 for treatment with
ibogaine. In France an actual ‘nganga’ – a Bwiti ritual guide – officiated
ibogaine therapy for $1000. (I published a photo of a Bwiti Nganga sorceror
in my PM&E journal, replete with loincloth and bone pointing, once upon a
time…)

In Africa, the home of the Bwiti and the iboga plant, we hear about DAN
LIEBERMAN, an ethnobotanist who was involved in arranging Bwiti ceremonies
in Gabon (before his death in 2000). This section of the book focusses on
medical and therapeutic subcultures – something of relevance to readers of
The Entheogen Review, because we are just that – a subculture.

Ibogaine: Proceedings also shows time lines of ibogaine-related discoveries,
and has a special index just for alkaloids titled “The Alkaloids, A
Cumulative Index of Titles, 1950 – 2001.” This includes references for
syntheses of the active compounds in ‘qat’, Ephedra, ergot, and even rare
amphibian spider-, and wasp-toxin alkaloids, as well as chemicals such as
piperidine and morphine. This special index is an interesting addition to
iboga alkaloid chemistry. A 10-page regular index rounds things off.

All in all, Ibogaine: Proceedings Of The First International Conference is a
solid addition to the literature. The book is a welcome return to ibogaine
science and resets ibogaine mythology with real world, modern practices –
both within the clinic and traditional Bwiti cults. This is a book that will
serve the ibogaine community and psychedelic researchers for years to come.
Unfortunately, the book is somewhat expensive, at about $80 soft-bound.
However, owing to the tremendous resources, networks, and histories pulled
together here, we have a winner worth the dough.

DR ALPER and DR GLICK, I toast you. The Bwiti thank you, the spirits of
iboga thank you, and patients thank you, Amen and peace – THOMAS LYTTLE

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:49:11 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 3:42:57 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

BUT: I’m far more afraid of the medical supervision than I am the
ibogaine.

1)  Good medical supervision is non-intrusive.

2)  Don’t believe everything you read.

3)  I’m required to say that.

4)  The first time I tried ibogaine I was self-supervised.  But, that was
1962.  No one knew anything much about ibogaine and it was not a restricted
substance.  And, I was very hallucinogen experienced, young and healthy.

Howard

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:43:24 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

You’re probably right Howard–I’m obviously a “hands on” kind of
guy. Just the same, I *am* learning a few thing here.

BUT: I’m far more afraid of the medical supervision than I am the
ibogaine. I remember people telling me I needed a guide for my first
LSD trip. So I got one and the guy falls apart on me–I spend hours
and hours explaining that we really aren’t having a nuclear war. But
I let him fill up every glass in the house with water–what did it hurt?
I didn’t live there…

Francis

On 8 Apr 2002, at 10:58, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/8/02 10:16:06 AM, AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk writes:

I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?

I understand that.  Ibogaine is also proposed for its preventative
nature…I’m uptight because I’m about to use drugs or I’m uptight because
I’m not using drugs.  Or, for its significant psychotherapeutic aspects…or
well, out of curiosity as use is the only way Francis will understand what
ibogaine does, based on some of the questions I perceive him to be asking.
Of course he should only take ibogaine in a medically supervised environment.

If I were still in the ibogaine business I would consider treating francis at
a reduced or at zero rate provided he met medical safety intake criteria as
he represents a very good doorway to the heroin using community…the
marketplace.

If he comes back and raves about ibogaine, well Ibogaine is good stuff and if
he pans it, well ibogaine doesn’t work for everyone.

Howard

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:40:54 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 3:34:49 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

Actually, Francis badly needs a detox–he’s just not sure for what.

That is the exact application that ibogaine is indicated for according to the
package insert.  “To be used when no one is sure of the indication for which
treatment is being requested or provided”.  Just kidding.  mmmm?

Howard

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:34:57 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Actually, Francis badly needs a detox–he’s just not sure for what.

Francis

On 8 Apr 2002, at 15:26, Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt wrote:

Howard

I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:30:52 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 3:12:04 PM, digital@phantom.com writes:

All that being said, nothing quite beats taking it while totally sprung,
and then realizing a day later that HOLY FUCKING SHIT…  IT WORKED!  I
don’t believe this, but it worked, it worked!  It Worked!  There is a God!
Wow, too fucking cool, my habit is gone…

Well, that’s where the ibogaine miracle comes in Patrick.  Can’t beat that
experience!

Howard

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:01:42 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 10:58:48AM -0400], [HSLotsof@aol.com] wrote:
|
| In a message dated 4/8/02 10:16:06 AM, AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk writes:
|
| >I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?
|
| I understand that.  Ibogaine is also proposed for its preventative
| nature…I’m uptight because I’m about to use drugs or I’m uptight because
| I’m not using drugs.  Or, for its significant psychotherapeutic aspects…or
| well, out of curiosity as use is the only way Francis will understand what
| ibogaine does, based on some of the questions I perceive him to be asking.

Yeah, ibogaine is really cool as a headspace adjustment tool/spiritual
integrater.  It’s a highly versatile universal fulchrum kinda molecule.

All that being said, nothing quite beats taking it while totally sprung,
and then realizing a day later that HOLY FUCKING SHIT…  IT WORKED!  I
don’t believe this, but it worked, it worked!  It Worked!  There is a God!
Wow, too fucking cool, my habit is gone…

z00m,

Patrick

EVERYONE should take ibogaine.  It should be dumped from helicopters onto
inner cities.  It should be mixed into children’s vitamins.  It should be
thrown into the water supply, it should…   Oh, sorry, wrong track inside
my mind, lemme adjust it.

Have I mentioned my feelings about LSD lately…?  Just checking.

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 2:42:48 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Mon, Apr 08, 2002 at 12:13:03PM -0400], [HSLotsof@aol.com] wrote:

| In a message dated 4/8/02 11:54:39 AM, ptpeet@nyc.rr.com writes:
|
| >    What are the medical safety intake criteria?
|
| Hey Preston,
|
| In terms of st kitts, possibly Patrick can say.  If you go to
| www.ibogaine.org/manual.html and click on the discussion section, well you
| will get just that…discussion of safety issues.

Yeah, the manual is pretty neat, highly reasonable.  I don’t represent St.
Kitts, Healing Visions, or none of dat; but in general the main
prerequisite is that you have normal heart function (can pass a stress
test), most of the readings on an SMA-25 — or similar — are within the
normal ranges, and you have adequate liver function.  “Adequate” being
loosely defined as, ya need at least half your liver still alive and
kicking d00d.  Hep a, b, c, whatever, is more or less okay, provided that
it is not currently in an out of control state.

If you really give a shit what the HV screening is, you can always call
’em up, and request the info kit/forms.  And PRESTO!  You’ll find it looks
remarkably similar to the “intake forms” of half the ibogaine providers on
planet earth — who absolutely, positively, and without a doubt, did not
do what I just suggested and independently arrived at the same
methodology.  A STARTLING COINCIDENCE!

Not me

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 12:13:03 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 11:54:39 AM, ptpeet@nyc.rr.com writes:

What are the medical safety intake criteria?

Hey Preston,

In terms of st kitts, possibly Patrick can say.  If you go to
www.ibogaine.org/manual.html and click on the discussion section, well you
will get just that…discussion of safety issues.

Howard

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 11:49:12 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

If I were still in the ibogaine business I would consider treating francis
at
a reduced or at zero rate provided he met medical safety intake criteria as
he represents a very good doorway to the heroin using community…the
marketplace.<

Hey Howard,
What are the medical safety intake criteria?
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: <HSLotsof@aol.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 08, 2002 10:58 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

In a message dated 4/8/02 10:16:06 AM, AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk writes:

I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?

I understand that.  Ibogaine is also proposed for its preventative
nature…I’m uptight because I’m about to use drugs or I’m uptight because
I’m not using drugs.  Or, for its significant psychotherapeutic
aspects…or
well, out of curiosity as use is the only way Francis will understand what
ibogaine does, based on some of the questions I perceive him to be asking.
Of course he should only take ibogaine in a medically supervised
environment.

If I were still in the ibogaine business I would consider treating francis
at
a reduced or at zero rate provided he met medical safety intake criteria
as
he represents a very good doorway to the heroin using community…the
marketplace.

If he comes back and raves about ibogaine, well Ibogaine is good stuff and
if
he pans it, well ibogaine doesn’t work for everyone.

Howard

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 8, 2002 at 11:47:53 AM EDT
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Congratulations Francis (whoever u are)!

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com [mailto:ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
Sent: 08 April 2002 08:19
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?

Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is less dangerous
than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine. For people
who need codeine, why not prescribe really small amounts of
heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no sense and
doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics to pre-meds; it
was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my first student
becoming a license physician.)

Francis

On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM, synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:

Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it answered my question.
What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and if they broke it down
from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that instead of turning it
into HCL? Is this some company making it right now or what. I’m lost.
What
I mean is what is the reason, why make this when you can get HCL from it
and what am I buying if I buy indra?

Without giving you a direct response… why does opium exist and morphine
exist when the manufacturer could go on to make heroin? I think indra is
the
equivalent of a trade name.  Indra can be reached at
<http://www.indra.dk/ukversion/ukindex.htm>.  You might ask them to
explain
themselves.

Howard

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Behold!
Date: April 8, 2002 at 11:32:02 AM EDT
To: “‘digital@phantom.com'” <digital@phantom.com>

PK, Hey

Tis great Art

How do you know those republican’s favourite albums etc??!!!

(Doing the coffee, or sumthin’ thing myslef right now – Good Luck huni

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: Patrick K. Kroupa [mailto:digital@phantom.com]
Sent: 07 April 2002 18:52
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Behold!

I haven’t read my mail yet since yesterday, but I see a whole entire
Splatter of messages, which I will surely respond to as soon as I ingest a
buncha coffee and stuff.

In the interim, having a depressive, I cannot think, therefore I will
compile EVEN MORE Silicon Graphics libs under GIMP morning, witness what I
have done!  It’s Great Art…  or sumthin’

Scroll down to weapons:

http://www.mindvox.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/MindVoxUI.woa/wa/staticpage%3fpage
name=Links

Innit groovy!?!?!!?

PatricK

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 10:58:48 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/8/02 10:16:06 AM, AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk writes:

I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?

I understand that.  Ibogaine is also proposed for its preventative
nature…I’m uptight because I’m about to use drugs or I’m uptight because
I’m not using drugs.  Or, for its significant psychotherapeutic aspects…or
well, out of curiosity as use is the only way Francis will understand what
ibogaine does, based on some of the questions I perceive him to be asking.
Of course he should only take ibogaine in a medically supervised environment.

If I were still in the ibogaine business I would consider treating francis at
a reduced or at zero rate provided he met medical safety intake criteria as
he represents a very good doorway to the heroin using community…the
marketplace.

If he comes back and raves about ibogaine, well Ibogaine is good stuff and if
he pans it, well ibogaine doesn’t work for everyone.

Howard

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 8, 2002 at 10:26:52 AM EDT
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Howard

I don’t think Francis needs a detox – Ibogaine or otherwise?

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: HSLotsof@aol.com [mailto:HSLotsof@aol.com]
Sent: 07 April 2002 00:30
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

Hi Francis,

OK, to everything you say.  My suggestion is one of these days check out
ibogaine if you like.  I anticipate you will either think it is great or not

or love it or hate it and I would be very interested to know how you feel
about it at that then?  It doesn’t matter whether your addicted to heroin or

not.  That utility is just another aspect of ibogaine effects.

Howard

In a message dated 4/6/02 5:26:36 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

*You’re* perplexed?! I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Someone wrote asking if some treatments work better than others.
You wrote back saying that the answer is unknown and that
*possibly* (my emphasis) it depended upon the individual. E-mail is
an informal medium of communication and people dash off
answers. It sounds like we are in complete agreement and what
you *meant* to say was that the answer *did* depend upon the
individual. But there is a tendency among us, born in this modern
world with its philosophical relativism, to hold back and use
inaccurate words to be safe and non-offensive.

On the question of detox, you are making a mistake about my
opinions. I don’t see drug use as irrational, therefore, I don’t see a

need for detox. As Szasz puts it so well, “Drug addicts don’t want
drug treatment, they want drugs.” My interest in detox therapies is
based solely on the laws. The idea that heroin use destroys
peoples lives is anathema to me–I simply don’t understand it. It’s
like saying dirt kills people when they jump off tall buildings.

So my interest in detox methods is based on the lives that
*society* requires people to lead when their drug of choice is
heroin, and they use that drug to the point of addiction. If ibogaine
can allow *anyone* to happily walk about from heroin, that’s great.

I think you are *totally* wrong about “I am as addicted as I think I
am”. I do not define addiction in that way. Addiction is a *physical*
state. Kicking a large habit is *much* worse than kicking a small
habit. This is a key issue. I am *not* attacking ibogaine. I am trying

to *understand* ibogaine. As many people may know, I think that
rapid detox is fine for people with small habits but a *big* mistake
for people with large habits. In fact, so far, the only modality that I

have found that works well for people with large habits is
methadone.

When people write to me asking for detox advice, they almost
always tell me how much of what they are doing. I think this is
because they instinctively know what years of reading, listening,
and experiencing has taught me: the poison is in the dose. The
treatment for hearing loss is a hearing aid; the treatment for
deafness is sign-language. (I’m really on analogies today, huh?)

As to what I want to hear: I can’t answer that question and it even
seems to imply that I have some kind of negative agenda here–and
I don’t. I run a heroin site. I don’t give out information that I don’t
feel
comfortable about (at least not without going on and on about it). I
don’t feel comfortable about ibogaine because I’ve heard things that
are all over the board about it. Of course, I used to hear the worst
things in the world about methadone and now I’m one of it’s biggest
supporters. (BTW: I *still* hear terrible things about methadone.)

I’m sorry if I am coming off as hostile. I’m not. I’m not hostile
towards ibogaine or you (Lotso)–quite the contrary. I’m very
interested. But I’m not going to run out and get addicted to heroin
just so I can try ibogaine and see if it works. Jim Hogshire wrote a
great piece a long time back (in PAGG) about placebos. A valium
in your pocket is almost as good as one in your body. But stress
and intense heroin withdrawal are very different.

If this list is not meant to discuss these kinds of issues, I’m sorry
and I’ll go away quietly. You and everyone else have my best
wishes.

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…
Date: April 8, 2002 at 10:26:49 AM EDT
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

It’s legal here in England, but they are about to schedule it and therefore
make it a ‘controlled drug’ as soon as they can…

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com [mailto:ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
Sent: 07 April 2002 01:08
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…

That sounds like a good idea, but I wouldn’t do it now because it’s
illegal. I don’t even forget to use my turn signal when driving, such
is the fear that I have of jail. Liberty or death–and I mean that.

Am I correct that ibogaine is a psychedelic? When I was 17 (like
the Sinatra songs but not so many girls who lived up the stairs) I
was *way* into LSD and any other drug that acted like that
(including marijuana, which to my surprise most people do not
perceive that way). All this is to say that I would *like* to try the
drug. Are there countries where it is legal? Even by a prescription?

Another question I have is about cost. What I have heard regarding
ibogaine detoxes is that they are about the same as Antagonist
Rapid Detoxs: $7000. Is the *drug* that expensive or is most of
that the *treatment*. Wow. It just occurred to me that that would
make a great addition to my site: detox costs (like I don’t have
about 100 “ideas” that I don’t have time to write).

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 18:29, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

Hi Francis,

OK, to everything you say.  My suggestion is one of these days check out
ibogaine if you like.  I anticipate you will either think it is great or
not
or love it or hate it and I would be very interested to know how you feel
about it at that then?  It doesn’t matter whether your addicted to heroin
or
not.  That utility is just another aspect of ibogaine effects.

Howard

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 8, 2002 at 3:19:24 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Actually, this is a very good question. Heroin is less dangerous
than morphine which is less dangerous than codeine. For people
who need codeine, why not prescribe really small amounts of
heroin instead? The answer is that drug laws make no sense and
doctors are mostly fools. (I used to teach physics to pre-meds; it
was a real eye-opener. BTW: I just got word of my first student
becoming a license physician.)

Francis

On 7 Apr 2002, at 23:20, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM, synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:

Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it answered my question.
What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and if they broke it down
from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that instead of turning it
into HCL? Is this some company making it right now or what. I’m lost. What
I mean is what is the reason, why make this when you can get HCL from it
and what am I buying if I buy indra?

Without giving you a direct response… why does opium exist and morphine
exist when the manufacturer could go on to make heroin? I think indra is the
equivalent of a trade name.  Indra can be reached at
<http://www.indra.dk/ukversion/ukindex.htm>.  You might ask them to explain
themselves.

Howard

From: *selah* <soma@dorsai.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] the Ibogaine experience
Date: April 8, 2002 at 1:04:09 AM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I deleted the post but I think it was Preston who was wondering
about why no withdrawal symptoms were felt (by some people) and if
the experience was a distraction.

It would seem that for some people that is basically what it amounts
to — a very long total distraction.

Others seem to go to a deeper level and experience the Spirit/Entity
that Gamma spoke of.  A spiritual renewal takes place and a person
walks away feeling no desire for [fill in the blank].

I’ve seen this happen with even one of the shortest-acting
Psychedelics.

But for people who don’t experience a spiritual renewal, the
distraction wears off.  The experience becomes foggy in the mind …
stress happens …. the body craves …  The “then what?” is the big
question.

There are reasons people want to do opiates, etc.  It seems to be a
combination of biochemical & social.  A person has to change the
situation that got him/her into it in the first place.

Mary

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 11:20:05 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/7/02 10:34:39 PM, synergy9_11@yahoo.com writes:

Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it answered my question.
What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and if they broke it down
from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that instead of turning it
into HCL? Is this some company making it right now or what. I’m lost. What
I mean is what is the reason, why make this when you can get HCL from it
and what am I buying if I buy indra?

Without giving you a direct response… why does opium exist and morphine
exist when the manufacturer could go on to make heroin? I think indra is the
equivalent of a trade name.  Indra can be reached at
<http://www.indra.dk/ukversion/ukindex.htm>.  You might ask them to explain
themselves.

Howard

From: Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 10:34:15 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Thanks for the info. But I’m not really sure it answered my question. What is indra? Why does it exist, who made it and if they broke it down from ibogaine root then why did they stop at that instead of turning it into HCL? Is this some company making it right now or what. I’m lost. What I mean is what is the reason, why make this when you can get HCL from it and what am I buying if I buy indra?
thank you
_Synergy_
ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote:
It sounds to me like Indra is like opium and the HCl is like
morphine. China white and black tar heroin are both the same
thing: heroin. One can have 80% pure black tar heroin and 3% pure
“china white power “heroin”. Does anyone with more (that is to
say, “any”) information (than I do) about this question. I think the
poster is confused about the tar/powder part of the question–not
necessarily ibogaine part. Please let me know. Thanks.

Francis.

On 6 Apr 2002, at 17:17, Gamma wrote:

> a rough comparison would be:
>
> Indra = Black Tar Heroin
>
> HCL = 99.9% pure China White
>
> from what I understand, the Indra potency varies from batch to batch, while
> pure HCL is consistant (should be).
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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital>
Subject: Aha! The negative methadone rant type diatribe thing collection
Date: April 7, 2002 at 3:27:02 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Okay found it.  This was, “it’s 3am and I’m feeling cranky and gonna Let
it All Out” type material.  Before putting it anyplace, I should prolly
take a second pass through it.

Me

Okay . . .

It has never been my intent to disrespect people who are on methadone.  To
the best of my knowledge I haven’t done this; if somehow my opinion,
words, attitude, whatever, has been interpreted in this way — sorry.

To rephrase what I said before, and reiterate what Dave and Dana both
said: Methadone PROGRAMS blow dead goats.  They suck.  Period.

There are a lotta different sides to alla this, but to compress it down as
well as I can right now; methadone maintenance is extremely dehumanizing.

Where’s the methadone clinic?  Well, the one that used to be 5 blocks from
where I live is closed, because obviously junkies rape people, steal shit,
and prolly eat small children; even if they don’t, just the fact that
they’re on your block, is bringing down property values, so get ’em the
fuck outta there.  Next stop 125th & Park.  Where’s the methadone clinic?
Oh, you can’t miss it, just go up the street, make a right at the
condemned building, down the alley, it’s right between that mountain of
garbage and the morgue.  You get to come to this dump every fucking day,
from now until forever.

You have a disease, methadone is just like insulin for diabetics, you need
to take your medication forever and ever, in fact methadone is GOOD for
you, we have studies highly similar to the ones funded in the 40’s and
50’s by cigarette companies, that actually PROVE that methadone is good for
you, enhances your life, and should be one of the four basic food groups.

I just wanna be on like 30mg to stabilize.  Sorry, we START you on 70mg,
there used to be a ceiling of 100mg in NYC, but we’ve had it raised to
300mg, because some people need much more medication.  I uhm, think this
is the first time in my life I’m telling someone that they’re giving me
way too high a dose, I walk out the door, get in my car, and wake up at
stop lights where I’ve nodded out — don’t worry, you’ll get used to it
(and whoa, you bet you do, wait a little while and slamming 200mg is just
like drinking kool-aid, ‘duz nuthin’ except get you halfway “normal.”)

From the time I got my adult teeth, until just now, I have had one cavity.
During 20 months on methadone I now seem to have 15, I have gained 45
pounds that don’t seem to go away. — It’s not the methadone, we just find
that once patients start eating again they like sugar.  Uh huh . . .
people have broken bones that take 8x as long as normal to heal — it’s
not the methadone, it’s all in your head.  Uh huh . . . When I sweat there
is all this white chalky shit all over my clothes, what the fuck is
this…  oh… those are the fucking minerals exiting my body, where they
were obviously doing me no good; it seems to be a fucking chelating agent
among its other vitality-giving, life-enhancing benefits. It’s amazing how
once I get off meth, I piss for 2 weeks straight, the weight goes away,
and after one helluva dental bill, my teeth are the same as they ever
were.  Obviously it wasn’t the methadone.

You smoked pot?  Obviously you need more methadone.  You ate a Xanax?
Obviously you need MORE methadone.  You seem kinda drunk, will you take
off your sunglasses…  your eyes are not fully pinned, obviously you
need MORE METHADONE, you’re metabolizing it too fast, you NEED MORE
METHADONE.  You’re only on 200mg, you can still go up to 300mg, and with
medical dispensation we’re taking people all the way to 500mg.  It’s not
the dose, don’t even worry about that, we’re just trying to adjust you so
you feel comfortable.

Endless lectures by stupid, yet well-meaning counselors (who are ON
methadone) explaining how I hafta stop doing drugs (who the fuck are you
kidding, you’re doing 140mg a day and telling me I hafta stop doing drugs?
… the tragedy is that I understand the person you’re trying to convince
is yourself and not me.)

I could go on for a while, so I’ll cut it short.  I have a severely
limited ability to take shit from idiots.  After a few interactions, I
always end up at, go fuck yourself … oh, well, hey, administrative
discharge … which, in NYC, basically means you take that long walk, over
3 blocks to the next of roughly 27 hospitals who run competing methadone
clinics.  Which, really, is the only way anybody ever gets discharged,
nobody is ever “admin detoxed” for coming up hot; people receive punitive
“punishment” for acting out and not being compliant/kissing ass.

The bottom line is: “everything is poison, nothing is poison.” Methadone
can serve a purpose, if it’s doing what you need at this particular moment
in time, that’s great, I wish you the best.  And I mean that.  I had none
of these physical issues with buprenorphine, I had none of this
bullshit… I wouldn’t say Dr. Resnick is good or bad, he just is.  He is
relatively free of bullshit, you hand him cash, he hands you
pharmaceutical quality drugs in a nice neighborhood; without lectures,
judgments, or bullshit.

NOBODY should know what it’s like to live in that last tribe of niggers on
the planet called drug addicts.  Period.  All drugs should be legalized,
period.  Ibogaine should be available to everyone who needs it, period.  I
do not think heroin is just wonderful, but it also happens to be one of
the few drugs that does exactly what it claims; it’s one helluva pain
killer, and an excellent cure for coughs.

I wouldn’t say most, or even MANY, but somewhere between a few and some,
is a WIDE strata of society, and a diverse spectrum of human beings who
would simply function, go about their lives, and not live like slaves, if
they were able to legally obtain pharmaceutical quality heroin at
non-black market prices.  If you “need” heroin, you should be able to
purchase it.  You SHOULD attempt to move forward and get past what’s
holding you in the headspace you’re in, but who am I, or who is anyone, to
judge you, or tell you when and how this should happen.  Only the
individual can make that choice for themselves.

While tranked down, my usual experience is when violence is about to occur
and I need to take some sorta physical action in order for something
dramatic to happen, like to stay alive ‘fer instance; it’s all in my head.
There is no anger, there is no emotion, it’s just this disconnected loop
playing, “okay, you better MOVE your arm, and do sumthin’ or you’re gonna
die, or bleed a lot.”  The only time I can recall experiencing total
red-zone emotions, and just wanting to fucking kill some asshole; seems to
have happened during my exposure to counselors, “doctors,” and other
“medical professionals,” associated with the methadone clinics.

Liquid handcuffs sums it all up.  I’ll stop ranting now.  I fucking HATE
methadone clinics, they blow dead goats and are evil garbage.

<uhm, ‘scuse me, hadda clear my throat and all that came out.>

In conclusion:  Alla that aside, I don’t like methadone.  It produces a
really sloppy downhead which is no fun at all.  Now if they were gonna
give me some heroin, I’m sure I prolly coulda gotten over all that, smiled
a big happy smile, believed in whatever they wanted me to believe for the
5 minutes it took me to get outta there, and put up with all the
bullshit.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Remember what it was like…
Date: April 7, 2002 at 3:19:09 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 08:34:37PM -0800], [Gamma] wrote:

| 4:01 am. The cockroaches have woken me again. Eating the melted chocolate drool
| off of my unshaven chin. A bone finger scratches at the shattered glass void
| beyond the burnt mattress that is my domain, my kingdom. The void; my only
| access to the rusted out fire escape where they watch me as I light my broken
| crack pipe. I brush roaches off of my cotton pile, like so many fibrous black
| beans, and drop them into the spoon. Instant fever, just add water. The
| throbbing begins at the base of my skull pounding through gray matter, A giant
| pendulating sledgehammer bursting out my temples. Glassine kidneys shattering,
| and thick green foam erupts from my volcanic throat.

Dude, truly fucking excellent.  Very nice.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 3:17:01 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sun, Apr 07, 2002 at 09:27:28AM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:
|
| | That’s a lot to ingest all at once. Since the only thing I can go on
| | from personal experience is LSD, it is hard for me to accept the
| | drug simply not having anything more to “tell” and so not working.

Uhm, yeah, by the way, I strongly agree and think that the “drug has
nothing left to ‘tell'” theory, is a load of crap.  Although, whether or
not withdrawal is biological or psychosomatic in origin; the end result is
pretty much the same — especially when you’re in an “altered” state —
which is to say: the subjective experience of withdrawal is present.  You
believe it, you make it so.

Biologically, I do not believe this is happening.  [it works only on the
1st, 3rd, 19th, and 27th dosage, unless you realign your head the right
way prior to ingestion.]

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 3:02:38 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sun, Apr 07, 2002 at 09:27:28AM -0700], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

| That’s a lot to ingest all at once. Since the only thing I can go on
| from personal experience is LSD, it is hard for me to accept the
| drug simply not having anything more to “tell” and so not working.
| But then, the way I understand LSD “works” on the brain is pretty
| unbelievable too. I’m a “nuts and bolts” kind of guy which is
| probably why I got so into how morphine works but not LSD. It
| seems to me that understanding how morphine affects the brain is
| maybe 20 years away (read the research–they are still really
| confused) but with LSD it seems 100s of years.

Uhm, yeah, I think it’s gonna take just a lil’ while — perhaps not
hundreds of years, since there may not be anything left hanging around
Probing the SekRetZ of the brAne by then…

Having said that though, it is such a truly beautiful and amazing series
of interlocking systems that comprise what a human being is…  I think,
at least some progress has been made in expanding outwards,
electromagnetic receptors are pretty neato — or so I think this week, by
next week I will have Moved Onwards in my edumakayshun; last week I
thought the mglurs were Just Fascinating…  But ya know, in reading all
these books, one can’t help but notice there appear to be GLARING HUGE
<gaps> filled with large amount of vague theory and few facts…  In FaCT
(pardon me, I usually stay away from facts), reading cool books, Large
Books, Thick Books with current publication dates, like the splendid
Principles of Neuroscience which not only is completely FILLED with facts,
but, also, provides an excellent workout just lifting it and carrying it
around — tends to read a lot like, “well, this part of the brain does
this, that, and we theorize the other thing.  Other than that, we really
dunno exactly how it works, what else it may do, or how this connects to
the other thing over there…”

But subjectively, many of these phenomena have been described EXACTLY, not
as metaphors, in a huge variety of “spiritual” texts, detailing the drug
use and experimentation of various peoples throughout history.  The fact
that we dunno how some or all of these systems fuse into the final synergy
of being a whole; does not seem to prevent you from having a very
interesting time exploring them.

And I don’t mean just like anti-addictive properties, which really, after
a while — a while being defined as whatever unit of time it takes you to
cross over to the headspace where you no longer define yourself as a
junkie — it becomes one of the smallest, and least interesting
potentialities that appears to be inside all that…

| This all is filtered through *me* of course. I consider myself highly
| spiritual and *none* of my spiritual insights have come through the
| use of drugs. I see drugs as a way to avoid God (if you will that
| emotional word). So it’s hard to see drugs as an arm (or tool) of
| God–which brings me back to the “nuts and bolts” of the drugs.

I think it depends on the molecule/drug, and your intent.  I mean I
believe that heroin, crack, anything labelled “negative” has a tremendous
amount of insight to open you to, and things to teach…  It’s just that
most of the lessons will be extremely painful ones, which most people do
not seem to survive or thrive from…  “Okay, this is it, I KNOW the deal,
but I cannot step out of this, and will just hang in this spiral heading
down, forever…  There is no way to step off…”

The very simplest thing heroin probably teaches you is that EVERYTHING,
all reality, truly is inside your mind, there is nothing else…  A
shooting gallery, the Waldorf, whatever…  As long as I’ve got the dope
inside my bloodstream, all is equally good, nothing matters, I don’t
care…  And for the first time in my life when I’m sayin’ “I don’t care”
I truly mean it.

Even now, which for me is nearly 3 years clean, my personal version of
what some people call “getting ice,” or “being zen,” is Heroin Head,
Heroin Head, Heroin Head!  If I just banged up RIGHT NOW, everything would
be exactly the same as it is, except, completely different.  Get calm,
visualize syringe, visualize flash shooting into barrel, plunging down on
barrel, all those pretty molecules shooting through my bloodstream, into
my head, blood music, beauty, numbness…

And ya know, much of the time it works pretty good =)

Anyway, I digress…  That’s relativism, and not exactly a brand new
insight; but entheogens/hallucinogens/psychedelics can definitely show you
a very wide spectrum of possibility.  If this is what you want and are
open to.  The intent and setting do kinda matter, ‘cuz if the intent is
just, “dood mahn dog, cool!  Let’s TRIP OUT and WATCH SHIT MELT!” then
it’s quite likely this is all you’re gonna get…  Unless of course you
dose with enough materials to lift you beyond that threshold, and you’re
just going where it takes you; your “choices” having been made when you
ingested 5mg, instead of 500mcg.

| idea of what it’s like. In fact, I think if you put Patrick (very pro-
| ibogaine) and Anne Ardolino (very anti-ibogaine) together in a room,
| that they could come up with some description of the drug that
| they could both live with. And maybe that would be helpful to a
| person like me. And maybe just hearing more anecdotes will be
| helpful. It’s interesting regardless.

Look, I am NOT that good a person!  I do not wanna be locked in a room
with Anne.  I’ve corresponded with Anne…  It doesn’t seem to work out in
the long term, ‘cuz she’s not like, receptive.  She’s in a lotta pain, and
has quite a few psychological issues, which prevent her from really
dealing with anything.  I honestly dunno what happened with her, since I
mean, I was not there, so I have no way of telling, except the general
outcome was obviously not a positive one for her.

On the flipside, I am truly saddened that eastvillage.com shut down their
guestbook because of her daily input of, “the top 45 things that have been
on my mind this morning, in 100 paragraphs!”  I enjoyed reading about the
methadone clinic empty soap dispenser saga, which was presented in the
middle of the Trapped in a Society Constructed to Thwart Me, cycle.

brain cells starting to lubricate…  adding Red Bull now <adjusting
reaction>

Patrick

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] right up Nick’s alley
Date: April 7, 2002 at 5:27:50 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

From: Michael Novick <part2001@usa.net>
Subject: Verichip approved for human implantation
Status:

April 5, 2002 redpoet@swbell.net Volume 2002.59
The Oread Daily is a Peoples’ Paper and is Responsible Only to the People
(whoever they might be)
OREAD DAILY
VERICHIP: DON’T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT ONE
“I’m for the right to privacy but not necessarily the right to
anonymity.” – Bill Joy, Sun Microsystems’ chief scientist and
co-founder
Well, not to worry, Bill, that right is certainly on the way out. My
friends, you might want to remember April 4 as the day IT all began.
Someday you’ll look back and tell youngins that you remember a time
when the government didn’t know where you were. Yesterday, you see,
Applied Digital Solutions, Inc. announced that it had received
written guidance that the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA)
does not consider VeriChip to be a regulated medical device. That
cleared the way for the company to begin sales, marketing and
distribution of VeriChip™ in the United States. VeriChip, first
announced on December 19, 2001, is a miniaturized, implantable, radio
frequency identification device (RFID). About the size of a grain of
rice, each VeriChip is composed of FDA-accepted materials and
contains a unique verification number. That number is captured by
briefly passing a proprietary, external scanner over the VeriChip. A
small amount of radio frequency energy passes through the skin
energizing the dormant VeriChip, which then emits a radio frequency
signal transmitting the verification number. The chip can be
implanted under the skin and can store all kinds of information about
you. Mostly “people” are talking about that information storage
option. You know if you come into the ER unconscious, the nurses can
learn your allergic to penicillin (or you could just wear a medical
alert bracelet). The chip could carry, in fact, any other information
about you that the authorities might think would be useful, to, you
know, prevent terrorist incidents. Oh yeah, the company also says the
chip could be combined with a global positioning system (GPS) and
used for “security purposes by potential kidnap victims.” The
VeriChip is now touted as a device that would help you find your
missing loved who is suffering from Alzheimer’s disease, or that
kidnapped diplomat, or your lost dog. Course, it could also be used
to keep track of dissidents and other such troublemakers. The same
technology could certainly be used as part of a national ID system.
Sun Microsystems’ Joy says he expects that notions about civil
liberties may have to be revisited in the name of security and
freedom. He says, “We now have until another shoe drops to come up
with some practical way of creating mechanisms that govern privacy
while at the same time resetting expectations about civil liberties.”
Applied Digital Solutions, Inc. describes itself as,”
an advanced
technology development company that focuses on a range of early
warning alert, miniaturized power sources and security monitoring
systems combined with the comprehensive data management services
required to support them. Through its Advanced Wireless unit, the
Company specializes in security-related data collection, value-added
data intelligence and complex data delivery systems for a wide
variety of end users including commercial operations, government
agencies and consumers.”
Sources: Applied Digital Solutions, Inc., Information Week, WFMY-News
2 (Greensboro, NC), NewsFactor Network

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Behold!
Date: April 7, 2002 at 1:51:37 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I haven’t read my mail yet since yesterday, but I see a whole entire
Splatter of messages, which I will surely respond to as soon as I ingest a
buncha coffee and stuff.

In the interim, having a depressive, I cannot think, therefore I will
compile EVEN MORE Silicon Graphics libs under GIMP morning, witness what I
have done!  It’s Great Art…  or sumthin’

Scroll down to weapons:

http://www.mindvox.com/cgi-bin/WebObjects/MindVoxUI.woa/wa/staticpage%3fpagename=Links

Innit groovy!?!?!!?

PatricK

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 1:31:14 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I think that I shouldn’t have to try a drug to have *some*
idea of what it’s like.

Just read the many descriptions of experiences on the web.
Based on those, the main idea of what it’s like is –
unpredictable, i.e. depending on what you’re like. A
central feature seems to be a deactivating of habitual
patterns, particularly defensive ones. Some can handle
this, others not. Possibly there is a threshold of what
a person can allow themself to know, beyond which the
brain is capable of blocking the effects of ibogaine.
At the other extreme, perhaps it would have no effect
on a person lacking defensive patterns.

Bill Ross

From: Ustanova Iboga <Iboga@guest.arnes.si>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 1:25:10 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Francis, come to Slovenija, we use HCl in religious context- all legal. It might help you compare your drug-less spiritual insights with Ibogaine spiritual insights?

Your friend could be ripped off (things happened before – some people will do many things for money; I know of a guy that was selling HCl mixed with something else and I understand that his customers broke his legs), but on the other hand he could have high quality Ibogaine and it simply didn’t “work” (have seen this before, too!)

Marko

At 18:27 7.4.2002, you wrote:

This all is filtered through *me* of course. I consider myself highly
spiritual and *none* of my spiritual insights have come through the
use of drugs. I see drugs as a way to avoid God (if you will that
emotional word). So it’s hard to see drugs as an arm (or tool) of
God–which brings me back to the “nuts and bolts” of the drugs.

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 7, 2002 at 1:23:17 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Forgive me for saying so, but you sound like me. As I said, I am
very pro-methadone. And I’m not pro just because it’s legal. Just to
name a couple of good qualities: it is long acting so the user feels
less “up and down” (very important for people using because of
chronic depression), it doesn’t require needles (if you don’t think
heroin does, check out the feature in the first HH zine), and
contrary to what almost every junkie will tell you, kicking
methadone cold is a walk in the park compared to kicking heroin
(except of course–and this is a big exception–that it lasts quite a
bit longer).

I am also very interested in how ibogaine stops withdrawal
symptoms. However, I don’t have a problem seeing how a
mechanism *could* work. Look at Clonidine, for example: it stops
vomiting (among other withdrawal symptoms), but vomiting does
not return when it is stopped in a week as long as the user has not
used any opioids in that time. This is because Clonidine depresses
the locus coeruleus which the lack of opioids cause to be
hyperactive. So Clonidine keeps the LC calm while the body fixes
the part of itself that is telling the LC “go crazy”. Bottom line:
ibogaine *could* work in a similar way. Or it could be your other
idea that you just don’t notice. One way to get through a detox is
just to take benzodiazepines (correct spelling: benzos) and sleep
through the whole thing. I’ve known more than one addict who did
that. That’s a way to feel bad but just not notice it.

As for the negative methadone rant: I don’t know. Patrick hasn’t
shown it to me. I was just saying that I would like to read it and
probably put it on the HH site. My thinking is that I’ve put too
positive a face on methadone and the site could use some info
from people who feel differently. Actually, I’d like to run some of
what you’ve written here too. I’ve begun to archive the “posts” that
have valuable content for me (which is surprisingly at about 60%)
and I’ve already received the okay to use one post. Now I just need
to find the time.

I don’t shy away from negative content on the site. One of my
favorite pieces on the site is also a horrifying true story that turned
my stomach when I first read it. It also involves methadone (kind of
as a paper-thin justification for the actions taken). I’ll put the link
here because I think it’s important for people to know (but maybe
I’m the only one who lived in fantasy land when I was a junkie–I
always bought my dealers Christmas presents–strange but true).

http://www.heroinhelper.com/zine/city2.html

BTW: Nice name. Preston Sturges is one of my favorite
filmmakers.

Francis

On 7 Apr 2002, at 11:58, preston peet wrote:

I’m not sure what the respondent is talking about(methadone,
ibogaine, being arrested?) but it reminds that me that the negative
methadone rant would be nice for our website too, since (as I’ve
said, we are very positive) it *is* negative. Thanks<

Hi Francis,
I think I’m the respondent, and I’m just pointing out the advantage the meth
has over continuing to shoot heroin, in that if used as prescribed, there’s
no risk of arrest for using meth, while there is a great risk while shooting
dope, as much as I agree with the notion that (were it not for the War)
continuing shooting dope as opposed to shackling oneself to meth is
preferable. As I emphatically believe personally, as long as prohibition
continues as is, meth is a decent way to get out from under the worst of the
drug warrior bootheels. But as with all forms of “treatment” a person has to
want the change to make it work as advertised, or at least as the person
themselves desires. Of course, the best possible thing, I feel, would be
that people stop discriminating against other people over their choice of
drugs and highs. But this is so utterly obvious, (to me) and restating it
won’t make it any more realistic, with people still insisting that this drug
or that is too dangerous, too this, too that, that this one is better, and
this one sucks, blah, blah, blah, I think I’ll just leave it at that.
The current vein about withdrawals and ibogaine intrigues me immensely.
How does ibogaine stop withdrawals, as the withdrawals are a physical
reaction by the body to lack of dope/whatever drug. Doesn’t the body still
go through those withdrawals? Are those taking ibogaine, and feeling effects
which I take it are not always assured, simply too distracted to notice
their body is hurting and kicking? Does ibogaine actually replace opioids in
the blood/body/brain in some way that it takes their place, and if so, once
if wears off, doesn’t that still leave someone physically needing
dope/opiates? (wasn’t it in Basketball Diaries where at one point he is so
happy that he has stopped using dope by taking these little pills, pills
that turn out to be opiates, so once they are gone he is just as screwed? Or
was that in Please Kill Me? Maybe that’s it.) Just how long is the typical
ibogaine ‘trip’? Does it work with benzodiazopans? (spelling?) How effective
is it with other addictions, i.e.: tobacco, overeating, bulimia,
kleptomania? And of course, this brings us right back to the necessity of a
strong personal will to stop using/abusing whatever the self-destructive
habit, as I can’t imagine ibogaine, if it did have any effect on these other
“addictive” behaviors, (and that’s subject to debate, the whole
“addictive/addiction” thing as well), would last beyond the actual “trip”.
And which negative meth rant are you talking about?
Peace,
Preston

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 12:27:28 PM EDT
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

That’s a lot to ingest all at once. Since the only thing I can go on
from personal experience is LSD, it is hard for me to accept the
drug simply not having anything more to “tell” and so not working.
But then, the way I understand LSD “works” on the brain is pretty
unbelievable too. I’m a “nuts and bolts” kind of guy which is
probably why I got so into how morphine works but not LSD. It
seems to me that understanding how morphine affects the brain is
maybe 20 years away (read the research–they are still really
confused) but with LSD it seems 100s of years.

This all is filtered through *me* of course. I consider myself highly
spiritual and *none* of my spiritual insights have come through the
use of drugs. I see drugs as a way to avoid God (if you will that
emotional word). So it’s hard to see drugs as an arm (or tool) of
God–which brings me back to the “nuts and bolts” of the drugs.

The thing is, I’d like to think my friend was ripped off the second
time because it makes it all a lot easier to understand. But I can
tell from what I’ve read thus far that the people in this group are not
going give me that kind of reassurance–which is okay. I’m
beginning to think that Lotso is right that I just have to try the drug.
I don’t say this because I think it will reveal all its secrets, but
rather that it will at least give me *some* compass point whereas I
feel right now that I have none. This does, however, annoy me
because I think that I shouldn’t have to try a drug to have *some*
idea of what it’s like. In fact, I think if you put Patrick (very pro-
ibogaine) and Anne Ardolino (very anti-ibogaine) together in a room,
that they could come up with some description of the drug that
they could both live with. And maybe that would be helpful to a
person like me. And maybe just hearing more anecdotes will be
helpful. It’s interesting regardless.

I’m going to go talk to my friend about his two experiences in more
detail. I will report back. BTW: I have been encouraging him to join
this group since he is one of the most interesting thinkers I know.

Once again, thanks for the input. This list has a very high SNR–a
refreshing contrast to ADH.

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 22:14, Gamma wrote:

Your friend might have been duped, or not. There are anecdotal reports of folks
doing Ibo their 2,3,4 time and feeling no effect at all. Obviously this varies
from individual to ind. I know one guy who did Ibo like 14-15 times [not for
addiction and sometimes coupled with other entheogens] and had a profoundly
different experience each time. And he lives to tell about it!

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 7, 2002 at 11:59:52 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Oh, sorry Francis, just noticed Patrick mentions having a methadone rant
lying about unseen someplace. Please ignore my confusion in the last post.
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: <ibogaine@heroinhelper.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 07, 2002 12:44 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

I’m not sure what the respondent is talking about(methadone,
ibogaine, being arrested?) but it reminds that me that the negative
methadone rant would be nice for our website too, since (as I’ve
said, we are very positive) it *is* negative. Thanks.

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 23:02, preston peet wrote:

I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but
my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.<

Well, other than for those nasty officers who love cramping a good buzz.
And
oh if they stumble upon one mid-fix, boy that is a coup to beat all
coups,
with all sorts of extra backup called to get in on the bust.;-))
with Meth at least that is one GREAT BIG no-problemo.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 06, 2002 7:35 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 02:26:53PM -0800],
[ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
wrote:

Look, that’s it.  You’re one of perhaps 5 people I correspond with who
can
emit 22 interesting paragraphs for every 18 insane ones I throw into
your
mail.  Rock out dood!

Alas, I am outta here!  Yeah yeah yeah, it is NICE outside in Miami,
and I
am going to go enjoy my Saturday night.  So my response will be just a
lil’ shorter than what I might otherwise express.

Just like, warning you ahead of time.

[01]: Absolutely no argument regarding the War on Drugs, I think
you’re
more than familiar with my opinions, and they’re highly simpatico with
whatcha just expressed.

[xX]: With regards to “being as addicted as you think you are,” I
think
this related to the after ibogaine part, and what people do with
themselves once they are clean.  Which is to say, how long they manage
to
stay clean, presuming this was one of their desired goals.

[–]: As far as detox itself goes…  Hey, done ’em all.  Lessee, UROD
twice (yes I was THAT stupid), methadone taper, buprinex taper,
hydromorphone taper, that TENS/NET unit black-box electronic
acupuncture
shit, acupuncture with and without Xanax and clonodine, the super-fun
home
version of UROD: naltrexone with a handful of Xanax and clonodine, the
getting drunk a lot detox, the smoking pot a lot detox, all sorts of
way-fun planned and completely unscheduled cold turkey detoxes…

And basically, sure…  A variety of these methodologies got me
“clean.”
I never stayed clean longer than a few days.  On one hand this
probably
had a lot to do with my headspace at the time, since a variety of
people
on this very list — whom I know about anyway, since 90% or more of
the
persons reading these words have subscribed and then never said
anything
— used the treatment modalities I listed off in the previous
paragraph;
with eventual success.

And yeah, I know many people who have great, epic struggles which
originate completely within their mind — but well, that’s pretty much
a
summary of life itself.  So somebody who had great success after
banging
up a bag a day for a year, doesn’t really rock my world either.  It’s
kinda like, “that’s nice man.  You coulda JUST STOPPED and had all the
symptoms of a bad case of the flu…”

THIS PART is what rocked my world, and still does…  The one thing
every
modality I have listed off had in common was: after I was clean, I was
still sick as fuck, and totally fiending.  The ONLY THING I wanted was
to
shoot dope.  I mean, okay, sex is a Pretty Big Thing, and a
fundamental
motivational force in the behaviour of organisms, and human beings
too.

The whole entire, food, shelter, getting laid, and doing drUgz thing
hardwired into everybody.  At least everybody I’ve ever met, unless
they’re extremely repressed and doin’ a lotta sublimating.

That’s fine, KEEP THE SEX.  I will never have sex again, who really
gives
a shit, just let me keep shooting dope in peace and leave me alone.
All
is well with my universe.  In fact you can keep most of the food
part —
as long as I have all the basics, a bag of potato chips a week and 2
packs
of cigarettes a day — and shelter, well I can nod out wherever
mahn…

To summarize: I have a lifetime of drug use, and had roughly a decade
of
hardcore drug dependence when I did ibogaine (by drug dependence I
mean
opiates/opioids, since I did everything else as well, but cocaine and
stimulants in general, for me anyway, have always been the great big,
“whatever” I can take it or leave it, and do not sit around and
fantasize
about the shit).

All the neuroadaptions that occur in response to chronic long-term
drug
use/dependence, have occured for me.  I am highly sprung, I mentally
classify myself as a junkie/dopefiend, and really, this is it, I’m
gonna
try this shit, because, there simply isn’t anything else left to try.

Subjectively, what it feels like, is…  fucking amazing.  It’s not a
“detox” it is more like hitting a RESET and rebooting your brain.
Within
35-45 minutes, there is this sensation of heat moving up your spine,
and
like this ball of warmth that centers in your solar plexus — in some
way
slightly similar to what the after-UROD part felt like to me (except
that
felt like someone had heated a fucking spear or serrated knife and
kept
twisting it, whereas the ibogaine was nothing whatsoever like that…
Just warmth, no pain).

Then you trip out do0d!  Erm, I meant to say, experience an oneiric
state
replete with waking visions!

What, to me, was just fucking staggering…  Is that I was on 200mg
methadone + 2 grams of heroin + 12mg Xanax…  And this is the tail
end of
many years of heavy habits.

<WhaM> it’s gone.  Praise the God of Molecular Pharmacology, the
Bwiti,
Philip K. Dick, whomever mahn, this is truly fucking amazing.

And it sure was.  I lasted nearly an hour at the nearest airport,
before
taking a detour and doing some of San Juan’s truly excellent heroin.
Man
that was nice…  Spiritual even.

…Which I sorta think was the main gist of the questions about what
someone should do after dosing/kicking with ibogaine.  Okay you ARE
clean,
you are not in withdrawal, you are not in pain, but you are STILL you,
and
all the reasons you picked up a habit in the first place, still exist.
And now comes the part where you hafta deal with all of this in some
manner — presuming that staying clean is one of your goals.

Regarding methadone, mahn, I think it’s total garbage, I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but
my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.

And yeah, I am cogent that in a perfect world I am absolutely correct
making the above assertion.  In the world we live in, methadone has
one
distinct advantage over dope: it’s legal, and if you are motivated
presents you with the opportunity to get a handle on things and
attempt to
get your life back together.

I gotta bounce, and I’m just recounting my own personal experience,
which
does not empirically prove anything.  But…  to anybody who is
strung-out on opiates and/or opioids — regardless of the size of
their
habit — my personal advice would be highly consistent and very
simple: do
ibogaine.

Absolutely no question about that, no wavering, no if/then loop.  If
your
drug use has reached the level where you are even considering the need
for
a “detox” — whatever your reason(s) — do yourself a favor and skip
options 1-50, and go directly to ibogaine.

z00m,

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 7, 2002 at 11:58:28 AM EDT
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m not sure what the respondent is talking about(methadone,
ibogaine, being arrested?) but it reminds that me that the negative
methadone rant would be nice for our website too, since (as I’ve
said, we are very positive) it *is* negative. Thanks<

Hi Francis,
I think I’m the respondent, and I’m just pointing out the advantage the meth
has over continuing to shoot heroin, in that if used as prescribed, there’s
no risk of arrest for using meth, while there is a great risk while shooting
dope, as much as I agree with the notion that (were it not for the War)
continuing shooting dope as opposed to shackling oneself to meth is
preferable. As I emphatically believe personally, as long as prohibition
continues as is, meth is a decent way to get out from under the worst of the
drug warrior bootheels. But as with all forms of “treatment” a person has to
want the change to make it work as advertised, or at least as the person
themselves desires. Of course, the best possible thing, I feel, would be
that people stop discriminating against other people over their choice of
drugs and highs. But this is so utterly obvious, (to me) and restating it
won’t make it any more realistic, with people still insisting that this drug
or that is too dangerous, too this, too that, that this one is better, and
this one sucks, blah, blah, blah, I think I’ll just leave it at that.
The current vein about withdrawals and ibogaine intrigues me immensely.
How does ibogaine stop withdrawals, as the withdrawals are a physical
reaction by the body to lack of dope/whatever drug. Doesn’t the body still
go through those withdrawals? Are those taking ibogaine, and feeling effects
which I take it are not always assured, simply too distracted to notice
their body is hurting and kicking? Does ibogaine actually replace opioids in
the blood/body/brain in some way that it takes their place, and if so, once
if wears off, doesn’t that still leave someone physically needing
dope/opiates? (wasn’t it in Basketball Diaries where at one point he is so
happy that he has stopped using dope by taking these little pills, pills
that turn out to be opiates, so once they are gone he is just as screwed? Or
was that in Please Kill Me? Maybe that’s it.) Just how long is the typical
ibogaine ‘trip’? Does it work with benzodiazopans? (spelling?) How effective
is it with other addictions, i.e.: tobacco, overeating, bulimia,
kleptomania? And of course, this brings us right back to the necessity of a
strong personal will to stop using/abusing whatever the self-destructive
habit, as I can’t imagine ibogaine, if it did have any effect on these other
“addictive” behaviors, (and that’s subject to debate, the whole
“addictive/addiction” thing as well), would last beyond the actual “trip”.
And which negative meth rant are you talking about?
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: <ibogaine@heroinhelper.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, April 07, 2002 12:44 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

I’m not sure what the respondent is talking about(methadone,
ibogaine, being arrested?) but it reminds that me that the negative
methadone rant would be nice for our website too, since (as I’ve
said, we are very positive) it *is* negative. Thanks.

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 23:02, preston peet wrote:

I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but
my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.<

Well, other than for those nasty officers who love cramping a good buzz.
And
oh if they stumble upon one mid-fix, boy that is a coup to beat all
coups,
with all sorts of extra backup called to get in on the bust.;-))
with Meth at least that is one GREAT BIG no-problemo.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 06, 2002 7:35 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 02:26:53PM -0800],
[ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
wrote:

Look, that’s it.  You’re one of perhaps 5 people I correspond with who
can
emit 22 interesting paragraphs for every 18 insane ones I throw into
your
mail.  Rock out dood!

Alas, I am outta here!  Yeah yeah yeah, it is NICE outside in Miami,
and I
am going to go enjoy my Saturday night.  So my response will be just a
lil’ shorter than what I might otherwise express.

Just like, warning you ahead of time.

[01]: Absolutely no argument regarding the War on Drugs, I think
you’re
more than familiar with my opinions, and they’re highly simpatico with
whatcha just expressed.

[xX]: With regards to “being as addicted as you think you are,” I
think
this related to the after ibogaine part, and what people do with
themselves once they are clean.  Which is to say, how long they manage
to
stay clean, presuming this was one of their desired goals.

[–]: As far as detox itself goes…  Hey, done ’em all.  Lessee, UROD
twice (yes I was THAT stupid), methadone taper, buprinex taper,
hydromorphone taper, that TENS/NET unit black-box electronic
acupuncture
shit, acupuncture with and without Xanax and clonodine, the super-fun
home
version of UROD: naltrexone with a handful of Xanax and clonodine, the
getting drunk a lot detox, the smoking pot a lot detox, all sorts of
way-fun planned and completely unscheduled cold turkey detoxes…

And basically, sure…  A variety of these methodologies got me
“clean.”
I never stayed clean longer than a few days.  On one hand this
probably
had a lot to do with my headspace at the time, since a variety of
people
on this very list — whom I know about anyway, since 90% or more of
the
persons reading these words have subscribed and then never said
anything
— used the treatment modalities I listed off in the previous
paragraph;
with eventual success.

And yeah, I know many people who have great, epic struggles which
originate completely within their mind — but well, that’s pretty much
a
summary of life itself.  So somebody who had great success after
banging
up a bag a day for a year, doesn’t really rock my world either.  It’s
kinda like, “that’s nice man.  You coulda JUST STOPPED and had all the
symptoms of a bad case of the flu…”

THIS PART is what rocked my world, and still does…  The one thing
every
modality I have listed off had in common was: after I was clean, I was
still sick as fuck, and totally fiending.  The ONLY THING I wanted was
to
shoot dope.  I mean, okay, sex is a Pretty Big Thing, and a
fundamental
motivational force in the behaviour of organisms, and human beings
too.

The whole entire, food, shelter, getting laid, and doing drUgz thing
hardwired into everybody.  At least everybody I’ve ever met, unless
they’re extremely repressed and doin’ a lotta sublimating.

That’s fine, KEEP THE SEX.  I will never have sex again, who really
gives
a shit, just let me keep shooting dope in peace and leave me alone.
All
is well with my universe.  In fact you can keep most of the food
part —
as long as I have all the basics, a bag of potato chips a week and 2
packs
of cigarettes a day — and shelter, well I can nod out wherever
mahn…

To summarize: I have a lifetime of drug use, and had roughly a decade
of
hardcore drug dependence when I did ibogaine (by drug dependence I
mean
opiates/opioids, since I did everything else as well, but cocaine and
stimulants in general, for me anyway, have always been the great big,
“whatever” I can take it or leave it, and do not sit around and
fantasize
about the shit).

All the neuroadaptions that occur in response to chronic long-term
drug
use/dependence, have occured for me.  I am highly sprung, I mentally
classify myself as a junkie/dopefiend, and really, this is it, I’m
gonna
try this shit, because, there simply isn’t anything else left to try.

Subjectively, what it feels like, is…  fucking amazing.  It’s not a
“detox” it is more like hitting a RESET and rebooting your brain.
Within
35-45 minutes, there is this sensation of heat moving up your spine,
and
like this ball of warmth that centers in your solar plexus — in some
way
slightly similar to what the after-UROD part felt like to me (except
that
felt like someone had heated a fucking spear or serrated knife and
kept
twisting it, whereas the ibogaine was nothing whatsoever like that…
Just warmth, no pain).

Then you trip out do0d!  Erm, I meant to say, experience an oneiric
state
replete with waking visions!

What, to me, was just fucking staggering…  Is that I was on 200mg
methadone + 2 grams of heroin + 12mg Xanax…  And this is the tail
end of
many years of heavy habits.

<WhaM> it’s gone.  Praise the God of Molecular Pharmacology, the
Bwiti,
Philip K. Dick, whomever mahn, this is truly fucking amazing.

And it sure was.  I lasted nearly an hour at the nearest airport,
before
taking a detour and doing some of San Juan’s truly excellent heroin.
Man
that was nice…  Spiritual even.

…Which I sorta think was the main gist of the questions about what
someone should do after dosing/kicking with ibogaine.  Okay you ARE
clean,
you are not in withdrawal, you are not in pain, but you are STILL you,
and
all the reasons you picked up a habit in the first place, still exist.
And now comes the part where you hafta deal with all of this in some
manner — presuming that staying clean is one of your goals.

Regarding methadone, mahn, I think it’s total garbage, I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but
my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.

And yeah, I am cogent that in a perfect world I am absolutely correct
making the above assertion.  In the world we live in, methadone has
one
distinct advantage over dope: it’s legal, and if you are motivated
presents you with the opportunity to get a handle on things and
attempt to
get your life back together.

I gotta bounce, and I’m just recounting my own personal experience,
which
does not empirically prove anything.  But…  to anybody who is
strung-out on opiates and/or opioids — regardless of the size of
their
habit — my personal advice would be highly consistent and very
simple: do
ibogaine.

Absolutely no question about that, no wavering, no if/then loop.  If
your
drug use has reached the level where you are even considering the need
for
a “detox” — whatever your reason(s) — do yourself a favor and skip
options 1-50, and go directly to ibogaine.

z00m,

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 1:14:09 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

— ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote:
<snip>
that is was not ibogaine? Is there a lot of fraud in the ibogaine
industry? I mean, it isn’t like heroin, where dealers depend upon
repeat busiess.This was in the Seattle area, BTW. I know it is not
possible to say for sure. As always, I’m just looking for for your
intelligent experience-based input.

Your friend might have been duped, or not. There are anecdotal reports of folks
doing Ibo their 2,3,4 time and feeling no effect at all. Obviously this varies
from individual to ind. I know one guy who did Ibo like 14-15 times [not for
addiction and sometimes coupled with other entheogens] and had a profoundly
different experience each time. And he lives to tell about it!

Leaning towards the esoteric, there is a plant spirit/entity assoctiated with
Iboa[ine]. [Terrence Mckenna wrote alot on this subject ie: Sacred Mushrooms
and Shamainism] The plant spirits of medicinal plants develop relationships
with the beings ingesting their goodies. This happens over long periods of time
(many generations) and most likely occurs at the DNA level. So what I’m getting
at is often the Spirit of Ibogaine has an agenda of its own. Most often coupled
with the initiates intentions and/or subconscious needs this leads to a
successful detox/treatment. sometimes not. I believe sometimes a 2nd or 3rd
dose is rendered useless [by the Iboga spirit!?] because the initiate has
already been ‘shown’ all there is to ‘see’. Time to figure shit out already.

The Bwiti in Africa chew the root bark as a “coming of age ceremony”. This
correlates well with Drug addicts in light of “taking responsibility” and
“moving on from addiction/drug abuse”. This is beyond the phisiological effects
of Ibogaine and into the realm of spiritual/esoteric healing. I was fortunate
enough to experience this aspect of Ibogaine in a most wonderfully liquid real
presentation. Molecular DNA Extravaganza. Voice of Gawd. Ect.

Some folks don’t experience anything at all except the withdrawal relief. some
don’t even experience that and go into withdrawal. As stated before, its all
over the map.

[in other words take Howards advice and leave expectations at the door because
there ain’t no telling what Iboga[ine] might have in store for you but I’d
agree with Patrick, skip 1-50, collect $200 at “GO” and proceed to Ibo]

FYI Francis, the Ibo took me off 4 years 80mgs MMT Post 5 years black Tar.

BTW: I’m *very* happy with the level of content in this list. I’m
learning a lot.

Francis

Cool! Dug your site as well.

-Gamma

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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 12:52:06 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

opium = raw iboga root bark. quite bitter and unappetizing.

— ibogaine@heroinhelper.com wrote:
It sounds to me like Indra is like opium and the HCl is like
morphine. China white and black tar heroin are both the same
thing: heroin. One can have 80% pure black tar heroin and 3% pure
“china white power “heroin”. Does anyone with more (that is to
say, “any”) information (than I do) about this question. I think the
poster is confused about the tar/powder part of the question–not
necessarily ibogaine part. Please let me know. Thanks.

Francis.

On 6 Apr 2002, at 17:17, Gamma wrote:

a rough comparison would be:

Indra = Black Tar Heroin

HCL = 99.9% pure China White

from what I understand, the Indra potency varies from batch to batch, while
pure HCL is consistant (should be).

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From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 12:48:52 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

It sounds to me like Indra is like opium and the HCl is like
morphine. China white and black tar heroin are both the same
thing: heroin. One can have 80% pure black tar heroin and 3% pure
“china white power “heroin”. Does anyone with more (that is to
say, “any”) information (than I do) about this question. I think the
poster is confused about the tar/powder part of the question–not
necessarily ibogaine part. Please let me know. Thanks.

Francis.

On 6 Apr 2002, at 17:17, Gamma wrote:

a rough comparison would be:

Indra = Black Tar Heroin

HCL = 99.9% pure China White

from what I understand, the Indra potency varies from batch to batch, while
pure HCL is consistant (should be).

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Ibogaine rip-off?
Date: April 7, 2002 at 12:29:43 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

One very reliable source told me that he detoxed on ibogaine twice.
The first time he said it worked great. He felt no pain at all and did
not use for about a month. (Please note: it was never his intention
to never never opioids; he just wanted to stop using that point for a
while.) A year later–he used ibogaine and it did not have any effect–
it was like a cold turkey detox. Is it possible he was ripped off and
that is was not ibogaine? Is there a lot of fraud in the ibogaine
industry? I mean, it isn’t like heroin, where dealers depend upon
repeat busiess.This was in the Seattle area, BTW. I know it is not
possible to say for sure. As always, I’m just looking for for your
intelligent experience-based input.

BTW: I’m *very* happy with the level of content in this list. I’m
learning a lot.

Francis

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 11:44:38 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m not sure what the respondent is talking about(methadone,
ibogaine, being arrested?) but it reminds that me that the negative
methadone rant would be nice for our website too, since (as I’ve
said, we are very positive) it *is* negative. Thanks.

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 23:02, preston peet wrote:

I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.<

Well, other than for those nasty officers who love cramping a good buzz. And
oh if they stumble upon one mid-fix, boy that is a coup to beat all coups,
with all sorts of extra backup called to get in on the bust.;-))
with Meth at least that is one GREAT BIG no-problemo.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 06, 2002 7:35 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 02:26:53PM -0800], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
wrote:

Look, that’s it.  You’re one of perhaps 5 people I correspond with who can
emit 22 interesting paragraphs for every 18 insane ones I throw into your
mail.  Rock out dood!

Alas, I am outta here!  Yeah yeah yeah, it is NICE outside in Miami, and I
am going to go enjoy my Saturday night.  So my response will be just a
lil’ shorter than what I might otherwise express.

Just like, warning you ahead of time.

[01]: Absolutely no argument regarding the War on Drugs, I think you’re
more than familiar with my opinions, and they’re highly simpatico with
whatcha just expressed.

[xX]: With regards to “being as addicted as you think you are,” I think
this related to the after ibogaine part, and what people do with
themselves once they are clean.  Which is to say, how long they manage to
stay clean, presuming this was one of their desired goals.

[–]: As far as detox itself goes…  Hey, done ’em all.  Lessee, UROD
twice (yes I was THAT stupid), methadone taper, buprinex taper,
hydromorphone taper, that TENS/NET unit black-box electronic acupuncture
shit, acupuncture with and without Xanax and clonodine, the super-fun home
version of UROD: naltrexone with a handful of Xanax and clonodine, the
getting drunk a lot detox, the smoking pot a lot detox, all sorts of
way-fun planned and completely unscheduled cold turkey detoxes…

And basically, sure…  A variety of these methodologies got me “clean.”
I never stayed clean longer than a few days.  On one hand this probably
had a lot to do with my headspace at the time, since a variety of people
on this very list — whom I know about anyway, since 90% or more of the
persons reading these words have subscribed and then never said anything
— used the treatment modalities I listed off in the previous paragraph;
with eventual success.

And yeah, I know many people who have great, epic struggles which
originate completely within their mind — but well, that’s pretty much a
summary of life itself.  So somebody who had great success after banging
up a bag a day for a year, doesn’t really rock my world either.  It’s
kinda like, “that’s nice man.  You coulda JUST STOPPED and had all the
symptoms of a bad case of the flu…”

THIS PART is what rocked my world, and still does…  The one thing every
modality I have listed off had in common was: after I was clean, I was
still sick as fuck, and totally fiending.  The ONLY THING I wanted was to
shoot dope.  I mean, okay, sex is a Pretty Big Thing, and a fundamental
motivational force in the behaviour of organisms, and human beings too.

The whole entire, food, shelter, getting laid, and doing drUgz thing
hardwired into everybody.  At least everybody I’ve ever met, unless
they’re extremely repressed and doin’ a lotta sublimating.

That’s fine, KEEP THE SEX.  I will never have sex again, who really gives
a shit, just let me keep shooting dope in peace and leave me alone.  All
is well with my universe.  In fact you can keep most of the food part —
as long as I have all the basics, a bag of potato chips a week and 2 packs
of cigarettes a day — and shelter, well I can nod out wherever mahn…

To summarize: I have a lifetime of drug use, and had roughly a decade of
hardcore drug dependence when I did ibogaine (by drug dependence I mean
opiates/opioids, since I did everything else as well, but cocaine and
stimulants in general, for me anyway, have always been the great big,
“whatever” I can take it or leave it, and do not sit around and fantasize
about the shit).

All the neuroadaptions that occur in response to chronic long-term drug
use/dependence, have occured for me.  I am highly sprung, I mentally
classify myself as a junkie/dopefiend, and really, this is it, I’m gonna
try this shit, because, there simply isn’t anything else left to try.

Subjectively, what it feels like, is…  fucking amazing.  It’s not a
“detox” it is more like hitting a RESET and rebooting your brain.  Within
35-45 minutes, there is this sensation of heat moving up your spine, and
like this ball of warmth that centers in your solar plexus — in some way
slightly similar to what the after-UROD part felt like to me (except that
felt like someone had heated a fucking spear or serrated knife and kept
twisting it, whereas the ibogaine was nothing whatsoever like that…
Just warmth, no pain).

Then you trip out do0d!  Erm, I meant to say, experience an oneiric state
replete with waking visions!

What, to me, was just fucking staggering…  Is that I was on 200mg
methadone + 2 grams of heroin + 12mg Xanax…  And this is the tail end of
many years of heavy habits.

<WhaM> it’s gone.  Praise the God of Molecular Pharmacology, the Bwiti,
Philip K. Dick, whomever mahn, this is truly fucking amazing.

And it sure was.  I lasted nearly an hour at the nearest airport, before
taking a detour and doing some of San Juan’s truly excellent heroin.  Man
that was nice…  Spiritual even.

…Which I sorta think was the main gist of the questions about what
someone should do after dosing/kicking with ibogaine.  Okay you ARE clean,
you are not in withdrawal, you are not in pain, but you are STILL you, and
all the reasons you picked up a habit in the first place, still exist.
And now comes the part where you hafta deal with all of this in some
manner — presuming that staying clean is one of your goals.

Regarding methadone, mahn, I think it’s total garbage, I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.

And yeah, I am cogent that in a perfect world I am absolutely correct
making the above assertion.  In the world we live in, methadone has one
distinct advantage over dope: it’s legal, and if you are motivated
presents you with the opportunity to get a handle on things and attempt to
get your life back together.

I gotta bounce, and I’m just recounting my own personal experience, which
does not empirically prove anything.  But…  to anybody who is
strung-out on opiates and/or opioids — regardless of the size of their
habit — my personal advice would be highly consistent and very simple: do
ibogaine.

Absolutely no question about that, no wavering, no if/then loop.  If your
drug use has reached the level where you are even considering the need for
a “detox” — whatever your reason(s) — do yourself a favor and skip
options 1-50, and go directly to ibogaine.

z00m,

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Remember what it was like…
Date: April 6, 2002 at 11:34:37 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

February something 1993

4:01 am. The cockroaches have woken me again. Eating the melted chocolate drool
off of my unshaven chin. A bone finger scratches at the shattered glass void
beyond the burnt mattress that is my domain, my kingdom. The void; my only
access to the rusted out fire escape where they watch me as I light my broken
crack pipe. I brush roaches off of my cotton pile, like so many fibrous black
beans, and drop them into the spoon. Instant fever, just add water. The
throbbing begins at the base of my skull pounding through gray matter, A giant
pendulating sledgehammer bursting out my temples. Glassine kidneys shattering,
and thick green foam erupts from my volcanic throat.

11:39 pm. Complete agony. Pounded the rest of the cottons. ate five klonopin
and 9 vicodin ex and tried choking down a Schlitz malt. Promptly vomited it all
up. There’s nothing that can cure cotton fever except time. No amount of dope.
Couldn’t even walk to Dennis’s, let alone down to the payphone in the lobby for
my pager connection. It’d be a waste of effort so I resign, laying stiffly on
the sagging mattress, beer soaked blankets smelling of stale smoke and detox
sweat, tossing and turning, thrashing in my own private hell.

6 am. The fog rolls through the dark canyons of the Tenderloin, adding to the
subarctic chill long in the depth of my bones. Dumpsters overflowing and
crawling with vermin the size of cats create an atmosphere of even deeper
despair that reeks from every pour of my skin. Purple bloated arms hang
listless from my torso as I shuffle along, time standing still, each moment a
painful consequence of my cursed existence. Muni buses roar past enveloping me
in petroleum exhaust, I light a cigarette and curse the driver, puking in the
gutter.

6:30 am. Dennis doesn’t like being disturbed at this ungodly hour. Neither do I
but hey, rust never sleeps [its better to burn out]. He buzzes me in despite
his incoherent obscenities through the crackling talkbox. Crawling up 5 flights
of stairs; decades of flophouse filth and exfoliated human skin create a slick
surface on the stained carpet. Dennis’s door is open. He’s bent over, tying his
shoe. I let myself in and announce my arrival. Nothing. Not a movement. Muni
bus roars by below, shaking the building at its deepest core. Lighting another
cigarette, my fingers stained yellow brown. Dennis’s absesses drip pus down his
shin. Still no movement. I look on the coffee table, covered with cigarette
butts, ashes, blackened spoons and 1cc insulin syringes in various states of
disrepair. A handful of klonopin scattered nearest to where he sits. Ahhh. He
is in the proverbial “klonopin pause”, the fugue state between pleasant nod and
complete delerium. This will take a while.

7:45 am. Still nothing. I’ve drummed on the coffee table. Coughed loudly. Run
the sink. Sweated another gallon. Paced the one room perimeter 39 times, had 14
smokes and puked twice. Nothing. I’d rob the fucker but Dennis is insane and
he’d gouge my eyes out sooner or later. Seeing the filth under his fingernails
would be enough to make you cringe.

7:52 am. Dennis comes to. Asks who let me in. I tell him, asking for a Ẅ gram.
He leans back, reaching into his pocket. Eyes roll back into his skull. Then
nothing.

8:17 am. He comes to again, ignoring me. Cooks a gram and plunges the spike
into his neck, with the help of a shard of mirror framed in duct tape. Amazing
what you can do with duct tape. He hands me a balloon, as if I had just walked
in, counting my 35 dollars in singles and fives.

8:26 am. I’ve already got the shit in the cooker when he announces I can’t fix
here. Bastard tells me “this ain’t a shooting gallery”. I glance at the blood
stains on the couch and floor, the spray of it on the walls. The burn holes in
the upholstery, and the carpet. Bottles of bleach from the needle exchange and
exhausted methadone bottles crushed in the corners. Right. Fine. I draw the
syringe and lock myself in the bathroom, fighting for a vein while he pounds on
the door. Fuck the world until I’m well.

8:29 am. Nirvana. The Deep Void. Warm Flooding Bliss. Hah hah, fuck you
mutherfuckers, you can’t touch this. Slumped on the toilet, I am the king on my
throne. Nothing can touch me. Right here, right now: nothing matters.

8:51 am. Opening the bathroom door. Dennis is back on pause. Propped in the
corner, cigarette burning between his fingers. I take the cigarette, smoking it
as I glide down the stairwell. No sense in letting the fucker burn down the
building, although I muse how it might be a service to the reputation of the
neighborhood.

9:22 am. Nothing compares to the taste and texture of a fresh, properly
prepared cinnamon roll. Nothing. The warm soft dough of the inside, the glazed
crust of the outside creating a symphony on the palette. I relish the moment,
staring out the window at the foggy streets, knowing I have only minutes before
the Oriental owner ushers me out, speaking in machine gun staccato tongue,
making room for the next customer at the window seats.

9:41 am Lighting my last Basic I climb the stairs back to the squalor of my
room, 3 plastic wrapped white rocks buried in my cheek. I glance in a mirror
propped in the corner, not daring to look myself in the eyes. Fuck it. Burning
my lip on the cracked pipe I remember a time long ago. All my dreams collapse
into the present; just me and my fading glow of smack and the microscopic
crumbs of crack I search for in the folds of the bed. The walls close in as I
fight for a breath, a fix, a way to exist. The wind screeches through the
broken window pane, rusted chains creak and car alrms pulsate as I attempt to
surgically remove the bugs under my skin.

-gamma

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From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 11:32:13 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Pactric,

Your idea of a “quick” response is pretty funny–but as always
interesting. The one thing I wanted to comment on was what one
does with oneself after being detoxed. This may be a critical thing
with ibogaine. That’s the one thing about TA (thinking anonymous)
that I *do* like: meetings give a person something to do with the
time he would normally spend “taking care of business”. So if
ibogaine gives people a new perspective on their lives, it is easy to
see how that could translate into actions.

I’ve got a lot more to discuss regarding your answer, but I’ll do that
privately. Also, I think a slightly edited version would be a good
addition to our site, if that’s okay with you. Thanks for your detailed
information. It was very enlightening.

Francis

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 11:02:42 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.<

Well, other than for those nasty officers who love cramping a good buzz. And
oh if they stumble upon one mid-fix, boy that is a coup to beat all coups,
with all sorts of extra backup called to get in on the bust.;-))
with Meth at least that is one GREAT BIG no-problemo.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Saturday, April 06, 2002 7:35 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 02:26:53PM -0800], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com]
wrote:

Look, that’s it.  You’re one of perhaps 5 people I correspond with who can
emit 22 interesting paragraphs for every 18 insane ones I throw into your
mail.  Rock out dood!

Alas, I am outta here!  Yeah yeah yeah, it is NICE outside in Miami, and I
am going to go enjoy my Saturday night.  So my response will be just a
lil’ shorter than what I might otherwise express.

Just like, warning you ahead of time.

[01]: Absolutely no argument regarding the War on Drugs, I think you’re
more than familiar with my opinions, and they’re highly simpatico with
whatcha just expressed.

[xX]: With regards to “being as addicted as you think you are,” I think
this related to the after ibogaine part, and what people do with
themselves once they are clean.  Which is to say, how long they manage to
stay clean, presuming this was one of their desired goals.

[–]: As far as detox itself goes…  Hey, done ’em all.  Lessee, UROD
twice (yes I was THAT stupid), methadone taper, buprinex taper,
hydromorphone taper, that TENS/NET unit black-box electronic acupuncture
shit, acupuncture with and without Xanax and clonodine, the super-fun home
version of UROD: naltrexone with a handful of Xanax and clonodine, the
getting drunk a lot detox, the smoking pot a lot detox, all sorts of
way-fun planned and completely unscheduled cold turkey detoxes…

And basically, sure…  A variety of these methodologies got me “clean.”
I never stayed clean longer than a few days.  On one hand this probably
had a lot to do with my headspace at the time, since a variety of people
on this very list — whom I know about anyway, since 90% or more of the
persons reading these words have subscribed and then never said anything
— used the treatment modalities I listed off in the previous paragraph;
with eventual success.

And yeah, I know many people who have great, epic struggles which
originate completely within their mind — but well, that’s pretty much a
summary of life itself.  So somebody who had great success after banging
up a bag a day for a year, doesn’t really rock my world either.  It’s
kinda like, “that’s nice man.  You coulda JUST STOPPED and had all the
symptoms of a bad case of the flu…”

THIS PART is what rocked my world, and still does…  The one thing every
modality I have listed off had in common was: after I was clean, I was
still sick as fuck, and totally fiending.  The ONLY THING I wanted was to
shoot dope.  I mean, okay, sex is a Pretty Big Thing, and a fundamental
motivational force in the behaviour of organisms, and human beings too.

The whole entire, food, shelter, getting laid, and doing drUgz thing
hardwired into everybody.  At least everybody I’ve ever met, unless
they’re extremely repressed and doin’ a lotta sublimating.

That’s fine, KEEP THE SEX.  I will never have sex again, who really gives
a shit, just let me keep shooting dope in peace and leave me alone.  All
is well with my universe.  In fact you can keep most of the food part —
as long as I have all the basics, a bag of potato chips a week and 2 packs
of cigarettes a day — and shelter, well I can nod out wherever mahn…

To summarize: I have a lifetime of drug use, and had roughly a decade of
hardcore drug dependence when I did ibogaine (by drug dependence I mean
opiates/opioids, since I did everything else as well, but cocaine and
stimulants in general, for me anyway, have always been the great big,
“whatever” I can take it or leave it, and do not sit around and fantasize
about the shit).

All the neuroadaptions that occur in response to chronic long-term drug
use/dependence, have occured for me.  I am highly sprung, I mentally
classify myself as a junkie/dopefiend, and really, this is it, I’m gonna
try this shit, because, there simply isn’t anything else left to try.

Subjectively, what it feels like, is…  fucking amazing.  It’s not a
“detox” it is more like hitting a RESET and rebooting your brain.  Within
35-45 minutes, there is this sensation of heat moving up your spine, and
like this ball of warmth that centers in your solar plexus — in some way
slightly similar to what the after-UROD part felt like to me (except that
felt like someone had heated a fucking spear or serrated knife and kept
twisting it, whereas the ibogaine was nothing whatsoever like that…
Just warmth, no pain).

Then you trip out do0d!  Erm, I meant to say, experience an oneiric state
replete with waking visions!

What, to me, was just fucking staggering…  Is that I was on 200mg
methadone + 2 grams of heroin + 12mg Xanax…  And this is the tail end of
many years of heavy habits.

<WhaM> it’s gone.  Praise the God of Molecular Pharmacology, the Bwiti,
Philip K. Dick, whomever mahn, this is truly fucking amazing.

And it sure was.  I lasted nearly an hour at the nearest airport, before
taking a detour and doing some of San Juan’s truly excellent heroin.  Man
that was nice…  Spiritual even.

…Which I sorta think was the main gist of the questions about what
someone should do after dosing/kicking with ibogaine.  Okay you ARE clean,
you are not in withdrawal, you are not in pain, but you are STILL you, and
all the reasons you picked up a habit in the first place, still exist.
And now comes the part where you hafta deal with all of this in some
manner — presuming that staying clean is one of your goals.

Regarding methadone, mahn, I think it’s total garbage, I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.

And yeah, I am cogent that in a perfect world I am absolutely correct
making the above assertion.  In the world we live in, methadone has one
distinct advantage over dope: it’s legal, and if you are motivated
presents you with the opportunity to get a handle on things and attempt to
get your life back together.

I gotta bounce, and I’m just recounting my own personal experience, which
does not empirically prove anything.  But…  to anybody who is
strung-out on opiates and/or opioids — regardless of the size of their
habit — my personal advice would be highly consistent and very simple: do
ibogaine.

Absolutely no question about that, no wavering, no if/then loop.  If your
drug use has reached the level where you are even considering the need for
a “detox” — whatever your reason(s) — do yourself a favor and skip
options 1-50, and go directly to ibogaine.

z00m,

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 6, 2002 at 8:17:11 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

— Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com> wrote:
I have what I hope isn’t a dumb question. Ibogaine is a root, this is
ibogaine or taberanthe iboga. Ibogaine HCL is hydrochloride. I understand
those two but what is Indra extract? Where does that fit in, is it root or
what?

Michael,

can’t give you the scientific breakdown but:

Indra is a crude extract of the alkaloids found in the Root Bark of tabernathe
iboga.

HCL is the pure alkaloid Ibogaine extracted from the Root Bark of tabernathe
Iboga.

a rough comparison would be:

Indra = Black Tar Heroin

HCL = 99.9% pure China White

from what I understand, the Indra potency varies from batch to batch, while
pure HCL is consistant (should be).

(And remember kids, both these substances are illegal in the USA and a few
other counries as well) add emoticon.

-Gamma

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…
Date: April 6, 2002 at 7:39:51 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Francis,

Psychedelic is a broad spectrum.  To the best of my understanding ibogaine is
not an approved medication except in st kitts at Deborah Mash’s.  However,
there are only a few countries where it is restricted:  The US, Switzerland,
Belgium and Sweden.  The list may have expanded since I was involved with
ibogaine development.

Of course, it is a religious sacrament in Gabon or at least Tabernanthe iboga
is.  My guess… that if you let it be known you wanted to try
ibogaine…well, doors would open at little or no cost.  Not on my part as
I’m out of the scene.

My advice to everyone is if you are not comfortable with it, don’t do it.
And, do it with no expectations.

Howard

In a message dated 4/6/02 7:07:30 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

That sounds like a good idea, but I wouldn’t do it now because it’s
illegal. I don’t even forget to use my turn signal when driving, such
is the fear that I have of jail. Liberty or death–and I mean that.

Am I correct that ibogaine is a psychedelic? When I was 17 (like
the Sinatra songs but not so many girls who lived up the stairs) I
was *way* into LSD and any other drug that acted like that
(including marijuana, which to my surprise most people do not
perceive that way). All this is to say that I would *like* to try the
drug. Are there countries where it is legal? Even by a prescription?

Another question I have is about cost. What I have heard regarding
ibogaine detoxes is that they are about the same as Antagonist
Rapid Detoxs: $7000. Is the *drug* that expensive or is most of
that the *treatment*. Wow. It just occurred to me that that would
make a great addition to my site: detox costs (like I don’t have
about 100 “ideas” that I don’t have time to write).

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 7:35:56 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Apr 06, 2002 at 02:26:53PM -0800], [ibogaine@heroinhelper.com] wrote:

Look, that’s it.  You’re one of perhaps 5 people I correspond with who can
emit 22 interesting paragraphs for every 18 insane ones I throw into your
mail.  Rock out dood!

Alas, I am outta here!  Yeah yeah yeah, it is NICE outside in Miami, and I
am going to go enjoy my Saturday night.  So my response will be just a
lil’ shorter than what I might otherwise express.

Just like, warning you ahead of time.

[01]: Absolutely no argument regarding the War on Drugs, I think you’re
more than familiar with my opinions, and they’re highly simpatico with
whatcha just expressed.

[xX]: With regards to “being as addicted as you think you are,” I think
this related to the after ibogaine part, and what people do with
themselves once they are clean.  Which is to say, how long they manage to
stay clean, presuming this was one of their desired goals.

[–]: As far as detox itself goes…  Hey, done ’em all.  Lessee, UROD
twice (yes I was THAT stupid), methadone taper, buprinex taper,
hydromorphone taper, that TENS/NET unit black-box electronic acupuncture
shit, acupuncture with and without Xanax and clonodine, the super-fun home
version of UROD: naltrexone with a handful of Xanax and clonodine, the
getting drunk a lot detox, the smoking pot a lot detox, all sorts of
way-fun planned and completely unscheduled cold turkey detoxes…

And basically, sure…  A variety of these methodologies got me “clean.”
I never stayed clean longer than a few days.  On one hand this probably
had a lot to do with my headspace at the time, since a variety of people
on this very list — whom I know about anyway, since 90% or more of the
persons reading these words have subscribed and then never said anything
— used the treatment modalities I listed off in the previous paragraph;
with eventual success.

And yeah, I know many people who have great, epic struggles which
originate completely within their mind — but well, that’s pretty much a
summary of life itself.  So somebody who had great success after banging
up a bag a day for a year, doesn’t really rock my world either.  It’s
kinda like, “that’s nice man.  You coulda JUST STOPPED and had all the
symptoms of a bad case of the flu…”

THIS PART is what rocked my world, and still does…  The one thing every
modality I have listed off had in common was: after I was clean, I was
still sick as fuck, and totally fiending.  The ONLY THING I wanted was to
shoot dope.  I mean, okay, sex is a Pretty Big Thing, and a fundamental
motivational force in the behaviour of organisms, and human beings too.

The whole entire, food, shelter, getting laid, and doing drUgz thing
hardwired into everybody.  At least everybody I’ve ever met, unless
they’re extremely repressed and doin’ a lotta sublimating.

That’s fine, KEEP THE SEX.  I will never have sex again, who really gives
a shit, just let me keep shooting dope in peace and leave me alone.  All
is well with my universe.  In fact you can keep most of the food part —
as long as I have all the basics, a bag of potato chips a week and 2 packs
of cigarettes a day — and shelter, well I can nod out wherever mahn…

To summarize: I have a lifetime of drug use, and had roughly a decade of
hardcore drug dependence when I did ibogaine (by drug dependence I mean
opiates/opioids, since I did everything else as well, but cocaine and
stimulants in general, for me anyway, have always been the great big,
“whatever” I can take it or leave it, and do not sit around and fantasize
about the shit).

All the neuroadaptions that occur in response to chronic long-term drug
use/dependence, have occured for me.  I am highly sprung, I mentally
classify myself as a junkie/dopefiend, and really, this is it, I’m gonna
try this shit, because, there simply isn’t anything else left to try.

Subjectively, what it feels like, is…  fucking amazing.  It’s not a
“detox” it is more like hitting a RESET and rebooting your brain.  Within
35-45 minutes, there is this sensation of heat moving up your spine, and
like this ball of warmth that centers in your solar plexus — in some way
slightly similar to what the after-UROD part felt like to me (except that
felt like someone had heated a fucking spear or serrated knife and kept
twisting it, whereas the ibogaine was nothing whatsoever like that…
Just warmth, no pain).

Then you trip out do0d!  Erm, I meant to say, experience an oneiric state
replete with waking visions!

What, to me, was just fucking staggering…  Is that I was on 200mg
methadone + 2 grams of heroin + 12mg Xanax…  And this is the tail end of
many years of heavy habits.

<WhaM> it’s gone.  Praise the God of Molecular Pharmacology, the Bwiti,
Philip K. Dick, whomever mahn, this is truly fucking amazing.

And it sure was.  I lasted nearly an hour at the nearest airport, before
taking a detour and doing some of San Juan’s truly excellent heroin.  Man
that was nice…  Spiritual even.

…Which I sorta think was the main gist of the questions about what
someone should do after dosing/kicking with ibogaine.  Okay you ARE clean,
you are not in withdrawal, you are not in pain, but you are STILL you, and
all the reasons you picked up a habit in the first place, still exist.
And now comes the part where you hafta deal with all of this in some
manner — presuming that staying clean is one of your goals.

Regarding methadone, mahn, I think it’s total garbage, I have some
methadone rant laying around someplace which you haven’t seen yet, but my
personal advice to anybody contemplating MMTP is: stick with shooting
dope.  You’ll be happier.

And yeah, I am cogent that in a perfect world I am absolutely correct
making the above assertion.  In the world we live in, methadone has one
distinct advantage over dope: it’s legal, and if you are motivated
presents you with the opportunity to get a handle on things and attempt to
get your life back together.

I gotta bounce, and I’m just recounting my own personal experience, which
does not empirically prove anything.  But…  to anybody who is
strung-out on opiates and/or opioids — regardless of the size of their
habit — my personal advice would be highly consistent and very simple: do
ibogaine.

Absolutely no question about that, no wavering, no if/then loop.  If your
drug use has reached the level where you are even considering the need for
a “detox” — whatever your reason(s) — do yourself a favor and skip
options 1-50, and go directly to ibogaine.

z00m,

Patrick

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: [ibogaine] I’d Love to Get High, Howard…
Date: April 6, 2002 at 7:08:11 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

That sounds like a good idea, but I wouldn’t do it now because it’s
illegal. I don’t even forget to use my turn signal when driving, such
is the fear that I have of jail. Liberty or death–and I mean that.

Am I correct that ibogaine is a psychedelic? When I was 17 (like
the Sinatra songs but not so many girls who lived up the stairs) I
was *way* into LSD and any other drug that acted like that
(including marijuana, which to my surprise most people do not
perceive that way). All this is to say that I would *like* to try the
drug. Are there countries where it is legal? Even by a prescription?

Another question I have is about cost. What I have heard regarding
ibogaine detoxes is that they are about the same as Antagonist
Rapid Detoxs: $7000. Is the *drug* that expensive or is most of
that the *treatment*. Wow. It just occurred to me that that would
make a great addition to my site: detox costs (like I don’t have
about 100 “ideas” that I don’t have time to write).

Francis

On 6 Apr 2002, at 18:29, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

Hi Francis,

OK, to everything you say.  My suggestion is one of these days check out
ibogaine if you like.  I anticipate you will either think it is great or not
or love it or hate it and I would be very interested to know how you feel
about it at that then?  It doesn’t matter whether your addicted to heroin or
not.  That utility is just another aspect of ibogaine effects.

Howard

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Uhm… Les Smith…?
Date: April 6, 2002 at 6:36:21 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Les,

Whomever you are.  I’m gonna just assume this is inadvertant, but whatcha
are doing is sending me some Windoze virus for Outlook…  Which doesn’t
really do a whole lot that’s interesting on a Sparc.

If this is by accident:  well hey, you’re infected with something and in
the process of SHARING.

If it’s on purpose: well hey, is this virus any good and do I want to keep
it and add it to my collection…?

Patrick

– – – – – – – – –

Date: Sat, 6 Apr 2002 18:27:46 -0500
From: “Les Smith” <leesmithjr@prodigy.net>
Subject: Re: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
To: digital@phantom.com

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 6:29:34 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi Francis,

OK, to everything you say.  My suggestion is one of these days check out
ibogaine if you like.  I anticipate you will either think it is great or not
or love it or hate it and I would be very interested to know how you feel
about it at that then?  It doesn’t matter whether your addicted to heroin or
not.  That utility is just another aspect of ibogaine effects.

Howard

In a message dated 4/6/02 5:26:36 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

*You’re* perplexed?! I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Someone wrote asking if some treatments work better than others.
You wrote back saying that the answer is unknown and that
*possibly* (my emphasis) it depended upon the individual. E-mail is
an informal medium of communication and people dash off
answers. It sounds like we are in complete agreement and what
you *meant* to say was that the answer *did* depend upon the
individual. But there is a tendency among us, born in this modern
world with its philosophical relativism, to hold back and use
inaccurate words to be safe and non-offensive.

On the question of detox, you are making a mistake about my
opinions. I don’t see drug use as irrational, therefore, I don’t see a

need for detox. As Szasz puts it so well, “Drug addicts don’t want
drug treatment, they want drugs.” My interest in detox therapies is
based solely on the laws. The idea that heroin use destroys
peoples lives is anathema to me–I simply don’t understand it. It’s
like saying dirt kills people when they jump off tall buildings.

So my interest in detox methods is based on the lives that
*society* requires people to lead when their drug of choice is
heroin, and they use that drug to the point of addiction. If ibogaine
can allow *anyone* to happily walk about from heroin, that’s great.

I think you are *totally* wrong about “I am as addicted as I think I
am”. I do not define addiction in that way. Addiction is a *physical*
state. Kicking a large habit is *much* worse than kicking a small
habit. This is a key issue. I am *not* attacking ibogaine. I am trying

to *understand* ibogaine. As many people may know, I think that
rapid detox is fine for people with small habits but a *big* mistake
for people with large habits. In fact, so far, the only modality that I

have found that works well for people with large habits is
methadone.

When people write to me asking for detox advice, they almost
always tell me how much of what they are doing. I think this is
because they instinctively know what years of reading, listening,
and experiencing has taught me: the poison is in the dose. The
treatment for hearing loss is a hearing aid; the treatment for
deafness is sign-language. (I’m really on analogies today, huh?)

As to what I want to hear: I can’t answer that question and it even
seems to imply that I have some kind of negative agenda here–and
I don’t. I run a heroin site. I don’t give out information that I don’t
feel
comfortable about (at least not without going on and on about it). I
don’t feel comfortable about ibogaine because I’ve heard things that
are all over the board about it. Of course, I used to hear the worst
things in the world about methadone and now I’m one of it’s biggest
supporters. (BTW: I *still* hear terrible things about methadone.)

I’m sorry if I am coming off as hostile. I’m not. I’m not hostile
towards ibogaine or you (Lotso)–quite the contrary. I’m very
interested. But I’m not going to run out and get addicted to heroin
just so I can try ibogaine and see if it works. Jim Hogshire wrote a
great piece a long time back (in PAGG) about placebos. A valium
in your pocket is almost as good as one in your body. But stress
and intense heroin withdrawal are very different.

If this list is not meant to discuss these kinds of issues, I’m sorry
and I’ll go away quietly. You and everyone else have my best
wishes.

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 6, 2002 at 5:26:53 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

*You’re* perplexed?! I don’t know what you’re talking about.
Someone wrote asking if some treatments work better than others.
You wrote back saying that the answer is unknown and that
*possibly* (my emphasis) it depended upon the individual. E-mail is
an informal medium of communication and people dash off
answers. It sounds like we are in complete agreement and what
you *meant* to say was that the answer *did* depend upon the
individual. But there is a tendency among us, born in this modern
world with its philosophical relativism, to hold back and use
inaccurate words to be safe and non-offensive.

On the question of detox, you are making a mistake about my
opinions. I don’t see drug use as irrational, therefore, I don’t see a
need for detox. As Szasz puts it so well, “Drug addicts don’t want
drug treatment, they want drugs.” My interest in detox therapies is
based solely on the laws. The idea that heroin use destroys
peoples lives is anathema to me–I simply don’t understand it. It’s
like saying dirt kills people when they jump off tall buildings.

So my interest in detox methods is based on the lives that
*society* requires people to lead when their drug of choice is
heroin, and they use that drug to the point of addiction. If ibogaine
can allow *anyone* to happily walk about from heroin, that’s great.

I think you are *totally* wrong about “I am as addicted as I think I
am”. I do not define addiction in that way. Addiction is a *physical*
state. Kicking a large habit is *much* worse than kicking a small
habit. This is a key issue. I am *not* attacking ibogaine. I am trying
to *understand* ibogaine. As many people may know, I think that
rapid detox is fine for people with small habits but a *big* mistake
for people with large habits. In fact, so far, the only modality that I
have found that works well for people with large habits is
methadone.

When people write to me asking for detox advice, they almost
always tell me how much of what they are doing. I think this is
because they instinctively know what years of reading, listening,
and experiencing has taught me: the poison is in the dose. The
treatment for hearing loss is a hearing aid; the treatment for
deafness is sign-language. (I’m really on analogies today, huh?)

As to what I want to hear: I can’t answer that question and it even
seems to imply that I have some kind of negative agenda here–and
I don’t. I run a heroin site. I don’t give out information that I don’t feel
comfortable about (at least not without going on and on about it). I
don’t feel comfortable about ibogaine because I’ve heard things that
are all over the board about it. Of course, I used to hear the worst
things in the world about methadone and now I’m one of it’s biggest
supporters. (BTW: I *still* hear terrible things about methadone.)

I’m sorry if I am coming off as hostile. I’m not. I’m not hostile
towards ibogaine or you (Lotso)–quite the contrary. I’m very
interested. But I’m not going to run out and get addicted to heroin
just so I can try ibogaine and see if it works. Jim Hogshire wrote a
great piece a long time back (in PAGG) about placebos. A valium
in your pocket is almost as good as one in your body. But stress
and intense heroin withdrawal are very different.

If this list is not meant to discuss these kinds of issues, I’m sorry
and I’ll go away quietly. You and everyone else have my best
wishes.

Francis

On 5 Apr 2002, at 23:13, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/5/02 8:44:01 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

How can you (Lotsof) say this! I don’t need a research study to tell
me that any given person will have idiosyncrasies that will make
some treatment modalities better than others for him. *There is no
perfect detox* that *everyone* should go through. (I will leave for
now just how important I think detox is).
<snip>
Back to ibogaine. My main question is this: how do you know
you’re addicted? *Several* studies in the 60s and 70s (when dope
was poor, admittedly) found that 1/3 of those applying for
methadone maintenance were *not* physically addicted to any
opioids. Is it possible (though it *certainly* seems that Kroupa was
good and strung) that those for whom ibogaine was a “miracle”
were little or not addicted?

Francis,

Concerning my statement what is it you question?  I state the obvious and I
think you stipulate that.  There is nothing more to say or, is there?  I
would look forward to what you would propose that is different.  My
statements are as obvious as your’s stipulating detox is important.  Of
course I could question that and say, who whom?

I don’t think it’s an issue of I’m (universal) more addicted than you
(universal).  Your addicted when you think your addicted.  Your addicted when
you can’t stop using.  Your dependent when you show withdrawal signs when you
stop using.  Once you remove the financial incentives, does it make any
difference?

Many persons found themselves kicked clean going onto methadone.  So what?
What difference does it make from a patient perspective whether you are
heavily strung or not?  Or, dependent at the moment or not?

I’m perplexed.  What is it you expect to hear that you haven’t heard before?

Howard

From: Michael Synergy <synergy9_11@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] ibogaine extract hcl what?
Date: April 6, 2002 at 4:34:17 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hello to all the ibogaine people.
I like the addiction not addiction material in heroin times Patrick. I am sick to death of the I am a diseased piece of crap garbage and it doesn’t seem to help none. Which is what that other guy wrote in his letter, except I’ve never had any success with the 12step groups unlike him.
I have what I hope isn’t a dumb question. Ibogaine is a root, this is ibogaine or taberanthe iboga. Ibogaine HCL is hydrochloride. I understand those two but what is Indra extract? Where does that fit in, is it root or what?
Thanks and hello
_Synergy_

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 5, 2002 at 11:13:23 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/5/02 8:44:01 PM, ibogaine@heroinhelper.com writes:

How can you (Lotsof) say this! I don’t need a research study to tell
me that any given person will have idiosyncrasies that will make
some treatment modalities better than others for him. *There is no
perfect detox* that *everyone* should go through. (I will leave for
now just how important I think detox is).
<snip>
Back to ibogaine. My main question is this: how do you know
you’re addicted? *Several* studies in the 60s and 70s (when dope
was poor, admittedly) found that 1/3 of those applying for
methadone maintenance were *not* physically addicted to any
opioids. Is it possible (though it *certainly* seems that Kroupa was
good and strung) that those for whom ibogaine was a “miracle”
were little or not addicted?

Francis,

Concerning my statement what is it you question?  I state the obvious and I
think you stipulate that.  There is nothing more to say or, is there?  I
would look forward to what you would propose that is different.  My
statements are as obvious as your’s stipulating detox is important.  Of
course I could question that and say, who whom?

I don’t think it’s an issue of I’m (universal) more addicted than you
(universal).  Your addicted when you think your addicted.  Your addicted when
you can’t stop using.  Your dependent when you show withdrawal signs when you
stop using.  Once you remove the financial incentives, does it make any
difference?

Many persons found themselves kicked clean going onto methadone.  So what?
What difference does it make from a patient perspective whether you are
heavily strung or not?  Or, dependent at the moment or not?

I’m perplexed.  What is it you expect to hear that you haven’t heard before?

Howard

From: ibogaine@heroinhelper.com
Subject: [ibogaine] The Perfect Detox
Date: April 5, 2002 at 12:04:39 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

How can you (Lotsof) say this! I don’t need a research study to tell
me that any given person will have idiosyncrasies that will make
some treatment modalities better than others for him. *There is no
perfect detox* that *everyone* should go through. (I will leave for
now just how important I think detox is).

Of course, it isn’t even a question of the perfect detox for any *one*
person. I think I wrote about this in the third issue of the zine.
People change over time. Looking for the *perfect detox* is like
looking for the *perfect drug*–hopeless. Has anyone else around
here read the research on tolerance to endorphins? Makes me
wish for a *more* perfect opioid–but I still feel bad because I
wanted to feel better.

I don’t mean to be rough, but if I hear a bunch of “ibogaine is the
only way” or “ibogaine with … is the only way”–I’ll just unsubscribe
(no great loss to all of you, of course). If I want to listen to that kind
of non-thinking, I’ll just go to an NA meeting.

I’m here to read, not write. But this seemed important. Also: I don’t
know what was written about the H clean-up recipe on HH, but it is
NOT NOT NOT ours. I don’t even really like it–the idea with a bunch
of junkies nodding out while pouring ether into testtubes makes me
very worried. I don’t know where the recipe came from. I suspect
that many people worked on it. It *does* work. But again, it is not
*ours*. I just wrote an easy to follow discussion of it. I only put it up
because I get about 10 requests a week for it and I am sick of it.

Back to ibogaine. My main question is this: how do you know
you’re addicted? *Several* studies in the 60s and 70s (when dope
was poor, admittedly) found that 1/3 of those applying for
methadone maintenance were *not* physically addicted to any
opioids. Is it possible (though it *certainly* seems that Kroupa was
good and strung) that those for whom ibogaine was a “miracle”
were little or not addicted?

Lotsof was nice enough to send me to an archive of research–but
I’m two computers removed from that email; I haven’t a clue where
it is. I’m not asking for the articles, though. I’m totally swamped. I’m
just kind of interested in what you all have to say.

Francis

On 4 Apr 2002, at 23:12, HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/4/02 8:18:46 PM, bdoyle2@neo.rr.com writes:

I am curious. Do some treatment work better than others.

The answer is unknown.  Possibly, the answer is yes based on matching the
patient to the treatment/procedure/aftercare by what measures I don’t know as
this once again brings us back to a lack of data particularly as it pertains
to any review of the limited number of patients treated.

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] links @ drugwar.com April 2-5, 2002
Date: April 5, 2002 at 4:24:09 PM EST
To: “spynews” <spynews@yahoogroups.com>
Cc: “cia-drugs” <cia-drugs@yahoogroups.com>, “rootsofteror” <rootsofterror@yahoogroups.com>, <konformist-owner@yahoogroups.com>, <FreedomNewsNet@aol.com>, “CRRH” <restore@crrh.org>, <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Greetings all,
Here are the current news stories and more linked at
http://drugwar.com/index.shtm for April 2-5, 2002.
Hard to imagine Ozzy in the White House, hanging out with GW Bush, (and
how much I’d give to be there at the time) but as one of these stories
reports, that just might be happening. Wonder what his recommendations will
be to the Administration? Will the administration take them into account?
Will ‘Crazy Train’, or ‘War Pigs’ become the new US national anthem soon?
Will the visit be privileged and private, declared off limits to public
scrutiny? Get those FOIA requests ready now.
Peace,
Preston Peet
editor www.drugwar.com
cont. High Times Mag/.com
ptpeet@drugwar.com
ptpeet@nyc.rr.com
ppeet@hightimes.com

DRCNet Week Online #231 (April 5, 2002)
Access an assortment of hard hitting news stories, editorials, alerts, and a
reformers’ calendar. This is a great news letter, and comes with
Drugwar.com’s editor’s highest recommendation.

Dallas Texas- Drug Bust Gone Bad, Then Worse (April 5, 2002)
Seems the prohibitionist drug warriors in Dallas were arresting poor,
immigrant people for drug busts, trying and often deporting them, all for
what eventually in at least 70 cases turned out to be powdered drywall, not
the alleged cocaine.

Bolivia- US Knew Of Assassination (April 5, 2002)
Bolivian military troops cold-bloodedly murdered this coca growers’ union
leader, and the US embassy knew the Bolivian government and military were
lying about not knowing about the incident. Read more on this important
story, and see US embassy communications.

Drug Policy Forum Tri-State Drug Events (April 5, 2002)
If you either live in, or can reach the Northeastern US this month, read
about some drug reform events planned.

FEW Interview- Delmar ‘Mike’ Freeland- What the CIA Doesn’t Want You to Know
(April 5, 2002)
Just what did Mike Freeland know about the Sept. 11 attacks before they
happened, and why are so many denigrating and marginalizing this story?

Cheap Drink Helps Keep Japan Cheerful (April 4, 2002)
A new type of alcoholic beverage similar to beer is selling fast and well in
Japan.

Ozzy Osborne ‘Invited to White House’: (April 4, 2002)
The former Black Sabbath front man, hard-core drug user, and High Times
cover featured artist, may be visiting GW Bush in the White House as an
honored guest soon.

Switzerland- FARC Not ‘Terrorist Org’ (April 4, 2002)
The Swiss are apparently not buckling under to US demands to freeze the
Colombian rebel group Farce’s money deposited in Swiss banks.

Former Washington Mayor Barry Rethinking Comeback (April 4, 2002)
Although there was no arrest, and no charges filed, Marion Barry was alleged
to have traces of drugs in his car by park police.

Inspirational Sports Statues (April 4, 2002)
Holy mackerel, these statues are too funny. Smoke a fatty, and go shopping,
or at least, go window shopping.

18 Tales of Media Censorship (April 2, 2002)
“Into the Buzz”, a new book reviewed here, is about a number of well
respected journalists who found themselves under attack, vilified, fired,
and more, for reporting news stories that were simply not acceptable to the
mainstream establishment viewpoint.

Arrest Challenges Pot Law (April 2, 2002)
Bruce Buckner, suffering from the debilitating and extremely painful Cohn’s
Disease, is being prosecuted for growing his own medical marijuana, which
became legal in Washington State in 1998. So why are the cops after this
guy? Why are the feds prosecuting Buckner for treating his pain and illness?
What is it that drives prohibitionists to outlaw some of the most beautiful,
beneficial gifts given humanity by nature?

What Has the Supreme Court Been Smoking? (April 2, 2002)
Arianna Huffington is justifiably not at all happy with some recent US
Supreme Court decisions. Perhaps the question should be, “what has the US
Supreme Court NOT been smoking?” How else to explain such unenlightened
thinking, and their cruel, inhuman comments and rulings?

US Supreme Court to Review Three Strikes Sentencing Laws (April 2, 2002)
The Court is looking at whether ‘three strikes you’re out’ laws are
unconstitutional or not.

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 5, 2002 at 2:50:05 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Fri, Apr 05, 2002 at 02:29:45PM +0100], [Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt] wrote:

| I just need to say, not simply as a way to defend Christopher – CC, d’u
| realise that your name sounds like you should be Superman or Batman, or
| whoever it was, or am I getting confused?!! –  THAT I don’t know too many
| addicts in ‘recovery’ or not who haven’t at some point had to put their
| faith in something outside of themselves, at least for a while, while they
| re-learnt they they might also eventually relearn to have faith in
| themselves.
|
| A dose of reality is good: saved my ass more than once, and there are times

Look, THAT’S IT.  Here’s a Dose of Reality for ya.

This drug addiction nonsense is all over the map, the FACTS fall out of
the sky at random, and Opions vary.  But when you start MISREPRESENTING
the TRUTH about comic book characters, I can’t handle that.

CLEARLY Clark Kent is/was Superman.  Bruce Wayne is/was Batman.  Frank
Miller was the genius who reinvented Batman and came out with The Dark
Knight Returns, which catches Batman at age 50, strung-out on painkillers,
sitting in a bar, drunk, contemplating his life and gettin’ real yo!
“Hmmm…  I’ve spent my life dressing up in a latex suit with a cape,
beating up and killing people, my best friend is a kid who runs around in
speedos also wearing a cape, and I’ve never had a real relationship…
Perhaps I have some UNRESOLVED ISSUES…”

The Very Greatest comic books^h^h^h^h^h^h^h^h^h^h^hGraphics Novels to come
out in the last decade were, of course, Neil Gaiman’s Sandman series
(Sandman’s real name is Morpheus, just in case someone planned to TWIST
THAT ALL AROUND and GET IT WRONG).  Most especially the first 3.

That’s it then,

Patrick

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 5, 2002 at 12:21:16 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt” <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Friday, April 05, 2002 2:29 PM
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Ibogaine

–CC Wrote:

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of
it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at
most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t
healed me or cured anything.

Nick wrote:

If you’re looking for a “cure” you won’t get one, not with ibogaine,
not
with anything. To look for a “cure” is to totally disempower yourself, to
say “I can’t do it”, to say there is something “out there” that “I need”,
something that is “supposed to help me”. Someone who believes in this kind
of stuff will find it virtually impossible to get off drugs because they
are
totally refusing to take responsibility for their own existence. They’ll
just go on whining and then they will die.

Dear Nick,

Everything you say above is true, and what you say below is too

I don’t wish to sound harsh but
sometimes a dose of reality can help people actually make a change.

I just need to say, not simply as a way to defend Christopher – CC, d’u
realise that your name sounds like you should be Superman or Batman, or
whoever it was, or am I getting confused?!! –  THAT I don’t know too many
addicts in ‘recovery’ or not who haven’t at some point had to put their
faith in something outside of themselves, at least for a while, while they
re-learnt they they might also eventually relearn to have faith in
themselves.

Sure, everything is subjective. love. Nick

A dose of reality is good: saved my ass more than once, and there are
times
and places where it is best used; not entirely sure whether this is it.

Trouble with e-mail lists are that we don’t know who we are talking to
some
of the time: along with someone a few e-mails ago, I’d like to also
encourage CC to look around for the spiritual bit; it rarely just happens.
Though Ibogaine might be a spark that begins it, it might also not be.
Indeed, almost everything that happened to me during my day Ibogaine
experience has also happened to me on acid, in prayer/meditation and
simply
out of the blue on gorgeous days walking through the park overwhelmed by
incredibleness of our world.

Love t’ya’all

Andria (in London/U.K.)

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 5, 2002 at 8:29:45 AM EST
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

–CC Wrote:

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t
healed me or cured anything.

Nick wrote:

If you’re looking for a “cure” you won’t get one, not with ibogaine, not
with anything. To look for a “cure” is to totally disempower yourself, to
say “I can’t do it”, to say there is something “out there” that “I need”,
something that is “supposed to help me”. Someone who believes in this kind
of stuff will find it virtually impossible to get off drugs because they are
totally refusing to take responsibility for their own existence. They’ll
just go on whining and then they will die.

Dear Nick,

Everything you say above is true, and what you say below is too

I don’t wish to sound harsh but
sometimes a dose of reality can help people actually make a change.

I just need to say, not simply as a way to defend Christopher – CC, d’u
realise that your name sounds like you should be Superman or Batman, or
whoever it was, or am I getting confused?!! –  THAT I don’t know too many
addicts in ‘recovery’ or not who haven’t at some point had to put their
faith in something outside of themselves, at least for a while, while they
re-learnt they they might also eventually relearn to have faith in
themselves.

A dose of reality is good: saved my ass more than once, and there are times
and places where it is best used; not entirely sure whether this is it.

Trouble with e-mail lists are that we don’t know who we are talking to some
of the time: along with someone a few e-mails ago, I’d like to also
encourage CC to look around for the spiritual bit; it rarely just happens.
Though Ibogaine might be a spark that begins it, it might also not be.
Indeed, almost everything that happened to me during my day Ibogaine
experience has also happened to me on acid, in prayer/meditation and simply
out of the blue on gorgeous days walking through the park overwhelmed by
incredibleness of our world.

Love t’ya’all

Andria (in London/U.K.)

From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 5, 2002 at 5:40:53 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

totally refusing to take responsibility for their own existence.

Interesting how that responsibility must shift from parents to self,
for a happy life.

Bill Ross

From: “Nick Sandberg” <sandberg@onetel.net.uk>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 5, 2002 at 5:21:49 AM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

—– Original Message —–
From: “Christopher Clarke” <chrisclarke2@lycos.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 04, 2002 9:41 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t
healed me
or cured anything.

If you’re looking for a “cure” you won’t get one, not with ibogaine, not
with anything. To look for a “cure” is to totally disempower yourself, to
say “I can’t do it”, to say there is something “out there” that “I need”,
something that is “supposed to help me”. Someone who believes in this kind
of stuff will find it virtually impossible to get off drugs because they are
totally refusing to take responsibility for their own existence. They’ll
just go on whining and then they will die. I don’t wish to sound harsh but
sometimes a dose of reality can help people actually make a change. Nick

From: *selah* <soma@dorsai.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] ascorbate
Date: April 5, 2002 at 2:29:12 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On Fri, 29 Mar 2002, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

[…]

It’s interesting … but, subjectively, it doesn’t work.  I’ve been
interested in life extension stuff for about as long as I’ve been
interested in drugs — which is to say, forever n ever…  Among all the
detoxes I ever tried, I tried that one too.  They had some study going in
the 70’s, I read it, I was already on 25gms a day of oral ascorbic acid,
plus ascorbyl palmitate (fat soluble C) plus…  and obtained injectible
C.  Went up to 100gms or so of IV’ing it…

My habit was not that insane yet, I was on, lessee, roughly 4grams a day
of heroin — stepped on, but one step before what landed in the glassine
bags on street corners, and 6mg Xanax, and couldn’t sleep anymore …
possibly ‘cuz I was IV’ing way too much cocaine as well.

It helped me sleep.  That was about it.  There are various other papers
linking C’s positive effects on people doing MMTP and shit like that, and
a warehouse full, linking C’s positive effects on just being alive and
stuff…

We spoke to Joan Larson some years ago. (Larson is the head of the
Health Recovery Center in Minneapolis, which uses vitamin C drips,
etc., to detox people). She emphasized  that they use large doses of
intravenous magnesium in the C drips. She said that the magnesium
knocks out the patient (basically) and is used during the first few
days. She also said that magnesium is always really low in
alcoholics. I don’t know if this is the case for opiates as well,
but there are studies that showed that alcohol is metabolized into
opiate-like substances.

I should add that intravenous magnesium in high doses can be pretty
dangerous if not done really carefully. (You can o.d.)

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 11:12:07 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/4/02 8:18:46 PM, bdoyle2@neo.rr.com writes:

I am curious. Do some treatment work better than others.

The answer is unknown.  Possibly, the answer is yes based on matching the
patient to the treatment/procedure/aftercare by what measures I don’t know as
this once again brings us back to a lack of data particularly as it pertains
to any review of the limited number of patients treated.

How can you be sure the treatment plan is right for the person or how safe
the >treatment center is?

You can’t be sure the treatment plan is right but, chances are if the patient
wishes treatment most treatment plans would be better than none.  A hospital
would be the safest environment as the greatest medical assistance could be
given should any emergency occur.  A well staffed non-hospital environment
would offer the next greatest safety factor.  It is possible that an
experienced Bwiti nganga (priest/ritual leader/doctor) with lifetime
experience and knowledge of antidotes unknown in the west may also offer
ibogaine initiations safely.  However, that is like finding a really good
doctor without any knowledge or experience in a foreign country where in
addition to everything else, you may not speak the language.

Where do you recommend for ibogaine?

I currently make no recommendations.  The issues that determine treatment
generally relate to what patients can afford, who they trust and how much
risk tasking they are willing to involve themselves in.  It would  be very
valuable to everyone in the field if known safety data and related safety
procedures were to be published.  The issue of safety will never fully be
resolved until ibogaine is an approved medication.  However, we have to be
aware that many of the persons seeking ibogaine treatment are in life
threatening situations pursuant to IV drug use issues.  So the reality
becomes the weighing of risks against benefits by the patients that will
determine the actions they will take.

Howard

From: “betty doyle” <bdoyle2@neo.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 8:21:36 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I am curious.Do some tratment work better than others.How can you be sure
the tratment plan is right for the person or how safe the tratment center
is?Where do you recomend for ibogaine?
—– Original Message —–
From: <HSLotsof@aol.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 03, 2002 5:57 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine

In a message dated 4/3/02 5:16:45 PM, chrisclarke2@lycos.com writes:

I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t healed me or cured anything.

Can you describe the effects of the ibogaine.  For what reason did you
take
it and do you know the dose you were given and which form of the drug?

Thanks

Howard

From: “betty doyle” <bdoyle2@neo.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 7:35:09 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Would you do ibogaine again?Where did you do it in Fl.?What made you decide
on that place.
—– Original Message —–
From: “Gamma” <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 03, 2002 11:38 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t
healed me
or cured anything.

now that you’ve figured out it isn’t a “cure” you’re on the right track.
Healing and Curing come from the inside, not a “magic pill” (which
Ibogaine is
NOT).

I did ibogaine in Florida not with Dr. Mash. thank god for that it saved
me
$7,000 for nothing.

Also very curious what the circumstances/doseage/variety of Ibo, etc.

I see the ibogaine crew at the NA meetings, no big changes I can find.

Really? a whole Crew of Ibogainers at an NA meeting? Cool. Must make for
some
interesting shares. I guess not all of them are back in rehab then.

um, someone once told me a long time ago:

“Ibogaine is not for the meek”

-d

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 4, 2002 at 6:26:20 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 08:32:05PM -0500], [preston peet] wrote:

| Hey there Dana,
|     I think you know by now I do my best to stay out of intermovement
| politics, but I gotta say, I’m sitting here flipping through the May 2002
| issue of High Times, and lo and behold, there you are with a half a page,
| Freedom Fighter of the Month, Ibogaine mentioned in the very first sentence,
| and then again in an entire paragraph, (ok, granted, this isn’t really a
| heck of a lot, like a cover story or anything, but still…) later in the
| piece, by Ashley Fearless, (bless her.)

Look, see…?  It could be much, much, much worse.  I’m sure that’s only
the start.  I’m sure it’ll get BIGGER, BETTER, NEW AND IMPROVED, with new
features being added by the minute.

Seriously — the condition of the whole entire rest of the world aside for
a moment — things are not bad.  I would say that ibogaine has at least
moved a little closer towards hitting a much higher AWARENESS level, even
amongst non-drug dependent individuals.

What they actually know about it, may be very little.  But many of THEM —
and THOSE PEOPLE — appear to know that it exists at least.  Which is some
kinda improvement, and surely you have sumthin’ to do with all that.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 5:40:51 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 04, 2002 at 01:41:34PM -0700], [Christopher Clarke] wrote:

| >Really? a whole Crew of Ibogainers at an NA meeting? Cool. Must make for some
| >interesting shares. I guess not all of them are back in rehab then.
| They have those in miami.

Dey sho’ nuff duz d00d!  Woo Hoo.

| I did ibogaine, I got it from M, Patrick knows who that is, ask him
| what the product is.

I dunno nuttin’ ’bout nuttin’  Who’s an “M” …?  Ibogaine is schedule 1
yo, I am so pure I radiate a halo and know absolutely no evil people,
dealing white light molecules.

– – – – – – – – –

| It detoxed me,

Okay, that there, is the KEY POINT.  Keep it in mind.

– – – – – – – – –

| In aftercare is where I built up a lot of resentment. Patrick is some
| example there of what can happen for you if you follow their guidence
| and listen to what they want you to do. And he’s a nice example because
| he is free. But it’s a lie. 5 years of these programs means that 5 years
| from now you’re still going to be in some meeting with the same problems
| and the same “disease” Patrick makes jokes about. And holding you up as
| some example of success using their system is a total lie. You didn’t do
| anything, not one thing any of them suggested.

Yeah, and, so…?  Did I tell you to go hang out at 12-step meetings,
check yourself into aftercare, or do whatever…?  I don’t know you dude
— or at least I don’t think I do — it is possible we have met.  But I
most certainly do not go around promoting anybody’s program.

As far as I know, yeah, some of them do kick game, and toss out, “Patrick
was with us when he was first starting to clean up.”  What they neglect to
mention is, I got thrown out 2-7 days later, and the part that their
program played in my reintegration, was: zero.  Well nah, that’s not true
either, I’ve written this elsewhere before, but “rehab” did convince me
that perhaps the fact I’m sitting in a dump like this, surrounded by
idiots, and listening to drivel all day…  Indicates I might have a
problem, and need to do sumthin’ ’bout it.  But THAT, wasn’t it.

| I’d call that false advertising.

Yeah me too.  You should email me in private with the name/s of all these
people, and I’ll threaten to sue them for disclosing confidential client
information, or ask for a kickback. Either one.

| The only people who get real are Greg and John who have meltdowns over
| you, John it usually means he went off his medication and Greg mounted
| video cameras and microphones all over his rec room so nobody could say
| shit about him behind his back.

Greg!!!!!  Greg was fun.  Perhaps the problem might be, not that I,
seeking to amuse myself, started 12-step improv/insomniac theatre, in his
rec room at 3am.  Perhaps the problem lies not in the fact that we used to
do Night of the Living Dead, wander up and down the hallways and
impersonate his clients.  Maybe it is possible that the problem was Greg
is completely fucking paranoid, annoying, and lacks a sense of humor…

Which, to me, is mind blowing.  How can you NOT have a sense of humor when
you’re a pumped-up, flaming queen, who likes to dress up like Peter Pan
every day.  Okay, no, wait, I’m sorry.  Greg never wore green tights and
pointy shoes, he liked red tights, pointy shoes, and the big pirate
shirts. “I’m a gay pirate!!!!!   Wheeeeeeeee!”

I will cut it short, but Greg has issues; his little domicile of
rehabilitation and all the freaks I found therein — by which I don’t mean
the “clients” — are nearly an entire chapter all by themselves.

| Ibogaine detoxed me no question about that <cut>

Back to the KEY POINT.  I have never said it will do anything more than
this.  Although it sure can.  And… name one other
molecule/technique/treatment, which can do same, without pain, in the same
span of time…  If it exists, I have never heard of it.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] still bouncing?
Date: April 4, 2002 at 5:16:06 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Thu, Apr 04, 2002 at 12:01:10AM -0800], [Kelli Deva] wrote:

| I am hoping since i did receive your e-mail that i am still on your
| mailing list. Am i?
| I had gone over my storage limit, maybe that’s why they were bouncing.
| (or maybe a killer song was playin…) (wink wink)
| let me know….

Hey Kelli,

Bouncy BouncY bOUNCy … You appear to be, since you just wrote that to
the list, not me.

Hullo again,

Patrick

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Alper/Glick book reviewed
Date: April 4, 2002 at 4:57:32 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I looked up their site, this sounds interesting but I can’t find any contact information like a phone number or list of outlets where I could buy their publication! All they offer is a one year subscribe which is $25 for four issues of something I’m not sure I want.
Do you have any further info on where to buy just one issue? All they have listed for contact info is a PO box and the issue you just mentioned does not appear on their listing of available issues.
-Carla B
HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:
An interesting review of the Alper/Glick edited book, Ibogaine – Proceedings
of the First International Conference has appeared in the current issue of
The Entheogen Review (vol XI, No 1, 2002, pp 37-38).

This is a thoroughly interesting review as it is written by someone who is
knowledgeable of the scene and science but, outside of the formal scientific
structure. Just about everyone is mentioned.

I don’t have a reasonable copy and am not up to typing it in. Just thought
you would like to know about it.

Howard
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From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 4:50:42 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

For real. You posted some giant bitter very angry message that mostly went off on people in 12 step groups and then ragged on Patrick for being their poster child. None of which made any sense since he too goes off on 12 step groups all over the place.
What any of that had to do with ibogaine I couldn’t say. Not that everything on this list is about ibogaine but at least it’s not like a very long bitter rant about I don’t know what.
-Carla B
HSLotsof@aol.com wrote:

In a message dated 4/4/02 3:43:30 PM, chrisclarke2@lycos.com writes:

>Ibogaine detoxed me no question about that but I didn’t notice any big
>changes from it at all. No spiritual awakening no nothing. It’s a great
>detox that’s it.

Pretty much everyone agrees it a great method of withdrawing from opiates and
that should be enough from a patient perspective but, some people do get
more. What that “more” is, is all over the map. I mean, forget spiritual
awakening. Didn’t you get any clarification as to any matter whatsoever from
your ibogaine experience?

And, I can understand your bitterness at variations of aftercare but, why
take that out on ibogaine?

Thanks.

Howard
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From: Bill Ross <ross@cgl.ucsf.EDU>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 4:49:19 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

>Ibogaine detoxed me no question about that but I didn’t notice any big
>changes from it at all. No spiritual awakening no nothing. It’s a great
>detox that’s it.

Another angle is, have you done anything other than take ibogaine
to make yourself available for spiritual awakening or other such
goodies? E.g. meditation, hooking up with some other group or
practise or therapy that appeals to your spiritual/growth interest?
Not just grudgingly doing what you’re told in order to get clean,
but something, maybe even a hobby, that celebrates life in some
way that is meaningful to you, that makes you feel more alive?

It would be interesting to know, since the consensus seems to be
that in the end, you do the work on yourself and ibogaine just
helps. For some people the ibogaine does seem to drop in something
for free, but I wonder if it’s really just leveraging off something
they are doing.

Maybe we don’t have free will in this, but my suspicion is that we
do – tho it can be hard to find in some cases, and the smallest
effort may be painful at best. Certainly each person has to form
their own opinion on this, since as far as I can see, there is no
scientific data and besides not everyone believes in science 🙂

Bill Ross

From: Carla Barnes <carlambarnes@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 4, 2002 at 4:45:57 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I for one love reading your messages!
Count me in to the group of people who does have 20 minutes to read interesting email. If someone doesn’t they can always hit quit, or next. It’s not like they have to read it if they’re in a hurry or don’t care.
I know this message doesn’t have anything to do with the heroinhelper purifying heroin recepie anymore and maybe I should change the title!
-Carla B
preston peet <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com> wrote:
>Is it possible that u could send shorter e-mails for those of us that don’t
have 20 mins per e-mail; they are interesting and thanx but often don’t have
the time for the length<

Hi Andria,
Out of curiosity, what about those who do have 20 minutes per email, or
read faster? LOL.
Sometimes I cannot say what I want in one or two sentences, and sometimes I
can. I’m not offended by my posts being deleted if you don’t have time for
the longer, or even shorter ones.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt”
To:
Sent: Thursday, April 04, 2002 8:20 AM
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

> Preston
>
> Is it possible that u could send shorter e-mails for those of us that
don’t
> have 20 mins per e-mail; they are interesting and thanx but often don’t
have
> the time for the length
>
> Cheers!
>
> Andria E-Mordaunt
> Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust
>
> MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope, 32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
> 0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
> 0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780 Fax
>
> andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
> or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk

>
>
>
> —–Original Message—–
> From: preston peet [mailto:ptpeet@nyc.rr.com]
> Sent: 03 April 2002 19:54
> To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
> Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
>
>
> >and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans
were
> selling that nearly killed my wife…<
>
> Most unpleastant those adulterants, eh?
> For those interested, here’s a little tale about adulterants.
> Peace,
> Preston
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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 3:58:15 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/4/02 3:43:30 PM, chrisclarke2@lycos.com writes:

Ibogaine detoxed me no question about that but I didn’t notice any big
changes from it at all. No spiritual awakening no nothing. It’s a great
detox that’s it.

Pretty much everyone agrees it a great method of withdrawing from opiates and
that should be enough from a patient perspective but, some people do get
more.  What that “more” is, is all over the map.  I mean, forget spiritual
awakening.  Didn’t you get any clarification as to any matter whatsoever from
your ibogaine experience?

And, I can understand your bitterness at variations of aftercare but, why
take that out on ibogaine?

Thanks.

Howard

From: “Christopher Clarke” <chrisclarke2@lycos.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 3:41:34 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On Wed, 3 Apr 2002 20:38:31
Gamma wrote:

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t healed me
or cured anything.

now that you’ve figured out it isn’t a “cure” you’re on the right track.
Healing and Curing come from the inside, not a “magic pill” (which Ibogaine is
NOT).

I did ibogaine in Florida not with Dr. Mash. thank god for that it saved me
$7,000 for nothing.

Also very curious what the circumstances/doseage/variety of Ibo, etc.

I see the ibogaine crew at the NA meetings, no big changes I can find.

Really? a whole Crew of Ibogainers at an NA meeting? Cool. Must make for some
interesting shares. I guess not all of them are back in rehab then.
They have those in miami.

You’re right I will leave the personal issues out of this. But some of it is personal, Patrick never says anything about any of their clients but so what, there are tons of ibogaine people all over miami and south florida and most of them know all this anyway. If you don’t want to read it, delete your mail whoever you are.

I did ibogaine, I got it from M, Patrick knows who that is, ask him what the product is.

It detoxed me, I hallucinated and I did after care.

In aftercare is where I built up a lot of resentment. Patrick is some example there of what can happen for you if you follow their guidence and listen to what they want you to do. And he’s a nice example because he is free. But it’s a lie. 5 years of these programs means that 5 years from now you’re still going to be in some meeting with the same problems and the same “disease” Patrick makes jokes about. And holding you up as some example of success using their system is a total lie. You didn’t do anything, not one thing any of them suggested.

I’d call that false advertising.

The only people who get real are Greg and John who have meltdowns over you, John it usually means he went off his medication and Greg mounted video cameras and microphones all over his rec room so nobody could say shit about him behind his back.

Ibogaine detoxed me no question about that but I didn’t notice any big changes from it at all. No spiritual awakening no nothing. It’s a great detox that’s it.

/CC

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From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: [ibogaine] now if we can just get boris up to speed on ibogaine…
Date: April 4, 2002 at 6:29:07 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Pubdate: Wed, 27 Mar 2002
Source: Canadian Press (Canada Wire)
Copyright: 2002 The Canadian Press (CP)
Cited: World Forum on Drugs and Dependencies (website in English, French
and Spanish)
http://www.worldforumdrugs-dependencies.com/

MONTREAL TO HOLD FIRST WORLD FORUM ON DRUGS AND DEPENDENCIES IN SEPTEMBER

MONTREAL (CP) – Montreal will host the first World Forum on Drugs and
Dependencies in September, drawing an expected 3,000 delegates from 50
countries and as many fields of expertise.

The scope is wide and the problem pressing, organizers said
Thursday.

“More and more people are affected, both at home and abroad, and at a
younger age,” said Luc Chabot, co-ordinator of the Centres Jean
Lapointe for Teenagers and executive director of the Forum, to be held
at the convention centre Sept. 22 to 27.

“Despite all our efforts, young people are breaking all records in
terms of consumption.”

But the forum by no means is limited to youths or illicit
drugs.

URL: http://www.mapinc.org/drugnews/v02.n628.a04.html

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 4, 2002 at 2:52:16 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I have heard other people say
ibogaine spun their life around, without any actual desire to change on
their part.<

Which of course begs the question of why they were taking it in the first
place, if not through some inner desire to change, or kick, or whatever
their reasoning was, no?

You seem to have
genuinely benefitted from it, whereas it never did a fuckin’ thing for me,
except give me one fucking killer dual habit.  I wasn’t clean one day that
I was on MMTP; and wound up at 200mg a day PLUS my habit on top of it.<

Yeah, I did get what I needed from it, and even went to meetings on top of
it for the first 6 months or so, during which time I suffered repeated
relapses. Finally, after weepingly informing my sponsor of yet one more
“relapse”, he told me that I was going to continue to relapse until I gave
up pot, (LOL), and until I wanted to do it his way, he was no longer going
to call me, I’d have to call him. For some reason, that pissed me off, and I
decided then and there that not only was I through with relapsing and
whining about it at meetings, I’d do it my way just to spite everyone who
said I couldn’t, and that my own best thinking had gotten me to where I was-
a junky. My own better best thinking seemed to finally kick in. I’d brought
myself down to a fairly low dose of 40 mills a day, stayed there a few
years, and the week I decided to go the finally distance, I forgot to take
my take homes with me to the Hamptons where I’d never been, my girlfriend
was in a film presented at their film festival, and we’d rented a beachfront
hotelroom. I had to leave the next morning to go home to do my meth, and
that was the clincher. Dropped 5 mills every two weeks, with the councilors
telling me I was setting myself up for a fall, that I should go much slower
and assimilate, but that woulda just made it harder. It sucked, but I still
have 4 bottles of my final week’s supply in a drawer in the fridge, for over
a year now, so I didn’t even finish out my regimine. I think when we’re
ready, we’re ready, or so it was in my case.

Dood mahn, dog, yo, nature is beautiful.  There’s a lot to be said for the
Sacrament (C)reated by Saint Hofmann as well =)<

Haven’t come across Saint Hoffman’s sacrament in some while now, but am
always open to possibilities, though of course, would never do or injest
anything labeled illegal by rabid prohibitionists. (nudge, wink, say no
more)
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Monday, April 01, 2002 2:25 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and
ibogaine…)

On [Sat, Mar 30, 2002 at 10:50:52AM -0500], [preston peet] wrote:

|     Anyway, Patrick Kroupa made a point last week, which I unfortunately
| can’t find the email of, in which he pointed out that he wasn’t sure
what
| folks meant by clean or getting clean, (sorry, I’m paraphrasing), as he
| himself did dope until it didn’t do anymore what he wanted it to, he
tried,
| through various trials and efforts, to quite, and finally did. (I guess
he
| used ibogaine to kick off the kicking, but I’m not really sure of
that.). I
| tend to agree with him in that we all use our own methods to “kick,” and
to
| me, as unexperienced as I am on the use of ibogaine, it just seems yet
one
| more tool among countless tools, and still, as powerful as it may be,
needs
| to have that inner drive to quit already in place to work. If anyone has
| another/more than one view on this, please give me
counterarguments/points
| please

Yeah, my final kick, the last, “this is the LAST shot … (until the next
shot)”, the whole entire dropping that particular spiral and letting it
drop further downwards without me on it; I used ibogaine, a few times,
back to back, to step off.

| videogames, lots of pot, and hot baths listening to my favorite music.
The
| pretty horrid withrawls were bad, but I treated them as my trial by
fire, to
| use an old, tired cliche. To me, though I personally haven’t tried
ibogaine,
| (thought I’m tempted to help me kick my horrendous tobacco habit),
ibogaine
| seems to be A catalyst, a tool for those who’ve already made the
decision
| they want to quit dope, but most certainly is NOT a magic postion that
works
| with everyone. To me, I feel the key is having a genuine desire to kick,

Yeah, you’re pretty much stating my personal opinion exactly.  I would
have no modifications to anything you’ve written so far; no disagreement.
Ibogaine worked for me, after I made the commitment to finally DO IT
(which was apparently different from my previous 450 commitments to myself
saying the same thing).

Although, that’s MY experience with it.  I have heard other people say
ibogaine spun their life around, without any actual desire to change on
their part.  Again, I have heard this … but never actually witnessed
anything resembling that scenario myself.  It certainly wasn’t the case
for me, or anyone I really know who kicked with it.  Ibogaine CAN provide
motivation to effect change, where that was lacking — as I’d posit, can
any entheogen, be it LSD, ketamine, DMT, whatever — but all of it
eventually reaches that point where, “okay, THIS is the part where you
gotta get up off your ass, deal with a large variety of discomfort (in
this case mostly psychological, since ibogaine sho’ nuff do unspring ya;
THAT PART is just like magic) … and *do* it.

A counterpoint to the above: methadone maintenance.  You seem to have
genuinely benefitted from it, whereas it never did a fuckin’ thing for me,
except give me one fucking killer dual habit.  I wasn’t clean one day that
I was on MMTP; and wound up at 200mg a day PLUS my habit on top of it.

|     After this article, at the above URl, there are TONS of links to
| methadone and treatment. (after the technical stuff in the beginning
page, I
| turn to my own personal experiences and thoughts on the matter) (and by
the
| way, I’ve been off opiates for over a year now, and stick to the more
| natural herbal type stress relieving medication, such as, uh, herb, and
for
| more religious communing with the natural world as a whole, fungus.;-))

Dood mahn, dog, yo, nature is beautiful.  There’s a lot to be said for the
Sacrament (C)reated by Saint Hofmann as well =)

| Peace, and thanks for including me in this list, and Patrick, thanks
again
| for the invite to subscribe.

Hey, it’s a pleasure to have you here Preston!

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 4, 2002 at 9:38:34 AM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Is it possible that u could send shorter e-mails for those of us that don’t
have 20 mins per e-mail; they are interesting and thanx but often don’t have
the time for the length<

Hi Andria,
Out of curiosity, what about those who do have 20 minutes per email, or
read faster? LOL.
Sometimes I cannot say what I want in one or two sentences, and sometimes I
can. I’m not offended by my posts being deleted if you don’t have time for
the longer, or even shorter ones.
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt” <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Thursday, April 04, 2002 8:20 AM
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

Preston

Is it possible that u could send shorter e-mails for those of us that
don’t
have 20 mins per e-mail; they are interesting and thanx but often don’t
have
the time for the length

Cheers!

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk
<mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: preston peet [mailto:ptpeet@nyc.rr.com]
Sent: 03 April 2002 19:54
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans
were
selling that nearly killed my wife…<

Most unpleastant those adulterants, eh?
For those interested, here’s a little tale about adulterants.
Peace,
Preston

snip-
She snatches the bundle from his hand without a thank you, then sits on
her
bed to prepare a shot.
“Oh yeah. She said to be careful, that it’s strong as hell. So do us both
a
favor, and only do one to begin with, would you?” Though he’d blown it off
before, there’s no reason for her not to be careful. She has a bunch of
bags. If one isn’t enough, she can always do more.
She does the same thing he did and ignores the warning, telling him she
knows what she’s doing while tearing open a second bag to dump in the
cooker.
“No, seriously, just do one.” She starts to pour it in. “At least put
only
some of that one in there, OK?” For some reason she does as he asks,
stopping when it’s half in the cooker.
As she cooks up, he does the same. He mixes all the dime of coke with
most
of the bag of dope. His habit is different than her’s. While he is heavily
strung-out, he will at times get so into coke bingeing he will leave
himself
no money for a wake-up bag of heroin. He’s completely into the psychosis
of
cocaine, always needing More. The dope is a physical need, while the coke
is
purely psychological. This time the fact that he shoots a speedball just
may
save his girlfiend’s life.
His girlfiend gets hers into her rig, and hence into her arm before he
does. She moves quickly, with a practiced ease, tying off, booting it
without a hitch. She loosens the scarf, sits back, then the day really
goes
all to shit.
“It’s no good, it’s no good!”  She wails at him, her eyes widening and
her
face turning bright red. “Don’t do it, Don’t!” She lunges forward trying
to
stop him from doing his, but he’s already mixed all of his coke into it.
He’
s unable to throw it away. Besides, she may be wrong. It could be fine, or
just weak. He can’t help himself, and shoots his in.
Well, she’s right, it’s no good. He can immediately see and feel, even
with
the effects of the coke rushing through him, that whatever it is he
bought,
it most definitely is not heroin. He feels a buzzing, vibrating sensation
all over his body, from his head to his toes. His vision goes out of
whack,
leaving him unable to bring his eyes into clear focus. It is not a
comfortable, clean high at all, and it isn’t the coke. He instantly thinks
maybe they’ve shot some PCP, or something like it.
His girlfiend meanwhile is beginning to bug out. Repeating over and over
that it’s no good, she starts to thrash around on her bed, as though she
could escape the effects of the drug by moving out of the way. Crawling
one
way, then back, she grows more manic, then pukes everything in her stomach
out in one huge spray, coating the TV and all of her tape cassettes in a
thick, dripping film of vomit. Though it appears she should be empty after
this much effluence, it doesn’t stop. She starts to retch and heave,
bringing up the most unhealthy green bile Thomas has ever seen. It gets in
her long, uncombed hair, on her clothes, and spread around in her sheets.
In this psychotic, drug-induced panic, she can’t stop crying and
shrieking,
working herself into a state of uncontrollable terror. This goes on. When
he
tries to reach out and calm her with a hug, she freaks out completely at
his
touch, punching him in the head, howling even louder as she kicks one of
her
bookshelves off the wall while struggling to get away from him.
Then she changes gear, going utterly catatonic, sitting on the side of
the
bed in the bile and debris staring off into space. He doesn’t know what to
do. She’s not in good shape, but he would rather not call the police.
What’s
he going to tell them? That he bought his girlfiend bad drugs? Who knows
what kind of charges they might think up to hit him with? He doesn’t want
to
find out.
Then again, she isn’t responding other than to swing at him and shriek
each
time he attempts to touch her and get her to communicate. Waving his hand
in
front of her eyes gets no response. She looks like she’s peering intently
at
something a thousand yards through and behind him. There’s no sign that
she
is aware of him being there. Even when she struggles and freaks out at his
touch, she doesn’t seem conscious of him. Having done his own little
portion, he isn’t in great shape either, but the coke appears to have cut
it
somehow, allowing him to cope better with the results.
After some serious torment and soul searching, Thomas finds the phone
underneath all the mess, and calls 911. He’s crying, scared to death that
he
‘s given his girlfiend some kind of poison, and that now she’s screwed.
Not
that she didn’t already have her problems, but now she’s really out there.
He doesn’t know if she’s going to come back. He’s heard all kinds of
stories
about people taking too much of one thing or another, and the results.
Thomas waits for the paramedics to show up with all these awful thoughts
running through his mind. She treats him like a dog, but he still cares
about her. If she’s permanently fucked up, he’ll never forgive himself.
Besides all his worries about her mental state, there’s the problem of
what
the police are going to say. He’s not even supposed to be in the
apartment.
He has been banned from the apartment by her room-mate. He sleeps at the
top
of her stairwell some nights, keeping back out of sight, but if her roomie
knows that he’s been inside the apartment she is going to throw a fit. Not
to mention the fact that the police and paramedics are on the way. The
owners of the building own a real estate office on the ground floor. It’s
going to pretty obvious to them there’s something going on in their
building
when everyone shows up, lights going, sirens wailing. “Why is this
happening
to me,” he wonders. And what’s he going to tell the paramedics when they
get
here?
He doesn’t have a long wait. Thomas left the front door ajar so they
could
come in when they arrive, and they do. Pushing open the door, first to
enter
are two paramedics, a man and a woman, with a couple police officers close
behind.
“Tell us what happened. What’d she take?” The woman paramedic grills him.
“I don’t know what it was, but she didn’t do that much. It was supposed
to
be heroin, but I can tell you, it’s not.” Thomas doesn’t want to get
charged
with anything, but he wants them to be able to help as well. So he tries
to
be honest with her, without telling her or the others that he was the one
who scored the gear.
“Are you going to be able to do something for her? I don’t want her to
die.
Please help her.”
“Is she violent?” The woman asks. “I’m not going to touch her if she is.
I’
m not going to get bit or scratched by anyone, no way.” Because his
girlfiend has been sitting stationary on the bed for the last fifteen
minutes or so without uttering a peep, Thomas thinks that maybe she’s not
going to freak out anymore.
“No, I think she’s OK now.” He looks at the cops and paramedics standing
outside of the bedroom looking in at his girlfiend but making no move to
enter the room and examine her. “Come on, help her. She’s fucked up.
Somebody do something for her already, please.”
Turning back, he sees her reach out her hand, grasping her fingers at
something none but her can see. Her face is lit up, glowing red, with a
tiny
smile on her lips, and that thousand yard stare. She looks possessed.
The two paramedics move past Thomas into the room. There’s not a lot of
space in the room to maneuver, but they manage to get close enough for the
woman to crouch down next to the bed.
“Hey there sweetheart, how you doing? You OK?” Her voice soft and
soothing,
the paramedic attempts to communicate with his girlfiend. “We’re here to
help.” The paramedic reaches out and touches her arm.
His girlfiend explodes in a flurry of fists and feet, throwing punches in
all directions, hollering a primal sound, high and piercing. The paramedic
jumps back after receiving a glancing blow to her forehead, and refuses to
go near again.
“Get those cops in here, we’re going to have to subdue her. We can’t
touch
her like this.” The two paramedics step back, giving the officers, by now
joined by two more, room to get into the bedroom. There’s little space in
the tiny apartment, much less in the bedroom, but they all push forward,
eager to display their finesse at handling an unruly junkie. The first one
tries to enter the room past Thomas, who sees handcuffs in the cop’s hand.
“Wait a minute, hold on.” Thomas can’t believe they’re going to put cuffs
on her.
“Shut up boy, and step back.” The cop towers over Thomas, trying to
intimidate him, and partially succeeds. “Hey girl, listen up!” The cop
thunders at Thomas’s girlfiend in his best tough-cop voice. “You better
behave or I’m going to put these cuffs on you and drag you out of here by
your hair. Now shape up, and get a grip on yourself. We aren’t playing a
game here.”
Thomas stares at the cop uncomprehending. Did he really say all that just
now? The two paramedics are also staring at the cop, so Thomas suspects he
did.
“You can’t put her in cuffs, man.” Thomas speaks up again, disgusted at
the
officer’s callousness. Thomas is having trouble keeping his balance,
having
shot the poison as well, but he doesn’t want them to know. “She’s a
hundred
pounds, and you guys are going to use cuffs? That’s going to make her even
worse if you go in there all hostile and belligerent. Take it easy. Let me
try to get her calmed enough to at least get her into the kitchen, where
there’s a little more room.” He moves forward and stumbles, falling into
some clothing and boxes by the bedroom door. The woman paramedic helps him
up, trying to get a good look into his eyes.
“You’re not looking so good yourself, kid. You seem like you could use
some
medical attention too. Let me take a look at you, make sure you’re
alright.”
She seems genuinely interested in helping, but he doesn’t want that. He
wants to stay away from that, so he can take care of his girlfiend, and
keep
track of what happens to her. He’s going to have to lock up her place once
this is over, and make sure she gets some clothing because the stuff she
has
on isn’t going to cut it. She’s vomited all over herself, and she’s only
wearing a nightgown anyway.
The police manage to get her into the kitchen fairly easily, but once
there, the officers have to manhandle her to keep her still while they tie
her to a stretcher-chair so she can be carried down the stairs, which are
narrow, and steep.
“Help me! No! Get away from me! Help Me!” Squirming and pulling, trying
to
throw herself out of their grasp, she lets loose with the most blood
curdling shrieks and screams Thomas has ever heard. Now he knows the
meaning
of bloodcurdling scream. He can only watch helplessly as they finish tying
her tightly to the chair, then carry her out the door, all the while
wondering what nightmare is playing in her mind. He feels so terrible, and
sad. He watches them go out the door, then turns back to the bedroom,
grabbing the cleanest jeans and a T-shirt from the mess on the floor, a
pair
of boots, and throws it all into his pack. Stepping back into the kitchen,
there stands the girlfiend’s roomie.
. “What in the Hell are you doing in here?!” She really doesn’t like him
what-so-ever, not the least little bit. She’s fuming at the sight of him
standing in her apartment. What with all the cops streaming past her in
the
stairs carrying his girlfiend, her room-mate, tied in a chair wailing at
the
top of her lungs all the way down the six flights, and the landlord of the
building standing on the landing outside her door when she arrives home,
it’
s no wonder she’s mad. “Get the hell out of my apartment! Don’t you ever
show your face here again, damn you!” She points her finger at him. He
walks
around her trying to get to the street before they drive away with his
girlfiend.
“I’ll be right back.” He says, then bolts down the stairs, three at a
time.
He manages to get out the front door before they leave. They won’t let him
go with her in the ambulance.
“No kid, you can’t go. We’re taking her to St. Vincent’s, so if you want
to
meet us there, that’s fine. But you can’t ride with us. Now let us work.”
The paramedic sees the expression on his face, and tries to reassure him.
“Don’t worry, she’s going to be fine.” He’s glad to hear it, but instantly
thinks of the next most immediate problem. He still has to go back
upstairs
and get his pack, which he put down by the door and forgot to pick back up
before his sprint downstairs.
After the ambulance drives away, he climbs upstairs, wondering how he’s
going to survive this disaster of a day. The roomie and the landlord are
waiting for him with two of the officers. The four of them do not look
happy
when he tops the stairs.
“Where are her keys?” The roomie starts first. “Huh? If you have them
you’d
better give them to me right now.” He does have them, planning on closing
up
the apartment, not knowing the roomie would be arriving at such an
inopportune moment as she has. He walks into the bedroom, and picks up the
girlfiend’s set of keys.
“Here, I wasn’t going to do anything stupid. You can have them.” He hands
them over, and she checks them.
“Where’s the key to the front door?” Now she’s really upset, more
accusatory. “Give it to me!”
“I don’t have it. I thought it was on that key ring.” He is adamant about
this. He doesn’t want the key, and doesn’t have it as far as he’s
concerned.
“No, it’s not here. Officer, tell him he’d better give it to me.” She
looks
to one of the cops, the same one who’d threatened his girlfiend earlier.
“That’s right boy. You’d better hand the key over if you have it, or I’m
going to have to search you. If I find it, I’m going to charge you with
attempted burglary. How’s that grab you?” The cops hitches up his utility
belt, sucking in his gut as he cocks his chin up, glaring at Thomas who
feels quite alone.
“I’m telling you all, I don’t have the damned key…,” he trails off upon
reaching into his pocket. He feels a foreign object, and pulls it out with
a
sheepish grin. “Well, what do you know. The key.” Seeing their faces,
especially roomie’s, Thomas again insists, “I didn’t remember. Honestly.”
He
really doesn’t remember grabbing the key at all, even now that he’s found
it
in his own pocket. The drug they shot must be screwing up his brain more
than he’s aware, and it scares him. More than the landlord, who starts in
on
him now.
“You have been told not to come around here again, yet you are always
here.
The police have been called a couple of times in the last week about you,
but you’ve been gone by the time they arrived. Now I’m telling you to your
face. Don’t come back, you or your junkie girlfiend! You understand me?
I’ll
have your ass in jail, both of you if anyone sees either of you here
again.”
He glowers at Thomas, who’s aghast. This guy is evicting his girlfiend
over
this. This is not good.
“You hear him, boy?” The cop has to put his two cents in, telling Thomas
that he’ll personally take the call if it comes through, that he’ll be
glad
to lock him up right now if either of them want to press charges for
trespassing.
Thomas thinks for a moment that they might do it, but after a couple of
heart-stopping seconds, they both shake their heads. Reaching through the
door, Thomas grabs his pack off the floor, and heads downstairs, the
roomie’
s voice following after.
“I’m serious, tell her she’s out. She can get her stuff when she gives
me
the money she owes me!”
Thomas feels drained, and wobbly. His skinny, undernourished body has
trouble going on. He feels like he could sleep for a week. But he’s
nowhere
near sleeping yet. He has to go to the hospital and check on his
girlfiend,
but first has to return the poisoned dope, and tell the woman not to sell
anymore to anyone because she might kill them.
He walks unsteadily back to Twelfth and Ave. C, and calls up to the
dealer’s apartment to tell her the news. She’s a decent person, other than
for the fact she deals heroin, and sounds genuinely concerned.
“Bring back what you have left, and I’ll replace it,” she says. “Your
girl
must have done more than one. I warned you.”
“No, that’s not it.” He has to keep from raising his voice. “She has a
high
tolerance to dope. She didn’t do even two whole bags. The stuff is shit.
It’
s poison. Call your connection and tell him that he’s selling you fucking
PCP or something. Don’t you do your own drugs?” He doesn’t want to believe
she would sell him something she knew was bad, but in this business, at
this
level, anything is possible.
She denies having tried the dope. He can’t do anything but take her at
her
word. She tells him he can bring it up right now, and she’ll take care of
it.
Shit, now he realizes he forgot it sitting in his girlfiend’s bedroom.
“I don’t have it right now. I’ll have to bring it by later.”
“OK, whenever, just call before you come up.” Thomas hopes she means it,
and isn’t just blowing him off.
Hanging up, he now has to get all the way across the city to St.
Vincent’s
Hospital at 7th Ave. At least an hour has passed since he started walking,
so his girlfiend is surely admitted into the hospital by now. Within a
block
of Ave. C, Thomas sees a young guy getting into his car, and stops to ask
if
he’d would be willing to give him a ride to St. Vincent’s. The guy
hesitates, obviously checking out Thomas’s dirty, disheveled appearance,
so
Thomas comes right out and tells him why he has to get to the hospital.
“My girlfiend has been admitted for an overdose. I really need to get
over
there as fast as possible. Please give me a ride. I’ll give you a dollar
and…,” reaching into his pocket, Thomas pulls out all the change he has,
“…and thirty-two cents. Please man, it’s important.”
“Alright, why not. I’m heading that way anyway. Jump in.” The guy smiles.
Once in the car they drive straight across town. All the way over, the guy
regales Thomas with tales of his own mishaps and problems with drugs,
asking
Thomas if he’s ever thought about giving it all up.
“Sure I have, but it’s impossible. There’s no way I can do it. I say all
the time I hate how I’m living and how I really don’t want to be doing
this
anymore, but it doesn’t help. I think I’m going to die a junkie. The only
way to get into treatment is getting arrested or having insurance.
Besides,
it’s what I do best.”
The guy is quiet, letting Thomas speak, but when he’s done, the guy
answers.
“I was really strung out too, but I’ve been clean four years now. I’ve
never gone back to it. It was difficult, but it wasn’t impossible. I just
really wanted to quit. Have you ever tried meetings?”
Great, a born again drug abuser. To Thomas, these are the most
infuriating.
They’re always so understanding, and so goddamned happy. He hates them. He
always feels a complete failure whenever he meets someone who has
successfully kicked the habit. Seeing this guy’s healthy, smiling face,
Thomas gets even more depressed. “Yeah, well, we’ll see. Maybe someday.”
Thomas has gone to meetings in the past, always fucked up or jonesing for
more drugs. Never has he felt he got anything out of a meeting other than
feelings of shame and despair at not fitting in, and repeated comments
about
how sick everyone is, no matter how long they’ve stayed clean. That never
has made sense to Thomas.
“Well, here’s my number. If you ever want to go with someone, or if you
just need to talk, feel free. Give me a call.” He hands Thomas a business
card as they pull up to the hospital. “Here we are. Best of luck with
everything. I’ll be praying for you and your girlfiend.” Thomas looks at
the
card, but can’t read the printing. The drugs in his system are still
screwing up his vision, making it impossible for him to focus.
Thanking the guy, he climbs out of the car, and tries to give the guy the
dollar and change. The driver laughs it off. “No way man, you keep it. I’m
glad I could help you out. Take care, and give me a call sometime.” He
drives away.
“Excuse me, can you help me? I need to find someone who was admitted here
within the last hour or so. She came in by ambulance for an over-dose.”
Thomas asks at the information desk, still off-balance from whatever it
was
they shot up. The woman behind the desk tells him to go around the corner
to
the emergency room where they will be able to help him.
In the emergency room, he’s allowed to visit with his girlfiend for just
a
minute or two. Then he has to sit in the waiting room until the next
visiting time. He spends the rest of the afternoon waiting in the lobby
area, then going back to the emergency room for ten minutes, then back out
to the lobby for another fifty minutes until the next ten minute visiting
allotment.
The first time in to see her, she doesn’t recognize him. She’s still
staring off into space. The staff have tied her wrists and ankles to the
sides of the bed. Her face is still glowing red and shiny. Her eyes stare
at
whatever it is only she can see. When Thomas asks the doctor what she
shot,
he tells him they aren’t sure, but that they think she shot some kind of
hallucinogen. That’s no surprise.
“What kind of hallucinogen?” Thomas asks.
“Son, we don’t know exactly. All I can tell you is we can’t do much of
anything for her other than sit and wait for the effects to wear off.
She’ll
be here all day, I can tell you that. Now get out of my way. I’ve got some
other people to take care of, people who are really sick.” The doctor
turns
and walks away.
The third time Thomas goes in to see her, she gives him a big smile,
saying, “Hey, I know you. Don’t I?” Still tied to the bed, her hands don’t
stop moving, working at the ties holding her trapped. “Can you hand me
those
bags?”
“What bags, baby?” He doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
“They’re in my purse, under my leg. I snuck them in with me. Come on,
hurry
up. Before they come back.” She tries to reach down alongside of her leg,
but he knows there’s no purse there.
Seeing her in this state makes him feel even worse than before. Is she
ever
going to be ok? This keeps running through his mind. Has he driven her
crazy
for real? He can’t stand the thought. When he sees a nurse he asks her.
“Well, we’re going to have to just wait and see,” she tell him. “There’s
no
way to tell yet, but I think she’ll be fine, once the drugs wear off. Take
it easy, and go sit down. We’ll let you know if there are any changes.”
Back in the lobby of the emergency room, Thomas picks up a magazine,
attempting to read to kill time. Reading was his first drug ever. As a
child, he would read constantly. He’s the only person he’s ever known who
used to get into trouble for reading too much in school. Now though, he
can’
t get his eyes to focus on the letters. It looks as though they are turned
around backwards, upside down, as well as being tripled, so the words and
letters are all jumbled together, making it impossible for him to read. If
he holds his hand out in front of his face, he can only begin to focus
when
his hand is held out full length. Even then it doesn’t come in completely
clear.
Fed up with trying to read, he goes outside to get something to munch on
with his dollar and change. Grabbing as many twenty-five cent cookies as
he
can get, he goes back over to the hospital, and sits outside in the sun to
wait some more.
This has got to be the worst day he’s had in weeks. Maybe it’s time for
him
to give up, admit that he can’t take this kind of pain any longer. Always
having to justify his ripping people off. Forever having to scramble for
the
next shot. Dodging dogmatic angry cops. Eating at soup kitchens and in
hand-out lines in the park. Wearing anything he can find lying out on the
sidewalk. Carrying all his worldly possessions in a plastic shopping bag.
After today, it just doesn’t seem worth it anymore. Freezing at night,
then
having too many clothes to lug around during the day. Scrimping and
begging,
counting up the small change, only to get ripped off buying shit that’s no
damn good. He’s seen signs up on the wall at the needle exchange with
brand
names of drugs that have killed people, things like KIA, 911, Silver
Bullet,
but never has he come across one until today. At least the two of them
aren’
t dead, which he supposes is a good thing, but neither of them have any
money for another bag, and they’re both already sick. There’s never a
break.
He can’t afford to give himself one.
Each day Thomas does something else he hates to get the drugs, commits
some
crime risking arrest, and he hates it. There’s a feeling inside him that
he
crossed a line somewhere, and never even saw the thing. Now he has to pay
for all the fucked up things he does to get high, to punish himself. In
order for him to live with these feelings, he continues getting high. It’s
the one sure way to kill the pain of living. This perpetuates the cycle,
always leaving him right back where he started. He doesn’t feel deserving
of
a break. He carries on in same old way, never giving himself the chance to
get away from it all, to step back and see clearly that the using drugs to
not deal with emotions and feelings of normal living is what’s hurting him
most.
It’s a very self-centered kind of lifestyle, one that breeds deep,
harrowing loneliness. Wrapped up in his own sorrows, always feeling sorry
for himself, it’s easy to get into the sort of relationship he’s in now.
Yes, he’s very worried about his girlfiend, and wants her to get better,
but
then what? He doesn’t love himself at the moment, so how can he presume to
try and love someone else?
Shaking his head to clear these thoughts of introspection and despair
from
his mind, he gets to his feet and goes back inside to check on his
girlfiend
‘s condition.
She’s almost completely recovered, telling the nurses that she has to go
now, that she has to go to work and can’t hang out any longer. It’s almost
funny hearing her angry, determined voice. He soon realizes she doesn’t
remember any of the incident. She only knows that she was in her
apartment,
then tied down to a hospital bed, and doesn’t know how or why. He begins
to
explain what happened, but she starts to cry. The nurses come chase him
out,
telling him she’ll be able to go in the next hour or so. He walks into the
waiting room to sit and wait some more.
Picking up a newspaper, he’s pleased to find that if he holds the paper
slightly further away than he normally would to read he can focus. Enough
to
make out the meaning of words if he tries very hard, squinting and peering
at the pages held out in front of him. It becomes a game in which he tries
to see how close he can get the paper to his face before his focus goes,
and
the time passes quickly. Soon a nurse tells him his girlfiend is ready to
go.
Jumping up, he hurries in to help her if she needs it, but she waves him
away. Until this moment, he hasn’t told her much about what happened,
other
than for briefly saying something about her going nuts in her bedroom.
That’
s what made her cry before, the fact that she had to be carried out on a
stretcher had really frightened her. Now Thomas has to tell her the rest
of
it.
They leave the hospital.
“Uh, listen honey. I need to tell you something.” She’s walking slowly,
talking about trudging over to her place where she has some more cash,
copping a bag, then going on to work. “Your room-mate and the landlord
took
your keys. They said you were out of the place, that they were evicting
you.” He doesn’t mention the threat of the police yet.
She goes ballistic.
“What do you mean,” she cries out. “They can’t do that, it’s not fucking
legal! I pay my rent! I have all my stuff in there. Fucking bitch, I’ll
kill
her if she tries anything like that! She cannot lock me out of my own
place!
Come on, lets go.” She turns and starts to march off towards her
apartment,
down 7th Ave.
. “Wait up! They said that they would call the cops if you or I showed up
there. Don’t do it honey!” He yells after her. She stops for a second,
taking in what he’s said.
“They can go ahead and call the fucking cops! It’s my place, and I have
the
receipts for my rent too. You, yes, they can arrest you, but me, they
can’t
fucking touch me! I’m going home.” She turns and walks off, leaving him
standing there.
“What the hell do you want me to do?” He calls to her. She yells back
over
her shoulder without turning.
“Do whatever you want, I don’t fucking care!” She keeps walking. “Don’t
come by, and wait a few days to phone me. I’ll see you later.”
He stands there on the sidewalk, watching her walk away. She’s amazingly
spry for having spent the day tied to a hospital bed completely out of her
head. She isn’t at all concerned with that. All she can think about is
going
and having it out with her room-mate, getting herself straight, and
getting
to work so that she will have money to get straight tomorrow. This is what
both their lives have come down to. Getting fucked up, because they’re so
miserable with their lives. To get away from that self-hatred, and to cope
with the frustration, they do more drugs. She doesn’t thank him for
staying
with her all day, nor does she get angry at him for bringing her bad dope.
She really doesn’t care about much of anything anymore, and neither has he
for quite some time. The scare is over. Now he has to go and make himself
a
score. No time to ponder the depressing ironies of it all, he walks into
what has become the night, to cop another bag.

—– Original Message —–
From: “Gamma” <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 03, 2002 1:17 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

— “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 12:55:41PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve
experiemented
| with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly
sweet
| taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
| ‘floatier’)

Uhm, otay.  I’m willing to take your word on that, and not test it out
myself.  Sounds, uhm, splendid n stuff.

hmmm… never tried that one. but hey just imagine all the metals/oils
being
smoked offa dat aluminum foil! bionic lungs!

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans
were
selling that nearly killed my wife…

__________________________________________________
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From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 4, 2002 at 9:05:08 AM EST
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Guys, can u please have these conversations privately; they are none of
my/our business and I am quite angry about the way u are breaking people’s
confidentiality here.

(Wiped out the e-mail) PLEASE do not send any more to this list that
personalise issues as these did

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: Patrick K. Kroupa [mailto:digital@phantom.com]
Sent: 04 April 2002 00:23
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine

On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 03:15:30PM -0700], [Christopher Clarke] wrote:

| I’m not holding this in anymore let me share some of my opinions.

Yes, but, how do you REALLY feel…?

<Many words, sadly, now lost>

| That doesn’t work so good either last time I saw Tracy she was
| smashingher “boyfriend’s” rolls royce into the wall of a building at a
| NA meeting and didn’t stop even when the police got there. Maybe she had
| a reason looks like he beat her halfway to death. She was someone who
| was taking your “advice” another winner.

Uhm, see, this is like How to Be a Recovery Snitch 101 (No, no, no, you’re
just Telling on Your Disease!  And if you don’t know, just make it up as
you go along).

Tracy has never done ibogaine.  Yeah I know her, yeah I’ve hung out with
her, yeah I suggested she try it … no, she didn’t want to, “I hate
hallucinogens, besides I don’t have a problem.”

The car she wrecked was a Bentley, one of her dad’s, who collects them.
If any guy attempted to beat her up, he’d prolly find himself stabbed to
death.  The reason she looks “beat halfway to death” some of the time, is
‘cuz she used to run track in high school and win trophies.  While she was
already strung-out at that point in time, she was not yet eating Xanax
like M&M’s and wearing stiletto heels.  The latter two appear to
occasionally Throw Her Off Balance, when she runs from the cops, causing
her to do a truly spectacular swan dive onto cement.

This is why she walks around covered in scabs and bruises.

Or rather, did.  Her dad had her Baker-acted twice, when that didn’t work
out, Marshman-acted, and she’s been in some lock-down rehab in California
for nearly a year.

| I could go on for many examples but once you add up all the people all
| the advice and all the ibogaine what’s left. You. Some cure. And what
| you have to say about addiction is so useful that your entire site is
| banned from at least 3 rehabs I know of, look at Mindvox and relapse.

Truly I wield awesome power.

| Natch they don’t need Mindvox for that, all the ibogaine grads sitting
| in rehab are on year 2 or 3 with their 45 relapses and still sitting in
| rehab. What progress.

They’re sitting and spinning in rehab for years at a time, because this is
their career.  Were they ever to “get better,” their parents and/or
executors might expect them to do something else; like go get a job for
instance.

With some few exceptions — who are there for legal reasons — 99% of the
people in rehab, could walk out of there.  The catch is, it amounts to,
“you can go do rehab, or you can go get a job.”  The answer — nearly 100%
of the time, is: oh my god, I am so totally working the 12 steps!  Yeah!
Recovery!  Therapy!  Where’s my allowance?

Patrick

p.s., Lemme take a wild guess here…  The new HT came out and this is
Letter [01] of the expected 2-5 psychotic posts which will be forthcoming?

From: Andria Efthimiou-Mordaunt <AndriaEM@drugscope.org.uk>
Subject: RE: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 4, 2002 at 8:20:00 AM EST
To: “‘ibogaine@mindvox.com'” <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Preston

Is it possible that u could send shorter e-mails for those of us that don’t
have 20 mins per e-mail; they are interesting and thanx but often don’t have
the time for the length

Cheers!

Andria E-Mordaunt
Users Voice ed./John Mordaunt Trust

MON & WEDS – C/O Drugscope,  32 Loman St, London, SE1 OEE, U.K
0+ 44 (0)207 928 1211 Tel
0+ 44 (0)207 922 8780  Fax

andriaem@drugscope.org.uk
or Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk <mailto:Usersvoice.jmt@drugscope.org.uk>

—–Original Message—–
From: preston peet [mailto:ptpeet@nyc.rr.com]
Sent: 03 April 2002 19:54
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans were
selling that nearly killed my wife…<

Most unpleastant those adulterants, eh?
For those interested, here’s a little tale about adulterants.
Peace,
Preston

snip-
She snatches the bundle from his hand without a thank you, then sits on her
bed to prepare a shot.
“Oh yeah. She said to be careful, that it’s strong as hell. So do us both a
favor, and only do one to begin with, would you?” Though he’d blown it off
before, there’s no reason for her not to be careful. She has a bunch of
bags. If one isn’t enough, she can always do more.
She does the same thing he did and ignores the warning, telling him she
knows what she’s doing while tearing open a second bag to dump in the
cooker.
“No, seriously, just do one.” She starts to pour it in. “At least put only
some of that one in there, OK?” For some reason she does as he asks,
stopping when it’s half in the cooker.
As she cooks up, he does the same. He mixes all the dime of coke with most
of the bag of dope. His habit is different than her’s. While he is heavily
strung-out, he will at times get so into coke bingeing he will leave himself
no money for a wake-up bag of heroin. He’s completely into the psychosis of
cocaine, always needing More. The dope is a physical need, while the coke is
purely psychological. This time the fact that he shoots a speedball just may
save his girlfiend’s life.
His girlfiend gets hers into her rig, and hence into her arm before he
does. She moves quickly, with a practiced ease, tying off, booting it
without a hitch. She loosens the scarf, sits back, then the day really goes
all to shit.
“It’s no good, it’s no good!”  She wails at him, her eyes widening and her
face turning bright red. “Don’t do it, Don’t!” She lunges forward trying to
stop him from doing his, but he’s already mixed all of his coke into it. He’
s unable to throw it away. Besides, she may be wrong. It could be fine, or
just weak. He can’t help himself, and shoots his in.
Well, she’s right, it’s no good. He can immediately see and feel, even with
the effects of the coke rushing through him, that whatever it is he bought,
it most definitely is not heroin. He feels a buzzing, vibrating sensation
all over his body, from his head to his toes. His vision goes out of whack,
leaving him unable to bring his eyes into clear focus. It is not a
comfortable, clean high at all, and it isn’t the coke. He instantly thinks
maybe they’ve shot some PCP, or something like it.
His girlfiend meanwhile is beginning to bug out. Repeating over and over
that it’s no good, she starts to thrash around on her bed, as though she
could escape the effects of the drug by moving out of the way. Crawling one
way, then back, she grows more manic, then pukes everything in her stomach
out in one huge spray, coating the TV and all of her tape cassettes in a
thick, dripping film of vomit. Though it appears she should be empty after
this much effluence, it doesn’t stop. She starts to retch and heave,
bringing up the most unhealthy green bile Thomas has ever seen. It gets in
her long, uncombed hair, on her clothes, and spread around in her sheets.
In this psychotic, drug-induced panic, she can’t stop crying and shrieking,
working herself into a state of uncontrollable terror. This goes on. When he
tries to reach out and calm her with a hug, she freaks out completely at his
touch, punching him in the head, howling even louder as she kicks one of her
bookshelves off the wall while struggling to get away from him.
Then she changes gear, going utterly catatonic, sitting on the side of the
bed in the bile and debris staring off into space. He doesn’t know what to
do. She’s not in good shape, but he would rather not call the police. What’s
he going to tell them? That he bought his girlfiend bad drugs? Who knows
what kind of charges they might think up to hit him with? He doesn’t want to
find out.
Then again, she isn’t responding other than to swing at him and shriek each
time he attempts to touch her and get her to communicate. Waving his hand in
front of her eyes gets no response. She looks like she’s peering intently at
something a thousand yards through and behind him. There’s no sign that she
is aware of him being there. Even when she struggles and freaks out at his
touch, she doesn’t seem conscious of him. Having done his own little
portion, he isn’t in great shape either, but the coke appears to have cut it
somehow, allowing him to cope better with the results.
After some serious torment and soul searching, Thomas finds the phone
underneath all the mess, and calls 911. He’s crying, scared to death that he
‘s given his girlfiend some kind of poison, and that now she’s screwed. Not
that she didn’t already have her problems, but now she’s really out there.
He doesn’t know if she’s going to come back. He’s heard all kinds of stories
about people taking too much of one thing or another, and the results.
Thomas waits for the paramedics to show up with all these awful thoughts
running through his mind. She treats him like a dog, but he still cares
about her. If she’s permanently fucked up, he’ll never forgive himself.
Besides all his worries about her mental state, there’s the problem of what
the police are going to say. He’s not even supposed to be in the apartment.
He has been banned from the apartment by her room-mate. He sleeps at the top
of her stairwell some nights, keeping back out of sight, but if her roomie
knows that he’s been inside the apartment she is going to throw a fit. Not
to mention the fact that the police and paramedics are on the way. The
owners of the building own a real estate office on the ground floor. It’s
going to pretty obvious to them there’s something going on in their building
when everyone shows up, lights going, sirens wailing. “Why is this happening
to me,” he wonders. And what’s he going to tell the paramedics when they get
here?
He doesn’t have a long wait. Thomas left the front door ajar so they could
come in when they arrive, and they do. Pushing open the door, first to enter
are two paramedics, a man and a woman, with a couple police officers close
behind.
“Tell us what happened. What’d she take?” The woman paramedic grills him.
“I don’t know what it was, but she didn’t do that much. It was supposed to
be heroin, but I can tell you, it’s not.” Thomas doesn’t want to get charged
with anything, but he wants them to be able to help as well. So he tries to
be honest with her, without telling her or the others that he was the one
who scored the gear.
“Are you going to be able to do something for her? I don’t want her to die.
Please help her.”
“Is she violent?” The woman asks. “I’m not going to touch her if she is. I’
m not going to get bit or scratched by anyone, no way.” Because his
girlfiend has been sitting stationary on the bed for the last fifteen
minutes or so without uttering a peep, Thomas thinks that maybe she’s not
going to freak out anymore.
“No, I think she’s OK now.” He looks at the cops and paramedics standing
outside of the bedroom looking in at his girlfiend but making no move to
enter the room and examine her. “Come on, help her. She’s fucked up.
Somebody do something for her already, please.”
Turning back, he sees her reach out her hand, grasping her fingers at
something none but her can see. Her face is lit up, glowing red, with a tiny
smile on her lips, and that thousand yard stare. She looks possessed.
The two paramedics move past Thomas into the room. There’s not a lot of
space in the room to maneuver, but they manage to get close enough for the
woman to crouch down next to the bed.
“Hey there sweetheart, how you doing? You OK?” Her voice soft and soothing,
the paramedic attempts to communicate with his girlfiend. “We’re here to
help.” The paramedic reaches out and touches her arm.
His girlfiend explodes in a flurry of fists and feet, throwing punches in
all directions, hollering a primal sound, high and piercing. The paramedic
jumps back after receiving a glancing blow to her forehead, and refuses to
go near again.
“Get those cops in here, we’re going to have to subdue her. We can’t touch
her like this.” The two paramedics step back, giving the officers, by now
joined by two more, room to get into the bedroom. There’s little space in
the tiny apartment, much less in the bedroom, but they all push forward,
eager to display their finesse at handling an unruly junkie. The first one
tries to enter the room past Thomas, who sees handcuffs in the cop’s hand.
“Wait a minute, hold on.” Thomas can’t believe they’re going to put cuffs
on her.
“Shut up boy, and step back.” The cop towers over Thomas, trying to
intimidate him, and partially succeeds. “Hey girl, listen up!” The cop
thunders at Thomas’s girlfiend in his best tough-cop voice. “You better
behave or I’m going to put these cuffs on you and drag you out of here by
your hair. Now shape up, and get a grip on yourself. We aren’t playing a
game here.”
Thomas stares at the cop uncomprehending. Did he really say all that just
now? The two paramedics are also staring at the cop, so Thomas suspects he
did.
“You can’t put her in cuffs, man.” Thomas speaks up again, disgusted at the
officer’s callousness. Thomas is having trouble keeping his balance, having
shot the poison as well, but he doesn’t want them to know. “She’s a hundred
pounds, and you guys are going to use cuffs? That’s going to make her even
worse if you go in there all hostile and belligerent. Take it easy. Let me
try to get her calmed enough to at least get her into the kitchen, where
there’s a little more room.” He moves forward and stumbles, falling into
some clothing and boxes by the bedroom door. The woman paramedic helps him
up, trying to get a good look into his eyes.
“You’re not looking so good yourself, kid. You seem like you could use some
medical attention too. Let me take a look at you, make sure you’re alright.”
She seems genuinely interested in helping, but he doesn’t want that. He
wants to stay away from that, so he can take care of his girlfiend, and keep
track of what happens to her. He’s going to have to lock up her place once
this is over, and make sure she gets some clothing because the stuff she has
on isn’t going to cut it. She’s vomited all over herself, and she’s only
wearing a nightgown anyway.
The police manage to get her into the kitchen fairly easily, but once
there, the officers have to manhandle her to keep her still while they tie
her to a stretcher-chair so she can be carried down the stairs, which are
narrow, and steep.
“Help me! No! Get away from me! Help Me!” Squirming and pulling, trying to
throw herself out of their grasp, she lets loose with the most blood
curdling shrieks and screams Thomas has ever heard. Now he knows the meaning
of bloodcurdling scream. He can only watch helplessly as they finish tying
her tightly to the chair, then carry her out the door, all the while
wondering what nightmare is playing in her mind. He feels so terrible, and
sad. He watches them go out the door, then turns back to the bedroom,
grabbing the cleanest jeans and a T-shirt from the mess on the floor, a pair
of boots, and throws it all into his pack. Stepping back into the kitchen,
there stands the girlfiend’s roomie.
. “What in the Hell are you doing in here?!” She really doesn’t like him
what-so-ever, not the least little bit. She’s fuming at the sight of him
standing in her apartment. What with all the cops streaming past her in the
stairs carrying his girlfiend, her room-mate, tied in a chair wailing at the
top of her lungs all the way down the six flights, and the landlord of the
building standing on the landing outside her door when she arrives home, it’
s no wonder she’s mad. “Get the hell out of my apartment! Don’t you ever
show your face here again, damn you!” She points her finger at him. He walks
around her trying to get to the street before they drive away with his
girlfiend.
“I’ll be right back.” He says, then bolts down the stairs, three at a time.
He manages to get out the front door before they leave. They won’t let him
go with her in the ambulance.
“No kid, you can’t go. We’re taking her to St. Vincent’s, so if you want to
meet us there, that’s fine. But you can’t ride with us. Now let us work.”
The paramedic sees the expression on his face, and tries to reassure him.
“Don’t worry, she’s going to be fine.” He’s glad to hear it, but instantly
thinks of the next most immediate problem. He still has to go back upstairs
and get his pack, which he put down by the door and forgot to pick back up
before his sprint downstairs.
After the ambulance drives away, he climbs upstairs, wondering how he’s
going to survive this disaster of a day. The roomie and the landlord are
waiting for him with two of the officers. The four of them do not look happy
when he tops the stairs.
“Where are her keys?” The roomie starts first. “Huh? If you have them you’d
better give them to me right now.” He does have them, planning on closing up
the apartment, not knowing the roomie would be arriving at such an
inopportune moment as she has. He walks into the bedroom, and picks up the
girlfiend’s set of keys.
“Here, I wasn’t going to do anything stupid. You can have them.” He hands
them over, and she checks them.
“Where’s the key to the front door?” Now she’s really upset, more
accusatory. “Give it to me!”
“I don’t have it. I thought it was on that key ring.” He is adamant about
this. He doesn’t want the key, and doesn’t have it as far as he’s concerned.
“No, it’s not here. Officer, tell him he’d better give it to me.” She looks
to one of the cops, the same one who’d threatened his girlfiend earlier.
“That’s right boy. You’d better hand the key over if you have it, or I’m
going to have to search you. If I find it, I’m going to charge you with
attempted burglary. How’s that grab you?” The cops hitches up his utility
belt, sucking in his gut as he cocks his chin up, glaring at Thomas who
feels quite alone.
“I’m telling you all, I don’t have the damned key…,” he trails off upon
reaching into his pocket. He feels a foreign object, and pulls it out with a
sheepish grin. “Well, what do you know. The key.” Seeing their faces,
especially roomie’s, Thomas again insists, “I didn’t remember. Honestly.” He
really doesn’t remember grabbing the key at all, even now that he’s found it
in his own pocket. The drug they shot must be screwing up his brain more
than he’s aware, and it scares him. More than the landlord, who starts in on
him now.
“You have been told not to come around here again, yet you are always here.
The police have been called a couple of times in the last week about you,
but you’ve been gone by the time they arrived. Now I’m telling you to your
face. Don’t come back, you or your junkie girlfiend! You understand me? I’ll
have your ass in jail, both of you if anyone sees either of you here again.”
He glowers at Thomas, who’s aghast. This guy is evicting his girlfiend over
this. This is not good.
“You hear him, boy?” The cop has to put his two cents in, telling Thomas
that he’ll personally take the call if it comes through, that he’ll be glad
to lock him up right now if either of them want to press charges for
trespassing.
Thomas thinks for a moment that they might do it, but after a couple of
heart-stopping seconds, they both shake their heads. Reaching through the
door, Thomas grabs his pack off the floor, and heads downstairs, the roomie’
s voice following after.
“I’m serious, tell her she’s out. She can get her stuff when she gives me
the money she owes me!”
Thomas feels drained, and wobbly. His skinny, undernourished body has
trouble going on. He feels like he could sleep for a week. But he’s nowhere
near sleeping yet. He has to go to the hospital and check on his girlfiend,
but first has to return the poisoned dope, and tell the woman not to sell
anymore to anyone because she might kill them.
He walks unsteadily back to Twelfth and Ave. C, and calls up to the
dealer’s apartment to tell her the news. She’s a decent person, other than
for the fact she deals heroin, and sounds genuinely concerned.
“Bring back what you have left, and I’ll replace it,” she says. “Your girl
must have done more than one. I warned you.”
“No, that’s not it.” He has to keep from raising his voice. “She has a high
tolerance to dope. She didn’t do even two whole bags. The stuff is shit. It’
s poison. Call your connection and tell him that he’s selling you fucking
PCP or something. Don’t you do your own drugs?” He doesn’t want to believe
she would sell him something she knew was bad, but in this business, at this
level, anything is possible.
She denies having tried the dope. He can’t do anything but take her at her
word. She tells him he can bring it up right now, and she’ll take care of
it.
Shit, now he realizes he forgot it sitting in his girlfiend’s bedroom.
“I don’t have it right now. I’ll have to bring it by later.”
“OK, whenever, just call before you come up.” Thomas hopes she means it,
and isn’t just blowing him off.
Hanging up, he now has to get all the way across the city to St. Vincent’s
Hospital at 7th Ave. At least an hour has passed since he started walking,
so his girlfiend is surely admitted into the hospital by now. Within a block
of Ave. C, Thomas sees a young guy getting into his car, and stops to ask if
he’d would be willing to give him a ride to St. Vincent’s. The guy
hesitates, obviously checking out Thomas’s dirty, disheveled appearance, so
Thomas comes right out and tells him why he has to get to the hospital.
“My girlfiend has been admitted for an overdose. I really need to get over
there as fast as possible. Please give me a ride. I’ll give you a dollar
and…,” reaching into his pocket, Thomas pulls out all the change he has,
“…and thirty-two cents. Please man, it’s important.”
“Alright, why not. I’m heading that way anyway. Jump in.” The guy smiles.
Once in the car they drive straight across town. All the way over, the guy
regales Thomas with tales of his own mishaps and problems with drugs, asking
Thomas if he’s ever thought about giving it all up.
“Sure I have, but it’s impossible. There’s no way I can do it. I say all
the time I hate how I’m living and how I really don’t want to be doing this
anymore, but it doesn’t help. I think I’m going to die a junkie. The only
way to get into treatment is getting arrested or having insurance. Besides,
it’s what I do best.”
The guy is quiet, letting Thomas speak, but when he’s done, the guy
answers.
“I was really strung out too, but I’ve been clean four years now. I’ve
never gone back to it. It was difficult, but it wasn’t impossible. I just
really wanted to quit. Have you ever tried meetings?”
Great, a born again drug abuser. To Thomas, these are the most infuriating.
They’re always so understanding, and so goddamned happy. He hates them. He
always feels a complete failure whenever he meets someone who has
successfully kicked the habit. Seeing this guy’s healthy, smiling face,
Thomas gets even more depressed. “Yeah, well, we’ll see. Maybe someday.”
Thomas has gone to meetings in the past, always fucked up or jonesing for
more drugs. Never has he felt he got anything out of a meeting other than
feelings of shame and despair at not fitting in, and repeated comments about
how sick everyone is, no matter how long they’ve stayed clean. That never
has made sense to Thomas.
“Well, here’s my number. If you ever want to go with someone, or if you
just need to talk, feel free. Give me a call.” He hands Thomas a business
card as they pull up to the hospital. “Here we are. Best of luck with
everything. I’ll be praying for you and your girlfiend.” Thomas looks at the
card, but can’t read the printing. The drugs in his system are still
screwing up his vision, making it impossible for him to focus.
Thanking the guy, he climbs out of the car, and tries to give the guy the
dollar and change. The driver laughs it off. “No way man, you keep it. I’m
glad I could help you out. Take care, and give me a call sometime.” He
drives away.
“Excuse me, can you help me? I need to find someone who was admitted here
within the last hour or so. She came in by ambulance for an over-dose.”
Thomas asks at the information desk, still off-balance from whatever it was
they shot up. The woman behind the desk tells him to go around the corner to
the emergency room where they will be able to help him.
In the emergency room, he’s allowed to visit with his girlfiend for just a
minute or two. Then he has to sit in the waiting room until the next
visiting time. He spends the rest of the afternoon waiting in the lobby
area, then going back to the emergency room for ten minutes, then back out
to the lobby for another fifty minutes until the next ten minute visiting
allotment.
The first time in to see her, she doesn’t recognize him. She’s still
staring off into space. The staff have tied her wrists and ankles to the
sides of the bed. Her face is still glowing red and shiny. Her eyes stare at
whatever it is only she can see. When Thomas asks the doctor what she shot,
he tells him they aren’t sure, but that they think she shot some kind of
hallucinogen. That’s no surprise.
“What kind of hallucinogen?” Thomas asks.
“Son, we don’t know exactly. All I can tell you is we can’t do much of
anything for her other than sit and wait for the effects to wear off. She’ll
be here all day, I can tell you that. Now get out of my way. I’ve got some
other people to take care of, people who are really sick.” The doctor turns
and walks away.
The third time Thomas goes in to see her, she gives him a big smile,
saying, “Hey, I know you. Don’t I?” Still tied to the bed, her hands don’t
stop moving, working at the ties holding her trapped. “Can you hand me those
bags?”
“What bags, baby?” He doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
“They’re in my purse, under my leg. I snuck them in with me. Come on, hurry
up. Before they come back.” She tries to reach down alongside of her leg,
but he knows there’s no purse there.
Seeing her in this state makes him feel even worse than before. Is she ever
going to be ok? This keeps running through his mind. Has he driven her crazy
for real? He can’t stand the thought. When he sees a nurse he asks her.
“Well, we’re going to have to just wait and see,” she tell him. “There’s no
way to tell yet, but I think she’ll be fine, once the drugs wear off. Take
it easy, and go sit down. We’ll let you know if there are any changes.”
Back in the lobby of the emergency room, Thomas picks up a magazine,
attempting to read to kill time. Reading was his first drug ever. As a
child, he would read constantly. He’s the only person he’s ever known who
used to get into trouble for reading too much in school. Now though, he can’
t get his eyes to focus on the letters. It looks as though they are turned
around backwards, upside down, as well as being tripled, so the words and
letters are all jumbled together, making it impossible for him to read. If
he holds his hand out in front of his face, he can only begin to focus when
his hand is held out full length. Even then it doesn’t come in completely
clear.
Fed up with trying to read, he goes outside to get something to munch on
with his dollar and change. Grabbing as many twenty-five cent cookies as he
can get, he goes back over to the hospital, and sits outside in the sun to
wait some more.
This has got to be the worst day he’s had in weeks. Maybe it’s time for him
to give up, admit that he can’t take this kind of pain any longer. Always
having to justify his ripping people off. Forever having to scramble for the
next shot. Dodging dogmatic angry cops. Eating at soup kitchens and in
hand-out lines in the park. Wearing anything he can find lying out on the
sidewalk. Carrying all his worldly possessions in a plastic shopping bag.
After today, it just doesn’t seem worth it anymore. Freezing at night, then
having too many clothes to lug around during the day. Scrimping and begging,
counting up the small change, only to get ripped off buying shit that’s no
damn good. He’s seen signs up on the wall at the needle exchange with brand
names of drugs that have killed people, things like KIA, 911, Silver Bullet,
but never has he come across one until today. At least the two of them aren’
t dead, which he supposes is a good thing, but neither of them have any
money for another bag, and they’re both already sick. There’s never a break.
He can’t afford to give himself one.
Each day Thomas does something else he hates to get the drugs, commits some
crime risking arrest, and he hates it. There’s a feeling inside him that he
crossed a line somewhere, and never even saw the thing. Now he has to pay
for all the fucked up things he does to get high, to punish himself. In
order for him to live with these feelings, he continues getting high. It’s
the one sure way to kill the pain of living. This perpetuates the cycle,
always leaving him right back where he started. He doesn’t feel deserving of
a break. He carries on in same old way, never giving himself the chance to
get away from it all, to step back and see clearly that the using drugs to
not deal with emotions and feelings of normal living is what’s hurting him
most.
It’s a very self-centered kind of lifestyle, one that breeds deep,
harrowing loneliness. Wrapped up in his own sorrows, always feeling sorry
for himself, it’s easy to get into the sort of relationship he’s in now.
Yes, he’s very worried about his girlfiend, and wants her to get better, but
then what? He doesn’t love himself at the moment, so how can he presume to
try and love someone else?
Shaking his head to clear these thoughts of introspection and despair from
his mind, he gets to his feet and goes back inside to check on his girlfiend
‘s condition.
She’s almost completely recovered, telling the nurses that she has to go
now, that she has to go to work and can’t hang out any longer. It’s almost
funny hearing her angry, determined voice. He soon realizes she doesn’t
remember any of the incident. She only knows that she was in her apartment,
then tied down to a hospital bed, and doesn’t know how or why. He begins to
explain what happened, but she starts to cry. The nurses come chase him out,
telling him she’ll be able to go in the next hour or so. He walks into the
waiting room to sit and wait some more.
Picking up a newspaper, he’s pleased to find that if he holds the paper
slightly further away than he normally would to read he can focus. Enough to
make out the meaning of words if he tries very hard, squinting and peering
at the pages held out in front of him. It becomes a game in which he tries
to see how close he can get the paper to his face before his focus goes, and
the time passes quickly. Soon a nurse tells him his girlfiend is ready to
go.
Jumping up, he hurries in to help her if she needs it, but she waves him
away. Until this moment, he hasn’t told her much about what happened, other
than for briefly saying something about her going nuts in her bedroom. That’
s what made her cry before, the fact that she had to be carried out on a
stretcher had really frightened her. Now Thomas has to tell her the rest of
it.
They leave the hospital.
“Uh, listen honey. I need to tell you something.” She’s walking slowly,
talking about trudging over to her place where she has some more cash,
copping a bag, then going on to work. “Your room-mate and the landlord took
your keys. They said you were out of the place, that they were evicting
you.” He doesn’t mention the threat of the police yet.
She goes ballistic.
“What do you mean,” she cries out. “They can’t do that, it’s not fucking
legal! I pay my rent! I have all my stuff in there. Fucking bitch, I’ll kill
her if she tries anything like that! She cannot lock me out of my own place!
Come on, lets go.” She turns and starts to march off towards her apartment,
down 7th Ave.
. “Wait up! They said that they would call the cops if you or I showed up
there. Don’t do it honey!” He yells after her. She stops for a second,
taking in what he’s said.
“They can go ahead and call the fucking cops! It’s my place, and I have the
receipts for my rent too. You, yes, they can arrest you, but me, they can’t
fucking touch me! I’m going home.” She turns and walks off, leaving him
standing there.
“What the hell do you want me to do?” He calls to her. She yells back over
her shoulder without turning.
“Do whatever you want, I don’t fucking care!” She keeps walking. “Don’t
come by, and wait a few days to phone me. I’ll see you later.”
He stands there on the sidewalk, watching her walk away. She’s amazingly
spry for having spent the day tied to a hospital bed completely out of her
head. She isn’t at all concerned with that. All she can think about is going
and having it out with her room-mate, getting herself straight, and getting
to work so that she will have money to get straight tomorrow. This is what
both their lives have come down to. Getting fucked up, because they’re so
miserable with their lives. To get away from that self-hatred, and to cope
with the frustration, they do more drugs. She doesn’t thank him for staying
with her all day, nor does she get angry at him for bringing her bad dope.
She really doesn’t care about much of anything anymore, and neither has he
for quite some time. The scare is over. Now he has to go and make himself a
score. No time to ponder the depressing ironies of it all, he walks into
what has become the night, to cop another bag.

—– Original Message —–
From: “Gamma” <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 03, 2002 1:17 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

— “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 12:55:41PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve
experiemented
| with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly
sweet
| taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
| ‘floatier’)

Uhm, otay.  I’m willing to take your word on that, and not test it out
myself.  Sounds, uhm, splendid n stuff.

hmmm… never tried that one. but hey just imagine all the metals/oils
being
smoked offa dat aluminum foil! bionic lungs!

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans were
selling that nearly killed my wife…

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From: “Kelli Deva” <x_deva_x@hotmail.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] still bouncing?
Date: April 4, 2002 at 3:01:10 AM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

 

I am hoping since i did receive your e-mail that i am still on your mailing list.  Am i?
I had gone over my storage limit, maybe that’s why they were bouncing.  (or maybe a killer song was playin…) (wink wink)
let me know….

I wuv ya!!!
…and remember! I AM the only Booger you know…
-me-

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DON’T
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for Jason, Jessie and Damien!

Help B-4 it’s too late!

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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 3, 2002 at 11:38:31 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it.
Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most
confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t healed me
or cured anything.

now that you’ve figured out it isn’t a “cure” you’re on the right track.
Healing and Curing come from the inside, not a “magic pill” (which Ibogaine is
NOT).

I did ibogaine in Florida not with Dr. Mash. thank god for that it saved me
$7,000 for nothing.

Also very curious what the circumstances/doseage/variety of Ibo, etc.

I see the ibogaine crew at the NA meetings, no big changes I can find.

Really? a whole Crew of Ibogainers at an NA meeting? Cool. Must make for some
interesting shares. I guess not all of them are back in rehab then.

um, someone once told me a long time ago:

“Ibogaine is not for the meek”

-d

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 3, 2002 at 8:32:05 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

The legalization movement is engaged in a little concerted effort to
suppress the fact of ibogaine’s existence. I counter that by sending out the
tape to everyone who signs up for the MMM.
That’s working. Consider the following, from some one relatively high up in
NORML who never even heard of it because of Stroup, Nadelman and High
Times:<

Hey there Dana,
I think you know by now I do my best to stay out of intermovement
politics, but I gotta say, I’m sitting here flipping through the May 2002
issue of High Times, and lo and behold, there you are with a half a page,
Freedom Fighter of the Month, Ibogaine mentioned in the very first sentence,
and then again in an entire paragraph, (ok, granted, this isn’t really a
heck of a lot, like a cover story or anything, but still…) later in the
piece, by Ashley Fearless, (bless her.)
You do a lot of work, you make a lot of noise, you piss off a lot of
people, and seem to impress a good number of people too. And while I hear
you often mention this person or that is mad at you, or uncooperative, you
still get the message out you want to get out. I think there’s many avenues
to take ( IMHO) in the waging war on the War, and yours doesn’t always mesh
with others’. So what? We can’t all work on the same issues all the time,
right?
Just keep doing what you’re doing, and don’t worry about NORML or High
Times, or anyone.
And, you know what? I don’t think there’s ever been even one time I’ve
spoken to you, or heard you speak, when Ibogaine wasn’t mentioned,
regardless of the situation, place, or time, so I don’t think you’ve got to
worry about anyone suppressing the fact of ibogaine’s existence. When your
name is mentioned by anyone I know in any context, so too is Ibogaine my
friend.;-)))
Peace,
Preston

—– Original Message —–
From: “Dana Beal” <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 02, 2002 7:12 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and
ibogaine…)

On [Sat, Mar 30, 2002 at 05:00:53PM -0800], [Dana Beal] wrote:

| Yeah, but if you’d done the Ibogaine, you could have written it up
| for High Times (they’re not supportive of Ibogaine; in fact, Steve

Valid point.

| Stroup) and saying the Ibogaine advocacy proves I’m crazy.

Look, that’s just rationalizing.  Surely they don’t need ibogaine to
prove
this theory Dana <insert emoticon>.

Patrick

The legalization movement is engaged in a little concerted effort to
suppress the fact of ibogaine’s existence. I counter that by sending
out the tape to everyone who signs up for the MMM.

That’s working. Consider the following, from some one relatively high
up in NORML who never even heard of it because of Stroup, Nadelman
and High Times:

Delivered-To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
Delivered-To: cnw@cures-not-wars.org
From: “Daniel Klock” <trulythc@msn.com>
To: <cnw@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: PA NORML thanks you
Date: Mon, 1 Apr 2002 03:17:43 -0500
X-Priority: 3
X-OriginalArrivalTime: 01 Apr 2002 08:02:19.0902 (UTC)
FILETIME=[8C1899E0:01C1D953]
Status:

Hello. I wanted to say thank you for the package I received it the
other day in the mail. I didn’t know about Ibogaine. I am floored and
not suprised at the same time… is that possible?! I will be posting
your logo on the home page of
<http://www.grassmusic.tv>www.grassmusic.tv which is my grand pappy
project.

I will be going to KY for the MMM hosted by Cher and Brian. I have
become very close friends over the past year. They are such special
people. I have a grassmusic show on pot tv and was wondering if
anyone from cnw’s will be there. I would love to add a segment for
the next show of your group.

I haven’t talked to Cher about all of the org’s coming to her march,
she may have mentioned that you were coming but it flew over my head
because we were talking about so much.

Okay well… hope to talk to you soon.

Bye-bye,
Daniel Klock II
Executive Director
Pennsylvania NORML
<http://www.panorml.org>http://www.panorml.org
1-814-944-8440
<mailto:trulythc@msn.com>trulythc@msn.com

Create and Trade Homegrown Pot Tunes
<http://www.grassmusic.tv>http://www.grassmusic.tv

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 3, 2002 at 6:23:07 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 03:15:30PM -0700], [Christopher Clarke] wrote:

| I’m not holding this in anymore let me share some of my opinions.

Yes, but, how do you REALLY feel…?

<Many words, sadly, now lost>

| That doesn’t work so good either last time I saw Tracy she was
| smashingher “boyfriend’s” rolls royce into the wall of a building at a
| NA meeting and didn’t stop even when the police got there. Maybe she had
| a reason looks like he beat her halfway to death. She was someone who
| was taking your “advice” another winner.

Uhm, see, this is like How to Be a Recovery Snitch 101 (No, no, no, you’re
just Telling on Your Disease!  And if you don’t know, just make it up as
you go along).

Tracy has never done ibogaine.  Yeah I know her, yeah I’ve hung out with
her, yeah I suggested she try it … no, she didn’t want to, “I hate
hallucinogens, besides I don’t have a problem.”

The car she wrecked was a Bentley, one of her dad’s, who collects them.
If any guy attempted to beat her up, he’d prolly find himself stabbed to
death.  The reason she looks “beat halfway to death” some of the time, is
‘cuz she used to run track in high school and win trophies.  While she was
already strung-out at that point in time, she was not yet eating Xanax
like M&M’s and wearing stiletto heels.  The latter two appear to
occasionally Throw Her Off Balance, when she runs from the cops, causing
her to do a truly spectacular swan dive onto cement.

This is why she walks around covered in scabs and bruises.

Or rather, did.  Her dad had her Baker-acted twice, when that didn’t work
out, Marshman-acted, and she’s been in some lock-down rehab in California
for nearly a year.

| I could go on for many examples but once you add up all the people all
| the advice and all the ibogaine what’s left. You. Some cure. And what
| you have to say about addiction is so useful that your entire site is
| banned from at least 3 rehabs I know of, look at Mindvox and relapse.

Truly I wield awesome power.

| Natch they don’t need Mindvox for that, all the ibogaine grads sitting
| in rehab are on year 2 or 3 with their 45 relapses and still sitting in
| rehab. What progress.

They’re sitting and spinning in rehab for years at a time, because this is
their career.  Were they ever to “get better,” their parents and/or
executors might expect them to do something else; like go get a job for
instance.

With some few exceptions — who are there for legal reasons — 99% of the
people in rehab, could walk out of there.  The catch is, it amounts to,
“you can go do rehab, or you can go get a job.”  The answer — nearly 100%
of the time, is: oh my god, I am so totally working the 12 steps!  Yeah!
Recovery!  Therapy!  Where’s my allowance?

Patrick

p.s., Lemme take a wild guess here…  The new HT came out and this is
Letter [01] of the expected 2-5 psychotic posts which will be forthcoming?

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 3, 2002 at 5:57:05 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/3/02 5:16:45 PM, chrisclarke2@lycos.com writes:

I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t healed me or cured anything.

Can you describe the effects of the ibogaine.  For what reason did you take
it and do you know the dose you were given and which form of the drug?

Thanks

Howard

From: Carrie Rollins <carrierollins@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 3, 2002 at 5:47:15 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hi, if I may say so  fuck you.
Did I mention fuck off?
I am not ‘some junkie girl’ asshole. You don’t know the first thing about me. I wrote that letter to this list and to heroin times not for publication. He didn’t ask me if it was ok to print it. It would have been but that’s my business anyway.
What is it that you do that’s sooo great?
-carrie
Christopher Clarke <chrisclarke2@lycos.com> wrote:
I’m not holding this in anymore let me share some of my opinions.

Heroin Times is some pile of garbage rag which recycles the same articles 10 times in some attempt to sell ad space to detoxes and lawyers. The only thing it does for you Patrick is offers a endless chance to keep promoting ibogaine.

I’d say that’s the only reason you write for it except whatever the hell Mindvox is and whoever is reading it there are sure a lot of them and you rank 150,000 places higher then heroin times so I don’t know what your motivations are unless the publisher is paying you which is more then he’s doing for anyone else.

I forgot it also lets some collection of junkie girls write you fan mail.
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From: “Christopher Clarke” <chrisclarke2@lycos.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Ibogaine
Date: April 3, 2002 at 5:15:30 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I’m not holding this in anymore let me share some of my opinions.

Heroin Times is some pile of garbage rag which recycles the same articles 10 times in some attempt to sell ad space to detoxes and lawyers. The only thing it does for you Patrick is offers a endless chance to keep promoting ibogaine.

I’d say that’s the only reason you write for it except whatever the hell Mindvox is and whoever is reading it there are sure a lot of them and you rank 150,000 places higher then heroin times so I don’t know what your motivations are unless the publisher is paying you which is more then he’s doing for anyone else.

I forgot it also lets some collection of junkie girls write you fan mail.

Which is my main point. You’re nuts that’s the beginning and end of it. Period. The rest of the ibogain crew I don’t know what they are at most confused and worst ripping people off. I’ve done ibogaine it hasn’t healed me or cured anything.

I did ibogaine in Florida not with Dr. Mash. thank god for that it saved me $7,000 for nothing. I see the ibogaine crew at the NA meetings, no big changes I can find. You’re not even present in the first place, you’re some mythical figure who Dr. Mash dumps in front of the cameras and introduces as her son and everyone else introduces as the devil.

of course nobody cares until they meet you then if they’re women suddenly you’re so special and intelligent and have so much to share. Yeah right. You’re 6’2″ and “cute” and they want someone to be codependent on.

That doesn’t work so good either last time I saw Tracy she was smashingher “boyfriend’s” rolls royce into the wall of a building at a NA meeting and didn’t stop even when the police got there. Maybe she had a reason looks like he beat her halfway to death. She was someone who was taking your “advice” another winner.

I could go on for many examples but once you add up all the people all the advice and all the ibogaine what’s left. You. Some cure. And what you have to say about addiction is so useful that your entire site is banned from at least 3 rehabs I know of, look at Mindvox and relapse.

Natch they don’t need Mindvox for that, all the ibogaine grads sitting in rehab are on year 2 or 3 with their 45 relapses and still sitting in rehab. What progress.

/CC

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From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The War on Pain Relief, by Cletus Nelson @ Drugwar.com
Date: April 3, 2002 at 2:02:14 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I learned that NY State had mandated pain medication for cancer
patients.  Now, of course that leaves a whole lot of people out in the
storm.<

Hey Howard,
Thanks for the headsup on the pain/chemical dependence conference. Also,
I was unaware of this NY law, and you are right, mandating sufficient pain
treatment to cancer patients only leaves a lot of people still struggling.
Peace,
Preston (treated for leukemia? Hope you’re doing alright now.)

—– Original Message —–
From: <HSLotsof@aol.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Tuesday, April 02, 2002 7:44 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The War on Pain Relief, by Cletus Nelson @
Drugwar.com

In a message dated 4/2/02 7:11:04 PM, ptpeet@nyc.rr.com writes:

Drugwar.com has published a new article by Cletus Nelson on the US
feds’
war on US doctors who insist on treating people’s pain with adequate
medications, literally sentencing millions of US citizens to lives of
unnecessary misery and despair.

Peace,
Preston Peet
Editor www.drugwar.com

Hey Preston,

On the upside there is a very interesting conference on pain and chemical
dependence.
<http://www.painandchemicaldependency.org/> and, while being treated for
leukemia, I learned that NY State had mandated pain medication for cancer
patients.  Now, of course that leaves a whole lot of people out in the
storm.

Howard

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 3, 2002 at 1:54:12 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans were
selling that nearly killed my wife…<

Most unpleastant those adulterants, eh?
For those interested, here’s a little tale about adulterants.
Peace,
Preston

snip-
She snatches the bundle from his hand without a thank you, then sits on her
bed to prepare a shot.
“Oh yeah. She said to be careful, that it’s strong as hell. So do us both a
favor, and only do one to begin with, would you?” Though he’d blown it off
before, there’s no reason for her not to be careful. She has a bunch of
bags. If one isn’t enough, she can always do more.
She does the same thing he did and ignores the warning, telling him she
knows what she’s doing while tearing open a second bag to dump in the
cooker.
“No, seriously, just do one.” She starts to pour it in. “At least put only
some of that one in there, OK?” For some reason she does as he asks,
stopping when it’s half in the cooker.
As she cooks up, he does the same. He mixes all the dime of coke with most
of the bag of dope. His habit is different than her’s. While he is heavily
strung-out, he will at times get so into coke bingeing he will leave himself
no money for a wake-up bag of heroin. He’s completely into the psychosis of
cocaine, always needing More. The dope is a physical need, while the coke is
purely psychological. This time the fact that he shoots a speedball just may
save his girlfiend’s life.
His girlfiend gets hers into her rig, and hence into her arm before he
does. She moves quickly, with a practiced ease, tying off, booting it
without a hitch. She loosens the scarf, sits back, then the day really goes
all to shit.
“It’s no good, it’s no good!”  She wails at him, her eyes widening and her
face turning bright red. “Don’t do it, Don’t!” She lunges forward trying to
stop him from doing his, but he’s already mixed all of his coke into it. He’
s unable to throw it away. Besides, she may be wrong. It could be fine, or
just weak. He can’t help himself, and shoots his in.
Well, she’s right, it’s no good. He can immediately see and feel, even with
the effects of the coke rushing through him, that whatever it is he bought,
it most definitely is not heroin. He feels a buzzing, vibrating sensation
all over his body, from his head to his toes. His vision goes out of whack,
leaving him unable to bring his eyes into clear focus. It is not a
comfortable, clean high at all, and it isn’t the coke. He instantly thinks
maybe they’ve shot some PCP, or something like it.
His girlfiend meanwhile is beginning to bug out. Repeating over and over
that it’s no good, she starts to thrash around on her bed, as though she
could escape the effects of the drug by moving out of the way. Crawling one
way, then back, she grows more manic, then pukes everything in her stomach
out in one huge spray, coating the TV and all of her tape cassettes in a
thick, dripping film of vomit. Though it appears she should be empty after
this much effluence, it doesn’t stop. She starts to retch and heave,
bringing up the most unhealthy green bile Thomas has ever seen. It gets in
her long, uncombed hair, on her clothes, and spread around in her sheets.
In this psychotic, drug-induced panic, she can’t stop crying and shrieking,
working herself into a state of uncontrollable terror. This goes on. When he
tries to reach out and calm her with a hug, she freaks out completely at his
touch, punching him in the head, howling even louder as she kicks one of her
bookshelves off the wall while struggling to get away from him.
Then she changes gear, going utterly catatonic, sitting on the side of the
bed in the bile and debris staring off into space. He doesn’t know what to
do. She’s not in good shape, but he would rather not call the police. What’s
he going to tell them? That he bought his girlfiend bad drugs? Who knows
what kind of charges they might think up to hit him with? He doesn’t want to
find out.
Then again, she isn’t responding other than to swing at him and shriek each
time he attempts to touch her and get her to communicate. Waving his hand in
front of her eyes gets no response. She looks like she’s peering intently at
something a thousand yards through and behind him. There’s no sign that she
is aware of him being there. Even when she struggles and freaks out at his
touch, she doesn’t seem conscious of him. Having done his own little
portion, he isn’t in great shape either, but the coke appears to have cut it
somehow, allowing him to cope better with the results.
After some serious torment and soul searching, Thomas finds the phone
underneath all the mess, and calls 911. He’s crying, scared to death that he
‘s given his girlfiend some kind of poison, and that now she’s screwed. Not
that she didn’t already have her problems, but now she’s really out there.
He doesn’t know if she’s going to come back. He’s heard all kinds of stories
about people taking too much of one thing or another, and the results.
Thomas waits for the paramedics to show up with all these awful thoughts
running through his mind. She treats him like a dog, but he still cares
about her. If she’s permanently fucked up, he’ll never forgive himself.
Besides all his worries about her mental state, there’s the problem of what
the police are going to say. He’s not even supposed to be in the apartment.
He has been banned from the apartment by her room-mate. He sleeps at the top
of her stairwell some nights, keeping back out of sight, but if her roomie
knows that he’s been inside the apartment she is going to throw a fit. Not
to mention the fact that the police and paramedics are on the way. The
owners of the building own a real estate office on the ground floor. It’s
going to pretty obvious to them there’s something going on in their building
when everyone shows up, lights going, sirens wailing. “Why is this happening
to me,” he wonders. And what’s he going to tell the paramedics when they get
here?
He doesn’t have a long wait. Thomas left the front door ajar so they could
come in when they arrive, and they do. Pushing open the door, first to enter
are two paramedics, a man and a woman, with a couple police officers close
behind.
“Tell us what happened. What’d she take?” The woman paramedic grills him.
“I don’t know what it was, but she didn’t do that much. It was supposed to
be heroin, but I can tell you, it’s not.” Thomas doesn’t want to get charged
with anything, but he wants them to be able to help as well. So he tries to
be honest with her, without telling her or the others that he was the one
who scored the gear.
“Are you going to be able to do something for her? I don’t want her to die.
Please help her.”
“Is she violent?” The woman asks. “I’m not going to touch her if she is. I’
m not going to get bit or scratched by anyone, no way.” Because his
girlfiend has been sitting stationary on the bed for the last fifteen
minutes or so without uttering a peep, Thomas thinks that maybe she’s not
going to freak out anymore.
“No, I think she’s OK now.” He looks at the cops and paramedics standing
outside of the bedroom looking in at his girlfiend but making no move to
enter the room and examine her. “Come on, help her. She’s fucked up.
Somebody do something for her already, please.”
Turning back, he sees her reach out her hand, grasping her fingers at
something none but her can see. Her face is lit up, glowing red, with a tiny
smile on her lips, and that thousand yard stare. She looks possessed.
The two paramedics move past Thomas into the room. There’s not a lot of
space in the room to maneuver, but they manage to get close enough for the
woman to crouch down next to the bed.
“Hey there sweetheart, how you doing? You OK?” Her voice soft and soothing,
the paramedic attempts to communicate with his girlfiend. “We’re here to
help.” The paramedic reaches out and touches her arm.
His girlfiend explodes in a flurry of fists and feet, throwing punches in
all directions, hollering a primal sound, high and piercing. The paramedic
jumps back after receiving a glancing blow to her forehead, and refuses to
go near again.
“Get those cops in here, we’re going to have to subdue her. We can’t touch
her like this.” The two paramedics step back, giving the officers, by now
joined by two more, room to get into the bedroom. There’s little space in
the tiny apartment, much less in the bedroom, but they all push forward,
eager to display their finesse at handling an unruly junkie. The first one
tries to enter the room past Thomas, who sees handcuffs in the cop’s hand.
“Wait a minute, hold on.” Thomas can’t believe they’re going to put cuffs
on her.
“Shut up boy, and step back.” The cop towers over Thomas, trying to
intimidate him, and partially succeeds. “Hey girl, listen up!” The cop
thunders at Thomas’s girlfiend in his best tough-cop voice. “You better
behave or I’m going to put these cuffs on you and drag you out of here by
your hair. Now shape up, and get a grip on yourself. We aren’t playing a
game here.”
Thomas stares at the cop uncomprehending. Did he really say all that just
now? The two paramedics are also staring at the cop, so Thomas suspects he
did.
“You can’t put her in cuffs, man.” Thomas speaks up again, disgusted at the
officer’s callousness. Thomas is having trouble keeping his balance, having
shot the poison as well, but he doesn’t want them to know. “She’s a hundred
pounds, and you guys are going to use cuffs? That’s going to make her even
worse if you go in there all hostile and belligerent. Take it easy. Let me
try to get her calmed enough to at least get her into the kitchen, where
there’s a little more room.” He moves forward and stumbles, falling into
some clothing and boxes by the bedroom door. The woman paramedic helps him
up, trying to get a good look into his eyes.
“You’re not looking so good yourself, kid. You seem like you could use some
medical attention too. Let me take a look at you, make sure you’re alright.”
She seems genuinely interested in helping, but he doesn’t want that. He
wants to stay away from that, so he can take care of his girlfiend, and keep
track of what happens to her. He’s going to have to lock up her place once
this is over, and make sure she gets some clothing because the stuff she has
on isn’t going to cut it. She’s vomited all over herself, and she’s only
wearing a nightgown anyway.
The police manage to get her into the kitchen fairly easily, but once
there, the officers have to manhandle her to keep her still while they tie
her to a stretcher-chair so she can be carried down the stairs, which are
narrow, and steep.
“Help me! No! Get away from me! Help Me!” Squirming and pulling, trying to
throw herself out of their grasp, she lets loose with the most blood
curdling shrieks and screams Thomas has ever heard. Now he knows the meaning
of bloodcurdling scream. He can only watch helplessly as they finish tying
her tightly to the chair, then carry her out the door, all the while
wondering what nightmare is playing in her mind. He feels so terrible, and
sad. He watches them go out the door, then turns back to the bedroom,
grabbing the cleanest jeans and a T-shirt from the mess on the floor, a pair
of boots, and throws it all into his pack. Stepping back into the kitchen,
there stands the girlfiend’s roomie.
. “What in the Hell are you doing in here?!” She really doesn’t like him
what-so-ever, not the least little bit. She’s fuming at the sight of him
standing in her apartment. What with all the cops streaming past her in the
stairs carrying his girlfiend, her room-mate, tied in a chair wailing at the
top of her lungs all the way down the six flights, and the landlord of the
building standing on the landing outside her door when she arrives home, it’
s no wonder she’s mad. “Get the hell out of my apartment! Don’t you ever
show your face here again, damn you!” She points her finger at him. He walks
around her trying to get to the street before they drive away with his
girlfiend.
“I’ll be right back.” He says, then bolts down the stairs, three at a time.
He manages to get out the front door before they leave. They won’t let him
go with her in the ambulance.
“No kid, you can’t go. We’re taking her to St. Vincent’s, so if you want to
meet us there, that’s fine. But you can’t ride with us. Now let us work.”
The paramedic sees the expression on his face, and tries to reassure him.
“Don’t worry, she’s going to be fine.” He’s glad to hear it, but instantly
thinks of the next most immediate problem. He still has to go back upstairs
and get his pack, which he put down by the door and forgot to pick back up
before his sprint downstairs.
After the ambulance drives away, he climbs upstairs, wondering how he’s
going to survive this disaster of a day. The roomie and the landlord are
waiting for him with two of the officers. The four of them do not look happy
when he tops the stairs.
“Where are her keys?” The roomie starts first. “Huh? If you have them you’d
better give them to me right now.” He does have them, planning on closing up
the apartment, not knowing the roomie would be arriving at such an
inopportune moment as she has. He walks into the bedroom, and picks up the
girlfiend’s set of keys.
“Here, I wasn’t going to do anything stupid. You can have them.” He hands
them over, and she checks them.
“Where’s the key to the front door?” Now she’s really upset, more
accusatory. “Give it to me!”
“I don’t have it. I thought it was on that key ring.” He is adamant about
this. He doesn’t want the key, and doesn’t have it as far as he’s concerned.
“No, it’s not here. Officer, tell him he’d better give it to me.” She looks
to one of the cops, the same one who’d threatened his girlfiend earlier.
“That’s right boy. You’d better hand the key over if you have it, or I’m
going to have to search you. If I find it, I’m going to charge you with
attempted burglary. How’s that grab you?” The cops hitches up his utility
belt, sucking in his gut as he cocks his chin up, glaring at Thomas who
feels quite alone.
“I’m telling you all, I don’t have the damned key…,” he trails off upon
reaching into his pocket. He feels a foreign object, and pulls it out with a
sheepish grin. “Well, what do you know. The key.” Seeing their faces,
especially roomie’s, Thomas again insists, “I didn’t remember. Honestly.” He
really doesn’t remember grabbing the key at all, even now that he’s found it
in his own pocket. The drug they shot must be screwing up his brain more
than he’s aware, and it scares him. More than the landlord, who starts in on
him now.
“You have been told not to come around here again, yet you are always here.
The police have been called a couple of times in the last week about you,
but you’ve been gone by the time they arrived. Now I’m telling you to your
face. Don’t come back, you or your junkie girlfiend! You understand me? I’ll
have your ass in jail, both of you if anyone sees either of you here again.”
He glowers at Thomas, who’s aghast. This guy is evicting his girlfiend over
this. This is not good.
“You hear him, boy?” The cop has to put his two cents in, telling Thomas
that he’ll personally take the call if it comes through, that he’ll be glad
to lock him up right now if either of them want to press charges for
trespassing.
Thomas thinks for a moment that they might do it, but after a couple of
heart-stopping seconds, they both shake their heads. Reaching through the
door, Thomas grabs his pack off the floor, and heads downstairs, the roomie’
s voice following after.
“I’m serious, tell her she’s out. She can get her stuff when she gives me
the money she owes me!”
Thomas feels drained, and wobbly. His skinny, undernourished body has
trouble going on. He feels like he could sleep for a week. But he’s nowhere
near sleeping yet. He has to go to the hospital and check on his girlfiend,
but first has to return the poisoned dope, and tell the woman not to sell
anymore to anyone because she might kill them.
He walks unsteadily back to Twelfth and Ave. C, and calls up to the
dealer’s apartment to tell her the news. She’s a decent person, other than
for the fact she deals heroin, and sounds genuinely concerned.
“Bring back what you have left, and I’ll replace it,” she says. “Your girl
must have done more than one. I warned you.”
“No, that’s not it.” He has to keep from raising his voice. “She has a high
tolerance to dope. She didn’t do even two whole bags. The stuff is shit. It’
s poison. Call your connection and tell him that he’s selling you fucking
PCP or something. Don’t you do your own drugs?” He doesn’t want to believe
she would sell him something she knew was bad, but in this business, at this
level, anything is possible.
She denies having tried the dope. He can’t do anything but take her at her
word. She tells him he can bring it up right now, and she’ll take care of
it.
Shit, now he realizes he forgot it sitting in his girlfiend’s bedroom.
“I don’t have it right now. I’ll have to bring it by later.”
“OK, whenever, just call before you come up.” Thomas hopes she means it,
and isn’t just blowing him off.
Hanging up, he now has to get all the way across the city to St. Vincent’s
Hospital at 7th Ave. At least an hour has passed since he started walking,
so his girlfiend is surely admitted into the hospital by now. Within a block
of Ave. C, Thomas sees a young guy getting into his car, and stops to ask if
he’d would be willing to give him a ride to St. Vincent’s. The guy
hesitates, obviously checking out Thomas’s dirty, disheveled appearance, so
Thomas comes right out and tells him why he has to get to the hospital.
“My girlfiend has been admitted for an overdose. I really need to get over
there as fast as possible. Please give me a ride. I’ll give you a dollar
and…,” reaching into his pocket, Thomas pulls out all the change he has,
“…and thirty-two cents. Please man, it’s important.”
“Alright, why not. I’m heading that way anyway. Jump in.” The guy smiles.
Once in the car they drive straight across town. All the way over, the guy
regales Thomas with tales of his own mishaps and problems with drugs, asking
Thomas if he’s ever thought about giving it all up.
“Sure I have, but it’s impossible. There’s no way I can do it. I say all
the time I hate how I’m living and how I really don’t want to be doing this
anymore, but it doesn’t help. I think I’m going to die a junkie. The only
way to get into treatment is getting arrested or having insurance. Besides,
it’s what I do best.”
The guy is quiet, letting Thomas speak, but when he’s done, the guy
answers.
“I was really strung out too, but I’ve been clean four years now. I’ve
never gone back to it. It was difficult, but it wasn’t impossible. I just
really wanted to quit. Have you ever tried meetings?”
Great, a born again drug abuser. To Thomas, these are the most infuriating.
They’re always so understanding, and so goddamned happy. He hates them. He
always feels a complete failure whenever he meets someone who has
successfully kicked the habit. Seeing this guy’s healthy, smiling face,
Thomas gets even more depressed. “Yeah, well, we’ll see. Maybe someday.”
Thomas has gone to meetings in the past, always fucked up or jonesing for
more drugs. Never has he felt he got anything out of a meeting other than
feelings of shame and despair at not fitting in, and repeated comments about
how sick everyone is, no matter how long they’ve stayed clean. That never
has made sense to Thomas.
“Well, here’s my number. If you ever want to go with someone, or if you
just need to talk, feel free. Give me a call.” He hands Thomas a business
card as they pull up to the hospital. “Here we are. Best of luck with
everything. I’ll be praying for you and your girlfiend.” Thomas looks at the
card, but can’t read the printing. The drugs in his system are still
screwing up his vision, making it impossible for him to focus.
Thanking the guy, he climbs out of the car, and tries to give the guy the
dollar and change. The driver laughs it off. “No way man, you keep it. I’m
glad I could help you out. Take care, and give me a call sometime.” He
drives away.
“Excuse me, can you help me? I need to find someone who was admitted here
within the last hour or so. She came in by ambulance for an over-dose.”
Thomas asks at the information desk, still off-balance from whatever it was
they shot up. The woman behind the desk tells him to go around the corner to
the emergency room where they will be able to help him.
In the emergency room, he’s allowed to visit with his girlfiend for just a
minute or two. Then he has to sit in the waiting room until the next
visiting time. He spends the rest of the afternoon waiting in the lobby
area, then going back to the emergency room for ten minutes, then back out
to the lobby for another fifty minutes until the next ten minute visiting
allotment.
The first time in to see her, she doesn’t recognize him. She’s still
staring off into space. The staff have tied her wrists and ankles to the
sides of the bed. Her face is still glowing red and shiny. Her eyes stare at
whatever it is only she can see. When Thomas asks the doctor what she shot,
he tells him they aren’t sure, but that they think she shot some kind of
hallucinogen. That’s no surprise.
“What kind of hallucinogen?” Thomas asks.
“Son, we don’t know exactly. All I can tell you is we can’t do much of
anything for her other than sit and wait for the effects to wear off. She’ll
be here all day, I can tell you that. Now get out of my way. I’ve got some
other people to take care of, people who are really sick.” The doctor turns
and walks away.
The third time Thomas goes in to see her, she gives him a big smile,
saying, “Hey, I know you. Don’t I?” Still tied to the bed, her hands don’t
stop moving, working at the ties holding her trapped. “Can you hand me those
bags?”
“What bags, baby?” He doesn’t know what she’s talking about.
“They’re in my purse, under my leg. I snuck them in with me. Come on, hurry
up. Before they come back.” She tries to reach down alongside of her leg,
but he knows there’s no purse there.
Seeing her in this state makes him feel even worse than before. Is she ever
going to be ok? This keeps running through his mind. Has he driven her crazy
for real? He can’t stand the thought. When he sees a nurse he asks her.
“Well, we’re going to have to just wait and see,” she tell him. “There’s no
way to tell yet, but I think she’ll be fine, once the drugs wear off. Take
it easy, and go sit down. We’ll let you know if there are any changes.”
Back in the lobby of the emergency room, Thomas picks up a magazine,
attempting to read to kill time. Reading was his first drug ever. As a
child, he would read constantly. He’s the only person he’s ever known who
used to get into trouble for reading too much in school. Now though, he can’
t get his eyes to focus on the letters. It looks as though they are turned
around backwards, upside down, as well as being tripled, so the words and
letters are all jumbled together, making it impossible for him to read. If
he holds his hand out in front of his face, he can only begin to focus when
his hand is held out full length. Even then it doesn’t come in completely
clear.
Fed up with trying to read, he goes outside to get something to munch on
with his dollar and change. Grabbing as many twenty-five cent cookies as he
can get, he goes back over to the hospital, and sits outside in the sun to
wait some more.
This has got to be the worst day he’s had in weeks. Maybe it’s time for him
to give up, admit that he can’t take this kind of pain any longer. Always
having to justify his ripping people off. Forever having to scramble for the
next shot. Dodging dogmatic angry cops. Eating at soup kitchens and in
hand-out lines in the park. Wearing anything he can find lying out on the
sidewalk. Carrying all his worldly possessions in a plastic shopping bag.
After today, it just doesn’t seem worth it anymore. Freezing at night, then
having too many clothes to lug around during the day. Scrimping and begging,
counting up the small change, only to get ripped off buying shit that’s no
damn good. He’s seen signs up on the wall at the needle exchange with brand
names of drugs that have killed people, things like KIA, 911, Silver Bullet,
but never has he come across one until today. At least the two of them aren’
t dead, which he supposes is a good thing, but neither of them have any
money for another bag, and they’re both already sick. There’s never a break.
He can’t afford to give himself one.
Each day Thomas does something else he hates to get the drugs, commits some
crime risking arrest, and he hates it. There’s a feeling inside him that he
crossed a line somewhere, and never even saw the thing. Now he has to pay
for all the fucked up things he does to get high, to punish himself. In
order for him to live with these feelings, he continues getting high. It’s
the one sure way to kill the pain of living. This perpetuates the cycle,
always leaving him right back where he started. He doesn’t feel deserving of
a break. He carries on in same old way, never giving himself the chance to
get away from it all, to step back and see clearly that the using drugs to
not deal with emotions and feelings of normal living is what’s hurting him
most.
It’s a very self-centered kind of lifestyle, one that breeds deep,
harrowing loneliness. Wrapped up in his own sorrows, always feeling sorry
for himself, it’s easy to get into the sort of relationship he’s in now.
Yes, he’s very worried about his girlfiend, and wants her to get better, but
then what? He doesn’t love himself at the moment, so how can he presume to
try and love someone else?
Shaking his head to clear these thoughts of introspection and despair from
his mind, he gets to his feet and goes back inside to check on his girlfiend
‘s condition.
She’s almost completely recovered, telling the nurses that she has to go
now, that she has to go to work and can’t hang out any longer. It’s almost
funny hearing her angry, determined voice. He soon realizes she doesn’t
remember any of the incident. She only knows that she was in her apartment,
then tied down to a hospital bed, and doesn’t know how or why. He begins to
explain what happened, but she starts to cry. The nurses come chase him out,
telling him she’ll be able to go in the next hour or so. He walks into the
waiting room to sit and wait some more.
Picking up a newspaper, he’s pleased to find that if he holds the paper
slightly further away than he normally would to read he can focus. Enough to
make out the meaning of words if he tries very hard, squinting and peering
at the pages held out in front of him. It becomes a game in which he tries
to see how close he can get the paper to his face before his focus goes, and
the time passes quickly. Soon a nurse tells him his girlfiend is ready to
go.
Jumping up, he hurries in to help her if she needs it, but she waves him
away. Until this moment, he hasn’t told her much about what happened, other
than for briefly saying something about her going nuts in her bedroom. That’
s what made her cry before, the fact that she had to be carried out on a
stretcher had really frightened her. Now Thomas has to tell her the rest of
it.
They leave the hospital.
“Uh, listen honey. I need to tell you something.” She’s walking slowly,
talking about trudging over to her place where she has some more cash,
copping a bag, then going on to work. “Your room-mate and the landlord took
your keys. They said you were out of the place, that they were evicting
you.” He doesn’t mention the threat of the police yet.
She goes ballistic.
“What do you mean,” she cries out. “They can’t do that, it’s not fucking
legal! I pay my rent! I have all my stuff in there. Fucking bitch, I’ll kill
her if she tries anything like that! She cannot lock me out of my own place!
Come on, lets go.” She turns and starts to march off towards her apartment,
down 7th Ave.
. “Wait up! They said that they would call the cops if you or I showed up
there. Don’t do it honey!” He yells after her. She stops for a second,
taking in what he’s said.
“They can go ahead and call the fucking cops! It’s my place, and I have the
receipts for my rent too. You, yes, they can arrest you, but me, they can’t
fucking touch me! I’m going home.” She turns and walks off, leaving him
standing there.
“What the hell do you want me to do?” He calls to her. She yells back over
her shoulder without turning.
“Do whatever you want, I don’t fucking care!” She keeps walking. “Don’t
come by, and wait a few days to phone me. I’ll see you later.”
He stands there on the sidewalk, watching her walk away. She’s amazingly
spry for having spent the day tied to a hospital bed completely out of her
head. She isn’t at all concerned with that. All she can think about is going
and having it out with her room-mate, getting herself straight, and getting
to work so that she will have money to get straight tomorrow. This is what
both their lives have come down to. Getting fucked up, because they’re so
miserable with their lives. To get away from that self-hatred, and to cope
with the frustration, they do more drugs. She doesn’t thank him for staying
with her all day, nor does she get angry at him for bringing her bad dope.
She really doesn’t care about much of anything anymore, and neither has he
for quite some time. The scare is over. Now he has to go and make himself a
score. No time to ponder the depressing ironies of it all, he walks into
what has become the night, to cop another bag.

—– Original Message —–
From: “Gamma” <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Wednesday, April 03, 2002 1:17 PM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin

— “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 12:55:41PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve
experiemented
| with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly
sweet
| taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
| ‘floatier’)

Uhm, otay.  I’m willing to take your word on that, and not test it out
myself.  Sounds, uhm, splendid n stuff.

hmmm… never tried that one. but hey just imagine all the metals/oils
being
smoked offa dat aluminum foil! bionic lungs!

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans were
selling that nearly killed my wife…

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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 3, 2002 at 1:17:05 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

— “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com> wrote:
On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 12:55:41PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve experiemented
| with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly sweet
| taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
| ‘floatier’)

Uhm, otay.  I’m willing to take your word on that, and not test it out
myself.  Sounds, uhm, splendid n stuff.

hmmm… never tried that one. but hey just imagine all the metals/oils being
smoked offa dat aluminum foil! bionic lungs!

and then there was that scopalamine[spell?] laced dope the dominicans were
selling that nearly killed my wife…

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 3, 2002 at 1:06:18 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Wed, Apr 03, 2002 at 12:55:41PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve experiemented
| with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly sweet
| taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
| ‘floatier’)

Uhm, otay.  I’m willing to take your word on that, and not test it out
myself.  Sounds, uhm, splendid n stuff.

Another amusing anecdote from Francis (the heroinhelper dood), Uncle
Fester — who writes neato drug synthesis guidebooks — is publishable by
nearly nobody in the United States (Loompanics, Feral House, et al., do
not even seem to accept his material on drugs), he is completely banned
from amazon.com; but moving away from drug synthesis towards a book he has
written about making armor piercing bullets: no problem!  Nobody has
banned that one.  Drugs BAD, Armor Piercing Bullets GOOD (most especially
when aimed at THE ENEMY!)

Otay den,

Patrick

From: dross <dross@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 3, 2002 at 12:55:41 PM EST
To: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Cc: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

it’s pretty obvious what’s in black tar heroin once you’ve experiemented
with smoking tootsie rolls, same rotting garbage smell, same sickly sweet
taste, same high (well, kind of the same, tootsie rolls are a bit
‘floatier’)

dross

On Wed, 3 Apr 2002, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

On [Tue, Apr 02, 2002 at 07:37:02PM -0800], [Gamma] wrote:

| for those who need to know…
|
| http://www.heroinhelper.com/general_info/chemistry/purifying_heroin.html
|
| (gawd knows what they cut that black tar with… not to mention some serious
| mexican chalupas – no wonder my veins collapsed)

Yeah, no shit.  half a decade of powder, no problems.  Two years of tar,
and man am I glad I still have a few veins left.  “Hmmmm….  LOOKS like
dogshit, smells like dogshit, gosh I wonder what’s in this shit, other
than my shit, er, heroin.”  chiva negra bl0ws ded goats.

The dude who wroteD dat and runs heroinhelper (Francis) is very cool
people, and around — in general; though I dunno if he signed onto the
ibogaine list yet.

Uhm, duh, being vague, ‘scuse me, gotta drink coffee.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 3, 2002 at 12:42:40 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 02, 2002 at 07:37:02PM -0800], [Gamma] wrote:

| for those who need to know…
|
| http://www.heroinhelper.com/general_info/chemistry/purifying_heroin.html
|
| (gawd knows what they cut that black tar with… not to mention some serious
| mexican chalupas – no wonder my veins collapsed)

Yeah, no shit.  half a decade of powder, no problems.  Two years of tar,
and man am I glad I still have a few veins left.  “Hmmmm….  LOOKS like
dogshit, smells like dogshit, gosh I wonder what’s in this shit, other
than my shit, er, heroin.”  chiva negra bl0ws ded goats.

The dude who wroteD dat and runs heroinhelper (Francis) is very cool
people, and around — in general; though I dunno if he signed onto the
ibogaine list yet.

Uhm, duh, being vague, ‘scuse me, gotta drink coffee.

Patrick

From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] Purifying Heroin
Date: April 2, 2002 at 10:37:02 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

for those who need to know…

http://www.heroinhelper.com/general_info/chemistry/purifying_heroin.html

(gawd knows what they cut that black tar with… not to mention some serious
mexican chalupas – no wonder my veins collapsed)

-gamma

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From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] The War on Pain Relief, by Cletus Nelson @ Drugwar.com
Date: April 2, 2002 at 7:44:10 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

In a message dated 4/2/02 7:11:04 PM, ptpeet@nyc.rr.com writes:

Drugwar.com has published a new article by Cletus Nelson on the US
feds’
war on US doctors who insist on treating people’s pain with adequate
medications, literally sentencing millions of US citizens to lives of
unnecessary misery and despair.

Peace,
Preston Peet
Editor www.drugwar.com

Hey Preston,

On the upside there is a very interesting conference on pain and chemical
dependence.
<http://www.painandchemicaldependency.org/> and, while being treated for
leukemia, I learned that NY State had mandated pain medication for cancer
patients.  Now, of course that leaves a whole lot of people out in the storm.

Howard

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: [ibogaine] The War on Pain Relief, by Cletus Nelson @ Drugwar.com
Date: April 2, 2002 at 7:04:42 PM EST
To: <FreedomNewsNet@aol.com>
Cc: “cia-drugs” <cia-drugs@yahoogroups.com>, “CRRH” <restore@crrh.org>, <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

Hello all,
Drugwar.com has published a new article by Cletus Nelson on the US feds’
war on US doctors who insist on treating people’s pain with adequate
medications, literally sentencing millions of US citizens to lives of
unnecessary misery and despair.
Peace,
Preston Peet
Editor www.drugwar.com
cont. High Times Mag/.com
ptpeet@nyc.rr.com

http://www.drugwar.com/index.shtm
THE WAR ON PAIN RELIEF
The DEA’s ongoing efforts to ruin the practices of the remaining doctors who
will treat chronic pain patients scores yet another victim

by Cletus Nelson- Special to DrugWar.com

April 2, 2002

The onset of Spring is an eventful time for the Drug Enforcement
Administration (DEA). With Senate Appropriations hearings on the immediate
horizon, it is a frenzied season of high-profile tactical encounters
cynically orchestrated to convince Congress that the agency is gaining
ground in its battle for a zero tolerance world. Typically, this solemn
bureaucratic ritual involves some newly discovered “killer” drug and a
media-hyped campaign warning of its alleged dangers. This year’s “assassin
of youth” is an innovative painkiller known as OxyContin and the ensuing
crusade to end its abuse has placed a North Carolina pain specialist and his
many patients in the Drug War’s deadly crossfire.
snip-
Read Complete Article and links here-
http://www.drugwar.com/cn1.shtm

From: HSLotsof@aol.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Alper/Glick book reviewed
Date: April 2, 2002 at 6:32:33 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

An interesting review of the Alper/Glick edited book, Ibogaine – Proceedings
of the First International Conference has appeared in the current issue of
The Entheogen Review (vol XI, No 1, 2002, pp 37-38).

This is a thoroughly interesting review as it is written by someone who is
knowledgeable of the scene and science but, outside of the formal scientific
structure.  Just about everyone is mentioned.

I don’t have a reasonable copy and am not up to typing it in.   Just thought
you would like to know about it.

Howard

From: Dana Beal <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 2, 2002 at 7:12:40 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Mar 30, 2002 at 05:00:53PM -0800], [Dana Beal] wrote:

| Yeah, but if you’d done the Ibogaine, you could have written it up
| for High Times (they’re not supportive of Ibogaine; in fact, Steve

Valid point.

| Stroup) and saying the Ibogaine advocacy proves I’m crazy.

Look, that’s just rationalizing.  Surely they don’t need ibogaine to prove
this theory Dana <insert emoticon>.

Patrick

The legalization movement is engaged in a little concerted effort to suppress the fact of ibogaine’s existence. I counter that by sending out the tape to everyone who signs up for the MMM.

That’s working. Consider the following, from some one relatively high up in NORML who never even heard of it because of Stroup, Nadelman and High Times:

Delivered-To: dana@cures-not-wars.org
Delivered-To: cnw@cures-not-wars.org
From: “Daniel Klock” <trulythc@msn.com>
To: <cnw@cures-not-wars.org>
Subject: PA NORML thanks you
Date: Mon, 1 Apr 2002 03:17:43 -0500
X-Priority: 3
X-OriginalArrivalTime: 01 Apr 2002 08:02:19.0902 (UTC) FILETIME=[8C1899E0:01C1D953]
Status:

Hello. I wanted to say thank you for the package I received it the other day in the mail. I didn’t know about Ibogaine. I am floored and not suprised at the same time… is that possible?! I will be posting your logo on the home page of <http://www.grassmusic.tv>www.grassmusic.tv which is my grand pappy project.

I will be going to KY for the MMM hosted by Cher and Brian. I have become very close friends over the past year. They are such special people. I have a grassmusic show on pot tv and was wondering if anyone >from cnw’s will be there. I would love to add a segment for the next show of your group.

I haven’t talked to Cher about all of the org’s coming to her march, she may have mentioned that you were coming but it flew over my head because we were talking about so much.

Okay well… hope to talk to you soon.

Bye-bye,
Daniel Klock II
Executive Director
Pennsylvania NORML
<http://www.panorml.org>http://www.panorml.org
1-814-944-8440
<mailto:trulythc@msn.com>trulythc@msn.com

Create and Trade Homegrown Pot Tunes
<http://www.grassmusic.tv>http://www.grassmusic.tv

From: dross <dross@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fonts
Date: April 2, 2002 at 2:09:16 PM EST
To: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>

look damit, you’re a unix geek you should know how to to do this (and
please tell me if you do)..

search and replace…

look for..

<P style=”text-align:justfy; text-justify:newspaper”><FONT CRAP CRAP>

replace with

<P CLASS=”regular-just”>

do it do it do it!!

d

On Tue, 2 Apr 2002, Patrick K. Kroupa wrote:

On [Tue, Apr 02, 2002 at 01:59:59PM -0500], [dross] wrote:

| see.. add those <P CLASS=”regular-just”> tags, like right away, or i
| will.. uhmm.. i will think about not doing it myself..

look goddamnit I will I WILL I wilL!!!!!

It’s not just those, there is justify-newspaper, etc, all over the place.
It’s more crap to do, one day I shall…  I PROMISE!  I am working — I do
that sometimes.

p

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] Fonts
Date: April 2, 2002 at 1:27:02 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Tue, Apr 02, 2002 at 10:13:10AM -0800], [vector6@space.com] wrote:

| <Something about fonts and stylesheets…>

Vector…

Thank you.  We know.  I would like to further express my appreciation that
you’ve taken the time to send that very message to root, system, accounts,
all of us individually, and then cc’d it across two lists…  With the css
sheet attached, just in case we couldn’t find it…

This was very thoughtful of you.

Once we’re open, you will get a Shiny Gold Star and be placed in charge of
running around in little circles and yelling, “the sky is falling!”

Mucho gracias,

Patrick

p.s., You can stop sending us mail on this topic now.  Plus, also, that
little BOX which ‘sez “Send HTML Mail?” uhm, why dont’cha UNCHECK it.

Thanks again.

From: vector6@space.com
Subject: [ibogaine] Fonts
Date: April 2, 2002 at 1:13:10 PM EST
To: vox@mindvox.com, ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

I don’t know what you people use to look at the screen, I’m guessing 1600X1400. Your style sheet has become 500 lines long in the last 2 days and now the fonts are bigger on the site. Too big for 1024X768. .:vector:.
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From: Gamma <gammalyte9000@yahoo.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 1, 2002 at 4:21:04 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

A counterpoint to the above: methadone maintenance.  You seem to have
genuinely benefitted from it, whereas it never did a fuckin’ thing for me,
except give me one fucking killer dual habit.  I wasn’t clean one day that
I was on MMTP; and wound up at 200mg a day PLUS my habit on top of it.

MMT did help me, even tho I have been known to trash my experience with it. the
first 3-4 months was horrendous, shooting 1gm of black tar heroin on top of
80mgs M and still left wanting. But once I got over that, and managed to duck
the klonopin vendors in the parkinglot, MMT gave me the chance to stabilize my
life, get offa da steert, keep roof overhead, keep the job and go to school. I
could have never done that while chasng the spoon. And to echo the point which
I have snipped from thread was: Intention. MMT combined with the Ibogaine
worked for me, having made the decision to get out of the trap. At times it
didn’t seem possible, but eventually it all happened. and how.

-d

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From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 1, 2002 at 2:51:11 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Mar 30, 2002 at 05:00:53PM -0800], [Dana Beal] wrote:

| Yeah, but if you’d done the Ibogaine, you could have written it up
| for High Times (they’re not supportive of Ibogaine; in fact, Steve

Valid point.

| Stroup) and saying the Ibogaine advocacy proves I’m crazy.

Look, that’s just rationalizing.  Surely they don’t need ibogaine to prove
this theory Dana <insert emoticon>.

Patrick

From: “Patrick K. Kroupa” <digital@phantom.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 1, 2002 at 2:25:57 PM EST
To: ibogaine@mindvox.com
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

On [Sat, Mar 30, 2002 at 10:50:52AM -0500], [preston peet] wrote:

|     Anyway, Patrick Kroupa made a point last week, which I unfortunately
| can’t find the email of, in which he pointed out that he wasn’t sure what
| folks meant by clean or getting clean, (sorry, I’m paraphrasing), as he
| himself did dope until it didn’t do anymore what he wanted it to, he tried,
| through various trials and efforts, to quite, and finally did. (I guess he
| used ibogaine to kick off the kicking, but I’m not really sure of that.). I
| tend to agree with him in that we all use our own methods to “kick,” and to
| me, as unexperienced as I am on the use of ibogaine, it just seems yet one
| more tool among countless tools, and still, as powerful as it may be, needs
| to have that inner drive to quit already in place to work. If anyone has
| another/more than one view on this, please give me counterarguments/points
| please

Yeah, my final kick, the last, “this is the LAST shot … (until the next
shot)”, the whole entire dropping that particular spiral and letting it
drop further downwards without me on it; I used ibogaine, a few times,
back to back, to step off.

| videogames, lots of pot, and hot baths listening to my favorite music. The
| pretty horrid withrawls were bad, but I treated them as my trial by fire, to
| use an old, tired cliche. To me, though I personally haven’t tried ibogaine,
| (thought I’m tempted to help me kick my horrendous tobacco habit), ibogaine
| seems to be A catalyst, a tool for those who’ve already made the decision
| they want to quit dope, but most certainly is NOT a magic postion that works
| with everyone. To me, I feel the key is having a genuine desire to kick,

Yeah, you’re pretty much stating my personal opinion exactly.  I would
have no modifications to anything you’ve written so far; no disagreement.
Ibogaine worked for me, after I made the commitment to finally DO IT
(which was apparently different from my previous 450 commitments to myself
saying the same thing).

Although, that’s MY experience with it.  I have heard other people say
ibogaine spun their life around, without any actual desire to change on
their part.  Again, I have heard this … but never actually witnessed
anything resembling that scenario myself.  It certainly wasn’t the case
for me, or anyone I really know who kicked with it.  Ibogaine CAN provide
motivation to effect change, where that was lacking — as I’d posit, can
any entheogen, be it LSD, ketamine, DMT, whatever — but all of it
eventually reaches that point where, “okay, THIS is the part where you
gotta get up off your ass, deal with a large variety of discomfort (in
this case mostly psychological, since ibogaine sho’ nuff do unspring ya;
THAT PART is just like magic) … and *do* it.

A counterpoint to the above: methadone maintenance.  You seem to have
genuinely benefitted from it, whereas it never did a fuckin’ thing for me,
except give me one fucking killer dual habit.  I wasn’t clean one day that
I was on MMTP; and wound up at 200mg a day PLUS my habit on top of it.

|     After this article, at the above URl, there are TONS of links to
| methadone and treatment. (after the technical stuff in the beginning page, I
| turn to my own personal experiences and thoughts on the matter) (and by the
| way, I’ve been off opiates for over a year now, and stick to the more
| natural herbal type stress relieving medication, such as, uh, herb, and for
| more religious communing with the natural world as a whole, fungus.;-))

Dood mahn, dog, yo, nature is beautiful.  There’s a lot to be said for the
Sacrament (C)reated by Saint Hofmann as well =)

| Peace, and thanks for including me in this list, and Patrick, thanks again
| for the invite to subscribe.

Hey, it’s a pleasure to have you here Preston!

Patrick

From: “preston peet” <ptpeet@nyc.rr.com>
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and ibogaine…)
Date: April 1, 2002 at 1:38:22 PM EST
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Reply-To: ibogaine@mindvox.com

well, I tired pitching a dmt-trip story, (something I unfortunately still
have yet to actually try, which was to be the lead in to the story, after
I’d hopefully succeeded in my endeavors, which came to naught since they
didn’t want the story), but they weren’t exactly overeager at the idea.;-))
Peace,
Preston
—– Original Message —–
From: “Dana Beal” <dana@cures-not-wars.org>
To: <ibogaine@mindvox.com>
Sent: Sunday, March 31, 2002 12:34 AM
Subject: Re: [ibogaine] M Is For Methadone- (methadone, withdrawls, and
ibogaine…)

Yeah, but if you’d done the Ibogaine, you could have written it up
for High Times (they’re not supportive of Ibogaine;…<

LOL, well Dana, you’ve answered that point pretty conclusively: I, even
had
I pitched the darn thing, probably couldn’t have gotten it into HT, eh?
From an interestingly outoffocusedshroomland,
Peace,
Preston

O no. They woulda done it if it was you.

Gabe says it’s personal animus.

Dana/cnw

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